Hehehe. Okay, so Sakuma and Noriko were in the room next to the hallway
where Shuichi (btw, I just figured out that I have been spelling his name
wrong this WHOLE time. I am deeply sorry and I'll continue the story w/ the
correct spelling. Sorry guys and gals) was brutally beaten by Tohma. Well,
I was just going to continue from where chapter nine left off with K all
pissed and Shuichi all beaten, but then I thought that Sakuma must have
heard the whole thing and he didn't help. So, this chapter is what happens
to Sakuma after the beating. We will call it Chapter 9.5. Just think of
this a little side story. Don't worry though, there is Yaoi romance. Oh,
and don't think you can bypass this part and go straight to chapter ten
cause I'm going to quiz you all on it!! Hehehehe. Okay, have fun!
Chapter 9.5: All Of The Pretty People
Sakuma winced every time that Shuichi screamed in pain. He could hear the nasty comments spewing from Tohma Seguchi's mouth and he remembered thinking to himself that Tohma had never spoken like that before. It was like a completely different person. He clutched his stuffed companion, trying to drown out Shuichi's pleas for help and Seguchi's anger and fury, but it was no use. Those separate screams buried themselves deep within his mind. Noriko didn't seem to mind them, and if she did, she didn't let him know. It was almost like she cared, but thought that it was necessary. WHY was the violence necessary is what Sakuma didn't understand.
With one last scream from Shuichi, the two members of Nittle Grasper watched their band mate storm past the room where they hear the horrific beating, not saying a word to them. Sakuma continued to sit on the floor as Noriko stood up and quietly walked out of the room. The beating must have affected her more then she let on. Sakuma couldn't get off the floor; he was too stunned. He didn't even HELP Shuichi. If he would have told Tohma to back off, he would have, but instead he just sat their like a child, clutching his toy as a grave injustice went on right before his eyes. Shuichi was his friend! And he had let Tohma completely ruin his life without a bat of an eyelash. Sakuma Ryuichi stayed where he sat deep into the night, not moving a muscle.
It took him a while to leave the room. He didn't want to see what he believed was out there. He imagined walking out of the room and seeing the beaten corpse of young Shuichi, broken and battered on the ground. He imagined the police covering him with a sheet, pronouncing him dead. He imagined going to the funeral and seeing all of Shuichi's friends crying and mourning. And he did nothing to stop it. Instead, he just saw an empty hallway. He sighed a sigh of relief and hung his head low. It was time for him to go home.
Normally, he got a ride home from Mr. K or Seguchi, but THAT definitely wasn't going to happen tonight. Both men had major issues that they needed to resolve not only with one another, but with their selves as well. He would just have to walk tonight. He left Nittle Grasper Studio and began the long walk to his nice home. He couldn't keep his mind off of Shuichi. He wasn't a really friend. In fact, he was a horrible friend to the pink haired youth. He was supposed to be an icon, an idol, but instead he was a monster like the rest of his band mates.
He stopped in his tracks, a little light going on above his head; he had an idea. Sakuma rarely had ideas, let alone a GREAT one like this one. He would go to Yuki Eiri's house and apologize to Shuichi in person. The two of them didn't get to spend enough time together anyway. He grinned from ear to ear and began to skip off toward the moody writer's apartment.
* * *
Tatsuha sat on his brother's sofa, bored out of his mind. He had been there for hours with nothing better to do then watch mindless television and eat all of Yuki's food. It had been a tough day for everyone. With Sakano gone and Mr. K crazier then before, things weren't looking up for anyone. Tohma Seguchi had really wailed on the poor young kid earlier that day. He passed out after telling Mr. K that it had been Tohma Seguchi himself who called up Judy and ruined his life. In fact, they had to drag Mr. K from the recording studio, or else he would have gone upstairs and given Tohma a beating of his own. Or even worse, he would have shot him.
Tatsuha understood how he felt. If someone had done something to come in between him and Sakuma Ryuichi, he would kill them too. Then again, he and Sakuma weren't a couple. He sighed, thinking of his wannabe lover. His was just another life that Sakano ruined by leaving. If he would have stuck it out and stayed around then Shuichi wouldn't be in the hospital and Plan B would go into play, meaning that he would get a date with Sakuma. He sighed again, dreaming of what a date with the amazing Sakuma Ryuichi would be like. He only had a small taste of it when he hugged Shuichi that day when his brother was away. Shuichi looked a lot like Sakuma, that was for sure, but he still wasn't as cute or a popular or as all around wonderful as Sakuma was.
Tatsuha sighed again, angry that he was forced to watch Yuki's home for him. He was given the job of telling Yuki about the assault. He expected his cold brother to blow it off as nothing and to sit and have a beer or go back to writing or something along those lines. Instead, he jumped from the sofa and ran out of the house, telling Tatsuha to hang out at the house until Yuki could come home and that he would call with news on Shuichi later. Tatsuha still hadn't heard from him. He wanted to be at the hospital with the others. He wanted to be there to see if Shuichi was going to be all right. He continued to flick through the channels until he was startled. Someone had knocked on the door. Who could be calling at this hour, he thought as he got up to answer the door.
The knock turned into a panicked pounding with every step Tatsuha took toward the door, "ALL RIGHT! I'M COMING!! CALM DOWN!!" he opened the door and almost passed out from the shock of the person standing in front of him. Sakuma Ryuichi in all of his beauty and magnificence stood, examining the door pane. He had stopped his spastic pounding at the sound of Tatsuha's voice.
"OH!" Sakuma said, smiling a goofy grin, "Can Shuichi play?"
Tatsuha would have answered if his lower jaw wasn't buried in the ground. He began to drool, giggling a little. He was having another dirty fantasy about this boy. Sakuma blinked a few times and tried snapping his fingers, but he couldn't wake Tatsuha up. Things just weren't going his way. He cleared his throat and tried again.
"Excuse me, Is Shuichi here?" Sakuma said again, this time waking Tatsuha from his puddle of saliva, making him blush a little.
"Oh...Didn't you hear? Shindou Shuichi was sent to the hospital earlier today because Tohma Seguchi beat the crap out of him. I have to stay here to watch my brother's house, but he's suppose to be calling with any news of Shuichi's condition. He hasn't called yet. I guess that means the little guy still hasn't woken yet..."
Sakuma's heart broke. Shuichi was in the hospital? NO! Seguchi couldn't have hurt him that badly! Wonder if he never woke up? Or if he was paralyzed? Or if he died? Sakuma couldn't hold back the tears. They began to run down his soft skin, staining it. Tatsuha gulped a little and braced himself as Sakuma began to sob and wail.
"SHUICHI IS IN THE HOSPITAL?!?! IT'S ALL MY FAULT!! I DIDN'T HELP HIM WHEN HE NEEDED HELP!!! I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON!! I AM THE SCUM OF THE WHOLE, ENTIRE WORLD!! I AM...I am..."
Tatsuha smile a little and took a step forward, "Don't worry about it. Shuichi's been beaten up before, he'll recover. He's just resting right now, Seguchi got him pretty good in the face. And it isn't your fault. So relax and go home," he couldn't believe he was telling him to go home, "Shuichi will be fine and I'll have Yuki call you from the hospital with any news."
He sniffed and nodded, "Hai..." he turned to leave and Tatsuha took one last look at this boy that he was so madly in love with and went to close the door. Imagine his surprise when Sakuma turned back around and stopped him from shutting the door. Tatsuha released his grip on the door and Sakuma grabbed his hands, sending a shiver through Tatsuha's body.
"Can...can I stay and wait here with you?" he asked, stuffed bunny pressed against his chest, "I just...I'm scared and I don't want to be alone. And I'm sad inside, and I don't like to be sad and I think playing with you will make me happy."
Tatsuha stood completely stunned. Sakuma Ryuichi wanted to stay with HIM?! Oh...my...GOD! His mind screamed. He gingerly pulled Sakuma inside, shutting the door behind him. They made their way to the sofa and Sakuma jumped on it, pillows flying in every direction. Tatsuha sat next to him and inside he felt like a thirteen year old boy on his first date. He didn't know how to act or even breathe. Sakuma was his fantasy. Every experience he had ever had with guys, or girls even, were only practice for Sakuma Ryuichi and now he was sitting right there, a foot or less away, and all Tatsuha could do was flick through the television channels at rapid speed.
"Do you mind..." Sakuma said, making Tatsuha drop the remote, the Television turning off, "If I tell you something?"
"S-s-s-s-sure," Tatsuha sputtered as Sakuma looked him straight in the eyes.
"I heard Shuichi get hurt by Tohma and I didn't help him. I just sat on the floor with Noriko and did nothing but cry. I could have helped him. I could have convinced Tohma to leave him alone and maybe even hire him back. But I just sat there. And now Shuichi is in pain and it's my fault. I feel so sad inside and I don't like to feel that way, but I don't know how to help it."
Tatsuha finally gathered enough courage to look the singer back in the eyes. They were so pretty, so round. They were the color of the ocean and they looked glossy through the tears. His cheeks were rosy and his hair was messy, like always. Tatsuha cleared his throat and tried to console him.
"You couldn't predict that Seguchi was going to hurt Shuichi. In fact, none of us could. This whole thing started with Sakano and K. We couldn't even predict that they two of them would make such a wonderful couple. We didn't even know that Seguchi had feelings for Sakano and-"
"I knew." He said simply, looking back down at his bunny, "I knew Tohma loved Sakano more then a friend. He loved Sakano way before K did. I should have told Tohma to talk to Sakano. If they were a couple then K would have never gotten involved and things would be happy again."
Tatsuha looked at his hands and smiled, "That's not true. K loved Sakano too. And true love always has a happy ending. You just wait, I know that the two of them aren't over yet. Sakano will be back. You know him; he can't stay away. And don't worry about Shuichi. My brother will look after him from now on. And we can only hope that Tohma Seguchi had gotten all of his rage out. I mean, he had a right to be mad and everything, but-"
"We are supposed to be the pretty people." Sakuma said, interrupting Tatsuha, "Tohma, Noriko and me. We are the pretty people. Kids look up to us and we are icons. What happened? When did we turn ugly?"
He turned to Tatsuha again and tears began to stream down his face, "I just don't know anymore, I'm confused."
And with that he threw his arms around Tatsuha, sending both boys flying, leaving Tatsuha pinned underneath a crying Sakuma. Tatsuha inhaled a little, his heart threatening to rip from his chest. His breath grew short and he tensed up a little. He was so close. He opened his mouth and Sakuma squeezed him a little tighter.
"Ryuichi..." he whispered in his ear, pulling every bit of courage from his person to tell him how he felt, but when Sakuma raised his head to look at him, he felt the courage slowly vanishing.
"Hai?" he said, less then an inch from Tatsuha's face. Tatsuha took a deep breath and lurched forward, gently brushing his lips against Sakuma's, body doing what word could not. His eyes widened and he turned away from Sakuma, heart pounding.
"I-I-I-I-I-I am...s-s-s-so sorry," he said as Sakuma turned Tatsuha's face to meet his.
"It's okay, I didn't mind. It felt nice. It felt warm," he said, smiling. Tatsuha still felt like he wanted to throw up and even more so when Sakuma's smiled turned into a sad frown, "Can...can I have another? I mean, if you don't mind, you don't have to if you don't want to and-"
Tatsuha pressed his lips against Sakuma's, wrapping his arms around his waist. He pulled him tighter against his own body and kissed him a little deeper. He was living his fantasy. He never heard the phone ring. All he could hear was the sound of his own heartbeat completely in tune with Sakuma Ryuichi's. He broke away from the singer and, with short breath, said, "I l-love you."
Sakuma smiled and rested his head on Tatsuha's chest, loving the feeling of being warm and being loved.
"It's nice to be loved," he said, looking into Tatsuha's eyes, "It's even nicer when you're loved by someone you could love back."
Tatsuha kissed him again, feeling the tears rolling down his own face. This is what he dreamed of. This was the very moment that he waited for his whole life. He told Shuichi that holding him must feel like holding Sakuma Ryuichi. Now he finally got the chance to hold the real thing...and it was the best feeling he had ever experienced in his entire life.
AWWWW!!! I love this chapter!!! It is so uber cute! I might do a full length story about the two of them instead of just a chapter. Anyway, please review this one, because it is important to me and I will write more. Oh, hehehehe and btw, Sakano may or may not come back in the next chapter. It all depends on whether or not you all review. Anyhoo, catch ya'll in chappie ten. Ciao.
Chapter 9.5: All Of The Pretty People
Sakuma winced every time that Shuichi screamed in pain. He could hear the nasty comments spewing from Tohma Seguchi's mouth and he remembered thinking to himself that Tohma had never spoken like that before. It was like a completely different person. He clutched his stuffed companion, trying to drown out Shuichi's pleas for help and Seguchi's anger and fury, but it was no use. Those separate screams buried themselves deep within his mind. Noriko didn't seem to mind them, and if she did, she didn't let him know. It was almost like she cared, but thought that it was necessary. WHY was the violence necessary is what Sakuma didn't understand.
With one last scream from Shuichi, the two members of Nittle Grasper watched their band mate storm past the room where they hear the horrific beating, not saying a word to them. Sakuma continued to sit on the floor as Noriko stood up and quietly walked out of the room. The beating must have affected her more then she let on. Sakuma couldn't get off the floor; he was too stunned. He didn't even HELP Shuichi. If he would have told Tohma to back off, he would have, but instead he just sat their like a child, clutching his toy as a grave injustice went on right before his eyes. Shuichi was his friend! And he had let Tohma completely ruin his life without a bat of an eyelash. Sakuma Ryuichi stayed where he sat deep into the night, not moving a muscle.
It took him a while to leave the room. He didn't want to see what he believed was out there. He imagined walking out of the room and seeing the beaten corpse of young Shuichi, broken and battered on the ground. He imagined the police covering him with a sheet, pronouncing him dead. He imagined going to the funeral and seeing all of Shuichi's friends crying and mourning. And he did nothing to stop it. Instead, he just saw an empty hallway. He sighed a sigh of relief and hung his head low. It was time for him to go home.
Normally, he got a ride home from Mr. K or Seguchi, but THAT definitely wasn't going to happen tonight. Both men had major issues that they needed to resolve not only with one another, but with their selves as well. He would just have to walk tonight. He left Nittle Grasper Studio and began the long walk to his nice home. He couldn't keep his mind off of Shuichi. He wasn't a really friend. In fact, he was a horrible friend to the pink haired youth. He was supposed to be an icon, an idol, but instead he was a monster like the rest of his band mates.
He stopped in his tracks, a little light going on above his head; he had an idea. Sakuma rarely had ideas, let alone a GREAT one like this one. He would go to Yuki Eiri's house and apologize to Shuichi in person. The two of them didn't get to spend enough time together anyway. He grinned from ear to ear and began to skip off toward the moody writer's apartment.
* * *
Tatsuha sat on his brother's sofa, bored out of his mind. He had been there for hours with nothing better to do then watch mindless television and eat all of Yuki's food. It had been a tough day for everyone. With Sakano gone and Mr. K crazier then before, things weren't looking up for anyone. Tohma Seguchi had really wailed on the poor young kid earlier that day. He passed out after telling Mr. K that it had been Tohma Seguchi himself who called up Judy and ruined his life. In fact, they had to drag Mr. K from the recording studio, or else he would have gone upstairs and given Tohma a beating of his own. Or even worse, he would have shot him.
Tatsuha understood how he felt. If someone had done something to come in between him and Sakuma Ryuichi, he would kill them too. Then again, he and Sakuma weren't a couple. He sighed, thinking of his wannabe lover. His was just another life that Sakano ruined by leaving. If he would have stuck it out and stayed around then Shuichi wouldn't be in the hospital and Plan B would go into play, meaning that he would get a date with Sakuma. He sighed again, dreaming of what a date with the amazing Sakuma Ryuichi would be like. He only had a small taste of it when he hugged Shuichi that day when his brother was away. Shuichi looked a lot like Sakuma, that was for sure, but he still wasn't as cute or a popular or as all around wonderful as Sakuma was.
Tatsuha sighed again, angry that he was forced to watch Yuki's home for him. He was given the job of telling Yuki about the assault. He expected his cold brother to blow it off as nothing and to sit and have a beer or go back to writing or something along those lines. Instead, he jumped from the sofa and ran out of the house, telling Tatsuha to hang out at the house until Yuki could come home and that he would call with news on Shuichi later. Tatsuha still hadn't heard from him. He wanted to be at the hospital with the others. He wanted to be there to see if Shuichi was going to be all right. He continued to flick through the channels until he was startled. Someone had knocked on the door. Who could be calling at this hour, he thought as he got up to answer the door.
The knock turned into a panicked pounding with every step Tatsuha took toward the door, "ALL RIGHT! I'M COMING!! CALM DOWN!!" he opened the door and almost passed out from the shock of the person standing in front of him. Sakuma Ryuichi in all of his beauty and magnificence stood, examining the door pane. He had stopped his spastic pounding at the sound of Tatsuha's voice.
"OH!" Sakuma said, smiling a goofy grin, "Can Shuichi play?"
Tatsuha would have answered if his lower jaw wasn't buried in the ground. He began to drool, giggling a little. He was having another dirty fantasy about this boy. Sakuma blinked a few times and tried snapping his fingers, but he couldn't wake Tatsuha up. Things just weren't going his way. He cleared his throat and tried again.
"Excuse me, Is Shuichi here?" Sakuma said again, this time waking Tatsuha from his puddle of saliva, making him blush a little.
"Oh...Didn't you hear? Shindou Shuichi was sent to the hospital earlier today because Tohma Seguchi beat the crap out of him. I have to stay here to watch my brother's house, but he's suppose to be calling with any news of Shuichi's condition. He hasn't called yet. I guess that means the little guy still hasn't woken yet..."
Sakuma's heart broke. Shuichi was in the hospital? NO! Seguchi couldn't have hurt him that badly! Wonder if he never woke up? Or if he was paralyzed? Or if he died? Sakuma couldn't hold back the tears. They began to run down his soft skin, staining it. Tatsuha gulped a little and braced himself as Sakuma began to sob and wail.
"SHUICHI IS IN THE HOSPITAL?!?! IT'S ALL MY FAULT!! I DIDN'T HELP HIM WHEN HE NEEDED HELP!!! I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON!! I AM THE SCUM OF THE WHOLE, ENTIRE WORLD!! I AM...I am..."
Tatsuha smile a little and took a step forward, "Don't worry about it. Shuichi's been beaten up before, he'll recover. He's just resting right now, Seguchi got him pretty good in the face. And it isn't your fault. So relax and go home," he couldn't believe he was telling him to go home, "Shuichi will be fine and I'll have Yuki call you from the hospital with any news."
He sniffed and nodded, "Hai..." he turned to leave and Tatsuha took one last look at this boy that he was so madly in love with and went to close the door. Imagine his surprise when Sakuma turned back around and stopped him from shutting the door. Tatsuha released his grip on the door and Sakuma grabbed his hands, sending a shiver through Tatsuha's body.
"Can...can I stay and wait here with you?" he asked, stuffed bunny pressed against his chest, "I just...I'm scared and I don't want to be alone. And I'm sad inside, and I don't like to be sad and I think playing with you will make me happy."
Tatsuha stood completely stunned. Sakuma Ryuichi wanted to stay with HIM?! Oh...my...GOD! His mind screamed. He gingerly pulled Sakuma inside, shutting the door behind him. They made their way to the sofa and Sakuma jumped on it, pillows flying in every direction. Tatsuha sat next to him and inside he felt like a thirteen year old boy on his first date. He didn't know how to act or even breathe. Sakuma was his fantasy. Every experience he had ever had with guys, or girls even, were only practice for Sakuma Ryuichi and now he was sitting right there, a foot or less away, and all Tatsuha could do was flick through the television channels at rapid speed.
"Do you mind..." Sakuma said, making Tatsuha drop the remote, the Television turning off, "If I tell you something?"
"S-s-s-s-sure," Tatsuha sputtered as Sakuma looked him straight in the eyes.
"I heard Shuichi get hurt by Tohma and I didn't help him. I just sat on the floor with Noriko and did nothing but cry. I could have helped him. I could have convinced Tohma to leave him alone and maybe even hire him back. But I just sat there. And now Shuichi is in pain and it's my fault. I feel so sad inside and I don't like to feel that way, but I don't know how to help it."
Tatsuha finally gathered enough courage to look the singer back in the eyes. They were so pretty, so round. They were the color of the ocean and they looked glossy through the tears. His cheeks were rosy and his hair was messy, like always. Tatsuha cleared his throat and tried to console him.
"You couldn't predict that Seguchi was going to hurt Shuichi. In fact, none of us could. This whole thing started with Sakano and K. We couldn't even predict that they two of them would make such a wonderful couple. We didn't even know that Seguchi had feelings for Sakano and-"
"I knew." He said simply, looking back down at his bunny, "I knew Tohma loved Sakano more then a friend. He loved Sakano way before K did. I should have told Tohma to talk to Sakano. If they were a couple then K would have never gotten involved and things would be happy again."
Tatsuha looked at his hands and smiled, "That's not true. K loved Sakano too. And true love always has a happy ending. You just wait, I know that the two of them aren't over yet. Sakano will be back. You know him; he can't stay away. And don't worry about Shuichi. My brother will look after him from now on. And we can only hope that Tohma Seguchi had gotten all of his rage out. I mean, he had a right to be mad and everything, but-"
"We are supposed to be the pretty people." Sakuma said, interrupting Tatsuha, "Tohma, Noriko and me. We are the pretty people. Kids look up to us and we are icons. What happened? When did we turn ugly?"
He turned to Tatsuha again and tears began to stream down his face, "I just don't know anymore, I'm confused."
And with that he threw his arms around Tatsuha, sending both boys flying, leaving Tatsuha pinned underneath a crying Sakuma. Tatsuha inhaled a little, his heart threatening to rip from his chest. His breath grew short and he tensed up a little. He was so close. He opened his mouth and Sakuma squeezed him a little tighter.
"Ryuichi..." he whispered in his ear, pulling every bit of courage from his person to tell him how he felt, but when Sakuma raised his head to look at him, he felt the courage slowly vanishing.
"Hai?" he said, less then an inch from Tatsuha's face. Tatsuha took a deep breath and lurched forward, gently brushing his lips against Sakuma's, body doing what word could not. His eyes widened and he turned away from Sakuma, heart pounding.
"I-I-I-I-I-I am...s-s-s-so sorry," he said as Sakuma turned Tatsuha's face to meet his.
"It's okay, I didn't mind. It felt nice. It felt warm," he said, smiling. Tatsuha still felt like he wanted to throw up and even more so when Sakuma's smiled turned into a sad frown, "Can...can I have another? I mean, if you don't mind, you don't have to if you don't want to and-"
Tatsuha pressed his lips against Sakuma's, wrapping his arms around his waist. He pulled him tighter against his own body and kissed him a little deeper. He was living his fantasy. He never heard the phone ring. All he could hear was the sound of his own heartbeat completely in tune with Sakuma Ryuichi's. He broke away from the singer and, with short breath, said, "I l-love you."
Sakuma smiled and rested his head on Tatsuha's chest, loving the feeling of being warm and being loved.
"It's nice to be loved," he said, looking into Tatsuha's eyes, "It's even nicer when you're loved by someone you could love back."
Tatsuha kissed him again, feeling the tears rolling down his own face. This is what he dreamed of. This was the very moment that he waited for his whole life. He told Shuichi that holding him must feel like holding Sakuma Ryuichi. Now he finally got the chance to hold the real thing...and it was the best feeling he had ever experienced in his entire life.
AWWWW!!! I love this chapter!!! It is so uber cute! I might do a full length story about the two of them instead of just a chapter. Anyway, please review this one, because it is important to me and I will write more. Oh, hehehehe and btw, Sakano may or may not come back in the next chapter. It all depends on whether or not you all review. Anyhoo, catch ya'll in chappie ten. Ciao.