Rating: PG-13 because angsty Johnny has potty mouth.J
Summary: Miles away…two people reflect on what could have and maybe should have been.
Pairing: John/Marie
Spoilers: X2
Author's Note: Next is Johnny and then another Rogue.
Try to forget you,
But without you I feel nothing.
Don't leave me here, by myself.
I can't breathe.
I run to you,
Call out your name,
I see you there, father away. .~Evanescence
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She stood at the foot of his bed trying to keep the tears from rolling down her face. It hadn't been touch since the last time he laid in it, the maroon comforter tossed aside in the rush to escape as the soldiers attacked.
"Oh John," she whispered.
"Marie?" asked Bobby as he exited the bathroom "Ready to go to dinner?"
She smiled sadly.
"I'm kinda tired," she whispered "I'm just gonna go to bed."
"You sure?" he asked, "I can bring you something."
She smiled again.
"I'm fine, Bobby," she whispered "Its been a long coupla days and I'm just tired."
He nodded and kissed her temple.
"All right," he said smiling "See you tomorrow?"
"Of course," she replied hugging him.
See you tomorrow, she thought as she left his room. She wondered when Bobby would stop worrying about who would leave him next; First his parents, then John.
"You all right? Rogue?" asked Ororo as she walked past.
"What? Oh, yeah…I'm fine." She replied absentmindedly.
"If you ever need to talk," said Ororo.
"I know," exclaimed Rogue.
Ororo smiled kindly and placed a comforting hand on the young girl's shoulder. Rogue smiled at her and tugged her jacket closer to her.
"Bye 'Ro," she whispered.
She walked into her room and breathed a sigh of relief when she saw it empty. No halfhearted attempts by her friends to cheer her up. Just her and the absolute nothingness she felt inside. As She looked around something caught her eye, with a shaking hand she lifted up the small silver frame.
"Open mine," whispered John in her ear.
She shivered slightly and smiled up at him.
"Jube? Hand me Johnny's present?" she asked.
Laughing slightly she opened the gift wrapped in bright red paper. Insides box was a delicate silver picture frame.
"It's gorgeous," she whispered.
"Look at the picture," he said.
She pulled a stray piece of wrapping paper and looked at the paper.
"Well?" asked Bobby as he exchanged glares with John.
"Do you remember that dance last year?" replied Rogue between her giggles "Where we all had are dates chosen for us? And we had to dress as half a couple then find our date that way?"
Bobby nodded; he had been Kitty's date and had been forced to wear tights and goofy shorts as the Romeo of Romeo and Juliet.
"It's of Johnny and I as Peanut Butter and Jelly," laughed Rogue.
She could barely see the picture through her tears. She wiped her tears away and looked at it. We looked so happy, she thought, John in his ridiculous brown suit, her in a short-sleeved purple dress with matching purple gloves.
"So happy," she whispered.
She could feel the anger inside her build as she stared at his smiling face.
"GOD DAMN YOU!" she yelled as she chucked the picture across the room.
She sat down on the floor and placed her head in her hands. She had cared so much for him; maybe even loved him and he left her. Maybe though, she thought, I deserved this.
She kissed him again through the scarf.
"Stop," he whispered pushing her away.
"Why?" she asked.
"We can't do this anymore," he whispered "I can't do this anymore."
"What?" she asked taking his face in his hands.
"I can't take you coming here and making me think that I have a chance with you, then seeing you down there with the crown prince of Mutant High," he replied turning away.
"What are you saying?"
"I'm saying you have to make a choice. You can't have Bobby as your boyfriend and me as your secret." He whispered as he walked away" I can't do this any more, Marie. I don't like secrets and I don't like hurting Bobby, He's my best friend."
"Didn't stop you from coming after his girlfriend," she yelled as she raced to catch up with him.
"Fuck you, Princess," he hissed.
She had messed up her whole relationship with him. She thought she could have it all; Bobby, the sweet one and John, the passionate one.
"What are you doing?" asked Rogue as she walked into his room.
"Getting ready for a date," replied John.
"With who?"
"Jubilee."
He looked at her and smirked.
"Did you think I would wait forever for ya?" he asked pulling his dark brown leather coat on.
She had always thought that she would have another chance to explain, to tell him how much he meant to her.
"But…I guess I never will," she whispered sadly.