Title: A place to call home
Name: Linn
E-mail: linnrothen@hotmail.com
Web-site: www.geocities.com/roryjess2002
Rating: G
Category: Romance/Angst
Paring: R/J
Spoilers: Teach me tonight, everything after that never happened.
Summary: Rory sends Jess a letter where she explains her love for him.
What will Jess do?
Authors note: English is not my first language.
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"Tears fall down my cheeks whenever I think of you
When I think of all the good times we had
And all the bad
I just want to tell you how much I love you
Hoping that you will say those three little words to me
I have fallen in and out of love with you
You have a special place in my heart
Ever since you stepped out of my life
You have been haunting me now and then
Reminding me that you're still around
Little by little finding your way back into my life
I'm left standing here
Hoping
Hoping that you will come here and tell me you love me"
Written by me.
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Jess POV
I woke up by my mother who was pounding on my door, telling me to get up.
When I came into the kitchen my mom told me that there's was a letter for me.
I picked up the envelope from the counter and I recognized Rorys handwriting at once.
I turned around and went back into my room. I closed the door and sat down on my bed.
A smile crept up on my face by the thought of her, sending ME a letter.
So unexpected.
I opened the envelope and I started to read the letter:
"Dear Jess
When I found out you left it felt like a piece of my heart was gone.
I was not complete anymore. I'm not suppose to feel like this, but I do.
My heart tells to be with you,
but my brain tells me that I should go one with my life and stay with Dean.
A wise person told me once that I should follow my heart everytime
and I will follow that advice.
Every night I cry myself to sleep, because you're in New York.
You're not here by my side.
My mom tells me that I should go on with my life, that I should forget about you.
But how can I do that when you have affected me in so many ways.
You told me it was okay to make mistakes, that I didn't have to be perfect for everyone.
You make me feel alive, you make me laugh. You believe in me.
Everyone seem happy that you're gone, especially Taylor.
But I'm not.
When I'm with Dean I feel uncomfortable because if feels like I'm cheating on you.
Dean will always have a special place in my heart, but you're the one who owns it.
I guess I have known this ever since you left.
You might be surprised that I 'm not angry with you for the accident, that I don't blame you.
I'm not angry with you and I don't blame you. It was just as much my fault as yours.
I miss you so much that it hurts.
I even dare to say this:
I love you with all of my heart and soul. I believe that you are my soulmate.
That we are meant to be.
At the time you have received this letter I have broken up with Dean.
I beg you, please come back.
Come back to Stars Hollow, come back to me.
Love Rory
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She loves me; she's in love with me.
I don't know how long I have waited for this moment, but I know it has been a long wait.
The hardest thing from me is to say those three little words to her.
I want to but the words don't seem to exist in my vocabulary.
When I came to Stars Hollow the walls around my heart was high,
but they fell down so easily when I met Rory.
I can't say it was love at first sight, but it was close to that.
My friends in New York never thought I would meet a person, who loved books as much as I do,
but I did. I have never loved a person so much as I love her,
I haven't even loved my mother so much.
Some people would say that I'm not capable of loving another person,
in that case they don't know me.
Rory brings out the best in me, when I'm with her I don't have to hide my true self.
When I'm with her it feels like I can be whatever I want to be.
She is so innocent and so beautiful.
Like those Crystal blue eyes that always seem to pierce through mine and reveal my heart.
I can't stand it when she walks into the diner with Dean.
I just want to take her face in my hands and kiss her with all of my love and passion for her.
She haunts every dream I dream. And it's always the same dream.
The dream where she says that she loves me. And know it's true.
What will I dream about now?
I rose from my bed and I went out to my mother.
She sat at the couch watching TV and drinking a beer. I sat down beside her.
I stared at the TV for a while until I finally spoke.
"I'm moving back to Uncle Luke."
She was drunk, I could tell that by the way she was acting.
"Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Move back to my precious, smart bigbrother!"
"Whatever, I'm going. My stuff is still there anyway."
I went into my room and started to pack everything that I had brought with me.
I scuffed it all into my bag and went out of my room.
When I reached the door, I put on my shoes, grabbed my jacket and the bag
and went out of the apartment. Maybe leaving my mother forever.
When I got out on the street I started walking towards the busstation.
Afraid of looking back to all the memories I have created here.
I reached the busstation about twenty minutes later.
I was going back to what I could call my REAL life.
The life I had here in New York was just sex, alcohol and stealing.
In Stars Hollow I was someone, I wasn't just a face in the crowd.
What I did affected people.
I grew up here, but this was a place were no one should grow up.
Here you can't take a walk in the middle of the night without watching your back.
In Stars Hollow you CAN do that.
I stepped on the bus and sat down on a seat in the back.
After about ten minutes the bus was on it's way.
Back to reality, back to my angel, to Rory.
I was going home to Rory.
To be continued...
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Name: Linn
E-mail: linnrothen@hotmail.com
Web-site: www.geocities.com/roryjess2002
Rating: G
Category: Romance/Angst
Paring: R/J
Spoilers: Teach me tonight, everything after that never happened.
Summary: Rory sends Jess a letter where she explains her love for him.
What will Jess do?
Authors note: English is not my first language.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Tears fall down my cheeks whenever I think of you
When I think of all the good times we had
And all the bad
I just want to tell you how much I love you
Hoping that you will say those three little words to me
I have fallen in and out of love with you
You have a special place in my heart
Ever since you stepped out of my life
You have been haunting me now and then
Reminding me that you're still around
Little by little finding your way back into my life
I'm left standing here
Hoping
Hoping that you will come here and tell me you love me"
Written by me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Jess POV
I woke up by my mother who was pounding on my door, telling me to get up.
When I came into the kitchen my mom told me that there's was a letter for me.
I picked up the envelope from the counter and I recognized Rorys handwriting at once.
I turned around and went back into my room. I closed the door and sat down on my bed.
A smile crept up on my face by the thought of her, sending ME a letter.
So unexpected.
I opened the envelope and I started to read the letter:
"Dear Jess
When I found out you left it felt like a piece of my heart was gone.
I was not complete anymore. I'm not suppose to feel like this, but I do.
My heart tells to be with you,
but my brain tells me that I should go one with my life and stay with Dean.
A wise person told me once that I should follow my heart everytime
and I will follow that advice.
Every night I cry myself to sleep, because you're in New York.
You're not here by my side.
My mom tells me that I should go on with my life, that I should forget about you.
But how can I do that when you have affected me in so many ways.
You told me it was okay to make mistakes, that I didn't have to be perfect for everyone.
You make me feel alive, you make me laugh. You believe in me.
Everyone seem happy that you're gone, especially Taylor.
But I'm not.
When I'm with Dean I feel uncomfortable because if feels like I'm cheating on you.
Dean will always have a special place in my heart, but you're the one who owns it.
I guess I have known this ever since you left.
You might be surprised that I 'm not angry with you for the accident, that I don't blame you.
I'm not angry with you and I don't blame you. It was just as much my fault as yours.
I miss you so much that it hurts.
I even dare to say this:
I love you with all of my heart and soul. I believe that you are my soulmate.
That we are meant to be.
At the time you have received this letter I have broken up with Dean.
I beg you, please come back.
Come back to Stars Hollow, come back to me.
Love Rory
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
She loves me; she's in love with me.
I don't know how long I have waited for this moment, but I know it has been a long wait.
The hardest thing from me is to say those three little words to her.
I want to but the words don't seem to exist in my vocabulary.
When I came to Stars Hollow the walls around my heart was high,
but they fell down so easily when I met Rory.
I can't say it was love at first sight, but it was close to that.
My friends in New York never thought I would meet a person, who loved books as much as I do,
but I did. I have never loved a person so much as I love her,
I haven't even loved my mother so much.
Some people would say that I'm not capable of loving another person,
in that case they don't know me.
Rory brings out the best in me, when I'm with her I don't have to hide my true self.
When I'm with her it feels like I can be whatever I want to be.
She is so innocent and so beautiful.
Like those Crystal blue eyes that always seem to pierce through mine and reveal my heart.
I can't stand it when she walks into the diner with Dean.
I just want to take her face in my hands and kiss her with all of my love and passion for her.
She haunts every dream I dream. And it's always the same dream.
The dream where she says that she loves me. And know it's true.
What will I dream about now?
I rose from my bed and I went out to my mother.
She sat at the couch watching TV and drinking a beer. I sat down beside her.
I stared at the TV for a while until I finally spoke.
"I'm moving back to Uncle Luke."
She was drunk, I could tell that by the way she was acting.
"Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Move back to my precious, smart bigbrother!"
"Whatever, I'm going. My stuff is still there anyway."
I went into my room and started to pack everything that I had brought with me.
I scuffed it all into my bag and went out of my room.
When I reached the door, I put on my shoes, grabbed my jacket and the bag
and went out of the apartment. Maybe leaving my mother forever.
When I got out on the street I started walking towards the busstation.
Afraid of looking back to all the memories I have created here.
I reached the busstation about twenty minutes later.
I was going back to what I could call my REAL life.
The life I had here in New York was just sex, alcohol and stealing.
In Stars Hollow I was someone, I wasn't just a face in the crowd.
What I did affected people.
I grew up here, but this was a place were no one should grow up.
Here you can't take a walk in the middle of the night without watching your back.
In Stars Hollow you CAN do that.
I stepped on the bus and sat down on a seat in the back.
After about ten minutes the bus was on it's way.
Back to reality, back to my angel, to Rory.
I was going home to Rory.
To be continued...
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