Chapter 10 is here, and yeah I know it has been a little slow,
but trust me it will speed up after this chapter, I just don't want to rush
things though, ya know? Well ffviii belongs to Squaresoft not me, blah blah
blah. R/r please.
Chapter 10: The True Beginning
He was horrorstricken as he stood there, in the wooded arena with the body gushing blood into the earth. Her little eyes stared, unblinkingly into his, so innocent, so helpless, it was horribly depressing. Seifer felt his fingers loosen on his sword and then fall, for he was in control once more of his body. The crashing of metal sounded off in the silent distance causing birds to depart from the tree in which they had been watching the whole scene. It took quite a while for everything to fully register in his mind, it was almost as if he were in shock. How could he have done that? Further more, how could he have said what he said? His fists clenched, brows furrowed, he looked to the right, and then to the left, this was a game.Somebody's game, and he was the pawn.
"Why?!" he shouted off into the black woods, turning in circles as he did, "Why did you do this?!"
Laughter.
"Why did I do it?" the laughter from this menace subsided, "Te question is, why did you do it? I'm surprised you haven't caught on by now.Or rather, I am surprised that you deny the truth so much."
"Then tell me," Seifer growled, "Tell me, what is the truth?!"
"You are me, I am you, we are the same person, simple as that.You didn't think that you were being possessed again did you? No, of course you didn't, you knew all along. I am that part of you that loved what that demon made us do, I had been waiting to unleash myself for so long, but you made me stay at bay.I was free, I was happy, I loved the killer mentality we had, and then what do you do? You take it all away from me!!" an unholy pain struck within his head.
"Stop!" Seifer shouted as he fell to his knees, overcome by the pain.
"Do you know what it is like to be chained for 18 years?! Do you have any idea?!!!" the voice boomed, "To have something you have wanted forever, and then have it taken away?!!"
"Stop!" he repeated, clutching the sides of his head in agony, before in suspiciously stopped leaving him breathless and red-faced.
"Of course you don't know." the voice was quiet now, "But you will."
"What do you mean?" Seifer asked trying to regain his composure, but failing utterly.
"Do you think that everything that has happened in the last two days has been a coincidence? Was it just the gypsy? No, not by a long shot, there are others who aren't happy, and that is why I am alive in you."
"What are you playing at?" Grabbing the Hyperion, Seifer rose to his feat cautiously, as if awaiting to be attacked any moment.
"You'll suffer, and I'll get the job done, for you have lost your power over me," he laughed, "I have a list, a real list that I am supposed to follow, but does that mean that I can't have fun too? Maybe I'll start with the Instructor, she does look so beautiful when she is asleep after all."
"Don't you dare lay a hand on her," Seifer threatened his alter ego, but alas, they were idle threats.
"But it won't be me killing her, it will be you; it really is a simple concept, you know, that we are the same person, and yet you make it sound differently. Why shouldn't we kill the blond?"
"We are NOT the same person and I'll kill myself before you have the chance to hurt anyone else," he stood his ground firmly in the matter.
"Your wasting what time we have left, bickering with yourself," he chuckled, "You wouldn't want people to hear this conversation, they might think that you are crazy. It doesn't matter what you say, because when you wake up tomorrow morning, that is truly when it begins."
"When what begins?"
"You could call it a lot of things.But maybe we would call it redemption.Or not," he paused, "You see, this night doesn't exist, you won't remember anything at all. I'll take over my body again, dispose of the evidence, and go back, letting you have the thought of a restful night. Things will get better for you, so very much better, and when they get to the most happy of moments, I'll be there ready to snatch it all away."
"Just for revenge?!"
"No.That was a perk, heh, this goes far beyond revenge, I am just a tool to get you where you need to be for her.She wanted me to show you this, what yo- what we are capable of, to break you, to make you succumb to her plans like you did before."
Seifer didn't speak, he just hung his head in thought and helplessness; it was sad, this life would be the end of him. Escape was impossible, triumph was impossible, help was impossible, surviving with his humanity was impossible. If this was the truth, if this wasn't a nightmare, then what kind of world was he living in? This shouldn't happen, it just shouldn't happen, but he didn't care anymore. It was a new feeling, defeat, and he didn't know why it was such an easy feat to accomplish all of a sudden. There would be no long battle for his mind like before, there would be no need to live like before for he was already dead. Perhaps it was because he had lost the last fight that his confidence was shattered, or maybe it was because he was facing an unbeatable opponent: himself. In the end, Seifer knew that he would be struck down, but this time, it would be for good; this time, he would be freed.
Crawling back into the shadows, he allowed himself to lose control once more, and for the sequences now taking place to be played in fast forward. If one good thing had come from this conversation with himself it was this: He would be happy, if only for a little while, he would be happy and enjoy what little life he had left, and when the time come when that other side of him will rule that which is Seifer, he will fade away, he will die.No, not death, he would slumber. He would sleep in the vast universe of his own mind until the day came when his eyes would open and he would be free.
The wolf in him did exactly as he had said he would, taking care of the body, and then returning to the house. Seifer felt himself obtain use of his body once more as he slid into his bed. Drowsiness overcame him, and all he wanted was to go into a state of unconsciousness, but he heard his own voice one last time.
"You see, by the time this is all over, everything will have circled back to you, and then you will realize the point."
I just love ending with those little quotes that make you say "hmm." Okay, okay I know that this chapter really really sucked, but it was need for the next part of this story where things seem, to be getting better, and then there will be romance, yes, believe it or not, I will finally get to the romance. So stay tuned kiddies, it is about to get.umm.Romantic and stuff.Uh yeah that's the ticket. R/r and thanks in advance!
Chapter 10: The True Beginning
He was horrorstricken as he stood there, in the wooded arena with the body gushing blood into the earth. Her little eyes stared, unblinkingly into his, so innocent, so helpless, it was horribly depressing. Seifer felt his fingers loosen on his sword and then fall, for he was in control once more of his body. The crashing of metal sounded off in the silent distance causing birds to depart from the tree in which they had been watching the whole scene. It took quite a while for everything to fully register in his mind, it was almost as if he were in shock. How could he have done that? Further more, how could he have said what he said? His fists clenched, brows furrowed, he looked to the right, and then to the left, this was a game.Somebody's game, and he was the pawn.
"Why?!" he shouted off into the black woods, turning in circles as he did, "Why did you do this?!"
Laughter.
"Why did I do it?" the laughter from this menace subsided, "Te question is, why did you do it? I'm surprised you haven't caught on by now.Or rather, I am surprised that you deny the truth so much."
"Then tell me," Seifer growled, "Tell me, what is the truth?!"
"You are me, I am you, we are the same person, simple as that.You didn't think that you were being possessed again did you? No, of course you didn't, you knew all along. I am that part of you that loved what that demon made us do, I had been waiting to unleash myself for so long, but you made me stay at bay.I was free, I was happy, I loved the killer mentality we had, and then what do you do? You take it all away from me!!" an unholy pain struck within his head.
"Stop!" Seifer shouted as he fell to his knees, overcome by the pain.
"Do you know what it is like to be chained for 18 years?! Do you have any idea?!!!" the voice boomed, "To have something you have wanted forever, and then have it taken away?!!"
"Stop!" he repeated, clutching the sides of his head in agony, before in suspiciously stopped leaving him breathless and red-faced.
"Of course you don't know." the voice was quiet now, "But you will."
"What do you mean?" Seifer asked trying to regain his composure, but failing utterly.
"Do you think that everything that has happened in the last two days has been a coincidence? Was it just the gypsy? No, not by a long shot, there are others who aren't happy, and that is why I am alive in you."
"What are you playing at?" Grabbing the Hyperion, Seifer rose to his feat cautiously, as if awaiting to be attacked any moment.
"You'll suffer, and I'll get the job done, for you have lost your power over me," he laughed, "I have a list, a real list that I am supposed to follow, but does that mean that I can't have fun too? Maybe I'll start with the Instructor, she does look so beautiful when she is asleep after all."
"Don't you dare lay a hand on her," Seifer threatened his alter ego, but alas, they were idle threats.
"But it won't be me killing her, it will be you; it really is a simple concept, you know, that we are the same person, and yet you make it sound differently. Why shouldn't we kill the blond?"
"We are NOT the same person and I'll kill myself before you have the chance to hurt anyone else," he stood his ground firmly in the matter.
"Your wasting what time we have left, bickering with yourself," he chuckled, "You wouldn't want people to hear this conversation, they might think that you are crazy. It doesn't matter what you say, because when you wake up tomorrow morning, that is truly when it begins."
"When what begins?"
"You could call it a lot of things.But maybe we would call it redemption.Or not," he paused, "You see, this night doesn't exist, you won't remember anything at all. I'll take over my body again, dispose of the evidence, and go back, letting you have the thought of a restful night. Things will get better for you, so very much better, and when they get to the most happy of moments, I'll be there ready to snatch it all away."
"Just for revenge?!"
"No.That was a perk, heh, this goes far beyond revenge, I am just a tool to get you where you need to be for her.She wanted me to show you this, what yo- what we are capable of, to break you, to make you succumb to her plans like you did before."
Seifer didn't speak, he just hung his head in thought and helplessness; it was sad, this life would be the end of him. Escape was impossible, triumph was impossible, help was impossible, surviving with his humanity was impossible. If this was the truth, if this wasn't a nightmare, then what kind of world was he living in? This shouldn't happen, it just shouldn't happen, but he didn't care anymore. It was a new feeling, defeat, and he didn't know why it was such an easy feat to accomplish all of a sudden. There would be no long battle for his mind like before, there would be no need to live like before for he was already dead. Perhaps it was because he had lost the last fight that his confidence was shattered, or maybe it was because he was facing an unbeatable opponent: himself. In the end, Seifer knew that he would be struck down, but this time, it would be for good; this time, he would be freed.
Crawling back into the shadows, he allowed himself to lose control once more, and for the sequences now taking place to be played in fast forward. If one good thing had come from this conversation with himself it was this: He would be happy, if only for a little while, he would be happy and enjoy what little life he had left, and when the time come when that other side of him will rule that which is Seifer, he will fade away, he will die.No, not death, he would slumber. He would sleep in the vast universe of his own mind until the day came when his eyes would open and he would be free.
The wolf in him did exactly as he had said he would, taking care of the body, and then returning to the house. Seifer felt himself obtain use of his body once more as he slid into his bed. Drowsiness overcame him, and all he wanted was to go into a state of unconsciousness, but he heard his own voice one last time.
"You see, by the time this is all over, everything will have circled back to you, and then you will realize the point."
I just love ending with those little quotes that make you say "hmm." Okay, okay I know that this chapter really really sucked, but it was need for the next part of this story where things seem, to be getting better, and then there will be romance, yes, believe it or not, I will finally get to the romance. So stay tuned kiddies, it is about to get.umm.Romantic and stuff.Uh yeah that's the ticket. R/r and thanks in advance!