I wrote this thinking about my very good friend and not about ER (yea I
know that is extremely shocking, but hey, there are two main things in my
life - guys and ER). It is a Carby, but it doesn't have names so I guess
it could be any couple. The little poems were written by me especially for
this fic (there are in the asterisks **). Enjoy and please review.
~Lilliana~
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Not Going to be Okay
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**I won't be okay
Not this time
No matter how many times you try to tell me
I am strong
That I am wrong
and I can get over this,
I won't be okay
Not this time**
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You stand next to me and hold my hand. You tell me you love me. You have said it to many, many other girls before. So why would I believe it is anything more than words when you say them to me?
Is it because I want them to be more than words?
I won't be okay unless you show me that you love me.
I know I love you, but I'm not sure that you love me the same.
I see you with other girls, and my heart breaks knowing that you will never, ever be mine.
They all say that we are cute together; even my mother thinks so. I believe them, but do you?
I am afraid to lose you.
You are the best friend I have ever had. If I loose that friendship, I don't think I would survive.
So don't tell me you love me unless you mean it, or I might do something crazy, like believe it.
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**And then I would not be okay
Not this time
I won't get over you
Even if you don't feel the same
I will love you for all time**
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They say it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.
So I am loving you
and loosing you.
And thinking that 'they' might be wrong.
Nothing in the world could hurt more than loosing you.
Not even never loving you.
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**So I won't be okay
Not this time**
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Not Going to be Okay
*********************************************************
**I won't be okay
Not this time
No matter how many times you try to tell me
I am strong
That I am wrong
and I can get over this,
I won't be okay
Not this time**
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You stand next to me and hold my hand. You tell me you love me. You have said it to many, many other girls before. So why would I believe it is anything more than words when you say them to me?
Is it because I want them to be more than words?
I won't be okay unless you show me that you love me.
I know I love you, but I'm not sure that you love me the same.
I see you with other girls, and my heart breaks knowing that you will never, ever be mine.
They all say that we are cute together; even my mother thinks so. I believe them, but do you?
I am afraid to lose you.
You are the best friend I have ever had. If I loose that friendship, I don't think I would survive.
So don't tell me you love me unless you mean it, or I might do something crazy, like believe it.
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**And then I would not be okay
Not this time
I won't get over you
Even if you don't feel the same
I will love you for all time**
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They say it is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.
So I am loving you
and loosing you.
And thinking that 'they' might be wrong.
Nothing in the world could hurt more than loosing you.
Not even never loving you.
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**So I won't be okay
Not this time**
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