What I Should Have Said
Spoilers: Mentioning of tonight's episode Playing With Fire, if haven't seen and don't want to be too spoiled, I would advise not to read.
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't make any money off of them, but god knows I would take George if I could.
A/N Okay, I am a die-hard CSI fan and a total Nick and Sara shipper, so if you don't like the couple, feel free not to read this. Secondly, as I stated I will be talking about "Playing With Fire". This story is based of events of the episode and my interpretations of some "things". I also really wanted some good Nick and Sara stuff so don't shoot me. Finally, this is my first ever fan fic. I'm all about "constructive criticism" please don't be too harsh. I also don't have a beta reading this, so I'll my best to make sure things make sense.
He said no. He turned me down. I can't believe this. Doesn't he understand that I have been keeping a huge secret from him, from everyone? I was going to tell him before the explosion occurred, that's why I was following him. I feel so completely alone. I don't know what to do anymore. I knew I could tell him and he would support me, no questions asked, which is what I wanted, no questions. What am I going to do now?
I quickly walk into the locker room and open mine up. I grab my jacket and keys and head out. As I head out to my car I recall Nick's comment of being invulnerable. Do I think that about myself? Do I consider myself invulnerable? I shouldn't, now more than ever.
I have almost reached my Tahoe when I hear someone calling my name. I turn and see it is Nick.
"God, Sara did you not hear me? I've been callin' your name for awhile?" "I'm sorry, my mind is on other things. What's up?" "I just wanted to apologize for being so harsh at the apartment earlier today. I didn't mean it, well I kind of did, just worried about you." "Look Nick, I'm fine. I'm tired and I just want to go home. It's been an extremely long day." "I understand, but you sure your okay? You've seemed out of it all day?"
'Gee thanks Nick' I think to myself. Before I can reply, Grissom comes out.
"Good Sara, I caught you before you left." 'Oh god, this isn't happening' I sigh before answering, "What's up?" "I wanted to apologize for the way I acted earlier, I didn't mean to be so rude."
I look at Nick and back at Grissom.
"What's up with both of you apologizing to me right before I leave?"
"Look Sara, I didn't want you to leave upset with me." Grissom answered "Neither did I." Nick responded
"Look this day has completely sucked beyond the telling of it. Maybe you two apologizing makes you feel any better, but it doesn't help me. I was in an explosion for god sakes." I look at Nick " and you imply that I'm trying to get myself killed." I turn and face Grissom, "and you, you, can't even help me when I need it. You turn me down like I'm nobody." I pause "you two can't even understand what I'm going through."
"Then tell us Sara?" Grissom states
"Fine, you wanna know. I'm pregnant. There I said it. Happy now. I was in an explosion and I'm pregnant. I can't believe you two haven't even noticed, my weight gain, my weird appetite, my distance." I take a deep breath before continuing, "That's why I wanted to go to dinner with you Grissom. I knew you would support me. I knew you wouldn't ask questions about the father and who it was."
Both Nick and Grissom look at each with confused looks on their faces.
"How far along are you?" asked Grissom, "You haven't told the father yet, have you?"
"No, I haven't. What do I say, thanks for the comfort sex, guess what I'm pregnant and it's yours! Come on."
"I'm sorry that I hurt you Sara, but I would have questioned who the father was. I would want to do about it. Sara, I care about you like a daughter, I worry. I worry now about this decision that you're possibly making without the fathers knowledge."
"Sara, the man deserves the right to know." Nick states
"Fine, you both want to know who the father is?" The two men nod. I turn and look and Nick, staring into his deep brown eyes. "It's yours." I say to him. "I'm pregnant with your child Nick."
Before either of them can respond I turn and run to my car, quickly get in and start the engine up and reverse out of the parking lot. I need to get out of here. I need to think, clear my mind. She turned the radio on and out came and song that made her remember, remember the night between her and Nick.
You don't remember me But I remember you I lie awake and try so hard Not to think of you But who can decide what they dream? And dream I do.
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you And touched my hand I knew you loved me then
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
I look in the mirror and see your face If I look deep enough So many things inside that are Just like your are taking over
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
(Taking over me)
Your taking over me
(Taking over me)
Taking over me
A/N Song "Taking Over Me" by Evanescence from their Fallen cd. Depending how my reviews go, the next chapter is intended to be a flashback of sorts. Remember "constructive criticism". Thanks.
Spoilers: Mentioning of tonight's episode Playing With Fire, if haven't seen and don't want to be too spoiled, I would advise not to read.
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't make any money off of them, but god knows I would take George if I could.
A/N Okay, I am a die-hard CSI fan and a total Nick and Sara shipper, so if you don't like the couple, feel free not to read this. Secondly, as I stated I will be talking about "Playing With Fire". This story is based of events of the episode and my interpretations of some "things". I also really wanted some good Nick and Sara stuff so don't shoot me. Finally, this is my first ever fan fic. I'm all about "constructive criticism" please don't be too harsh. I also don't have a beta reading this, so I'll my best to make sure things make sense.
He said no. He turned me down. I can't believe this. Doesn't he understand that I have been keeping a huge secret from him, from everyone? I was going to tell him before the explosion occurred, that's why I was following him. I feel so completely alone. I don't know what to do anymore. I knew I could tell him and he would support me, no questions asked, which is what I wanted, no questions. What am I going to do now?
I quickly walk into the locker room and open mine up. I grab my jacket and keys and head out. As I head out to my car I recall Nick's comment of being invulnerable. Do I think that about myself? Do I consider myself invulnerable? I shouldn't, now more than ever.
I have almost reached my Tahoe when I hear someone calling my name. I turn and see it is Nick.
"God, Sara did you not hear me? I've been callin' your name for awhile?" "I'm sorry, my mind is on other things. What's up?" "I just wanted to apologize for being so harsh at the apartment earlier today. I didn't mean it, well I kind of did, just worried about you." "Look Nick, I'm fine. I'm tired and I just want to go home. It's been an extremely long day." "I understand, but you sure your okay? You've seemed out of it all day?"
'Gee thanks Nick' I think to myself. Before I can reply, Grissom comes out.
"Good Sara, I caught you before you left." 'Oh god, this isn't happening' I sigh before answering, "What's up?" "I wanted to apologize for the way I acted earlier, I didn't mean to be so rude."
I look at Nick and back at Grissom.
"What's up with both of you apologizing to me right before I leave?"
"Look Sara, I didn't want you to leave upset with me." Grissom answered "Neither did I." Nick responded
"Look this day has completely sucked beyond the telling of it. Maybe you two apologizing makes you feel any better, but it doesn't help me. I was in an explosion for god sakes." I look at Nick " and you imply that I'm trying to get myself killed." I turn and face Grissom, "and you, you, can't even help me when I need it. You turn me down like I'm nobody." I pause "you two can't even understand what I'm going through."
"Then tell us Sara?" Grissom states
"Fine, you wanna know. I'm pregnant. There I said it. Happy now. I was in an explosion and I'm pregnant. I can't believe you two haven't even noticed, my weight gain, my weird appetite, my distance." I take a deep breath before continuing, "That's why I wanted to go to dinner with you Grissom. I knew you would support me. I knew you wouldn't ask questions about the father and who it was."
Both Nick and Grissom look at each with confused looks on their faces.
"How far along are you?" asked Grissom, "You haven't told the father yet, have you?"
"No, I haven't. What do I say, thanks for the comfort sex, guess what I'm pregnant and it's yours! Come on."
"I'm sorry that I hurt you Sara, but I would have questioned who the father was. I would want to do about it. Sara, I care about you like a daughter, I worry. I worry now about this decision that you're possibly making without the fathers knowledge."
"Sara, the man deserves the right to know." Nick states
"Fine, you both want to know who the father is?" The two men nod. I turn and look and Nick, staring into his deep brown eyes. "It's yours." I say to him. "I'm pregnant with your child Nick."
Before either of them can respond I turn and run to my car, quickly get in and start the engine up and reverse out of the parking lot. I need to get out of here. I need to think, clear my mind. She turned the radio on and out came and song that made her remember, remember the night between her and Nick.
You don't remember me But I remember you I lie awake and try so hard Not to think of you But who can decide what they dream? And dream I do.
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
Have you forgotten all I know
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you And touched my hand I knew you loved me then
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
I look in the mirror and see your face If I look deep enough So many things inside that are Just like your are taking over
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe You're taking over me
(Taking over me)
Your taking over me
(Taking over me)
Taking over me
A/N Song "Taking Over Me" by Evanescence from their Fallen cd. Depending how my reviews go, the next chapter is intended to be a flashback of sorts. Remember "constructive criticism". Thanks.