Disclaimer: I do not own or claim to own the final fantasy characters
contained within this piece of.nevermind. Nor do I own the song that
inspired me, the song's called Forgive performed by Rebecca Lynn Howard.
Now that that's done with I wrote this while on a caffeine rush.and eating
bugles. This is not a style I'm used to so if you want to flame it sign in
and then do it, that way I can read your work and find out what you like.
Forgive
"I always said that'd be it
That I wouldn't stick around if it ever came to this
Here I am, so confused
How am I supposed to leave when I can't even move?
In the time it would have took to say "honey I'm home, how was your day?"
You dropped the bomb right where we live
And just expect me to forgive..."
As the blond entered the dorm room he looked over and saw the pale, ebony hared with a carmine highlight woman he loved sitting there looking at him with sorrowful brown eyes. He walked briskly over to her. Sitting next to her and taking her delicate hands into his own and looked at her concerned.
"What's wrong?"
She looked up at him, her doe eyes swimming with tears then she wrapped her arms around his neck and started to cry, speaking between sobs.
"I have to tell you this, I can't hide it any longer."
Zell moved back slowly and pushed her gently back, brushing the limp hair back onto her forehead and looking at her softly speaking trying to add humor in this solemn situation.
"You're not pregnant are you?"
She stood and pulled away from his gentle touch. Speaking through the tears again.
"I'm in love with another man."
Zell stood and almost fell over. He looked at her with a mix of anger and sadness. She stood looking sorrowfully at him.
"Please forgive me?"
He turned and closed his eyes, silently speaking to himself,
I hurt...and I hurt badly...everyone expects me to be the dopey one of them, and so through my pain I'm the stupidest of them all. But with my pain, I hide my true emotions.[i] But now the only one who might understand me has found another!?
"He turned and looked at her frowning.
Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say...forgive"
He sighed and walked over to the beds, sitting down on his he placed his head in his hands, feeling the tears welling up. He spoke through the palms his voice muffled, hiding the pain.
"How can you do this to me? I've told you everything."
"Zell, it's just-"
She reached over and tried to comfort him, at her touch he leapt up and pushed her back.
"No! I can't accept this. not right now."
"I should ask but I won't
Was it love or just her touch?
Cause I don't think I wanna know
So get you some things
And get out
Don't call me for a day or two
So I can sort this out
Well you might as well have ripped the life right out of me
Right here tonight
And through the fallin' tears you said
"Can you ever just forgive?"
Zell looked at her, tears freely falling down both of their faces. He turned from her and spoke coldly.
"I don't want to know who it is, or why. Just please leave for a while."
Rinoa looked at him with both sadness and resentment in her eyes as she grabbed a suitcase and started to put some things into it. She spoke gently wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Will you be able to understand someday?"
Zell pulled his fist back and hit the wall by his bed hard. He ground his teeth together and turned looking at her with anger in his watery icy blue eyes.
"Just leave now! Don't come back!"
He lashed out at the air pointing towards the door and looking at the ground, silver tears falling onto the ugly rug. As she started to leave she paused at the door and looked back speaking in a broken voice.
"Maybe you'll understand someday."
She closed the door just in time, as Zell had grabbed a flower vase and thrown it at the door, feeling his inward turmoil start to resurface he collapsed on the floor and sat on his knees head buried in his hands sobbing.
"Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say...forgive"
He stood after about two hours and walked out of the room, tightening his gloves as he walked towards the training ground mentally thinking about everything he'd talked to her about, all the pain he'd shared, the joys, everything. Now she just threw him off to the side for another! He ground his teeth again as he entered the green corridor.
"You know what they say
Forgive and forget
Relive and regret"
As he was walking towards the stainless steel doors he saw Rinnai with Squall, clinging to his arm, within he felt the rage boiling as Squall's blue-gray eyes accusingly stared at him. He ignored it and even managed to repress his feelings as he turned away from them and entered the door where Irvine and Selphie were waiting.
"Forgive..."
Her words echoed hollowly in his mind.."Maybe you'll understand someday." He clenched his jaw again and looked at Irvine and Selphie who were looking at him with sad eyes.
"Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say...forgive"
As he stood there Irvine sighed and took Selphie's hand before leaving him there alone. As he stood in the jungle like atmosphere he felt a familiar pain deep within his stomach. It was the same thing he felt when He had to leave his mother. He shook his head hard then started towards the planks trying to shake the memories, but there were to damn many. He closed his eyes and then felt a large creature behind him; he slowly turned to be string into the jaws of a T-Rexasaur.
"Oh...it's too soon for me to say FORGIVE"
Zell curled his hands into fists and glared at the monster's eyes, as he dashed towards it yelling at the same time.
"GGGGAAAAAHHHHH!!!"
Dark Angel: "And that's it. heehee I wish to thank my beta reader and person who has given several ideas and line the blackraveness. And would like to thank you people reading this. I accpet flames as long as they're not too vulgar and are signed. I also wanna thank my computer for not freezing and letting me type this up! And now I say good-"
Zell: "Whoa wait a minute! What happens!!!!"
DA: "What?"
Z: "Do I win or not? C'mon I hate to be left doing something!!!"
DA: "Well that's up to the readers to decide if you live and forgive Rinoa or if you die and don't or any other combination."
Z: "Man that's really (edited for content) ed up. HEY!"
TheBlackRaveness: ::Suddenly comes out of no where: looks at Dark:: "You should write more, Cuz I love zeelllllll!!! You should make him forget rinoa and love meeeeeee!"
DA: Oh geez..maybe I've gotten in a bit over my head this time.anyhow later everyone!
TheBlackRaveness and Zell leap on DA and start beating her.
----------------------- [i] . This was from TheBlackRaveness and is used with her permission.
Forgive
"I always said that'd be it
That I wouldn't stick around if it ever came to this
Here I am, so confused
How am I supposed to leave when I can't even move?
In the time it would have took to say "honey I'm home, how was your day?"
You dropped the bomb right where we live
And just expect me to forgive..."
As the blond entered the dorm room he looked over and saw the pale, ebony hared with a carmine highlight woman he loved sitting there looking at him with sorrowful brown eyes. He walked briskly over to her. Sitting next to her and taking her delicate hands into his own and looked at her concerned.
"What's wrong?"
She looked up at him, her doe eyes swimming with tears then she wrapped her arms around his neck and started to cry, speaking between sobs.
"I have to tell you this, I can't hide it any longer."
Zell moved back slowly and pushed her gently back, brushing the limp hair back onto her forehead and looking at her softly speaking trying to add humor in this solemn situation.
"You're not pregnant are you?"
She stood and pulled away from his gentle touch. Speaking through the tears again.
"I'm in love with another man."
Zell stood and almost fell over. He looked at her with a mix of anger and sadness. She stood looking sorrowfully at him.
"Please forgive me?"
He turned and closed his eyes, silently speaking to himself,
I hurt...and I hurt badly...everyone expects me to be the dopey one of them, and so through my pain I'm the stupidest of them all. But with my pain, I hide my true emotions.[i] But now the only one who might understand me has found another!?
"He turned and looked at her frowning.
Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say...forgive"
He sighed and walked over to the beds, sitting down on his he placed his head in his hands, feeling the tears welling up. He spoke through the palms his voice muffled, hiding the pain.
"How can you do this to me? I've told you everything."
"Zell, it's just-"
She reached over and tried to comfort him, at her touch he leapt up and pushed her back.
"No! I can't accept this. not right now."
"I should ask but I won't
Was it love or just her touch?
Cause I don't think I wanna know
So get you some things
And get out
Don't call me for a day or two
So I can sort this out
Well you might as well have ripped the life right out of me
Right here tonight
And through the fallin' tears you said
"Can you ever just forgive?"
Zell looked at her, tears freely falling down both of their faces. He turned from her and spoke coldly.
"I don't want to know who it is, or why. Just please leave for a while."
Rinoa looked at him with both sadness and resentment in her eyes as she grabbed a suitcase and started to put some things into it. She spoke gently wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Will you be able to understand someday?"
Zell pulled his fist back and hit the wall by his bed hard. He ground his teeth together and turned looking at her with anger in his watery icy blue eyes.
"Just leave now! Don't come back!"
He lashed out at the air pointing towards the door and looking at the ground, silver tears falling onto the ugly rug. As she started to leave she paused at the door and looked back speaking in a broken voice.
"Maybe you'll understand someday."
She closed the door just in time, as Zell had grabbed a flower vase and thrown it at the door, feeling his inward turmoil start to resurface he collapsed on the floor and sat on his knees head buried in his hands sobbing.
"Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say...forgive"
He stood after about two hours and walked out of the room, tightening his gloves as he walked towards the training ground mentally thinking about everything he'd talked to her about, all the pain he'd shared, the joys, everything. Now she just threw him off to the side for another! He ground his teeth again as he entered the green corridor.
"You know what they say
Forgive and forget
Relive and regret"
As he was walking towards the stainless steel doors he saw Rinnai with Squall, clinging to his arm, within he felt the rage boiling as Squall's blue-gray eyes accusingly stared at him. He ignored it and even managed to repress his feelings as he turned away from them and entered the door where Irvine and Selphie were waiting.
"Forgive..."
Her words echoed hollowly in his mind.."Maybe you'll understand someday." He clenched his jaw again and looked at Irvine and Selphie who were looking at him with sad eyes.
"Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say...forgive"
As he stood there Irvine sighed and took Selphie's hand before leaving him there alone. As he stood in the jungle like atmosphere he felt a familiar pain deep within his stomach. It was the same thing he felt when He had to leave his mother. He shook his head hard then started towards the planks trying to shake the memories, but there were to damn many. He closed his eyes and then felt a large creature behind him; he slowly turned to be string into the jaws of a T-Rexasaur.
"Oh...it's too soon for me to say FORGIVE"
Zell curled his hands into fists and glared at the monster's eyes, as he dashed towards it yelling at the same time.
"GGGGAAAAAHHHHH!!!"
Dark Angel: "And that's it. heehee I wish to thank my beta reader and person who has given several ideas and line the blackraveness. And would like to thank you people reading this. I accpet flames as long as they're not too vulgar and are signed. I also wanna thank my computer for not freezing and letting me type this up! And now I say good-"
Zell: "Whoa wait a minute! What happens!!!!"
DA: "What?"
Z: "Do I win or not? C'mon I hate to be left doing something!!!"
DA: "Well that's up to the readers to decide if you live and forgive Rinoa or if you die and don't or any other combination."
Z: "Man that's really (edited for content) ed up. HEY!"
TheBlackRaveness: ::Suddenly comes out of no where: looks at Dark:: "You should write more, Cuz I love zeelllllll!!! You should make him forget rinoa and love meeeeeee!"
DA: Oh geez..maybe I've gotten in a bit over my head this time.anyhow later everyone!
TheBlackRaveness and Zell leap on DA and start beating her.
----------------------- [i] . This was from TheBlackRaveness and is used with her permission.