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Chapter 3
My Story
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He slowly rolled on to the side of the bed to see the girl sleeping beside him. He felt nothing. His mistress was beautiful with delicate pale skin and astonishing black hair but he felt nothing. She was just using him and he plainly existed for her amusement.

>>>Flashback

Gray feathers flew across the grassy field with the crescent moon hanging above the starry sky. She was the very first thing I took noticed of. A little girl smiling at me. She held a staff from which I felt strange just by looking at. A black staff with a moon and a sun's symbol molded on its top and she held it. a little girl held it. She smiled at me but I felt strange. I shivered.

"Your wings are beautiful." She told me. I glanced at it and saw gray feathers swaying with the midnight wind.

"who are you" My first words I shakily spoke.

"I am Gwen, your mistress and you are Lance. You will serve me as my protector and guardian of my clow cards" She told me and somehow I felt as if I had to obey.

It has always been like that. I do as I was told never daring to question her, I didn't feel the need to. She told me she cherished me and didn't want to create another guardian, who should've had the symbol of the sun. Sometimes I find myself pondering at the thought of having someone else as a companion but she made it clear that she wanted only me to serve her and no one else. And so I have been alone all my life.

She gave me a lot of books to read or maybe just to bind me in her quarters. I was never allowed to wander around the temple until she gave me permission and there were little chances that she let me. Each time that I was to go back inside I'd look up and see all the birds flying and wonder if they were created just to tease me. I have the same wings but I was never permitted to use them. I pictured myself like that angel I saw in one of the books she gave me. The angel did something bad and so he was punished and was chained in a dark cell for so long that when he got out he didn't want to see any light. But I didn't do anything bad did I?

Once, I looked in the mirror and saw someone like me. He had wings but it was white unlike mine and his hair a shinning white silver but it was like my vision of him overlapped with another. The other was a being a bit smaller than him with gray hair and glasses. He always had a smile on his face for which I envied him. He always seemed so happy being with him, Touya was his name, the one like me called him that often times that I figured it was his name. Touya… Touya. And there was another whose face kept appearing in my head even after I stopped looking at the mirror. I think they called her Sakura. She's beautiful but it wasn't only her face. My mistress is beautiful too. That is what I thought from the time she first summoned me but this girl was different in every way. She shone like the brightest star I have ever seen. When I saw her I felt something well up inside of me… warmth. I never felt such warmth before even when my mistress slept with me. My mistress would smile at me often but it wasn't anything like this girl's, which seem to promise comfort and happiness making everyone around her feel so. light. My mistress eyes were shinny dews of black but Sakura's eyes were much more astonishing, it reflected innocence, my mistress' eyes were seductive, mean, they were never kind to me.

"Lance, Lance"

"…" Her voice made me loose the warm feelings I felt for the first time in my life.

My eyes narrowed as I walked towards her. I am a soulless creature without a heart to love, hope or a mind of my own. I am a mere puppet… her puppet.

"Just where have you been hiding to my love?" she taunted him running her hands on the boy's face.

"I-I wanted to see the outside world. Why can't I go outside the shrine wherein the outside world is very beauti-"

"NO! it is only me you should admire! You are mine!" her eyes suddenly softened "but if it is what my love wish then we will go outside... to Tomoeda. Isn't that the place you were referring to as beautiful?"

He smiled inwardly giving in to Gwen's caressing hand. But part of him was afraid, her mistress would never do anything to please him nor grant his wishes. She allowed him to go yet he knew there was something she wanted in return. He was afraid of what she would ask but he remembered Sakura's face and was filled with hope that everything will be all right.

>>>End of flashback

::you have an unbeatable spell 'everything will be all right'::

He jerked awake. Who's voice was that?" He shook his head hoping it'll jog his memory and remember whose it was but without avail.

"You are awake?"

He looked at the person standing before him and thought that wasn't necessary for it was always her face he sees every time he would open his eyes. He wanted his eyes closed for then he sees the girl…Sakura.

"You should forget the girl you are pondering about, you know?"

"…" I felt my heart beat so fast as I turned to look at my windows, afraid of seeing any glimpse of light in them but the sun's rays were making their way through the blinds of the apartment window. Oh God its morning!

"Well I'm going… I wouldn't want to be late for school and miss Sakura's last smile now, would I?" she turned to leave laughing her usual laughter. It was sickening. He fell back to his bed and closed his eyes. Sakura..