What I should Have Said Chapter 3
Spoilers: Playing With Fire and Lady Heather's Box
Disclaimer: Don't own them, Don't make any money off them because man I need it. Plus if I could take George I would.
A/N: Okay, I want to apologize for taking awhile. I was kind of having a momentary lapse of writers block, plus I wasn't sure how I wanted the story to proceed. Also, I haven't seen Lady Heather's Box, so I am completely guessing on what happened in the episode just based off a summery and another fan fiction I read. Don't kill me. I don't know what is up with the formatting on Fanfiction.net. I obviously type the story completely different in word. Hopefully I will get it figured out. Please be patient with me. Also, I put some G/C in this chapter, it's more to bring other character into the plot. Hope you'll enjoy.
I in such a great mood now, I just put on Pledging Mr. Johnson, which was episode 4 of season 1. There is a great line that Sara says that I must share. Nick and Warrick are in the locker room, Warrick is putting on a suit, Nick is topless (drool), Sara comes in and says "fine suit" to Warrick and to Nick she says "and well just fine". If that line doesn't put all the N/S shippers out there in a great mood, I don't know what will. LOL. Thank you so much to everyone who has reviewed. You guys are awesome.
To Kady Rilla Wholi: I just wanted to answer your question of why would Sara tell Grissom she's carrying Nick's baby. See in my little fantasy world, she was just going to tell him she was pregnant but not mention who the father was. I guess that's why I'm enjoying writing my AU fiction cause I can have it any way I want. Thanks for the review.
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I open the door slowly and my brown eyes came face to face with Nick's.
"Nick, what are you doing here?"
"We need to talk. Can I come in?"
I move away from the door to allow him access to the apartment. Once he was inside I close the door and lock it.
"Can I get you anything? Water? Soda?"
"No, Sara. Thanks though" he paused "I just want to talk."
"Okay"
I head over to the couch, taking one end while Nick takes the other. Nick and I sit in silence for what seems like an hour, in actuality it was more like a couple of minutes. Nick finally broke the silence.
"Sara, I'll do whatever you want me to do. I'll support any decision you make."
I'm somewhat taken aback by what he says, but then I realize that I should have expected this. 'This is Nick, one of your most caring and devoted friends' I say to myself. 'You should have known he would take responsibility and support you.' But then I think about how I betrayed him. Leaving him after our night together. Not talking about what occurred with him, not even telling him I was pregnant right away.
"Thanks Nick, but I don't deserve it." I pause "I was horrible to you afterwards. I was so ashamed. I felt like I had taken advantage of you. When I found out I was pregnant, I just wanted to ignore it, pretend it didn't happen. And it wasn't because I didn't want to admit what happened between us, it was because I was always remembering what happened between us. It was in my dreams, my thoughts."
Nick stares at me, digesting what I have just told him.
"Sara, I want you to know that I didn't feel taken advantage of." He took a long pause before continuing. "I've wanted to be with you for so long, that night my heart really took over, not my brain. I can't even describe the fear I felt today when I found out you were in the explosion, but I knew I couldn't show it. I had to keep my feelings inside and in check. I just wish you had told me earlier about the baby. You've had to keep this huge secret for three months now."
"I'm sorry Nick."
"Don't get me wrong Sara, I'm pretty pissed that you didn't tell me until now, until Grissom and I pressured you to give us an answer to your behavior. But the other part of me.." He trailed off.
"I was going to tell you Nick. The explosion brought reality crashing back to me. I was terrified, absolutely terrified that I would lose our baby. I don't know why I behaved the way I did at the apartment and why I barged into the bathroom with my gun drawn. Maybe subconsciously I was trying to pretend again, but your comment about not being invulnerable, brought reality back again." I take a deep breath before continuing. "I asked Grissom out to dinner because, well because I was scared to tell you. I have known Grissom for years and I knew that he wouldn't question me or my decisions. I knew that I had to tell you, but..I don't know.I was just.confused, scared."
"Confused about what Sara?"
"My feelings for you."
Nick took a deep breath in before asking "How do you feel Sara?"
"I'm in love with you."
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Catherine slowly got out of her Tahoe and headed inside to the lab. She had spent a couple of hours with Greg. Explaining about the explosion and how it was her fault. She was now on a two-week suspension. She had left so abruptly that she forgot to grab some items from her locker, that's why she was here now. She quickly walked to the locker room, but was surprised to find Grissom in there, just standing in front of his open locker.
"Grissom, what are you doing here?"
"I could ask you the same question."
"Well, I forgot some things in my locker, came by to get them real quick."
Catherine quickly opened her locker and grabbed her stuff. She looked back at Grissom, taking in his appearance.
"No offence or anything Grissom, but you look like hell. What's going on?"
"You have spoken to Sara have you?"
"No why?"
"Why don't we go to my office, I don't want what I am going to tell you to be work gossip."
"Okay."
They headed out to his office, once there Catherine took a seat while Gil closed the door. He turned and faced Catherine and spoke.
"Sara's pregnant."
"What? When did this happen? Whose the father? It's not Hank is it?"
"No it's not Hank" Grissom answered "It's Nick"
"What?" Catherine exclaimed
"Yeah, Nick and I both found out last night."
"What the hell happened?"
"I guess I should start with Sara asked me out to dinner. Well, I turned her down, told her she should go home. I was pretty abrupt with her. After about 10 minutes I realized I needed to apologize to her."
Catherine nodded her understanding and allowed him to continue "Anyways, I found her outside talking to Nick, who was concerned about her behavior today. Unfortunately Nick and I were pressuring her. We didn't understand her erratic behavior. She then suddenly blurted that she was pregnant. Then yelled at us for not even noticing her weight gain, attitude change, appetite change."
Grissom walked over to his desk chair and sat down before continuing
"And the worst part is Catherine, neither of us noticed, hell your probably thinking to yourself right now that you didn't notice, am I right?"
"Yeah" Catherine responded "But Nick. When did that happen? I didn't even know they were a couple."
"The thing is their not. When I asked if she had told the father yet she said she hadn't because the night the father and her were together was about comfort sex."
"Wow. How did you find out Nick was the father?"
"After a couple more minutes of pressuring her, she told Nick it was his baby. Catherine you should have seen his face. It was a mixture of confusion, fear and even a little happiness etched on it."
"This is unbelievable. What happened next?" Catherine asked
"Well Sara left. And Nick being the stand up guy he is, assured me that he would support Sara in whatever decision she made. I encouraged him to go talk to her, which he's probably doing right now."
"That's good, they obviously need to talk. Did she say how far along she is?"
"No she didn't, but probably a couple of months since she has began gaining weight."
Catherine sat there silently, racking her brain, when suddenly she remembered the case of Eddie and her yelling at Sara about the way she was running the case.
"Oh my god" She gasped
"What?"
"I know when she got pregnant."
"How?" Grissom asked
"It was when Eddie died. Sara was running the case. I yelled at her for the way she was running it. I remember seeing Nick and her walk out to the parking lot together and get into Nick's Tahoe. That was when it happened. God I feel so guilty." "Why?"
"For a lot of reasons. If I hadn't yelled at her and made her feel like crap, she wouldn't be pregnant right now. Then I feel even worse because she was in the explosion, an explosion I caused. She could have miscarried today and had she, it would have been my fault."
Grissom walked around from his desk and knelt down in front of Catherine and took her hands in his.
"Catherine, first off. You were extremely upset over the situation with Eddie, his death, Lindsey being involved. It was a bad situation all around. You didn't force Sara or even Nick to make the decision to be together. It doesn't matter if it was about comfort sex, they made that decision, their adults. Secondly, yes you made a mistake today in the lab, but you didn't know that the hot plate had been left on. Don't blame yourself."
Catherine looked at him "Thanks, Grissom"
"Your welcome. Now you better get out of here. Go spend some time with Lindsey."
"Okay" She got up from the chair and headed towards the door, she opened it up and was about to walk out when she turned back to Grissom "but keep me posted on what's going on with Sara and Nick."
"You got it."
Catherine smiled and walked out of the office and headed towards the exit of the building, saying goodbye to work for two weeks.
Spoilers: Playing With Fire and Lady Heather's Box
Disclaimer: Don't own them, Don't make any money off them because man I need it. Plus if I could take George I would.
A/N: Okay, I want to apologize for taking awhile. I was kind of having a momentary lapse of writers block, plus I wasn't sure how I wanted the story to proceed. Also, I haven't seen Lady Heather's Box, so I am completely guessing on what happened in the episode just based off a summery and another fan fiction I read. Don't kill me. I don't know what is up with the formatting on Fanfiction.net. I obviously type the story completely different in word. Hopefully I will get it figured out. Please be patient with me. Also, I put some G/C in this chapter, it's more to bring other character into the plot. Hope you'll enjoy.
I in such a great mood now, I just put on Pledging Mr. Johnson, which was episode 4 of season 1. There is a great line that Sara says that I must share. Nick and Warrick are in the locker room, Warrick is putting on a suit, Nick is topless (drool), Sara comes in and says "fine suit" to Warrick and to Nick she says "and well just fine". If that line doesn't put all the N/S shippers out there in a great mood, I don't know what will. LOL. Thank you so much to everyone who has reviewed. You guys are awesome.
To Kady Rilla Wholi: I just wanted to answer your question of why would Sara tell Grissom she's carrying Nick's baby. See in my little fantasy world, she was just going to tell him she was pregnant but not mention who the father was. I guess that's why I'm enjoying writing my AU fiction cause I can have it any way I want. Thanks for the review.
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I open the door slowly and my brown eyes came face to face with Nick's.
"Nick, what are you doing here?"
"We need to talk. Can I come in?"
I move away from the door to allow him access to the apartment. Once he was inside I close the door and lock it.
"Can I get you anything? Water? Soda?"
"No, Sara. Thanks though" he paused "I just want to talk."
"Okay"
I head over to the couch, taking one end while Nick takes the other. Nick and I sit in silence for what seems like an hour, in actuality it was more like a couple of minutes. Nick finally broke the silence.
"Sara, I'll do whatever you want me to do. I'll support any decision you make."
I'm somewhat taken aback by what he says, but then I realize that I should have expected this. 'This is Nick, one of your most caring and devoted friends' I say to myself. 'You should have known he would take responsibility and support you.' But then I think about how I betrayed him. Leaving him after our night together. Not talking about what occurred with him, not even telling him I was pregnant right away.
"Thanks Nick, but I don't deserve it." I pause "I was horrible to you afterwards. I was so ashamed. I felt like I had taken advantage of you. When I found out I was pregnant, I just wanted to ignore it, pretend it didn't happen. And it wasn't because I didn't want to admit what happened between us, it was because I was always remembering what happened between us. It was in my dreams, my thoughts."
Nick stares at me, digesting what I have just told him.
"Sara, I want you to know that I didn't feel taken advantage of." He took a long pause before continuing. "I've wanted to be with you for so long, that night my heart really took over, not my brain. I can't even describe the fear I felt today when I found out you were in the explosion, but I knew I couldn't show it. I had to keep my feelings inside and in check. I just wish you had told me earlier about the baby. You've had to keep this huge secret for three months now."
"I'm sorry Nick."
"Don't get me wrong Sara, I'm pretty pissed that you didn't tell me until now, until Grissom and I pressured you to give us an answer to your behavior. But the other part of me.." He trailed off.
"I was going to tell you Nick. The explosion brought reality crashing back to me. I was terrified, absolutely terrified that I would lose our baby. I don't know why I behaved the way I did at the apartment and why I barged into the bathroom with my gun drawn. Maybe subconsciously I was trying to pretend again, but your comment about not being invulnerable, brought reality back again." I take a deep breath before continuing. "I asked Grissom out to dinner because, well because I was scared to tell you. I have known Grissom for years and I knew that he wouldn't question me or my decisions. I knew that I had to tell you, but..I don't know.I was just.confused, scared."
"Confused about what Sara?"
"My feelings for you."
Nick took a deep breath in before asking "How do you feel Sara?"
"I'm in love with you."
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Catherine slowly got out of her Tahoe and headed inside to the lab. She had spent a couple of hours with Greg. Explaining about the explosion and how it was her fault. She was now on a two-week suspension. She had left so abruptly that she forgot to grab some items from her locker, that's why she was here now. She quickly walked to the locker room, but was surprised to find Grissom in there, just standing in front of his open locker.
"Grissom, what are you doing here?"
"I could ask you the same question."
"Well, I forgot some things in my locker, came by to get them real quick."
Catherine quickly opened her locker and grabbed her stuff. She looked back at Grissom, taking in his appearance.
"No offence or anything Grissom, but you look like hell. What's going on?"
"You have spoken to Sara have you?"
"No why?"
"Why don't we go to my office, I don't want what I am going to tell you to be work gossip."
"Okay."
They headed out to his office, once there Catherine took a seat while Gil closed the door. He turned and faced Catherine and spoke.
"Sara's pregnant."
"What? When did this happen? Whose the father? It's not Hank is it?"
"No it's not Hank" Grissom answered "It's Nick"
"What?" Catherine exclaimed
"Yeah, Nick and I both found out last night."
"What the hell happened?"
"I guess I should start with Sara asked me out to dinner. Well, I turned her down, told her she should go home. I was pretty abrupt with her. After about 10 minutes I realized I needed to apologize to her."
Catherine nodded her understanding and allowed him to continue "Anyways, I found her outside talking to Nick, who was concerned about her behavior today. Unfortunately Nick and I were pressuring her. We didn't understand her erratic behavior. She then suddenly blurted that she was pregnant. Then yelled at us for not even noticing her weight gain, attitude change, appetite change."
Grissom walked over to his desk chair and sat down before continuing
"And the worst part is Catherine, neither of us noticed, hell your probably thinking to yourself right now that you didn't notice, am I right?"
"Yeah" Catherine responded "But Nick. When did that happen? I didn't even know they were a couple."
"The thing is their not. When I asked if she had told the father yet she said she hadn't because the night the father and her were together was about comfort sex."
"Wow. How did you find out Nick was the father?"
"After a couple more minutes of pressuring her, she told Nick it was his baby. Catherine you should have seen his face. It was a mixture of confusion, fear and even a little happiness etched on it."
"This is unbelievable. What happened next?" Catherine asked
"Well Sara left. And Nick being the stand up guy he is, assured me that he would support Sara in whatever decision she made. I encouraged him to go talk to her, which he's probably doing right now."
"That's good, they obviously need to talk. Did she say how far along she is?"
"No she didn't, but probably a couple of months since she has began gaining weight."
Catherine sat there silently, racking her brain, when suddenly she remembered the case of Eddie and her yelling at Sara about the way she was running the case.
"Oh my god" She gasped
"What?"
"I know when she got pregnant."
"How?" Grissom asked
"It was when Eddie died. Sara was running the case. I yelled at her for the way she was running it. I remember seeing Nick and her walk out to the parking lot together and get into Nick's Tahoe. That was when it happened. God I feel so guilty." "Why?"
"For a lot of reasons. If I hadn't yelled at her and made her feel like crap, she wouldn't be pregnant right now. Then I feel even worse because she was in the explosion, an explosion I caused. She could have miscarried today and had she, it would have been my fault."
Grissom walked around from his desk and knelt down in front of Catherine and took her hands in his.
"Catherine, first off. You were extremely upset over the situation with Eddie, his death, Lindsey being involved. It was a bad situation all around. You didn't force Sara or even Nick to make the decision to be together. It doesn't matter if it was about comfort sex, they made that decision, their adults. Secondly, yes you made a mistake today in the lab, but you didn't know that the hot plate had been left on. Don't blame yourself."
Catherine looked at him "Thanks, Grissom"
"Your welcome. Now you better get out of here. Go spend some time with Lindsey."
"Okay" She got up from the chair and headed towards the door, she opened it up and was about to walk out when she turned back to Grissom "but keep me posted on what's going on with Sara and Nick."
"You got it."
Catherine smiled and walked out of the office and headed towards the exit of the building, saying goodbye to work for two weeks.