Dear Die-ary
Ch. 2: My Last Breath
A/N: Dear God, what is wrong with me? Why am I writing this stuff? This is Nny's POV again. Evanescence owns 'My Last Breath'. Break out the tissues, 'cause this chapter involves Devi. Johnny does not write in his die-ary this time, he thinks here. I'm going to go cry now.
I am abandoned by any will to live. That's dead and gone. I'm going to end it now! These knives have kept me satisfied in the killing of the innocent. Now it's my turn.
* Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?*
Ugh! I've missed this, the pain and the beauty of my own blood trickling down my side. I pray that no one finds me here. Someone's at my door... What the hell is this, some sort of sign telling me I'm not supposed to die? Oh Christ...Devi-
"Nny! What the fuck did you do?"
I'm ending my pain, can't you see that as I lie here in your arms?
* + Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight +*
Devi, there is no need to cry for me. You wanted to see me dead for years now... I love you, I always have... I'm so cold. Stop crying, you'll only make saying goodbye harder. Why are you here?
"Johnny, I had to know if you were all right, I saw you at the bookstore and I saw how sad you were. Now you're doing what I had feared. You can't leave me! I love you."
What? I'm dying, it's too late for us now, Devi. Everything's slowly slipping away, like sand in an hourglass. Don't cry, I can't stand to see you in this pain.
* I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in a white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears *
Devi, stop, please. I'm going to the hell I created in my mind. I'm getting what I deserve. Get out! I can't bear to see you pained. I want to speak to you, but only gurgling noises escape my lips as I choke on my own blood. Devi, I pray you can see this in my eyes. I love you.
* + Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight +
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me calling me as you fade to black *
Goodbye, Devi. I'm finally free of the monster. All I ask, before I die, is one last kiss.
Ch. 2: My Last Breath
A/N: Dear God, what is wrong with me? Why am I writing this stuff? This is Nny's POV again. Evanescence owns 'My Last Breath'. Break out the tissues, 'cause this chapter involves Devi. Johnny does not write in his die-ary this time, he thinks here. I'm going to go cry now.
I am abandoned by any will to live. That's dead and gone. I'm going to end it now! These knives have kept me satisfied in the killing of the innocent. Now it's my turn.
* Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?*
Ugh! I've missed this, the pain and the beauty of my own blood trickling down my side. I pray that no one finds me here. Someone's at my door... What the hell is this, some sort of sign telling me I'm not supposed to die? Oh Christ...Devi-
"Nny! What the fuck did you do?"
I'm ending my pain, can't you see that as I lie here in your arms?
* + Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight +*
Devi, there is no need to cry for me. You wanted to see me dead for years now... I love you, I always have... I'm so cold. Stop crying, you'll only make saying goodbye harder. Why are you here?
"Johnny, I had to know if you were all right, I saw you at the bookstore and I saw how sad you were. Now you're doing what I had feared. You can't leave me! I love you."
What? I'm dying, it's too late for us now, Devi. Everything's slowly slipping away, like sand in an hourglass. Don't cry, I can't stand to see you in this pain.
* I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in a white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears *
Devi, stop, please. I'm going to the hell I created in my mind. I'm getting what I deserve. Get out! I can't bear to see you pained. I want to speak to you, but only gurgling noises escape my lips as I choke on my own blood. Devi, I pray you can see this in my eyes. I love you.
* + Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight +
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me calling me as you fade to black *
Goodbye, Devi. I'm finally free of the monster. All I ask, before I die, is one last kiss.