I do not own 3 Door's Down's song, Changes. Nor do I own any of the characters in here, well actually I do, those ones that aren't recognized but they aren't going to be getting any popular anytime soon and be making money so, yah.
I'd like to just say THANK YOU so much for the wonderful words, the reviews, the feedback, its very much appreciated and I can't thank you guys enough, it was because of you I kept going so thank you! P.S special thanks to Amanda, Bee for listening to my nonstop talk about this dumbass story ;) thanks guys without you I wouldn't be this far as it is!
PART 4
"So how's Bosco, I know the three days are up...you know." Davis said, trying to find out about him but not pushing any buttons that might set Faith off. He watched as Faith got ready but when she was putting on the belt of her uniform she replied with a worried tone in her voice.
"I don't know honestly, he hasn't been answering my phone calls, I even went over there a few times, I really think it's hurting him."
"I'm sure he will tell you when he is ready Faith." Piped in Sully, almost a tone in his voice that was irritated with her concern over her partner. It was like a insult to herself for even worrying about him. Faith found herself glaring at Sully for a second but she allowed herself to calm down before opening her mouth to speak.
"You really don't know him at all Sully."
Faith knew better then Sully, she knew Bosco wouldn't admit it and knew he wasn't ever going to be 'ready.'
Before Sully could go on anymore the one everybody had been talking about came walking through the door.
Only to them it wasn't their Bosco, it was someone who just looked merely like him who was thinner, eyes sunk deep into his skull making the pale skin stand out more than it should. Sadly as much as they wanted to deny it to themselves the ghost that had walked in was their Bosco, he just looked incredibly awful.
"Christ Bosco you're not looking to good....crap maybe you should have taken more days off."
Faith shot another glare at Sully, what was with him lately, but she didn't care, Bosco was more important at the time being.
When Sully had made the comment to him Bosco paid no attention to him, it was like they weren't even there, like they were just statues to him. He opened his locker beginning to put his uniform on without saying a word. Faith walked over but as she tried to think of something to say nothing could come out, she didn't want to upset him even more then he already was by saying something stupid in the process.
"See you in the roll call." She wanted to be nothing but there for him as a friend, as a partner, but he wasn't giving her much of an option, so she said this and walked out.
Without any words being said, Davis and Sully followed suit-leaving Bosco to be alone. He wanted more then anything to reach out and say it was the last thing he wanted, to be alone with his thoughts but for some reason he couldn't find the words, to ask for help. So there he would be putting on his uniform slowly, thinking, almost swearing that the echoes that bounced from the busy Precinct was the sounds of the boy, tormenting him even more. He closed his eyes tightly trying to make sure he didn't lose his mind even further and he quickly not liking it anymore got the rest of his stuff and walked out.
Bosco never thought it would be so nerve racking so goddamn out of place as he walked into the roll call room. He felt like everybody was staring at him, knowing, seeing what he was feeling. Trying to forget, he just ended up taking a seat in the back, not even taking the one Faith had purposely saved for him. Swersky came in and talked his usual nonsense, the stuff Bosco tried to listen to but tuned out more, just because he wasn't in the mood to care or want to listen. Before he knew it he was in the RMP once again, sitting in the passenger side once more, only it wasn't their car, it was another one, theirs was being worked on since the window had been shot out.
While sitting there he thought at one point Faith was talking to him, but then again he couldn't be so sure because every few blocks he saw Ryan, close his eyes, and Ryan would be replaced by a kid that looked like him or be gone completely.
He wouldn't say a word not even when the radio's sparked with life as 55-David got a call and his partner flipped on the sirens.
Blinking his eyes slowly he was finally able to take his eyes off the window and go to the one in front of him.
Faith stole a glance here and there, almost scared he would spot her and ask what the hell was she looking at. But since Bosco seem not to even notice, she could get a good look at his body language which was nothing short of defensive. He was as far as possible as he could get from her, arms tucked into his body were they were not visible, and his face hard yet she could read those eyes. Pain. That is what she read, misery written as clear as day. If the window was down she wouldn't be surprised if Bosco jumped out, to run and run as far from his problems as he could get.
When the call came over she thought at least he would respond but he even refused to acknowledge it even look at her to see if she would answer, and until she stepped on the gas while flipping on the sirens he finally looked ahead of him.
'Oh Bosco, I'm here, I'm here for you, just have to talk to me.'
Together the two officers walked into the small gas station. A boy was screaming something fierce, his face was flushed red, breathing in and out, grabbing his hair, he looked like a lunatic that needed to be locked up with medication administrated to him regularly.
"Thank God you're here finally," the owner walking up to them as they stepped in trying to figure out the situation "this kid comes in demands some kind of candy that doesn't exist, told him we didn't care it and he goes demented screaming about it being a conspiracy and this and that, please do something with this kid."
Faith half expected Bosco to jump on the kid, Bosco being the type not to able to understand mental cases, or never having the tolerance. But this time he just stayed quiet letting her assist the situation.
"Sir, you wanna come outside and talk about this." She tried putting her hands out to assure the kid that everything would be okay but the kid took it the wrong way.
"DON"T TOUCH ME, DON'T COME NEAR ME!"
"Your going to have to calm down first."
The kid grabbed his hair again pulling on it and closing his eyes mumbling something.
"You want to tell me what's bugging you?"
"You, him, this store EVERYBODY GOD YOU PEOPLE CAN'T LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU'RE NOT TAKING ME BACK YOU HEAR? I WON'T GO."
Faith looked at Bosco for some kind of help but he didn't even show a concern he was too busy looking at something else his eyes looked like he was thinking something deeply.
"We can talk about this like adults can't we?"
The kid didn't say anything just kept his eyes closed shaking his head back and forth.
When she tried to grab his shoulder again he opened his eyes and stepped back a few.
"I TOLD YOU NOT TO TOUCH ME!"
By then Faith had her hand on her gun keeping her distance the boy was backing up and screaming even harder.
Yet while all this was happening Bosco didn't hear any of it. When he had stepped into that small store his mind stopped and began replaying everything. He couldn't stop it. The flashback was hard and quick. The sound of gunfire filled the air and he felt somebody hitting into him and screaming his name as more gunfire sounded around him, funny thing is he couldn't come out of his flashback. Bosco tried to figure out was going on but his vision was hazy and all he kept seeing was Ryan in his mind, the sound muffled like somebody had covered his ears and before he could even figure out was happening, Bosco blacked out.
Faith had seen the gun in time and began screaming her partners name. Good thing the guy was a poor shot or just so out of it he didn't know how to shoot the damn thing because he began firing up over their heads. Her gun drawn she then backed up going for cover only when she did this she knocked into Bosco which wasn't ready for this and fell back with her on top. Oblivious of what was going on dragged him from the behind using his jacket collar and brought him around a shelf for cover. Another gunshot went off and then silence. After a full fledge minute she then peeked her head around with her gun out in front of her she saw a foot, no movement. She saw the owner now peeking his own head around the corner, very slowly she then began to get up from where she had been crouched and made her way towards the foot.
"He's dead." The owner stated.
She then got up from the crouch-like walk she had begun towards the boy and walked over but still carefully she kicked the gun away just in case the owner was wrong reached down and check the pulse, she looked over the owner and nodded her head.
"He's coming around."
Bosco moved his head to one side when he felt light hitting one of his eyes and not liking it he tried to move his head in order to get away from it.
Faith stood and watched as Bosco moved his head to the side of the gurney as Doc flashed a penlight in his eyes to make sure his pupils were dilating correctly. Her concern just took on a new height. Now he wasn't able to do his job correctly, endangering both of their lives now and she was at a lost. She knew Bosco wouldn't take on going to a shrink lightly, hell he didn't last time. Faith still remembered the last time he reacted, and he ended up having a point, she didn't want him to think he didn't have anybody to talk to, that even herself wasn't somebody he could talk to, but she had tried to get him to talk and now this happening. Faith was completely and utterly alone on this matter, or that's how she felt that is, watching her partner slide further and further away from her and she didn't know what to do.
"Doc, can I talk to you when you're done?"
"Yeah sure."
She then turned and walked away from the ambulance holding her partner, not wanting him to able to hear the conversation she was about to have. It was a couple minutes before the medic could join up with her.
"What do you think could of made Boz pass out like that?" said Faith jumping the gun not wanting to even start with small chit chat.
Doc did what he normally did, shifted his weight then crossed his arms when his medical knowledge was asked of.
"Could be anything, lack of sleep, nutrients, stress."
"Especially all of them together?"
"Most defiantly." Nodding his head while saying it.
"I just wanted to hear it from you."
"No problem," when Faith went to walk away from Doc he stopped her by saying "it has to deal with that kid that got shot, that's why Bosco is acting the way he is?"
She winced and stopped.
"You heard?"
"Word gets around quickly."
"I noticed that."
"If Bosco needs to talk, you know, tell him I'm a good listener," he smiled lightly before adding on "I also know some good people who could help him."
"Thanks Doc, but believe me Bosco is far from the talking type, just I don't know how to approach it right now, he's my partner I really want to help but he won't let me."
"Well Bosco has to learn that you're only there to help, until he does, it's only going to get worse for him the longer he keeps it in."
"That's what I'm afraid of."
Doc then walked away with a wave of his hand. Faith went to find Lt. Swersky but before she found him somebody found her.
"Officer?"
Turning her head slightly she saw the owner of the little store.
"Your Officer Boscorelli's partner?"
"Yes...how do you?"
"How do I know Officer Boscorelli, he stops frequently at my store to get drinks or whatever before he heads home after the shift."
Faith then just realized how close they were to Bosco's apartment complex.
"I just wanted to express my concern for the young officer."
"Go on."
The man had gotten hesitant as though Bosco would find out.
"Just....I noticed a change, he started buying more alcohol, doesn't talk to me anymore. Yesterday he walked into my store and I didn't even think it was him, looks like he going through a lot. I'm just scared I known him as long as I been open, just thought you should know, thank you again Officer."
The owner then took off as Faith Yokas stared at him with complete shock. The worry that she had felt for her partner all along just had taken a full fledged new level of complete terror of what was going to happen to him and right in front of her none the less. She realized her mission was now to find Lt. Swersky.
"I'm not supposed to be scared of anything,
But I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted
And nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm tryin' hard to breathe now,
But there's no air in my lungs.
There's no one here to talk to
And the pain inside is making me numb.
I try to hold this under control,
They can't help me, cause no one knows."
It was over Bosco knew it was over. He knew Swersky was now going to send him to some kind of shrink, or his mother-partner Faith would send him on his merry way, wouldn't want a partner that blacks out on you, hell he wouldn't want Faith doing that to him. He just was waiting for it to happen, waiting to be cleared so he could go home and think how much he screwed up. God, why couldn't he come out of this? He hated people feeling sorry for him, or wallowing in their own self-pity but that is what is exactly he was doing and something was stopping him from snapping out of it. He wanted so much to but no matter how much he would push for something like this, he knew it wasn't going to come easy.
"Now I'm goin' through changes, changes.
God, I feel so frustrated lately.
When I get suffocated, save me.
Now I'm goin' through changes, changes"
Then like a dark cloud came over him, couldn't stop it, just happened. He realized, he wasn't going to wait for them to come and get him, he was going to leave right then and there and nobody was going to stop him. So unhooking anything that Doc had done to monitor him, he then left the rig, nobody noticing Bosco walking away from the scene. To most he looked just perfectly sane, regular officer walking away from his latest work, only how far from the truth that was.
"Feelin' weak and weary
Walkin' through this world alone
Everything they say every word of it
Cuts me to the bone, (and I bleed)
I've got something to say
But now I've got nowhere to turn
It feels like I've been buried
Underneath all the weight of the world.
I try to hold this under control,
They can't help me, cause no one knows."
"Yokas."
Faith knew that voice, which was Lt. Swersky. She stopped as he came walking up to her from the side.
"Where is Bosco?"
"He's in the ambulance being checked up on."
"What's going on with him, has he said anything?"
"No, but every since he shot Ryan....it just hasn't been the same."
As the two walked into the direction of the ambulance Swersky continued to converse with her.
"I seen this happen before, the greatest men get ripped apart, they just keep telling themselves it was their fault when really that is not the case at all."
"Bosco blames himself completely and fully for it, I don't know how to get it through him, he won't listen to me."
"Well Bosco needs some more time off I don't think it was time for him to come back and I'm sending him to this doctor, helps officers in this kind of situation, helped many around the nation."
Faith just knew this was going to be blamed on her but if her partner wasn't going to listen to her, and she tried everything then maybe this was the best thing for him. She just hoped in the long run, Bosco knew it was for the health and safety of him.
The two officers walked up to the bus where Bosco was suppose to be yet he wasn't there not even a medic around.
"This better be some kind of sick joke." said Faith looking into the back wanting to know where her partner was.
Taking a few steps Swersky and Faith looked in hope to see Bosco just walking around and hopefully just talking to somebody like nothing had gone wrong all day.
"Did you see an officer leave?" Swersky asking another officer walking bye.
"No."
Doc and Carlos had walked up again.
"Doc please tell me they took Bosco into another ambulance."
"No, why, something wrong?"
"Yeah, he's gone."
"What do you mean he's gone?"
"I mean he is gone, he not there anymore Doc."
Almost wondering if this was some kind of dirty joke Doc looked worriedly into the empty back of the rig with Carlos jumping in and grabbing something off the metal floor. A blood pressure pump turning around with it swinging in his hand he showed it to them.
They all looked outside turning around and looking at the many vehicles that surrounded the area wondering how the hell it was possible Bosco got up out of the bus and walked out, then again he was in his uniform who would suspect him? The only ones that knew something was truly wrong with him mentally and not physically were his friends and now they had no Bosco and no clue where to look for him.
Now I'm goin through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me.
Now I'm goin' through changes, changes
I'm blind and shakin', bound and breakin'
I hope I'll make it, through all these changes.
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God I feel so frustrated, lately
When I get suffocated, save me.
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it.
But I'm going through changes, changes.
God I feel so frustrated, lately.
And I get suffocated, I hate this.
But I'm going through changes, changes.
TBC....
I'd like to just say THANK YOU so much for the wonderful words, the reviews, the feedback, its very much appreciated and I can't thank you guys enough, it was because of you I kept going so thank you! P.S special thanks to Amanda, Bee for listening to my nonstop talk about this dumbass story ;) thanks guys without you I wouldn't be this far as it is!
PART 4
"So how's Bosco, I know the three days are up...you know." Davis said, trying to find out about him but not pushing any buttons that might set Faith off. He watched as Faith got ready but when she was putting on the belt of her uniform she replied with a worried tone in her voice.
"I don't know honestly, he hasn't been answering my phone calls, I even went over there a few times, I really think it's hurting him."
"I'm sure he will tell you when he is ready Faith." Piped in Sully, almost a tone in his voice that was irritated with her concern over her partner. It was like a insult to herself for even worrying about him. Faith found herself glaring at Sully for a second but she allowed herself to calm down before opening her mouth to speak.
"You really don't know him at all Sully."
Faith knew better then Sully, she knew Bosco wouldn't admit it and knew he wasn't ever going to be 'ready.'
Before Sully could go on anymore the one everybody had been talking about came walking through the door.
Only to them it wasn't their Bosco, it was someone who just looked merely like him who was thinner, eyes sunk deep into his skull making the pale skin stand out more than it should. Sadly as much as they wanted to deny it to themselves the ghost that had walked in was their Bosco, he just looked incredibly awful.
"Christ Bosco you're not looking to good....crap maybe you should have taken more days off."
Faith shot another glare at Sully, what was with him lately, but she didn't care, Bosco was more important at the time being.
When Sully had made the comment to him Bosco paid no attention to him, it was like they weren't even there, like they were just statues to him. He opened his locker beginning to put his uniform on without saying a word. Faith walked over but as she tried to think of something to say nothing could come out, she didn't want to upset him even more then he already was by saying something stupid in the process.
"See you in the roll call." She wanted to be nothing but there for him as a friend, as a partner, but he wasn't giving her much of an option, so she said this and walked out.
Without any words being said, Davis and Sully followed suit-leaving Bosco to be alone. He wanted more then anything to reach out and say it was the last thing he wanted, to be alone with his thoughts but for some reason he couldn't find the words, to ask for help. So there he would be putting on his uniform slowly, thinking, almost swearing that the echoes that bounced from the busy Precinct was the sounds of the boy, tormenting him even more. He closed his eyes tightly trying to make sure he didn't lose his mind even further and he quickly not liking it anymore got the rest of his stuff and walked out.
Bosco never thought it would be so nerve racking so goddamn out of place as he walked into the roll call room. He felt like everybody was staring at him, knowing, seeing what he was feeling. Trying to forget, he just ended up taking a seat in the back, not even taking the one Faith had purposely saved for him. Swersky came in and talked his usual nonsense, the stuff Bosco tried to listen to but tuned out more, just because he wasn't in the mood to care or want to listen. Before he knew it he was in the RMP once again, sitting in the passenger side once more, only it wasn't their car, it was another one, theirs was being worked on since the window had been shot out.
While sitting there he thought at one point Faith was talking to him, but then again he couldn't be so sure because every few blocks he saw Ryan, close his eyes, and Ryan would be replaced by a kid that looked like him or be gone completely.
He wouldn't say a word not even when the radio's sparked with life as 55-David got a call and his partner flipped on the sirens.
Blinking his eyes slowly he was finally able to take his eyes off the window and go to the one in front of him.
Faith stole a glance here and there, almost scared he would spot her and ask what the hell was she looking at. But since Bosco seem not to even notice, she could get a good look at his body language which was nothing short of defensive. He was as far as possible as he could get from her, arms tucked into his body were they were not visible, and his face hard yet she could read those eyes. Pain. That is what she read, misery written as clear as day. If the window was down she wouldn't be surprised if Bosco jumped out, to run and run as far from his problems as he could get.
When the call came over she thought at least he would respond but he even refused to acknowledge it even look at her to see if she would answer, and until she stepped on the gas while flipping on the sirens he finally looked ahead of him.
'Oh Bosco, I'm here, I'm here for you, just have to talk to me.'
Together the two officers walked into the small gas station. A boy was screaming something fierce, his face was flushed red, breathing in and out, grabbing his hair, he looked like a lunatic that needed to be locked up with medication administrated to him regularly.
"Thank God you're here finally," the owner walking up to them as they stepped in trying to figure out the situation "this kid comes in demands some kind of candy that doesn't exist, told him we didn't care it and he goes demented screaming about it being a conspiracy and this and that, please do something with this kid."
Faith half expected Bosco to jump on the kid, Bosco being the type not to able to understand mental cases, or never having the tolerance. But this time he just stayed quiet letting her assist the situation.
"Sir, you wanna come outside and talk about this." She tried putting her hands out to assure the kid that everything would be okay but the kid took it the wrong way.
"DON"T TOUCH ME, DON'T COME NEAR ME!"
"Your going to have to calm down first."
The kid grabbed his hair again pulling on it and closing his eyes mumbling something.
"You want to tell me what's bugging you?"
"You, him, this store EVERYBODY GOD YOU PEOPLE CAN'T LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU'RE NOT TAKING ME BACK YOU HEAR? I WON'T GO."
Faith looked at Bosco for some kind of help but he didn't even show a concern he was too busy looking at something else his eyes looked like he was thinking something deeply.
"We can talk about this like adults can't we?"
The kid didn't say anything just kept his eyes closed shaking his head back and forth.
When she tried to grab his shoulder again he opened his eyes and stepped back a few.
"I TOLD YOU NOT TO TOUCH ME!"
By then Faith had her hand on her gun keeping her distance the boy was backing up and screaming even harder.
Yet while all this was happening Bosco didn't hear any of it. When he had stepped into that small store his mind stopped and began replaying everything. He couldn't stop it. The flashback was hard and quick. The sound of gunfire filled the air and he felt somebody hitting into him and screaming his name as more gunfire sounded around him, funny thing is he couldn't come out of his flashback. Bosco tried to figure out was going on but his vision was hazy and all he kept seeing was Ryan in his mind, the sound muffled like somebody had covered his ears and before he could even figure out was happening, Bosco blacked out.
Faith had seen the gun in time and began screaming her partners name. Good thing the guy was a poor shot or just so out of it he didn't know how to shoot the damn thing because he began firing up over their heads. Her gun drawn she then backed up going for cover only when she did this she knocked into Bosco which wasn't ready for this and fell back with her on top. Oblivious of what was going on dragged him from the behind using his jacket collar and brought him around a shelf for cover. Another gunshot went off and then silence. After a full fledge minute she then peeked her head around with her gun out in front of her she saw a foot, no movement. She saw the owner now peeking his own head around the corner, very slowly she then began to get up from where she had been crouched and made her way towards the foot.
"He's dead." The owner stated.
She then got up from the crouch-like walk she had begun towards the boy and walked over but still carefully she kicked the gun away just in case the owner was wrong reached down and check the pulse, she looked over the owner and nodded her head.
"He's coming around."
Bosco moved his head to one side when he felt light hitting one of his eyes and not liking it he tried to move his head in order to get away from it.
Faith stood and watched as Bosco moved his head to the side of the gurney as Doc flashed a penlight in his eyes to make sure his pupils were dilating correctly. Her concern just took on a new height. Now he wasn't able to do his job correctly, endangering both of their lives now and she was at a lost. She knew Bosco wouldn't take on going to a shrink lightly, hell he didn't last time. Faith still remembered the last time he reacted, and he ended up having a point, she didn't want him to think he didn't have anybody to talk to, that even herself wasn't somebody he could talk to, but she had tried to get him to talk and now this happening. Faith was completely and utterly alone on this matter, or that's how she felt that is, watching her partner slide further and further away from her and she didn't know what to do.
"Doc, can I talk to you when you're done?"
"Yeah sure."
She then turned and walked away from the ambulance holding her partner, not wanting him to able to hear the conversation she was about to have. It was a couple minutes before the medic could join up with her.
"What do you think could of made Boz pass out like that?" said Faith jumping the gun not wanting to even start with small chit chat.
Doc did what he normally did, shifted his weight then crossed his arms when his medical knowledge was asked of.
"Could be anything, lack of sleep, nutrients, stress."
"Especially all of them together?"
"Most defiantly." Nodding his head while saying it.
"I just wanted to hear it from you."
"No problem," when Faith went to walk away from Doc he stopped her by saying "it has to deal with that kid that got shot, that's why Bosco is acting the way he is?"
She winced and stopped.
"You heard?"
"Word gets around quickly."
"I noticed that."
"If Bosco needs to talk, you know, tell him I'm a good listener," he smiled lightly before adding on "I also know some good people who could help him."
"Thanks Doc, but believe me Bosco is far from the talking type, just I don't know how to approach it right now, he's my partner I really want to help but he won't let me."
"Well Bosco has to learn that you're only there to help, until he does, it's only going to get worse for him the longer he keeps it in."
"That's what I'm afraid of."
Doc then walked away with a wave of his hand. Faith went to find Lt. Swersky but before she found him somebody found her.
"Officer?"
Turning her head slightly she saw the owner of the little store.
"Your Officer Boscorelli's partner?"
"Yes...how do you?"
"How do I know Officer Boscorelli, he stops frequently at my store to get drinks or whatever before he heads home after the shift."
Faith then just realized how close they were to Bosco's apartment complex.
"I just wanted to express my concern for the young officer."
"Go on."
The man had gotten hesitant as though Bosco would find out.
"Just....I noticed a change, he started buying more alcohol, doesn't talk to me anymore. Yesterday he walked into my store and I didn't even think it was him, looks like he going through a lot. I'm just scared I known him as long as I been open, just thought you should know, thank you again Officer."
The owner then took off as Faith Yokas stared at him with complete shock. The worry that she had felt for her partner all along just had taken a full fledged new level of complete terror of what was going to happen to him and right in front of her none the less. She realized her mission was now to find Lt. Swersky.
"I'm not supposed to be scared of anything,
But I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted
And nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm tryin' hard to breathe now,
But there's no air in my lungs.
There's no one here to talk to
And the pain inside is making me numb.
I try to hold this under control,
They can't help me, cause no one knows."
It was over Bosco knew it was over. He knew Swersky was now going to send him to some kind of shrink, or his mother-partner Faith would send him on his merry way, wouldn't want a partner that blacks out on you, hell he wouldn't want Faith doing that to him. He just was waiting for it to happen, waiting to be cleared so he could go home and think how much he screwed up. God, why couldn't he come out of this? He hated people feeling sorry for him, or wallowing in their own self-pity but that is what is exactly he was doing and something was stopping him from snapping out of it. He wanted so much to but no matter how much he would push for something like this, he knew it wasn't going to come easy.
"Now I'm goin' through changes, changes.
God, I feel so frustrated lately.
When I get suffocated, save me.
Now I'm goin' through changes, changes"
Then like a dark cloud came over him, couldn't stop it, just happened. He realized, he wasn't going to wait for them to come and get him, he was going to leave right then and there and nobody was going to stop him. So unhooking anything that Doc had done to monitor him, he then left the rig, nobody noticing Bosco walking away from the scene. To most he looked just perfectly sane, regular officer walking away from his latest work, only how far from the truth that was.
"Feelin' weak and weary
Walkin' through this world alone
Everything they say every word of it
Cuts me to the bone, (and I bleed)
I've got something to say
But now I've got nowhere to turn
It feels like I've been buried
Underneath all the weight of the world.
I try to hold this under control,
They can't help me, cause no one knows."
"Yokas."
Faith knew that voice, which was Lt. Swersky. She stopped as he came walking up to her from the side.
"Where is Bosco?"
"He's in the ambulance being checked up on."
"What's going on with him, has he said anything?"
"No, but every since he shot Ryan....it just hasn't been the same."
As the two walked into the direction of the ambulance Swersky continued to converse with her.
"I seen this happen before, the greatest men get ripped apart, they just keep telling themselves it was their fault when really that is not the case at all."
"Bosco blames himself completely and fully for it, I don't know how to get it through him, he won't listen to me."
"Well Bosco needs some more time off I don't think it was time for him to come back and I'm sending him to this doctor, helps officers in this kind of situation, helped many around the nation."
Faith just knew this was going to be blamed on her but if her partner wasn't going to listen to her, and she tried everything then maybe this was the best thing for him. She just hoped in the long run, Bosco knew it was for the health and safety of him.
The two officers walked up to the bus where Bosco was suppose to be yet he wasn't there not even a medic around.
"This better be some kind of sick joke." said Faith looking into the back wanting to know where her partner was.
Taking a few steps Swersky and Faith looked in hope to see Bosco just walking around and hopefully just talking to somebody like nothing had gone wrong all day.
"Did you see an officer leave?" Swersky asking another officer walking bye.
"No."
Doc and Carlos had walked up again.
"Doc please tell me they took Bosco into another ambulance."
"No, why, something wrong?"
"Yeah, he's gone."
"What do you mean he's gone?"
"I mean he is gone, he not there anymore Doc."
Almost wondering if this was some kind of dirty joke Doc looked worriedly into the empty back of the rig with Carlos jumping in and grabbing something off the metal floor. A blood pressure pump turning around with it swinging in his hand he showed it to them.
They all looked outside turning around and looking at the many vehicles that surrounded the area wondering how the hell it was possible Bosco got up out of the bus and walked out, then again he was in his uniform who would suspect him? The only ones that knew something was truly wrong with him mentally and not physically were his friends and now they had no Bosco and no clue where to look for him.
Now I'm goin through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me.
Now I'm goin' through changes, changes
I'm blind and shakin', bound and breakin'
I hope I'll make it, through all these changes.
Now I'm going through changes, changes
God I feel so frustrated, lately
When I get suffocated, save me.
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it.
But I'm going through changes, changes.
God I feel so frustrated, lately.
And I get suffocated, I hate this.
But I'm going through changes, changes.
TBC....