She took a deep breath. "John, you know that I love you and have
never wanted to hurt you. But now I feel with what I am about to say I might.
I'm pregnant with your child." There she had said it. The look on his face was
one of disbelief. He started to speak. "Please let me finish. I should have
told you this a long time ago but I have never found the courage to do it.
While I was married to Richard I was pregnant. He never knew about it and
never will. We were nearing the end of our marriage anyway and I just
couldn't face telling him. I was also aware that my baby could be born bi- polar
and that I couldn't have coped with. So I had an abortion. I hated myself at
the time for doing it but it had to be done. In case you are wondering why I am
telling you this and choosing not to keep it a secret like last time is I trust you
more than life itself. This is your baby too and I need you to help me make the
decision. I would love to keep this baby but what if it turns out to be bi- polar.
John I don't think I could do it." She finally paused in her speech.
John stared at her. She looked so small and fragile. Her knees drawn
up to her chest. Her head rested on her knees, with tears in her eyes. He
reached across and took her hand into his own. "Abby, I love you and no
matter what you tell me nothing will ever change that. Yes I am shocked that
you've had an abortion but that's in the past. I'm in the present and will still be
here in the future. I would love for you to have this baby but if you are having
doubts then you have to do what is best for you. I will support you 100o/o in
anything you do." He kissed every finger tip on the hand he held and then the
palm. He loved this woman more than he had ever loved anyone in his life
and that included his parents.
"Thank you." She said resting her head onto his shoulder. She had
taken a big risk telling him but now she was pleased she had. She still didn't
know what to do but with her body changing shape already she wasn't sure
she still had time for an abortion. She desperately wanted to be a mother. A
good mother. One her child would be proud of. Could she really risk the
chance of her child being ill though. There was only one way to find out.
"John, If you are serious about sticking by me, then I want to have this baby."
The look in her eyes told him everything he needed to know. She loved
him, trusted him and wanted to have his child. "Abby you have made me the
happiest man alive. Again."
"What do you mean again?" Abby said brushing away her shed tears.
"You made me happy when you agreed to marry me and now you are going
to make me a father." John couldn't stop smiling. He bent his head and
claimed her mouth with his. He could never love her anymore than he did at
that moment in time.
As he ushered her to the bedroom, he held her tightly round the waist.
He could feel a difference in her body. She noticed his touch. "Let me show
you." She whispered as she undid the buttons of the shirt she wore. She
turned to reveal her body. The shirt slid from her shoulders leaving her in her
bra and trousers. John's eyes went straight to the rounded belly she had. He
couldn't believe it. She definitely was pregnant with his child. He lightly
touched her skin.
"How far along do you think you are?" He asked curiously. She had to
be at least three months gone to be showing anything on her slight frame.
"I don't know. I'm going to go up to OB tomorrow and see if I can make an
appointment and get checked out." Abby smiled as his hands traced over her
stomach. She was just as amazed as he was.
"Who will we tell first?" John had become like a little kid a Christmas.
"Can we keep it quiet for now? I'd like a little while just to absorb everything.
Just a couple of weeks and then we'll tell everyone. Do you think you can wait
that long?"
"I suppose, anything for you." He answered, his eyes never moving from her
stomach.
The following morning before her shift started Abby took the elevator ride
to the OB ward. She used to make the journey on a daily basis when she had
worked there. At the reception desk she spoke to the girl behind it. "Is Doctor
Coburn around please?"
"Abby, what a pleasure to see you. It's been a while." Janet Coburn gave her
former favourite nurse a little hug.
"I know, I'm sorry I haven't been up lately but things down stairs don't exactly
give me the time to get up as much as I would like." Abby smiled. "Janet I
have a favour to ask of you?"
"Ask away."
"I'm pregnant. I only found out last night, but I don't know how far along. I
was wondering if you could do some tests for me."
"Of course Abby, Congratulations."
"One more thing. Could you keep it quiet, just for the moment."
"Of course. Now I can fit you in right now if you would like."
"Really." The doctor nodded. "Can I just call down and get Carter up here.
He said he didn't want to miss this."
Five minutes later and Abby was lying on the bed with her stomach
bare. Carter sat beside her, holding her hand. Blood had already been taken
and was on it's way to the lab. Janet Coburn squeezed the gel onto Abby's
bare stomach and turned on the ultrasound machine. At first they couldn't
see or hear anything and then came the sound they all wanted to hear . A
good clear heartbeat. Abby's eyes teared up. She could hear her child. She
looked up to where John sat. His eyes too were filled with tears. He
squeezed her hand tighter as they looked back to the screen. "Well, lets see."
Janet looked at the screen and smiled. She turned it so Abby and Carter
could see. Thereon the screen was their baby. "By the looks of things you
are roughly 12 weeks pregnant. Everything seems normal and baby is a good
size. I'll leave you for a minute and go and get you some literature."
Alone in the room Abby finally let out a little cry. "John, we're going to
be parents."
"I know sweetheart. I know." He kissed her hand. They just stared at
the screen, at their baby for what seemed like ever.
never wanted to hurt you. But now I feel with what I am about to say I might.
I'm pregnant with your child." There she had said it. The look on his face was
one of disbelief. He started to speak. "Please let me finish. I should have
told you this a long time ago but I have never found the courage to do it.
While I was married to Richard I was pregnant. He never knew about it and
never will. We were nearing the end of our marriage anyway and I just
couldn't face telling him. I was also aware that my baby could be born bi- polar
and that I couldn't have coped with. So I had an abortion. I hated myself at
the time for doing it but it had to be done. In case you are wondering why I am
telling you this and choosing not to keep it a secret like last time is I trust you
more than life itself. This is your baby too and I need you to help me make the
decision. I would love to keep this baby but what if it turns out to be bi- polar.
John I don't think I could do it." She finally paused in her speech.
John stared at her. She looked so small and fragile. Her knees drawn
up to her chest. Her head rested on her knees, with tears in her eyes. He
reached across and took her hand into his own. "Abby, I love you and no
matter what you tell me nothing will ever change that. Yes I am shocked that
you've had an abortion but that's in the past. I'm in the present and will still be
here in the future. I would love for you to have this baby but if you are having
doubts then you have to do what is best for you. I will support you 100o/o in
anything you do." He kissed every finger tip on the hand he held and then the
palm. He loved this woman more than he had ever loved anyone in his life
and that included his parents.
"Thank you." She said resting her head onto his shoulder. She had
taken a big risk telling him but now she was pleased she had. She still didn't
know what to do but with her body changing shape already she wasn't sure
she still had time for an abortion. She desperately wanted to be a mother. A
good mother. One her child would be proud of. Could she really risk the
chance of her child being ill though. There was only one way to find out.
"John, If you are serious about sticking by me, then I want to have this baby."
The look in her eyes told him everything he needed to know. She loved
him, trusted him and wanted to have his child. "Abby you have made me the
happiest man alive. Again."
"What do you mean again?" Abby said brushing away her shed tears.
"You made me happy when you agreed to marry me and now you are going
to make me a father." John couldn't stop smiling. He bent his head and
claimed her mouth with his. He could never love her anymore than he did at
that moment in time.
As he ushered her to the bedroom, he held her tightly round the waist.
He could feel a difference in her body. She noticed his touch. "Let me show
you." She whispered as she undid the buttons of the shirt she wore. She
turned to reveal her body. The shirt slid from her shoulders leaving her in her
bra and trousers. John's eyes went straight to the rounded belly she had. He
couldn't believe it. She definitely was pregnant with his child. He lightly
touched her skin.
"How far along do you think you are?" He asked curiously. She had to
be at least three months gone to be showing anything on her slight frame.
"I don't know. I'm going to go up to OB tomorrow and see if I can make an
appointment and get checked out." Abby smiled as his hands traced over her
stomach. She was just as amazed as he was.
"Who will we tell first?" John had become like a little kid a Christmas.
"Can we keep it quiet for now? I'd like a little while just to absorb everything.
Just a couple of weeks and then we'll tell everyone. Do you think you can wait
that long?"
"I suppose, anything for you." He answered, his eyes never moving from her
stomach.
The following morning before her shift started Abby took the elevator ride
to the OB ward. She used to make the journey on a daily basis when she had
worked there. At the reception desk she spoke to the girl behind it. "Is Doctor
Coburn around please?"
"Abby, what a pleasure to see you. It's been a while." Janet Coburn gave her
former favourite nurse a little hug.
"I know, I'm sorry I haven't been up lately but things down stairs don't exactly
give me the time to get up as much as I would like." Abby smiled. "Janet I
have a favour to ask of you?"
"Ask away."
"I'm pregnant. I only found out last night, but I don't know how far along. I
was wondering if you could do some tests for me."
"Of course Abby, Congratulations."
"One more thing. Could you keep it quiet, just for the moment."
"Of course. Now I can fit you in right now if you would like."
"Really." The doctor nodded. "Can I just call down and get Carter up here.
He said he didn't want to miss this."
Five minutes later and Abby was lying on the bed with her stomach
bare. Carter sat beside her, holding her hand. Blood had already been taken
and was on it's way to the lab. Janet Coburn squeezed the gel onto Abby's
bare stomach and turned on the ultrasound machine. At first they couldn't
see or hear anything and then came the sound they all wanted to hear . A
good clear heartbeat. Abby's eyes teared up. She could hear her child. She
looked up to where John sat. His eyes too were filled with tears. He
squeezed her hand tighter as they looked back to the screen. "Well, lets see."
Janet looked at the screen and smiled. She turned it so Abby and Carter
could see. Thereon the screen was their baby. "By the looks of things you
are roughly 12 weeks pregnant. Everything seems normal and baby is a good
size. I'll leave you for a minute and go and get you some literature."
Alone in the room Abby finally let out a little cry. "John, we're going to
be parents."
"I know sweetheart. I know." He kissed her hand. They just stared at
the screen, at their baby for what seemed like ever.