CS: I know I haven't given you all an update in ages sorry about that.
Yami CS: Yeah anyway hope you think it's going good so far.
Jou: Yeah anyway we should get on with the fic delayed enough already. Ok note that words in [and] are song lyrics. Not our song but Sweet Misery by Michelle Branch.
~Jou Pov~
I sat up panting. I hadn't known I cried out in my sleep. I should have realized I did. I blinked surprised to see Seto looking at me. Eyes as clear as the ocean filled with concern.
I forced a weak smiled hoping to conceal my shaking from him. I didn't think twice when he opened his arms. I let myself fall onto his chest lightly.
I cried silently. Sobbing was the last thing I needed to do. That dream..I pray it hold no truth in it.
[I was lost and you were found. You seemed to stand on solid ground. I was weak and you were strong. And me and my guitar,we strummed along, oh.]
I felt his heartbeat. It calmed me to know he was alive a dream is but a dream. I shuddered wondering if it would ever come to be. Nothing seemed to be safe or sacred in my world.
I was losing hope in keeping him with me. I was losing all I had before anything was certain. I lost a great deal already. No this time I would not let it happen never.
Seto is mine. I will protect him with all that I am and all that I can.
I looked up at him and smiled faintly. He looked down at me still worried about me. I could tell by his eyes. They could never take my memories of him if they could get him.
"Seto.." I said my voice as weak and quiet as it had been in the dream. My heart ached to tell him. The sorrow of Shizuka was fading. It would never be gone but perhaps dulled.
[Sweet Misery you caused me. Sweet Misery you called me. Sweet Misery you cause me.]
"What is it Jou?" He asked using a tone that showed me more trust and compassion than my mind nor heart could understand. From this source of love and hate.
I smiled. I beside myself by this all. One thing leads to another I suppose. Though planning to kill him then confessing my love to him didn't seem to cross my mind at all before.
[I was blind but oh, you could see. You saw the beauty in everything and me.]
"Seto." I paused my tone showing a side of joy and amusement I had long forgotten " I love you."
His cerulean eyes widened in shock. He stared down at me in disbelief of my statement. Had I been him I'm sure I would have thought the same thing. I mean hey I vowed to his face to kill him oh.hmm..less than twenty-four hours ago.
His mouth was slight agape but it close and curved into a smile.
"Jou.."
I nodded "Yeah?"
MY heart skipped a beat. I took in a deep breath waiting. Now or never I suppose. I felt my heart in my throat as though it might leave me should he not answer.
[I would cry and you would smile. You'd stay with me a little while.]
"Jou..I..I.."
My heart sank to my stomach as thoughts rushed through my mind. The hope in me was dimming now. An answer. I needed an answer!
[Sweet Misery you caused me. Sweet Misery you called me. Sweet Misery you cause me.]
Please I'm begging you Seto answer me.
I would never say those words aloud but I would pray he knew I wanted and answer as badly as I indeed did. I looked down at the silence knowing what it meant.
I closed my eyes feeling them burn. I confessed to him but what had I really expected?
"Jou.." he said again in a tone that seemed to hold love in my ears. Maybe I imagined all these sings of love and affection.
[And in my heart I see oh, what you're doing to me. And in my heart I see oh, just how you wanted it to be. Sweet Misery. Oh whoa.]
My head was hanging in shame and sadness. I felt him lift up my head by the chin gently. He looked at me as I opened my eyes. He smiled and kissed my forehead lightly pulling back whispering to me. "I love you too."
I looked at him stunned utterly stunned.
[Sweet Misery that's what you caused me. Sweet Misery that's what you called me. Sweet Misery is what you cause me.]
I looked at him the words meaning and sincerity finally clicking in my mind. I slowly began to smile. He looked at me again and I blinked looking at him. I had half forgotten this was no dream. This was real.
I hugged him closing my eyes that now burned with joy. The sadness within them gone for the time. Love something I had not come to know that well. I was being given a gift. Something I had never truly been given before by any other nor would I accept from any other.
He hugged me back tightly and I hoped he'd never let go. If he did he would be trying to get me to let go.
[And in my heart I see oh, what you're doing to me. And in my heart I see oh, just how you wanted it to be. Sweet Misery.]
I could hear in my mind the pain of my memories giving way to my newfound joy and happiness. No it was more the joy and happiness I rediscovered.
Reminds me of an old saying. Let them go if you love them and if they come back it shows that they love you. Maybe this is true. I left him and he did let me go. I came back to him. In a way I think I , my true self, never really left him. The carefree happy go lucky me stayed with him.
[I was weak and you were strong. Me and my guitar we strummed along.]
Yami CS: Yeah anyway hope you think it's going good so far.
Jou: Yeah anyway we should get on with the fic delayed enough already. Ok note that words in [and] are song lyrics. Not our song but Sweet Misery by Michelle Branch.
~Jou Pov~
I sat up panting. I hadn't known I cried out in my sleep. I should have realized I did. I blinked surprised to see Seto looking at me. Eyes as clear as the ocean filled with concern.
I forced a weak smiled hoping to conceal my shaking from him. I didn't think twice when he opened his arms. I let myself fall onto his chest lightly.
I cried silently. Sobbing was the last thing I needed to do. That dream..I pray it hold no truth in it.
[I was lost and you were found. You seemed to stand on solid ground. I was weak and you were strong. And me and my guitar,we strummed along, oh.]
I felt his heartbeat. It calmed me to know he was alive a dream is but a dream. I shuddered wondering if it would ever come to be. Nothing seemed to be safe or sacred in my world.
I was losing hope in keeping him with me. I was losing all I had before anything was certain. I lost a great deal already. No this time I would not let it happen never.
Seto is mine. I will protect him with all that I am and all that I can.
I looked up at him and smiled faintly. He looked down at me still worried about me. I could tell by his eyes. They could never take my memories of him if they could get him.
"Seto.." I said my voice as weak and quiet as it had been in the dream. My heart ached to tell him. The sorrow of Shizuka was fading. It would never be gone but perhaps dulled.
[Sweet Misery you caused me. Sweet Misery you called me. Sweet Misery you cause me.]
"What is it Jou?" He asked using a tone that showed me more trust and compassion than my mind nor heart could understand. From this source of love and hate.
I smiled. I beside myself by this all. One thing leads to another I suppose. Though planning to kill him then confessing my love to him didn't seem to cross my mind at all before.
[I was blind but oh, you could see. You saw the beauty in everything and me.]
"Seto." I paused my tone showing a side of joy and amusement I had long forgotten " I love you."
His cerulean eyes widened in shock. He stared down at me in disbelief of my statement. Had I been him I'm sure I would have thought the same thing. I mean hey I vowed to his face to kill him oh.hmm..less than twenty-four hours ago.
His mouth was slight agape but it close and curved into a smile.
"Jou.."
I nodded "Yeah?"
MY heart skipped a beat. I took in a deep breath waiting. Now or never I suppose. I felt my heart in my throat as though it might leave me should he not answer.
[I would cry and you would smile. You'd stay with me a little while.]
"Jou..I..I.."
My heart sank to my stomach as thoughts rushed through my mind. The hope in me was dimming now. An answer. I needed an answer!
[Sweet Misery you caused me. Sweet Misery you called me. Sweet Misery you cause me.]
Please I'm begging you Seto answer me.
I would never say those words aloud but I would pray he knew I wanted and answer as badly as I indeed did. I looked down at the silence knowing what it meant.
I closed my eyes feeling them burn. I confessed to him but what had I really expected?
"Jou.." he said again in a tone that seemed to hold love in my ears. Maybe I imagined all these sings of love and affection.
[And in my heart I see oh, what you're doing to me. And in my heart I see oh, just how you wanted it to be. Sweet Misery. Oh whoa.]
My head was hanging in shame and sadness. I felt him lift up my head by the chin gently. He looked at me as I opened my eyes. He smiled and kissed my forehead lightly pulling back whispering to me. "I love you too."
I looked at him stunned utterly stunned.
[Sweet Misery that's what you caused me. Sweet Misery that's what you called me. Sweet Misery is what you cause me.]
I looked at him the words meaning and sincerity finally clicking in my mind. I slowly began to smile. He looked at me again and I blinked looking at him. I had half forgotten this was no dream. This was real.
I hugged him closing my eyes that now burned with joy. The sadness within them gone for the time. Love something I had not come to know that well. I was being given a gift. Something I had never truly been given before by any other nor would I accept from any other.
He hugged me back tightly and I hoped he'd never let go. If he did he would be trying to get me to let go.
[And in my heart I see oh, what you're doing to me. And in my heart I see oh, just how you wanted it to be. Sweet Misery.]
I could hear in my mind the pain of my memories giving way to my newfound joy and happiness. No it was more the joy and happiness I rediscovered.
Reminds me of an old saying. Let them go if you love them and if they come back it shows that they love you. Maybe this is true. I left him and he did let me go. I came back to him. In a way I think I , my true self, never really left him. The carefree happy go lucky me stayed with him.
[I was weak and you were strong. Me and my guitar we strummed along.]