Title: Corrupting The Heart of The Scooby Gang
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Summary: Last chapter of the story. I think. I'm not sure if I want 2
continue or not. If the reviews ask me continue then probably. Will
Buffy/The First seduce Xander to the "dark side"?
A/N: Thanks to all of those who reviewed. And to adhs: Xander doesn't have a new power. It's a reference to a speech Xander gave Dawn in "Potential." In the episode, Xander helped her deal with not being a potential by telling her she didn't need superpowers to be helpful.
Chapter 2:
Xander's POV:
"My poor, dear Xander." Cooed Buffy/The First. "Reduced to an expendable factor in Buffy's life. Just like all the others."
I now find myself in my room at Buffy's house. A realistic hallucination that I'm not sure if my mind created or The First. While here my mind can't help but wonder if the potentials would have listened to my riveting speech about Buffy if they knew of the impure thoughts I had about them early. My musings are interrupted by the realization that The First is in here trying to talk to me as I lie in my bed trying to ignore her. I will not let my emotions get the best of me. My newfound bitterness towards Buffy will not consume me and it will NOT jeopardize the fate of the world.
"My virtuous Alexander," fawned Buffy/The 1st softly, with warmth in her eyes. A far cry from the real Buffy. "You tried so hard to please Buffy. Not even as a friend were you good enough for her." She says as she moves to stand at the side of my bed.
My actual given name sounds like venom to my ears and her words burn like acid but the warmth in those big brown eyes makes it nearly impossible to turn away. Still trying to tune her out I remain silent and close my remaining eye.
Buffy/The 1st moves to sit down on my bed and I involuntarily tense up. She sighs and takes my hand in hers but I still refuse to look at her.
"Alexander," she says as if reprimanding a small child. " a wise man once said, " The Way to see by Faith is to shut the Eye of Reason." And seeing as Caleb has permanently shut your "Eye of Reason" due to the incompetence of your leader, try having faith in me." Buffy/The 1st ended in a smile that was way too happy for Buffy face.
"And why would I betray my friends?! For revenge against Buffy!? Even if I do blame her do you really think I'm ready to condemn the world because of it?! And willingly betray Willow?" I seethe while darting open my eye. My voice has so much bitterness in it I hardly recognize it as my own.
"See? There you are looking at things through reason." Replies Buffy/The 1st in her forever-superior tone. "What is it that you hate about Buffy the most? How is it that after all these years you find yourself questioning your loyalty?"
I keep my mouth shut but my look speaks volumes. In it speaks years of bitterness, heartache, and jealousy that have been building up ever since I first saw Buffy with Angel.
"That's what I thought." Sneered Buffy/The 1st, all signs of warmth now replaced by a seemingly endless supply of evil and hate. "You hate her for her inability to show her emotions. Because she feels more comfortable with the dead than you. Don't you see Alexander? She made you feel like you weren't worthy enough for your love when actually it was her who wasn't worthy of your loyalty and friendship." Cried Buffy/The 1st with almost a pleading sound in her voice.
I look at her, tears threatening to spill from my eye. I feel a great heaviness in my heart realizing that everything she said is right. I gave everything I could to Buffy but it still couldn't break the icy surface of her heart.
"My poor Alexander." Says Buffy/The 1st as she cups the side of my face where I have been forever maimed while fighting for Buffy. As soon as she does this, a single red blood tear escape from beneath my bandage. "You don't have to be like Buffy and hide your emotions. Put your faith in me." Implored Buffy/The 1st.
As she leaned down toward my face, I felt the rest of my resolution dissolve. And although I was sealing my fate I knew this was all I ever wanted. To be close to Buffy.
And with a kissed I sealed my damnation.
"Oh thank God." Sighed a very relieved Willow. "He's waking up." She said to the very tired looking faces of Giles and Dawn. "Wills, G-Man, Dawn sup?" I joked in a groggy voice. As I proceeded to make pirate jokes, in the corner of the dark room I barely made out the silhouette of Buffy. She was as drawn in and unemotional as ever. At that moment I found myself filled with extreme bitterness and hate. Willow must have noticed my change in mood because she interrupted my hateful thoughts. "Xander are you okay you seem a bit distant?" questioned a concerned Willow. I began to feel sorry for turning against Willow but there's too much pain and hate my heart to pretend like everything is like it used to be. "Yeah, I'm okay." I reply with a small, gentle smile. "Just paying closer attention to my emotions." My grin became bigger at her bewildered look.
THE ACTUAL END. I THINK
R/R Please It's chicken soup for the soul
Love, Jaded316
A/N: Thanks to all of those who reviewed. And to adhs: Xander doesn't have a new power. It's a reference to a speech Xander gave Dawn in "Potential." In the episode, Xander helped her deal with not being a potential by telling her she didn't need superpowers to be helpful.
Chapter 2:
Xander's POV:
"My poor, dear Xander." Cooed Buffy/The First. "Reduced to an expendable factor in Buffy's life. Just like all the others."
I now find myself in my room at Buffy's house. A realistic hallucination that I'm not sure if my mind created or The First. While here my mind can't help but wonder if the potentials would have listened to my riveting speech about Buffy if they knew of the impure thoughts I had about them early. My musings are interrupted by the realization that The First is in here trying to talk to me as I lie in my bed trying to ignore her. I will not let my emotions get the best of me. My newfound bitterness towards Buffy will not consume me and it will NOT jeopardize the fate of the world.
"My virtuous Alexander," fawned Buffy/The 1st softly, with warmth in her eyes. A far cry from the real Buffy. "You tried so hard to please Buffy. Not even as a friend were you good enough for her." She says as she moves to stand at the side of my bed.
My actual given name sounds like venom to my ears and her words burn like acid but the warmth in those big brown eyes makes it nearly impossible to turn away. Still trying to tune her out I remain silent and close my remaining eye.
Buffy/The 1st moves to sit down on my bed and I involuntarily tense up. She sighs and takes my hand in hers but I still refuse to look at her.
"Alexander," she says as if reprimanding a small child. " a wise man once said, " The Way to see by Faith is to shut the Eye of Reason." And seeing as Caleb has permanently shut your "Eye of Reason" due to the incompetence of your leader, try having faith in me." Buffy/The 1st ended in a smile that was way too happy for Buffy face.
"And why would I betray my friends?! For revenge against Buffy!? Even if I do blame her do you really think I'm ready to condemn the world because of it?! And willingly betray Willow?" I seethe while darting open my eye. My voice has so much bitterness in it I hardly recognize it as my own.
"See? There you are looking at things through reason." Replies Buffy/The 1st in her forever-superior tone. "What is it that you hate about Buffy the most? How is it that after all these years you find yourself questioning your loyalty?"
I keep my mouth shut but my look speaks volumes. In it speaks years of bitterness, heartache, and jealousy that have been building up ever since I first saw Buffy with Angel.
"That's what I thought." Sneered Buffy/The 1st, all signs of warmth now replaced by a seemingly endless supply of evil and hate. "You hate her for her inability to show her emotions. Because she feels more comfortable with the dead than you. Don't you see Alexander? She made you feel like you weren't worthy enough for your love when actually it was her who wasn't worthy of your loyalty and friendship." Cried Buffy/The 1st with almost a pleading sound in her voice.
I look at her, tears threatening to spill from my eye. I feel a great heaviness in my heart realizing that everything she said is right. I gave everything I could to Buffy but it still couldn't break the icy surface of her heart.
"My poor Alexander." Says Buffy/The 1st as she cups the side of my face where I have been forever maimed while fighting for Buffy. As soon as she does this, a single red blood tear escape from beneath my bandage. "You don't have to be like Buffy and hide your emotions. Put your faith in me." Implored Buffy/The 1st.
As she leaned down toward my face, I felt the rest of my resolution dissolve. And although I was sealing my fate I knew this was all I ever wanted. To be close to Buffy.
And with a kissed I sealed my damnation.
"Oh thank God." Sighed a very relieved Willow. "He's waking up." She said to the very tired looking faces of Giles and Dawn. "Wills, G-Man, Dawn sup?" I joked in a groggy voice. As I proceeded to make pirate jokes, in the corner of the dark room I barely made out the silhouette of Buffy. She was as drawn in and unemotional as ever. At that moment I found myself filled with extreme bitterness and hate. Willow must have noticed my change in mood because she interrupted my hateful thoughts. "Xander are you okay you seem a bit distant?" questioned a concerned Willow. I began to feel sorry for turning against Willow but there's too much pain and hate my heart to pretend like everything is like it used to be. "Yeah, I'm okay." I reply with a small, gentle smile. "Just paying closer attention to my emotions." My grin became bigger at her bewildered look.
THE ACTUAL END. I THINK
R/R Please It's chicken soup for the soul
Love, Jaded316