CS: Whoa 25 reviews.for me that is a lot. Proves my uh..skills.
Yami: Not bad but really all this is about Seto and Jou. Where is me? You need me in this along with my hikari.
Yami CS: Shut it Yami.
Yugi: Be nice to my Yami.
CS: Fine..hmm I might be nice and write about you guys too or make you both your own ficcy. How does that sound? *Is dragged off by Yami *
Yami: *whispers *
CS: *blinks * Ohh.hmm. I'll think about it.
Yugi: Think about what?!!
Yami CS: How can anyone be that dense?
Seto: Do you really want to know?
Yami CS: No. Anyway thanks for the reviews and on with the fic!
~Jou Pov~
I turned to see a very flustered maid who muttered something about having scared her half to death with all the noise I made. She grumbled a few moments longer before telling me that master Kaiba was in his study. I looked at her as though saying yeah that helps. She pointed in the correct direction and gave me instruction on which way to go.
After I finished speaking with her I went the rest of the way down the stairs following the directions I was given. They helped me very little. I ended up wandering for ten minutes before finding the correct door. I opened one of the large cherry wood doors. They were carved in I believe some Celtic pattern. With sterling silver adornments, which were aged and a bit darkened. Though most things aged are. The doors were thick and fairly heavy. I saw though there were modern lights the only light in the room came from a massive fireplace that was surrounded by armchairs. Most comfortable looking things they were. The floor was hardwood panels of pines mixing covered in a protective coat of polyurethane. Here and there were rugs, mostly of Asian designs. Though the walls were large bookshelves filled with books of all sizes and colors. Books of all subjects could be found there. It was rather impressive.
I strode toward the armchairs thinking to myself.
Now why hasn't he killed me? He had the chance as foolish as I was to allow that to happen.
I shook my thoughts away and stopped next to the blue armchair. There I looked down at Kaiba who appeared to be well asleep. I smirked inwardly and saw a book open in his lap. I reached down and closed it moving his hand from where it was on the page then went to take the book. Soon as it was out of his hands one hand reached out snatching my wrist suddenly. I looked from the book to him.
"That interesting is it?" I asked grinning.
He sighed and let go of me.
"I see you did wake up after all. Good. Take a seat." He gestured to one of the other armchairs a red one the one that happened to be closest to his. I nodded and set the book on a small table beside his chair before sitting on the one he motioned to.
"I have a few question Kai.."
"Now you haven't called me just Kaiba since I first met you."
I growled slightly looking at him my annoyance obvious. He sighed and looked at me leaning back on his chair.
"Fine as you wish. Now Seto why have you spared me?"
He nodded "A good question indeed. I wanted to offer you something. Something few people get Jou. I want to offer you what I have. I want you to become what I am. To be like I am. Immortal and without weakness."
I could only look at him in a mixture of shock and disgust. To become the one thing that took my dearest Shizuka away was unthinkable.
I stood and shook my head.
"Never..I would never want to be what you are. What took someone so dear from me. Not to mention you as well Seto."
I could see him wince at this. The guilt was tugging at him. He felt responsible for Mokuba and I could understand why. He felt responsible for Mokuba like I felt responsible for Shizuka. We weren't all that different. We just went different ways in our lives. I sighed looking to the fire. I heard him speak up again though my eyes stayed on the fire.
"Jou you are the only person that I can say I remotely care for any longer. We have been separated by hate and anger. When one of us is gone the other will have nothing left."
He was right. Once I killed him I would have no purpose left. The only reason I signed into the brotherhood was to kill him. For what he had done. Could I still do it? He had saved me in all my misery but saved me all the same. If I got rid of him I would truly be alone. More alone than I was now. I sighed and leaned back in the chair, which was indeed comfortable. I could feel his eyes on me.
"Think on it Jou. Neither of us wants to be alone."
I merely nodded to him in response. I promised the brother hood I was going to take him down. I found myself now lacking the strength and will now. Damn him. Damn it all to hell as I soon will be.
I felt my eyes close and my body began to slump in the chair. I was still tired. Before the last part of my conscious left me I felt myself being lifted gently then being carried. I let myself fall into a deep sleep or what I prayed would be a deep sleep. I also prayed and begged the dreams not find me again.
~Dream/Flashback~
"Seto!! Seto-kun!!" I said happily as I saw the brunette standing beside the black haired brother of his.
He turned and smiled at me. Shizuka and Mokuba both running toward the playground together, while I walked calmly to Seto.
"Nice to see you again Seto."
He smiled "Always good to see you again Jou. You and Shizuka."
I blushed a bit but nodded smiling.
I hated to admit it then and I hate to admit it now he grows on you. He worms his way into you if you let him. He has a good cold cover though. No one really knows what he is actually like. Mokuba, Shizuka, and I were some of the few that did.
He looked at me and smiled.
"Jou I have a feeling something is going to happen. Something very bad Jou. Be careful please."
I looked at him a bit confused but nodded all the same.
"I will. You too." I said smiling though still pondering what he could mean.
I never understood why but he was right. A month after I had spoken to Seto was when my mother left. That was the last time I saw him well until he took Shizuka from this world. I am not sure but sometimes when I speak to him about it beyond the anger he may have I can see he is sorry.
I just wish I could go back to those days. The happy carefree days I spent with my sister and my friends. What I am now is just a mask. It hides what I am and how I really feel. Sure Yugi thought I would be depressed when Shizuka passed on but he had no clue how devastated I was.
It was a week after Shizuka passed that I finally left where I had run off to. I had locked myself in up a hotel room to cry away my sorrow. I thought it might help but all it did was grow. I was alive and she wasn't. Some brother I was. I let her die. I could turn to no one. No one could understand my pain.
I was a broken boy at her death. I knew what Seto was then. I vowed to make up for his taking of her innocence. So I joined a society I had heard about. Only rumors but it turned out to be real. What's more they offered to help me with one very large problem of mine. One of the only things keeping me from being free.
My father.
I felt my skin crawl when they said his name. Even today that happens. I hated him with every fiber of my being. He had beaten me, raped me, and taken me from my sister. I could never forgive him for all he had done.
His crimes soon were between only he and God.
I felt as though I had been freed from an eternity of darkness, finally seeing the light. Something I knew was there but just could not reach on my own. How I missed it from my youth. I felt a great weight lifted from me. My back or perhaps my soul.
Though he remains with me haunting me. Even if only in my dreams. I will never truly be rid of him. I can never be the same again. He took so much from me. Everything but my life. At times I wish he had so I could once again see her face. Hear her voice.
Yes I had thought of suicide but when I went to go through with it I could hear her saying to me.
"Please be strong for me big brother."
That would always bring me to tears and back to my depression. Something I had come to know like my own shadow.
CS: Yay finally I finished. I am having electrical work done on my house so it's kinda hard to work.
Yami CS: Now..which wire was it..eep!!
CS: NO!!! Sorry well I hope to get the next one to you guys sooner.
Yami: Not bad but really all this is about Seto and Jou. Where is me? You need me in this along with my hikari.
Yami CS: Shut it Yami.
Yugi: Be nice to my Yami.
CS: Fine..hmm I might be nice and write about you guys too or make you both your own ficcy. How does that sound? *Is dragged off by Yami *
Yami: *whispers *
CS: *blinks * Ohh.hmm. I'll think about it.
Yugi: Think about what?!!
Yami CS: How can anyone be that dense?
Seto: Do you really want to know?
Yami CS: No. Anyway thanks for the reviews and on with the fic!
~Jou Pov~
I turned to see a very flustered maid who muttered something about having scared her half to death with all the noise I made. She grumbled a few moments longer before telling me that master Kaiba was in his study. I looked at her as though saying yeah that helps. She pointed in the correct direction and gave me instruction on which way to go.
After I finished speaking with her I went the rest of the way down the stairs following the directions I was given. They helped me very little. I ended up wandering for ten minutes before finding the correct door. I opened one of the large cherry wood doors. They were carved in I believe some Celtic pattern. With sterling silver adornments, which were aged and a bit darkened. Though most things aged are. The doors were thick and fairly heavy. I saw though there were modern lights the only light in the room came from a massive fireplace that was surrounded by armchairs. Most comfortable looking things they were. The floor was hardwood panels of pines mixing covered in a protective coat of polyurethane. Here and there were rugs, mostly of Asian designs. Though the walls were large bookshelves filled with books of all sizes and colors. Books of all subjects could be found there. It was rather impressive.
I strode toward the armchairs thinking to myself.
Now why hasn't he killed me? He had the chance as foolish as I was to allow that to happen.
I shook my thoughts away and stopped next to the blue armchair. There I looked down at Kaiba who appeared to be well asleep. I smirked inwardly and saw a book open in his lap. I reached down and closed it moving his hand from where it was on the page then went to take the book. Soon as it was out of his hands one hand reached out snatching my wrist suddenly. I looked from the book to him.
"That interesting is it?" I asked grinning.
He sighed and let go of me.
"I see you did wake up after all. Good. Take a seat." He gestured to one of the other armchairs a red one the one that happened to be closest to his. I nodded and set the book on a small table beside his chair before sitting on the one he motioned to.
"I have a few question Kai.."
"Now you haven't called me just Kaiba since I first met you."
I growled slightly looking at him my annoyance obvious. He sighed and looked at me leaning back on his chair.
"Fine as you wish. Now Seto why have you spared me?"
He nodded "A good question indeed. I wanted to offer you something. Something few people get Jou. I want to offer you what I have. I want you to become what I am. To be like I am. Immortal and without weakness."
I could only look at him in a mixture of shock and disgust. To become the one thing that took my dearest Shizuka away was unthinkable.
I stood and shook my head.
"Never..I would never want to be what you are. What took someone so dear from me. Not to mention you as well Seto."
I could see him wince at this. The guilt was tugging at him. He felt responsible for Mokuba and I could understand why. He felt responsible for Mokuba like I felt responsible for Shizuka. We weren't all that different. We just went different ways in our lives. I sighed looking to the fire. I heard him speak up again though my eyes stayed on the fire.
"Jou you are the only person that I can say I remotely care for any longer. We have been separated by hate and anger. When one of us is gone the other will have nothing left."
He was right. Once I killed him I would have no purpose left. The only reason I signed into the brotherhood was to kill him. For what he had done. Could I still do it? He had saved me in all my misery but saved me all the same. If I got rid of him I would truly be alone. More alone than I was now. I sighed and leaned back in the chair, which was indeed comfortable. I could feel his eyes on me.
"Think on it Jou. Neither of us wants to be alone."
I merely nodded to him in response. I promised the brother hood I was going to take him down. I found myself now lacking the strength and will now. Damn him. Damn it all to hell as I soon will be.
I felt my eyes close and my body began to slump in the chair. I was still tired. Before the last part of my conscious left me I felt myself being lifted gently then being carried. I let myself fall into a deep sleep or what I prayed would be a deep sleep. I also prayed and begged the dreams not find me again.
~Dream/Flashback~
"Seto!! Seto-kun!!" I said happily as I saw the brunette standing beside the black haired brother of his.
He turned and smiled at me. Shizuka and Mokuba both running toward the playground together, while I walked calmly to Seto.
"Nice to see you again Seto."
He smiled "Always good to see you again Jou. You and Shizuka."
I blushed a bit but nodded smiling.
I hated to admit it then and I hate to admit it now he grows on you. He worms his way into you if you let him. He has a good cold cover though. No one really knows what he is actually like. Mokuba, Shizuka, and I were some of the few that did.
He looked at me and smiled.
"Jou I have a feeling something is going to happen. Something very bad Jou. Be careful please."
I looked at him a bit confused but nodded all the same.
"I will. You too." I said smiling though still pondering what he could mean.
I never understood why but he was right. A month after I had spoken to Seto was when my mother left. That was the last time I saw him well until he took Shizuka from this world. I am not sure but sometimes when I speak to him about it beyond the anger he may have I can see he is sorry.
I just wish I could go back to those days. The happy carefree days I spent with my sister and my friends. What I am now is just a mask. It hides what I am and how I really feel. Sure Yugi thought I would be depressed when Shizuka passed on but he had no clue how devastated I was.
It was a week after Shizuka passed that I finally left where I had run off to. I had locked myself in up a hotel room to cry away my sorrow. I thought it might help but all it did was grow. I was alive and she wasn't. Some brother I was. I let her die. I could turn to no one. No one could understand my pain.
I was a broken boy at her death. I knew what Seto was then. I vowed to make up for his taking of her innocence. So I joined a society I had heard about. Only rumors but it turned out to be real. What's more they offered to help me with one very large problem of mine. One of the only things keeping me from being free.
My father.
I felt my skin crawl when they said his name. Even today that happens. I hated him with every fiber of my being. He had beaten me, raped me, and taken me from my sister. I could never forgive him for all he had done.
His crimes soon were between only he and God.
I felt as though I had been freed from an eternity of darkness, finally seeing the light. Something I knew was there but just could not reach on my own. How I missed it from my youth. I felt a great weight lifted from me. My back or perhaps my soul.
Though he remains with me haunting me. Even if only in my dreams. I will never truly be rid of him. I can never be the same again. He took so much from me. Everything but my life. At times I wish he had so I could once again see her face. Hear her voice.
Yes I had thought of suicide but when I went to go through with it I could hear her saying to me.
"Please be strong for me big brother."
That would always bring me to tears and back to my depression. Something I had come to know like my own shadow.
CS: Yay finally I finished. I am having electrical work done on my house so it's kinda hard to work.
Yami CS: Now..which wire was it..eep!!
CS: NO!!! Sorry well I hope to get the next one to you guys sooner.