So, Chapter Eight, right? Hmm. I dunno if I should tell you all what
happens with Sakano and Tohma in this chapter. Maybe I'll have you all wait
a few more chapters. It would keep you reading, right? Nah, I'm not that
cruel (well, that depends on whether you like K or Tohma). Okay, here it is
Chapter Eight. Enjoy and please review.
Chapter Eight: Sakano's Decision
K received the phone call from Suuichi earlier in the day. Sakano wanted to meet with him. Why? He had been terrible to that poor boy and he would never forgive himself for that. He had missed work the past few days. He just couldn't get out of bed in the morning. Partially it was because of Sakano and partially it was because of the fact that Judy and Michael had left for L.A. He missed them already. He never found out why they came to visit without calling first. It wasn't their fault though, as it wasn't Sakano's for not understanding that he had a life back in L.A. How could Sakano possibly comprehend that?
Suuichi didn't even need to finish his sentence before K jumped on the opportunity to see Sakano again. He was prepared to get on his knees and beg Sakano to come back. He was prepared to do just about anything to get him back. He turned over in his empty bed and he felt his throat close as he stared at the spot where Sakano used to sleep. He was so pretty when he slept, so calm. No one had ever see Sakano in that kind of calm except for him. He pulled the pillow that Sakano used to rest his head on over to him and he hugged it, wishing it was his lover. It smelt of him, the soft and simple fragrance that he wore. K loved it more then any smell in the world. He smiled a little, knowing that he would get to see Sakano later in the day. He had to find something ravishing to wear and something wonderful to bring him. He stopped on that thought; he needn't bring anything. Sakano wasn't someone who appreciated material goods. He didn't have very many things.
K pulled the pillow even closer to him and sighed another long sigh. He had no idea why Sakano wanted to meet him so late and why he wanted to meet them at the deserted Nittle Grasper Studio (which was closed until the morning). He would be there at exactly eleven o' clock as Suuichi had said. It was close to eleven, about an hour or so before. K needed to begin getting ready.
* * *
"Suuichi," Yuki said after Tatsuha had left and Sakuma had been escorted home, "I don't like you're plan at all. It's not my business what you do with your time, but I want you to leave them alone. Getting Tatsuha involved? Things are going to get a lot worse for Sakano and K and Sakuma and you and me and everyone. Just let it go, Suuichi."
Suuichi looked over to his blonde lover and smiled, "I can't, Yuki. Because I saw how vibrant Sakano was when they were together and now he comes to work sad and empty. I know you can't understand this, but if I can help get them back together, then I have to try. They just need to talk with each other. If they talk and they can't work it out then fine, I'll give up. But not until then. Please understand, Yuki. Sakano has no one in this world besides us and K. His family doesn't live anywhere near here and he isn't a very social person. K is good for him."
Yuki sighed a little and sat next to Suuichi, "If you think that you can get them back together then go ahead. But don't come crying to me when Sakano kills himself because you keep reminding him of love lost or when K shoots you in the head for being so damn annoying."
Suuichi giggled a little and rested his head on Yuki's lap, "I won't."
Yuki began to run his fingers through Suuichi's soft hair and he bent his head back, "Besides, Tatsuha will finally get to see that Sakuma Ryuichi isn't interested in him in the least. Nor will he ever be. I am so tired of going to family gatherings to hear his newest Ryuichi love fantasy."
"I dunno, Yuki. Maybe he and Sakuma will hit it off like we did and maybe they will fall in love and stay together forever."
Yuki laughed a little and pushed Suuichi away from him, standing from the comfortable couch and stretching a little, "You don't know my brother that well, Suuichi. He isn't the type to keep a relationship for very long. Anyway. I'm going to take a shower," Suuichi jumped from the couch, "ALONE!"
Suuichi fell to the floor and began to sob, "YUKI! YOU'RE SO MEAN!!"
Yuki cocked an eyebrow at his young lover and sighed again, walking toward the washroom, "If you're coming, then come on! I just want to get in and get out."
"Yuki, you're so dirty!" Suuichi said, glomping his blonde boyfriend from behind and snuggling against him.
"I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT!!" Yuki screamed, slamming and locking the bathroom door. Suuichi was in such a bliss that he had forgotten to call K and tell him that Sakano wasn't coming.
* * *
"He wants you to what?" Tohma said after Sakano had told him the story, "He wants you to meet him tonight? Baka. After he forgot to mention that he had a wife and child? How stupid does he think you are? Come on, Sakano-kun. Let's forget that phone call and take this into the bedroom. It would be much more comfortable in there."
"But what if he wants to get back together and-" Seguchi placed a finger against Sakano's lips and shook his head.
"He doesn't want you anymore. You need to get over him; he's married. Now come on, we have gone so far already. Don't tease me by saying you're going to get dressed and go see K after you have already given me so much of yourself. Now come, let's go to the bedroom."
He slipped off of Sakano's naked body, and grabbed his hands, pulling him toward the bedroom where their contract would be consummated. Sakano looked back to the phone, anger and sadness filling his body. Seguchi-sama was right; K didn't love him. If K loved him, he would have NEVER lied to him the way he did. Sakano gripped Tohma's hands as they made their way to the bedroom and even after the door shut, he couldn't help thinking of the what if's. What if K was sorry? What if he wanted to try again? And what if Sakano could find it in his broken heart to forgive him?
* * *
K sat on the cold flood of the rehearsal room, his head resting on his knees. It was a few minutes after midnight. Sakano wasn't going to come. He had done to K what K had done to him. Lied. K had been sitting on that floor for way over an hour. He got dressed up and put on special cologne and waited for the boy who was slipping through his fingers. He felt his stomach ache with sadness and pain and his head pounded. He didn't want to start crying. He didn't want to be a child about this. The tears began to slip from his eyes, rolling down his face. He stifled his sobs and clutched his legs a little tighter. He had been stupid to come here. He had been-
"K-san," a familiar voice said, making K's head shoot up. He came, a little late, but he came. He was dressed in one of his suits; K loved his suits. His hair was a little messy and he looked a little tired, but to K he looked gorgeous. K stood and took a few steps toward him.
"I didn't think you were going to come," K said, his voice cracking, "I didn't think you-"
He was taken by surprise as Sakano rushed toward him, throwing his arms around K's waist, snuggling against him. Sakano began to sob, clutching on to K's starch white shirt. K felt the tears rolling down his face as he stroked Sakano's head, smelling his hair and feeling his body. This was how it should be. He wanted Sakano in his arms forever. Sakano wanted to be in his arms forever, but things weren't that simple.
"I'm so sorry that I hurt you, Sakano, I'm-" Sakano pulled away from him and straightened himself out, "No, Sakano, that wasn't a good bye embrace was it? Don't tell me that!" Sakano took a step back and K began sobbing, throwing his arms around Sakano's legs.
"You...you were the one person I could trust!" Sakano said, sobbing, "How could you destroy me like that! I loved you, K! I would have given you my last breath if you needed it! How...how could you...hurt me so badly?"
K pulled him closer and shook his head, not able to answer, "I'm going to my sister's house for a while. I need to get myself back together. I gave Seguchi-sama my resignation tonight. Please don't look for me, K-san. Please, you've hurt me enough as it is and I am dying inside right now. All I want is to forgive you and to go home, pretending nothing happened. I love you so much. If you follow me, I may not be able to leave you again, so please. Don't come after me."
K stood up and met Sakano's red eyes with his own. He bent down and kissed him, sobbing while doing so. Sakano threw his arms around K's neck and kissed him back. K broke away and kissed his neck and cheeks and lips and eyes and after the million kisses, he pulled Sakano close and whispered in his ear, "Don't go."
Sakano kissed K one final time, "I'm sorry, K-san."
He turned and walked out the door, out of K's life. K fell to his knees and began to sob. He felt his throat close up and he gasped for breath. He had lost everything. Sakano was his everything. He slammed his fist against the ground and heard his finger snap. He continued to hit the floor, trying to achieve a pain worse then the one in his heart, but no matter how many times he slammed his fist against the hard floor, no matter how many bones broke, he couldn't top that pain.
He hit the floor one last time before bursting out in a new strain of sobs. He was gone. Sakano was gone.
* * *
Tohma Seguchi sat in his limo, anger flowing from every one of his pores. That little BITCH!! How could he just pick up and leave like that, to go and see K?! Tohma almost had him. He almost lived his fantasies. No, Shindou Suuichi had to interfere. Well, there were ways to take care of the nosy, but first he needed to take care of K.
::silence:: powerful chapter, no? I was going to end the story with this chapter but I decided that I couldn't do that to the people that like this coupling, so I decided that Tohma wasn't done yet and the story will go on. Please Review and I'll see you in chapter nine.
Chapter Eight: Sakano's Decision
K received the phone call from Suuichi earlier in the day. Sakano wanted to meet with him. Why? He had been terrible to that poor boy and he would never forgive himself for that. He had missed work the past few days. He just couldn't get out of bed in the morning. Partially it was because of Sakano and partially it was because of the fact that Judy and Michael had left for L.A. He missed them already. He never found out why they came to visit without calling first. It wasn't their fault though, as it wasn't Sakano's for not understanding that he had a life back in L.A. How could Sakano possibly comprehend that?
Suuichi didn't even need to finish his sentence before K jumped on the opportunity to see Sakano again. He was prepared to get on his knees and beg Sakano to come back. He was prepared to do just about anything to get him back. He turned over in his empty bed and he felt his throat close as he stared at the spot where Sakano used to sleep. He was so pretty when he slept, so calm. No one had ever see Sakano in that kind of calm except for him. He pulled the pillow that Sakano used to rest his head on over to him and he hugged it, wishing it was his lover. It smelt of him, the soft and simple fragrance that he wore. K loved it more then any smell in the world. He smiled a little, knowing that he would get to see Sakano later in the day. He had to find something ravishing to wear and something wonderful to bring him. He stopped on that thought; he needn't bring anything. Sakano wasn't someone who appreciated material goods. He didn't have very many things.
K pulled the pillow even closer to him and sighed another long sigh. He had no idea why Sakano wanted to meet him so late and why he wanted to meet them at the deserted Nittle Grasper Studio (which was closed until the morning). He would be there at exactly eleven o' clock as Suuichi had said. It was close to eleven, about an hour or so before. K needed to begin getting ready.
* * *
"Suuichi," Yuki said after Tatsuha had left and Sakuma had been escorted home, "I don't like you're plan at all. It's not my business what you do with your time, but I want you to leave them alone. Getting Tatsuha involved? Things are going to get a lot worse for Sakano and K and Sakuma and you and me and everyone. Just let it go, Suuichi."
Suuichi looked over to his blonde lover and smiled, "I can't, Yuki. Because I saw how vibrant Sakano was when they were together and now he comes to work sad and empty. I know you can't understand this, but if I can help get them back together, then I have to try. They just need to talk with each other. If they talk and they can't work it out then fine, I'll give up. But not until then. Please understand, Yuki. Sakano has no one in this world besides us and K. His family doesn't live anywhere near here and he isn't a very social person. K is good for him."
Yuki sighed a little and sat next to Suuichi, "If you think that you can get them back together then go ahead. But don't come crying to me when Sakano kills himself because you keep reminding him of love lost or when K shoots you in the head for being so damn annoying."
Suuichi giggled a little and rested his head on Yuki's lap, "I won't."
Yuki began to run his fingers through Suuichi's soft hair and he bent his head back, "Besides, Tatsuha will finally get to see that Sakuma Ryuichi isn't interested in him in the least. Nor will he ever be. I am so tired of going to family gatherings to hear his newest Ryuichi love fantasy."
"I dunno, Yuki. Maybe he and Sakuma will hit it off like we did and maybe they will fall in love and stay together forever."
Yuki laughed a little and pushed Suuichi away from him, standing from the comfortable couch and stretching a little, "You don't know my brother that well, Suuichi. He isn't the type to keep a relationship for very long. Anyway. I'm going to take a shower," Suuichi jumped from the couch, "ALONE!"
Suuichi fell to the floor and began to sob, "YUKI! YOU'RE SO MEAN!!"
Yuki cocked an eyebrow at his young lover and sighed again, walking toward the washroom, "If you're coming, then come on! I just want to get in and get out."
"Yuki, you're so dirty!" Suuichi said, glomping his blonde boyfriend from behind and snuggling against him.
"I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT!!" Yuki screamed, slamming and locking the bathroom door. Suuichi was in such a bliss that he had forgotten to call K and tell him that Sakano wasn't coming.
* * *
"He wants you to what?" Tohma said after Sakano had told him the story, "He wants you to meet him tonight? Baka. After he forgot to mention that he had a wife and child? How stupid does he think you are? Come on, Sakano-kun. Let's forget that phone call and take this into the bedroom. It would be much more comfortable in there."
"But what if he wants to get back together and-" Seguchi placed a finger against Sakano's lips and shook his head.
"He doesn't want you anymore. You need to get over him; he's married. Now come on, we have gone so far already. Don't tease me by saying you're going to get dressed and go see K after you have already given me so much of yourself. Now come, let's go to the bedroom."
He slipped off of Sakano's naked body, and grabbed his hands, pulling him toward the bedroom where their contract would be consummated. Sakano looked back to the phone, anger and sadness filling his body. Seguchi-sama was right; K didn't love him. If K loved him, he would have NEVER lied to him the way he did. Sakano gripped Tohma's hands as they made their way to the bedroom and even after the door shut, he couldn't help thinking of the what if's. What if K was sorry? What if he wanted to try again? And what if Sakano could find it in his broken heart to forgive him?
* * *
K sat on the cold flood of the rehearsal room, his head resting on his knees. It was a few minutes after midnight. Sakano wasn't going to come. He had done to K what K had done to him. Lied. K had been sitting on that floor for way over an hour. He got dressed up and put on special cologne and waited for the boy who was slipping through his fingers. He felt his stomach ache with sadness and pain and his head pounded. He didn't want to start crying. He didn't want to be a child about this. The tears began to slip from his eyes, rolling down his face. He stifled his sobs and clutched his legs a little tighter. He had been stupid to come here. He had been-
"K-san," a familiar voice said, making K's head shoot up. He came, a little late, but he came. He was dressed in one of his suits; K loved his suits. His hair was a little messy and he looked a little tired, but to K he looked gorgeous. K stood and took a few steps toward him.
"I didn't think you were going to come," K said, his voice cracking, "I didn't think you-"
He was taken by surprise as Sakano rushed toward him, throwing his arms around K's waist, snuggling against him. Sakano began to sob, clutching on to K's starch white shirt. K felt the tears rolling down his face as he stroked Sakano's head, smelling his hair and feeling his body. This was how it should be. He wanted Sakano in his arms forever. Sakano wanted to be in his arms forever, but things weren't that simple.
"I'm so sorry that I hurt you, Sakano, I'm-" Sakano pulled away from him and straightened himself out, "No, Sakano, that wasn't a good bye embrace was it? Don't tell me that!" Sakano took a step back and K began sobbing, throwing his arms around Sakano's legs.
"You...you were the one person I could trust!" Sakano said, sobbing, "How could you destroy me like that! I loved you, K! I would have given you my last breath if you needed it! How...how could you...hurt me so badly?"
K pulled him closer and shook his head, not able to answer, "I'm going to my sister's house for a while. I need to get myself back together. I gave Seguchi-sama my resignation tonight. Please don't look for me, K-san. Please, you've hurt me enough as it is and I am dying inside right now. All I want is to forgive you and to go home, pretending nothing happened. I love you so much. If you follow me, I may not be able to leave you again, so please. Don't come after me."
K stood up and met Sakano's red eyes with his own. He bent down and kissed him, sobbing while doing so. Sakano threw his arms around K's neck and kissed him back. K broke away and kissed his neck and cheeks and lips and eyes and after the million kisses, he pulled Sakano close and whispered in his ear, "Don't go."
Sakano kissed K one final time, "I'm sorry, K-san."
He turned and walked out the door, out of K's life. K fell to his knees and began to sob. He felt his throat close up and he gasped for breath. He had lost everything. Sakano was his everything. He slammed his fist against the ground and heard his finger snap. He continued to hit the floor, trying to achieve a pain worse then the one in his heart, but no matter how many times he slammed his fist against the hard floor, no matter how many bones broke, he couldn't top that pain.
He hit the floor one last time before bursting out in a new strain of sobs. He was gone. Sakano was gone.
* * *
Tohma Seguchi sat in his limo, anger flowing from every one of his pores. That little BITCH!! How could he just pick up and leave like that, to go and see K?! Tohma almost had him. He almost lived his fantasies. No, Shindou Suuichi had to interfere. Well, there were ways to take care of the nosy, but first he needed to take care of K.
::silence:: powerful chapter, no? I was going to end the story with this chapter but I decided that I couldn't do that to the people that like this coupling, so I decided that Tohma wasn't done yet and the story will go on. Please Review and I'll see you in chapter nine.