Title: Depression
By: Ryan AKA: Star
Summary: Sydney gets sick of her life and falls into depression, will someone be there to dig her out from it? Read and find out!
Disclaimer: It's not mine!
Chapter 5: Distractions
We arrive at the ops center 10 minutes later. He gets out of the car first and goes around to my door. He opens it for me. I'm frozen in my seat. Vaughn reaches his hand out to me though and I confidently take it. He leads me inside.
On the way to Barnett's office we run into Weiss. "Hey you two."
Vaughn smiles briefly, "Hey." I don't look up because I know I'm easily readable in this state. Weiss catches on anyways though.
"What's wrong?" He asks curiously as he looks back and forth between us. I still avoid him, but Vaughn is stronger and steps up. "Nothing, really." Vaughn tries to convince but it's obvious Weiss isn't that stupid. He keeps looking towards Vaughn. I don't want Weiss to know, or at least not yet. I don't bother to tell Vaughn that though because I know he knows that.
I turn my body towards Vaughn, "Um.I'll be right back. I've got to use the restroom." I say sheepishly as I find my way to the nearest bathroom. I can feel Vaughn's eyes on me the whole way. The second I get inside I go over to the sink and rinse my face with cold water. I didn't really have to go the bathroom; I just needed to get away. I wipe it dry with a paper towel and then I fix my hair up again; anything to make me feel more confident in myself.
I start to go back out into the hall, but I stop at the door with it cracked open. I can see and hear Vaughn and Weiss talking from across the hall.
"Wow she really does need desperate help!" Weiss says laughing.
"I know tell me about it! She's crazy!" Vaughn says in agreement laughing. That hits me like a brick. Vaughn told Weiss but that wasn't even the worst part. Was he really laughing about me? There isn't anything funny about my breakdown. I thought I could trust him and only him but I guess I was wrong.
I quickly turn around and run back into the bathroom letting the door slam shut. In my rush I also knock over a trashcan. I look frantically around for an exit. There is no other door but there is a window.
Vaughn and Weiss quickly turn towards the bathroom; the clatter gaining their attention. "What was that?" Vaughn asks worriedly. He doesn't wait for a response though before he runs over to the bathroom and opens the door looking inside. He notices the trashcan knocked over and then sees a body climbing out a window.
I struggle to get through especially once I see Vaughn come in. "Syd!" I hear him yell and then he grabs my legs. I squirm to release myself from his grip but he's stronger this time and he pulls me back inside. He pulls me close and holds me, my back to him.
I start to kick and hit him, "Let me go you bastard!" I scream. I can tell he's taken aback because his grip loosens momentarily but then returns even tighter than before.
"Woaw! What's wrong?" He asks as he pulls me away from the window and back towards the bathroom wall. I'm still squirming but he has a grip that won't ever loosen. He pulls around and pins me against the wall. At first my back is to him but then he turns me around and makes me look at him.
"Mind telling me what happened?" He says confused, irritated, and caringly trying to help. I pause but then decide what's the hurt in letting him know.
"You!!! You are the problem you @$$ whole! You act all caring and trying to help, then I leave you alone for a minute and you spill everything to Weiss like it's a joke. I saw you laughing and making a joke about." I ramble on but he stops me and kisses me to shut me up. He knew if he told me to shut up I'd just yell more.
I push him away immediately regardless. Before I can say anything else he bursts in, "Do you really think I'd do that? Sydney I thought you knew me better than that!" He yells at me angrily. He lets go of me and walks the side pacing, running his hands through his hair looking frustrated. I could leave now like I was planning on but for some reason I feel pressed to stay.
He must have known too otherwise he wouldn't have let me go. "But I heard you say I was crazy." I say, still not satisfied until I get the explanation.
"You only heard a part Syd. I said 'she needs help' not you. For your information I was talking about Weiss's date last night. She ended up being some psycho." He adds on a lighter note.
I'm skeptical at first, but I know I really need him and I don't want to leave. "Oh," Is all I can say. I knew I owed him an apology for all I'd said but it took a lot of me to do that, I was a proud person. Finally, I swallow my pride. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't assume things and I'm sorry I called you all those things." By now my anger is completely gone and I'm crying.
He walks over to me and pulls me into his arms, "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay Syd. I promise."
With that my tears subsided. He always knew exactly what to say. I truly loved him. We left the restroom hand-in-hand and started back on our track to Barnett.
This time on our walk through the ops center we took the 'back ways' if you could call them that. We cut through offices and smaller hallways that were less crowded. Fait must have had it's eyes set on me though because one of the people I wanted to see least, we run into.
"Hello, Agent Vaughn, Sydney." Jack greets Vaughn and me.
"Hey Jack." Vaughn replies but I just nod my head in recognition. I try to hide my mood but I can tell he isn't fooled one bit.
"What's wrong?" He questions, looking from Vaughn's face to mine. "Sydney." He says sternly, "what happened?"
"Nothing." I say short and matter-of-factly. "Why you suddenly care?" I add under my breath.
"How about you Mr. Vaughn? Would you care to let me know?"
"If you don't mind, we have places to be." Vaughn says sternly but politely. He leads me forward around rests his hand on my lower back to guide me. As we continue down the hall I hear my father yell back to us, "What ever it is, you be sure you know I'll find out!"
Vaughn can sense my sadness and anger. He leans in to my ear, "I love you." My head snaps in his direction, he continues, "When you think there is nothing, and no one to live for. Even if you're dad, mom, friends, aren't there for you.I'll always be there!"
We reach Barnett's door and we stop before entering. I turn to him and practically jump into his arms. "I love you too. And trust me when I tell you I know you're always there for me."
He kisses me deeply and caring. We slowly break apart. He rests his forehead on mine for a minute, "Ready?" He asks.
I smile "Yeah, I'm ready." I was finally ready to put my past let downs, and pain behind me. I couldn't go on like this. I was too depressed and tired of life. All I know is that my life has already begun to turn up with Vaughn so I'm going to just go with the flow from here on, following my heart not head.
***Okay so you know the routine, like/dislike? Let me know. Constructive criticism is always great too.
By: Ryan AKA: Star
Summary: Sydney gets sick of her life and falls into depression, will someone be there to dig her out from it? Read and find out!
Disclaimer: It's not mine!
Chapter 5: Distractions
We arrive at the ops center 10 minutes later. He gets out of the car first and goes around to my door. He opens it for me. I'm frozen in my seat. Vaughn reaches his hand out to me though and I confidently take it. He leads me inside.
On the way to Barnett's office we run into Weiss. "Hey you two."
Vaughn smiles briefly, "Hey." I don't look up because I know I'm easily readable in this state. Weiss catches on anyways though.
"What's wrong?" He asks curiously as he looks back and forth between us. I still avoid him, but Vaughn is stronger and steps up. "Nothing, really." Vaughn tries to convince but it's obvious Weiss isn't that stupid. He keeps looking towards Vaughn. I don't want Weiss to know, or at least not yet. I don't bother to tell Vaughn that though because I know he knows that.
I turn my body towards Vaughn, "Um.I'll be right back. I've got to use the restroom." I say sheepishly as I find my way to the nearest bathroom. I can feel Vaughn's eyes on me the whole way. The second I get inside I go over to the sink and rinse my face with cold water. I didn't really have to go the bathroom; I just needed to get away. I wipe it dry with a paper towel and then I fix my hair up again; anything to make me feel more confident in myself.
I start to go back out into the hall, but I stop at the door with it cracked open. I can see and hear Vaughn and Weiss talking from across the hall.
"Wow she really does need desperate help!" Weiss says laughing.
"I know tell me about it! She's crazy!" Vaughn says in agreement laughing. That hits me like a brick. Vaughn told Weiss but that wasn't even the worst part. Was he really laughing about me? There isn't anything funny about my breakdown. I thought I could trust him and only him but I guess I was wrong.
I quickly turn around and run back into the bathroom letting the door slam shut. In my rush I also knock over a trashcan. I look frantically around for an exit. There is no other door but there is a window.
Vaughn and Weiss quickly turn towards the bathroom; the clatter gaining their attention. "What was that?" Vaughn asks worriedly. He doesn't wait for a response though before he runs over to the bathroom and opens the door looking inside. He notices the trashcan knocked over and then sees a body climbing out a window.
I struggle to get through especially once I see Vaughn come in. "Syd!" I hear him yell and then he grabs my legs. I squirm to release myself from his grip but he's stronger this time and he pulls me back inside. He pulls me close and holds me, my back to him.
I start to kick and hit him, "Let me go you bastard!" I scream. I can tell he's taken aback because his grip loosens momentarily but then returns even tighter than before.
"Woaw! What's wrong?" He asks as he pulls me away from the window and back towards the bathroom wall. I'm still squirming but he has a grip that won't ever loosen. He pulls around and pins me against the wall. At first my back is to him but then he turns me around and makes me look at him.
"Mind telling me what happened?" He says confused, irritated, and caringly trying to help. I pause but then decide what's the hurt in letting him know.
"You!!! You are the problem you @$$ whole! You act all caring and trying to help, then I leave you alone for a minute and you spill everything to Weiss like it's a joke. I saw you laughing and making a joke about." I ramble on but he stops me and kisses me to shut me up. He knew if he told me to shut up I'd just yell more.
I push him away immediately regardless. Before I can say anything else he bursts in, "Do you really think I'd do that? Sydney I thought you knew me better than that!" He yells at me angrily. He lets go of me and walks the side pacing, running his hands through his hair looking frustrated. I could leave now like I was planning on but for some reason I feel pressed to stay.
He must have known too otherwise he wouldn't have let me go. "But I heard you say I was crazy." I say, still not satisfied until I get the explanation.
"You only heard a part Syd. I said 'she needs help' not you. For your information I was talking about Weiss's date last night. She ended up being some psycho." He adds on a lighter note.
I'm skeptical at first, but I know I really need him and I don't want to leave. "Oh," Is all I can say. I knew I owed him an apology for all I'd said but it took a lot of me to do that, I was a proud person. Finally, I swallow my pride. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't assume things and I'm sorry I called you all those things." By now my anger is completely gone and I'm crying.
He walks over to me and pulls me into his arms, "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay Syd. I promise."
With that my tears subsided. He always knew exactly what to say. I truly loved him. We left the restroom hand-in-hand and started back on our track to Barnett.
This time on our walk through the ops center we took the 'back ways' if you could call them that. We cut through offices and smaller hallways that were less crowded. Fait must have had it's eyes set on me though because one of the people I wanted to see least, we run into.
"Hello, Agent Vaughn, Sydney." Jack greets Vaughn and me.
"Hey Jack." Vaughn replies but I just nod my head in recognition. I try to hide my mood but I can tell he isn't fooled one bit.
"What's wrong?" He questions, looking from Vaughn's face to mine. "Sydney." He says sternly, "what happened?"
"Nothing." I say short and matter-of-factly. "Why you suddenly care?" I add under my breath.
"How about you Mr. Vaughn? Would you care to let me know?"
"If you don't mind, we have places to be." Vaughn says sternly but politely. He leads me forward around rests his hand on my lower back to guide me. As we continue down the hall I hear my father yell back to us, "What ever it is, you be sure you know I'll find out!"
Vaughn can sense my sadness and anger. He leans in to my ear, "I love you." My head snaps in his direction, he continues, "When you think there is nothing, and no one to live for. Even if you're dad, mom, friends, aren't there for you.I'll always be there!"
We reach Barnett's door and we stop before entering. I turn to him and practically jump into his arms. "I love you too. And trust me when I tell you I know you're always there for me."
He kisses me deeply and caring. We slowly break apart. He rests his forehead on mine for a minute, "Ready?" He asks.
I smile "Yeah, I'm ready." I was finally ready to put my past let downs, and pain behind me. I couldn't go on like this. I was too depressed and tired of life. All I know is that my life has already begun to turn up with Vaughn so I'm going to just go with the flow from here on, following my heart not head.
***Okay so you know the routine, like/dislike? Let me know. Constructive criticism is always great too.