Title: One Last Stand

Author: Eyes_of_Pearl

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: 1984 does not belong to me but to its author George Orwell.

I wrote this for English class and takes place right after chapter 5 in

book 3. Room 101 has already happen and in a dream sequence, I am going to

examine why O'Brien is the man as we know it and Winston is going to have a

last chance to have his say before the end of the novel. The premise is

to stay true to Orwell's style which I try to capture here and to remain

faithful to the ending of the book. It's a lot of narrative but it expresses

one of the prominent themes of the novel which is power and control.

It's something different from what I usually post which is anime so hopefully

you guys will enjoy it.

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Winston released a deep breath, the tension momentarily leaving his body

until the after-effects of his previous gruelling undertaking surged up his

body. Every infliction of pain was evident with an occasional numbing of

sensations, abnormal twitching and jerking of his shoulder blade, limbs and

head. His body screamed in agony from the repeated beatings which only

compounded with each preceding cry. His throat felt raw as if he had

swallowed a thousand pieces of shard glass. Each swallow sent acidic tears

to his eyes. Mentally, his mind was exhausted, distorted liked drawings in

the sand. The more he tried to grasp the remains, the more they faded away

and slipped between the cracks of his hands. His eyelids felt liked dead

weights as he struggled and lost the fight for consciousness.

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Winston woke up in utter darkness, a void which engulfed him almost like a

second skin. His eyes peered for any signs of life as he attempted a step

forward. A bright flash of light erupted from within and slowly subsided as

Winston found himself neither floating nor standing, neither defying the

laws of gravity nor obeying it, just suspended in a volume of space. Winston

once again walked forward, or at least what he assumed to be forward. Then

out of the corner of his eyes, he could see the silhouette of a man advancing

his way. He blinked twice to clear his vision as the man said, 'I see you

made it here but then again, Winston, you of all people should be here.'

At the sound of O'Brien's voice, authoritative yet laced with a touch of

brotherly gentleness, Winston asked, 'What is this place?'

O'Brien simply ignored Winston and turned back the way which he had come and

motioned Winston to follow him. 'This,' O'Brien gestured the space around

him, 'is the subconscious part of your mind. You are here because your mind

demands that you be here. You are neither dead nor alive but simply a

figment conjured by you. As for unasked question that you desire an answer

to, I myself, am also a figment conjured by you. I am here because you want

me to be here. As part of you cries out for that last stand, one last step

for mankind.'

A million questions ran through Winston's as he tried to absorb all of this

in. He wasn't sure what to say next. A part of him warned him to be

cautious. In front of him was O'Brien, the same man who had been his

tormentor, the man who looked on as Winston bawled for mercy, who was on the

verge of killing Winston. That part of him wasn't sure if this was another

ploy by the Party to test the endurance of his mentality. On the other hand,

another part of him churned with curiosity. O'Brien was the same man who

had been his saviour, the man who comforted Winston as he cried like a

child, the only man who understood him. Winston saw himself in O'Brien, the

ultimate embodiment of a rebellious figure head who had the means and

resources to overthrow the Party. From the moment their paths crossed,

O'Brien served as a constant for Winston, the only tangible thing in which

he could firmly clasp at the palm of his hand.

'You are wondering if you should trust me or not. Your mind can't

distinguish between reality and illusions. No matter how much you try to deny

it, you are still questioning Big Brother's motives, still questioning me.'

O'Brien, who had previously had his back to Winston, had abruptly stopped and

directed around to face Winston. He wore a smirk as he saw Winston had been

struck speechless. 'I don't blame you, no, not at all.'

O'Brien stopped for a moment to gather his thoughts before continuing, 'I

recall someone very close to me once had the notion that too much power can

corrupt the human mind. But contrary to that absurdity, power itself doesn't

corrupt because the heart of human nature is corrupted. The entire human

existence is tainted from the moment that we have one selfish thought, one

ambitious desire, one night of zealous passion. That unquenchable lust for

power courses through our very veins for it is an inescapable path of no

return.'

'But, you yourself said that we do not exist. If humans do not exist then

there should not be a struggle for power,' Winston countered.

'No, I said that YOU don't exist. The Party exists to the people of

Oceania, the Party itself exists as a coalition but you, on the other hand,

do not. That's why you appeal to me so much, Winston, because you remind me

of someone, the same person who believed in the corruption of power. But,

that person was weak with concealed dreams and hopeful fantasies of a future

that cannot be expected by anybody, not even the proles. You wrote in your

diary that the only hope lies with them. You are right and you are wrong

because the power generated by the union of the proles is too dispersed,

channelled into a proletarian hogwash of lottery and pornography. The Party

knows this, and that's why we keep feeding that rubbish to them. You,

Winston, live on those futile what-ifs, with each turn you make, you think

you have the answers in your hand but, in truth, they are only shadows

looking down at you.'

For a brief moment, O'Brien turned his head slightly, his eyes glimmered

with a faraway look, his voice had faded, forlorn and melancholic. Winston

could scarcely decipher O'Brien's words as he continue to murmur, 'Winson,

once upon a time, I was naive as you are now. I was a man in love with a

woman of exquisite strength and beauty. I poured forth my utter devotion

and exposed to her my heart. Yet at the same time, leaving myself

susceptible to anguish and as she fell in love with another man of greater

influence and wealth. All that we shared was diminished by that ravish

desire for power.'

At that moment, Winston saw the vulnerability of the man of the Inner Party

but like the last grain of sand in an hourglass, that look was immediately

replaced. O'Brien once more lifted up his head, his eyes blazing behind his

spectacles as he continued, 'So you see, I know every thought, every action,

every word that you made or are going to make. Unlike you, I am no longer

clouded by wishful reveries because the moment you see all your ideals and

beliefs that resemble hope ripped from the very essence of your heart, you

will realize that nothing and nobody can save you from the clutches of

power.'

Something inside Winston snapped and he said, 'So you are simply tormenting

others because of revenge, or . . . guilt or simply for pain because you

have experienced them yourself. You destroy the lives of people who are

still willing to hope, to take risks. You pray on their fears, and degrade

them to nothingness and then rebuild them with a false sense of hope and

belief that suits you. No, you are wrong, we are not alike because I do

exist. Maybe not to you or the people of Oceania but in myself, I exist.

I have no standards to live by. What is real? What is false?'

'What hope do these people have?' O'Brien cried incredulously as he threw

his arms up in the air to emphasize his point. 'Their hope is what we

broadcast to them over the telescreens, the two minutes hate and whatever

the Party wants them to believe. By instilling these thoughts into them,

they will never be hurt, never experience pain, because every night they

would go to bed knowing that they had done more good than harm. They have

no power because it is the Party that gives them power.'

'Then people are not living at all . . . '

'They have no purpose to live. They are existing, bodies with no identities

but that's all that matters, isn't it? I have simply manipulated power to

show all previous pretenses will be and can be accomplished. There will be

no more stains in one's memory, no more regrets. Human nature is built upon

the foundation of power and I, in turn, have eliminated further yearnings for

it. Power is pure and constant. Don't you see there will always be only one

word for it, whether it is in Newspeak or Oldspeak?'

'Why do you bother with me? A minority of one . . . '

O'Brien, who was in a previous uproar, took at deep breath before he took

hold of Winston's two shoulders and pushed him down to a chair that had

simply materialized. He himself straightened his back liked a teacher who

was about to begin an important lesson.

'As I said before, you intrigued me because contrary to what you believe we

are in fact one in the same. In your frenzy, you failed to realize the

extent that the party has upon you. The further that you tried to dislodge

yourself from us, the closer you are actually embracing the party.

Ultimately, it comes down to a battle of the mind. Human mind is the extreme

form of power. When you can overcome the shadows and decipher black from

white at the palm of your hand, then and only then will you exist. I know

you, Winston, your last stand will be battle of your mind.'

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End

So it ends on my take on what happen after Room 101. Let me know what you

think by r/r or even leave comments as to the relevance of this one-shot.

Anyway, until later, peace!!