Humpty Dumpty
Chapter 16
(Anything in '' is a dream sequence)
'I stared at my baby who was lying fast asleep in her pram and and still couldn't believe what the doctor had told me just hours earlier, she looked perfect. she was three monts old now, she didn't look like anything was wrong with her at all, she had deep green eyes and black hair a perfect button nose and lips that were full and red, her skin was white, almost transclucent and as she slept she had a smile across her face.
The doctor had explained to me that she had something called Diplegic type 1 Cerebal Palsy, which made her muscles too tight and as a result very weak. She also had profound hearing loss as a result of Fetal Alcohol Syndrome, she would probably never walk, the doctor told me. She was what doctor's used to call a spastic. Her arms were less effected than her legs but she'd never be able to write.
I stared at her and couldn't believe what I had done to my little girl, I only had that one night when I got drunk, that was it and my little girl is going to suffer for the rest of her life for it. The doctor had told me that the damage had probably occured before I had even realized I was pregnant, was that supposed to makw me feel better? My baby is a deaf spastic but don't wworry because it happened before you had a chance to stop it! I started to sob, guilt and grief finally overwhelming me.'
My eyes flew open, I was shaking and tears were running down my cheeks, I stroked my huge belly over and over again and said a silent prayer to anyone who would listen, just then Will knocked on the door. "Karen are alright? I thought I heard crying." He called through the door, "I'm fine." I replied but my voice broke before I finished speaking. Will opened the door and walked over to the bed. "Grace told me what happened." he said quietly. "I was so stupid!" I exclaimed, "I just had a bad dream, I drempt my baby was sick because of the alcohol." I sobbed. Will wrapped his arms around me in a hug and stroked my back,"shhh... It's alright, it was only a dream." he repeated over and over again as I sobbed into his shoulder.
Chapter 16
(Anything in '' is a dream sequence)
'I stared at my baby who was lying fast asleep in her pram and and still couldn't believe what the doctor had told me just hours earlier, she looked perfect. she was three monts old now, she didn't look like anything was wrong with her at all, she had deep green eyes and black hair a perfect button nose and lips that were full and red, her skin was white, almost transclucent and as she slept she had a smile across her face.
The doctor had explained to me that she had something called Diplegic type 1 Cerebal Palsy, which made her muscles too tight and as a result very weak. She also had profound hearing loss as a result of Fetal Alcohol Syndrome, she would probably never walk, the doctor told me. She was what doctor's used to call a spastic. Her arms were less effected than her legs but she'd never be able to write.
I stared at her and couldn't believe what I had done to my little girl, I only had that one night when I got drunk, that was it and my little girl is going to suffer for the rest of her life for it. The doctor had told me that the damage had probably occured before I had even realized I was pregnant, was that supposed to makw me feel better? My baby is a deaf spastic but don't wworry because it happened before you had a chance to stop it! I started to sob, guilt and grief finally overwhelming me.'
My eyes flew open, I was shaking and tears were running down my cheeks, I stroked my huge belly over and over again and said a silent prayer to anyone who would listen, just then Will knocked on the door. "Karen are alright? I thought I heard crying." He called through the door, "I'm fine." I replied but my voice broke before I finished speaking. Will opened the door and walked over to the bed. "Grace told me what happened." he said quietly. "I was so stupid!" I exclaimed, "I just had a bad dream, I drempt my baby was sick because of the alcohol." I sobbed. Will wrapped his arms around me in a hug and stroked my back,"shhh... It's alright, it was only a dream." he repeated over and over again as I sobbed into his shoulder.