What I Should Have Said Chapter 5
Disclaimer: Same as always, yada, yada, yada "don't own them". Yada, yada, yada, "don't make money off them". Yada, yada, yada, "take George if I could".
A/N: I have to say I was somewhat disappointed in yesterday's season finale. Probably because Nick was only in like 2 scenes, same with Sara, plus Jorja still looks majorly pregnant and that wasn't touched upon. I guess it's a great thing that we write fan fictions. Need something to keep me sane during summer reruns, although looking forward to reruns cause I missed most of season 3 in the first place. Writing this fiction is also keeping me sane in my knowledge that Buffy is ending next week and that I probably won't get the ending I want. At least with CSI, and any other shows coming back next season, I have something to look forward too. Again, I know nothing about Crash and Burn because I haven't seen the episode yet, so everything I mention about the Eddie incident is purely based on synopsis and reading other fan fiction. Sorry.
R.I.P. Buffy (tear).
On with the story. Hope you all enjoy. Please review.
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Sara spent a long time under the hot shower thinking about Nick and the baby. She took her time getting dressed and putting some light makeup on. Once she was done with everything she saw that it was 10:30. 'Nick's gonna be back here in 30 minutes' she thought to herself. She was nervous and a little excited about her doctor's appointment. She was nervous that something might be wrong with the baby but was so excited to get a chance to see it on the ultrasound. She was thinking about the baby when her cell phone began ringing.
"Sidle" she answered
"Sara, hey it's Catherine."
"Catherine. Hi, what's up?"
"Well, I was just calling to see how you are doing?"
"I'm doing okay."
"Sara, I'm truly sorry about the explosion."
"Catherine, it was an accident. Don't worry about it."
"How can you say that Sara?" Catherine exclaimed over the phone "You were in an explosion because of me. I almost allowed you to lose your baby. Shit, I said that out loud didn't I?"
"Yes, you did. You talked to Grissom didn't you?"
"Yeah. He told me what happened."
"Okay."
"Please don't be mad Sara"
"Catherine, it's okay. I knew it would get out eventually."
Catherine didn't respond, after a few moments Sara spoke up again.
"Your probably thinking of a way to apologize aren't you?"
"What? No.of course not.not really.okay I was.How'd you guess?"
"Because I'm sure as soon as Grissom told you I was pregnant and told you Nick is the father you started racking your brain with when we were together. Am I right?"
Catherine sighed "Guilty as charged. It took me like two seconds to realize when you got pregnant. Sara I feel so guilty. If I hadn't been so hard on you over Eddie's case, I don't know.you wouldn't be pregnant now."
"Listen to me very carefully Catherine, okay." Sara paused before continuing "I was upset after what happened with Eddie's case. And yes I went with Nick because of that, but I knew what I was doing. Afterwards, I felt so ashamed because I knew what I had done. My pregnancy isn't your fault."
"Okay"
"Plus, even though I kept it a secret for so long. I've really never been as happy as I was when I'd come home and think about the baby that's growing inside me. Wondering if it will have Nick's nose and my smile. Just wondering what our child would look like."
"I remember feeling the same way when I was pregnant with Lindsey. It's a pretty wonderful feeling isn't it?"
"Yeah it is"
Sara heard a car park and engine turn off in front of her apartment building. She walked over to the window and saw it was Nick. 10:45, he was early, but it was okay.
"Catherine, I have to go. Nick just got back. We have a doctor's appointment today at 11:30."
"Doctor's appointment?"
Knock Knock
"Hold on" Sara said to Catherine, "Door's unlocked Nick, come on in." With that said, Nick walked into the apartment. He had changed into some blue Levi's and was wearing a black ribbed knit shirt. 'Hold on' she mouthed to him.
"Catherine, you still there?"
"Yeah, so Doctor's appointment?"
"Going to see the OB."
"Okay, well I'll talk to you later and I'll see you and Nick later."
"Bye" Sara said
"Bye" Catherine reciprocated
With that Sara hung up her phone and went over to Nick and wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him passionately.
"I missed you." She said to him
"Missed you too. Wouldn't mind coming back to that though" He leaned in and kissed her again.
"We better go" Nick said after breaking apart, "don't want to be late."
"Let me just grab my purse."
Sara grabbed her purse and threw her keys and cell phone in it and headed to the front door. Nick exited first and Sara locked up. Once inside the Tahoe and on their way to the office, Sara turned on the radio and out blasted country music.
"Nick, honey, I love you, but I can't listen to this. Mind if I change the channel."
Nick laughed at her statement, "Go ahead."
Sara flipped through the channels for a few moments before finally settling on a station.
"Oh, I love this song" Sara said and began softly singing along to the lyrics.
***So lately, been wondering Who will be there to take my place When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all Then between the sand and stone, could you make it on your own
If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out A way to make it back someday To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all Then I hope there's someone out there who can bring me back to you
If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go
Run away with my heart Run away with my hope Run away with my love
I know now, just quite how My life and love might still go on In your heart, in your mind, I'll stay with you for all of time
If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low If I could turn back time (I'll go wherever you will go) If I could make you mine (I'll go wherever you go)
I'll go wherever you go****
Once the song ended, Sara turned the radio down.
"Sara?"
"Yeah."
"That song was kind of depressing. I mean the singer is talking about dying and leaving the person he loves."
"Yeah, but Nick, he's also talking about everlasting love. No matter what happens to him, he will always be with her. She's the one for him, his soul mate."
Nick nodded his head in understanding. Sara noticed that they were pulling into the parking lot of her doctor's office. Nick parked the SUV and walked around to open Sara's door.
"Nervous?" he asked.
"Yeah. You?"
"A little. Kind of scared and excited at the same time."
"I know what you mean. Twenty-four hours ago, you didn't know I was even pregnant, now you do and you're here with me. It really means a lot to me Nick that you're here."
Nick took her hand and kissed it.
"I'm glad I'm here. I love you and I want to support you. Plus, you know, kind of what to see our baby." He said with a smirk.
Sara laughed at his comment. Took his hand and headed towards the office.
A/N Song is Wherever You Will Go from The Calling on their Camino Palmero album.
Disclaimer: Same as always, yada, yada, yada "don't own them". Yada, yada, yada, "don't make money off them". Yada, yada, yada, "take George if I could".
A/N: I have to say I was somewhat disappointed in yesterday's season finale. Probably because Nick was only in like 2 scenes, same with Sara, plus Jorja still looks majorly pregnant and that wasn't touched upon. I guess it's a great thing that we write fan fictions. Need something to keep me sane during summer reruns, although looking forward to reruns cause I missed most of season 3 in the first place. Writing this fiction is also keeping me sane in my knowledge that Buffy is ending next week and that I probably won't get the ending I want. At least with CSI, and any other shows coming back next season, I have something to look forward too. Again, I know nothing about Crash and Burn because I haven't seen the episode yet, so everything I mention about the Eddie incident is purely based on synopsis and reading other fan fiction. Sorry.
R.I.P. Buffy (tear).
On with the story. Hope you all enjoy. Please review.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Sara spent a long time under the hot shower thinking about Nick and the baby. She took her time getting dressed and putting some light makeup on. Once she was done with everything she saw that it was 10:30. 'Nick's gonna be back here in 30 minutes' she thought to herself. She was nervous and a little excited about her doctor's appointment. She was nervous that something might be wrong with the baby but was so excited to get a chance to see it on the ultrasound. She was thinking about the baby when her cell phone began ringing.
"Sidle" she answered
"Sara, hey it's Catherine."
"Catherine. Hi, what's up?"
"Well, I was just calling to see how you are doing?"
"I'm doing okay."
"Sara, I'm truly sorry about the explosion."
"Catherine, it was an accident. Don't worry about it."
"How can you say that Sara?" Catherine exclaimed over the phone "You were in an explosion because of me. I almost allowed you to lose your baby. Shit, I said that out loud didn't I?"
"Yes, you did. You talked to Grissom didn't you?"
"Yeah. He told me what happened."
"Okay."
"Please don't be mad Sara"
"Catherine, it's okay. I knew it would get out eventually."
Catherine didn't respond, after a few moments Sara spoke up again.
"Your probably thinking of a way to apologize aren't you?"
"What? No.of course not.not really.okay I was.How'd you guess?"
"Because I'm sure as soon as Grissom told you I was pregnant and told you Nick is the father you started racking your brain with when we were together. Am I right?"
Catherine sighed "Guilty as charged. It took me like two seconds to realize when you got pregnant. Sara I feel so guilty. If I hadn't been so hard on you over Eddie's case, I don't know.you wouldn't be pregnant now."
"Listen to me very carefully Catherine, okay." Sara paused before continuing "I was upset after what happened with Eddie's case. And yes I went with Nick because of that, but I knew what I was doing. Afterwards, I felt so ashamed because I knew what I had done. My pregnancy isn't your fault."
"Okay"
"Plus, even though I kept it a secret for so long. I've really never been as happy as I was when I'd come home and think about the baby that's growing inside me. Wondering if it will have Nick's nose and my smile. Just wondering what our child would look like."
"I remember feeling the same way when I was pregnant with Lindsey. It's a pretty wonderful feeling isn't it?"
"Yeah it is"
Sara heard a car park and engine turn off in front of her apartment building. She walked over to the window and saw it was Nick. 10:45, he was early, but it was okay.
"Catherine, I have to go. Nick just got back. We have a doctor's appointment today at 11:30."
"Doctor's appointment?"
Knock Knock
"Hold on" Sara said to Catherine, "Door's unlocked Nick, come on in." With that said, Nick walked into the apartment. He had changed into some blue Levi's and was wearing a black ribbed knit shirt. 'Hold on' she mouthed to him.
"Catherine, you still there?"
"Yeah, so Doctor's appointment?"
"Going to see the OB."
"Okay, well I'll talk to you later and I'll see you and Nick later."
"Bye" Sara said
"Bye" Catherine reciprocated
With that Sara hung up her phone and went over to Nick and wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him passionately.
"I missed you." She said to him
"Missed you too. Wouldn't mind coming back to that though" He leaned in and kissed her again.
"We better go" Nick said after breaking apart, "don't want to be late."
"Let me just grab my purse."
Sara grabbed her purse and threw her keys and cell phone in it and headed to the front door. Nick exited first and Sara locked up. Once inside the Tahoe and on their way to the office, Sara turned on the radio and out blasted country music.
"Nick, honey, I love you, but I can't listen to this. Mind if I change the channel."
Nick laughed at her statement, "Go ahead."
Sara flipped through the channels for a few moments before finally settling on a station.
"Oh, I love this song" Sara said and began softly singing along to the lyrics.
***So lately, been wondering Who will be there to take my place When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all Then between the sand and stone, could you make it on your own
If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out A way to make it back someday To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all Then I hope there's someone out there who can bring me back to you
If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go
Run away with my heart Run away with my hope Run away with my love
I know now, just quite how My life and love might still go on In your heart, in your mind, I'll stay with you for all of time
If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go Way up high or down low If I could turn back time (I'll go wherever you will go) If I could make you mine (I'll go wherever you go)
I'll go wherever you go****
Once the song ended, Sara turned the radio down.
"Sara?"
"Yeah."
"That song was kind of depressing. I mean the singer is talking about dying and leaving the person he loves."
"Yeah, but Nick, he's also talking about everlasting love. No matter what happens to him, he will always be with her. She's the one for him, his soul mate."
Nick nodded his head in understanding. Sara noticed that they were pulling into the parking lot of her doctor's office. Nick parked the SUV and walked around to open Sara's door.
"Nervous?" he asked.
"Yeah. You?"
"A little. Kind of scared and excited at the same time."
"I know what you mean. Twenty-four hours ago, you didn't know I was even pregnant, now you do and you're here with me. It really means a lot to me Nick that you're here."
Nick took her hand and kissed it.
"I'm glad I'm here. I love you and I want to support you. Plus, you know, kind of what to see our baby." He said with a smirk.
Sara laughed at his comment. Took his hand and headed towards the office.
A/N Song is Wherever You Will Go from The Calling on their Camino Palmero album.