Title: Regrets
Author: MysteryGirl
Rating: PG-13 Because Angsty Johnny has a potty mouth.
Summary: Miles away…two people reflect on what could have been and maybe should have been.
Pairing: John/Marie
Spoilers: X2
Author's Note: Here's Johnny...Shorter than Rogue's but…more soon. Oh and ignore the two lines at the top…damn formatting.
Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me? ~Evanescence
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He shivered slightly and wrapped his jacket tighter around him. He hated being cold, being cold reminded him of Bobby and thinking about Bobby reminded him of her. Her being Marie, the tragic deadly love of his life, the girl who had chosen his best friend instead of him.
He felt like he stepped in some twisted dream world. She had written the note to him, meet me at our spot it had said and that's what he done. He thought she was going to tell him that she had chosen him. That she had had finally seen how he was so much better for her than Bobby.
"What's up Guys?" he asked forcing his voice to reach above the whisper.
The two stopped kissing and looked up at him in shock.
"John!" yelled Bobby "What the hell are you doing?"
"Just looking for Pete," he whispered "Sorry to interrupt."
"Its no problem, man," said Bobby "Pete is with Kitty."
He smiled weakly at Bobby then looked at Rogue, his heart sank to his stomach as the crimson scarf he had given her slipped from her hand.
"Bye guys," he whispered.
He wondered if she missed him.
"Probably not," he whispered flicking his lighter open and closed.
He laid back on his sleeping bag and closed his eyes.
"Why do you do this to yourself?" asked Kitty.
"Huh? What?" he asked.
Kitty laughed in spite of her worry. Taken his hand in hers, she looked at him.
"Seriously Johnny," she said "You have to stop this."
"I don't know what you're talking about," he whispered.
He feigned innocence but knew what she was talking about. Kitty was his best friend after Bobby and a smart girl to boot.
"Liar."
He looked over at Rogue and Bobby who sat on the couch hand in hand watching some random movie. He looked away and returned his attentions to Kitty.
"Why couldn't I fall for you?" he asked.
"I don't know," she replied.
He leaned over and brushed a stray hair off her face.
"She's stupid," Kitty said squeezing his hand "Who wouldn't want a charmer such as you?"
He laughed and kissed her hand.
"Thanks Kit," he said.
"Anytime Johnny."
He understood Marie's choice as much as it pained him to admit. Bobby Drake was a nice guy and Marie deserved a nice guy. Not an asshole like him, who had a horrible temper and who liked to push people's buttons.
"I fucking blew up cop cars," he whispered.