Titel: You what? - Part I

Author: Janine
Spoiler: WITW
Disclaimer: Joss owns everything. I just borrow them
Category: Light Fic, Crossover, Post-Ep.
Content: C/A, B/A friendship
Summary: WITW with a twist.
It is set after Seeing Red and the Rape scene. And Tara is still alive - so there's no DarkWillow, etc.
Comments: Thanks to Darla for helping me with this FF :)
Feedback: Yes, please.


Unexpected Guests
A young red-haired woman opened the door.. She looked back and her expression turned sad. "Come in," she said.
Another woman with fair hair entered the hall. She was neither saying anything nor taking notice of anything around her.
Willow closed the door and led Buffy to one of the sofas.
"Sit down, okay?"
Buffy sat down, but she was still silent.
Willow went back outside to get their bags, which they had left in the car.
Giggling was heard from above. It belonged to a man and a woman and they came closer.
"Hey, stop that," the female voice giggled.
"No, I won't," the man answered.
Then there was loud laughter filling the hall.
"I said stop"
"Please, one more time"
"No"
"Pleeeeeasee.!"
The two of them entered the hall, unaware of the Slayer sitting on the sofa. Now you could see what they were giggling about. Angel had found out that Cordy was ticklish and now he tickled her while she tried to stop him.
When they reached the bottom, Angel discovered Buffy. But she seemed absent-minded.
"Buffy? What are you doing here? I didn't expect you to come" Angel said, surprised.
Buffy looked at them now. "Hi," she whispered.
"Oh, hi Angel. Glad to see you..."
Cordy and Angel turned to the door where Willow was standing with two bags and a sad smile on her face. "Hi Willow," Cordy answered. Her voice didn't sound giggly anymore.
"What's the matter?" Angel asked seriously and helped Willow with her bags.
"Thanks. I don't know. She didn't tell me anything. She just said that she wanted to leave Sunnydale." She shrugged. "I don't know what's the matter, but I guess it is nothing good."
"And why here?" Cordy asked sceptically. She sat down beside Buffy 'cause she was starting to feel a little fuzzy.
"It was the only place I knew of where she could go without having to answer too many question. And I was hoping you could break her silence" Willow placed her bag on the counter.

*****

The Talk
"Hey, how are you?" Angel asked when he entered Buffy's guestroom.
She looked at him. "How do you think I am?" she asked cynically.
"I see"
She turned around to look out of the window again.
He approached her and followed her gaze. "So, why did you want to come here?" he asked a few moments later.
She shrugged. "I don't know I don't even know what to think anymore It all just doesn't matter anymore," she answered in a whisper.
He nodded. "What happened, Buffy? Willow's guessing something bad."
She didn't answer but looked at him. She watched him how he was just standing beside her looking out of the window. "Willow has always been good at guessing," she finally said.
"Yeah, she really is. And she cares about you - a lot. You really frightened her with your behavior"
Buffy nodded. "I know. But she wouldn't understand"
"Wouldn't unterstand what?"
Buffy turned away from the window and sat down on the bed.
Angel followed her carefully and sat down beside her.
Buffy hugged herself. She felt so empty inside and wasn't sure if she could tell him what had happened to her. Why she had left Sunnydale.
"Look, I can help you but you have to tell me what happened"
She first looked at him and then down, avoiding to look him in the eye. "Spike," she whispered.
"Spike," he echoed calmly even though he wasn't calm any longer.
They were sitting on the bed for minutes. Both of them were thinking about the situation.
"You know, a lot of things happened since the last time we saw each other," Buffy finally started.
"I guess so"
"I had to learn how to live, how to breathe all over again.. I worked at the dirtiest places you could imagine and went through hell. Or at least I thought that. I thought it couldn't get any worse. I was wrong about that, Angel. I don't know how to explain"
"You don't have to now if it's too much."
She smiled. "I know that. That's why I wanted to come to you"
He smiled back. "Look, I know how it feels to go through hell and have no one left at your side you can talk to" He grabbed her hand.
But on a first reflex she wanted to pull back.
"It's okay," he said and pulled his hand back. "I didn't mean to Did he hurt you?"
"Who?" Buffy asked irritated.
"Spike."
"No Yes, he did," she answered some seconds later. She could feel how her anger and her helplessness of that evening were growing inside her.
"What did he do to you?" Her behavior was bothering him. So his voice sounded worried. "Please tell me if you can"
She looked at him. "I I thought I I could feel anything again when I let him love me. But I felt nothing. There was still this emptiness inside of me. Just deep emptiness. But after I told him it was over he he kinda overreacted. He was just an animal driven by his instincts." She was fighting against her tears.
"Shh" Angel wanted to take her into his arms and embrace her.
But she didn't let him and stood up. "Look at me I can't even stand your touch anymore," she cried. "There's nothing left. He he screwed everything up" Now tears were rolling down her cheeks.

*****

Everything okay?
"How's she doing?" Willow asked worriedly when Angel came back downstairs. "Did she say anything?"
Poor, poor Buffy and Angel still listens to little whiny Buffy
Cordy didn't like the whole scenario because she was afraid of what could happen if the two of them came too close. Close enough to lose his soul again. And she didn't like the way Buffy got all of his attention.
Who does she think she is? The Princess who can have everything she wants?
"What do you know about Spike?" Angel asked when he reached the counter.
"Spike?" Her look turned more worried. "Does he?"
Angel glanced at her.
I promised her not to say anything
"Oh. She told you I wouldn't understand. But you must know, since she came back, I've been feeling that she was hiding something - deep inside of her. Something she doesn't want to tell me. It is like she lost herself and tries to find back to life." She looked at him sadly. "But sometimes it seemed to me that Spike was the one who understood her. He was the one she really talked to, I guess. I never said that to her, but I'm sure that there was more than just *vampire and slayer in a team*.
"Do you mean they?" Cordy asked with a suddenly pale face. "Sorry," she said and ran to the bathroom.
Angel and Willow watched her running.
"What's wrong with her?" Willow asked then.
"I don't know" He shrugged. "I've already told her to go to a doctor but she refused. She said she's doing fine."
"Sorry for running off" Cordy came back a few moments later. "Puh, *that* was close," she sighed and took her seat again.
"Everything okay?" Angel asked with a concerned face.
"Yeah, everything's okay," Cordy answered smiling.
"Really? Angel told me you refused to go to a doctor"
"He did?"
Willow nodded. "Why did you refuse?"
"Because I'm fine."
"No, you're not, Cordy," Angel disagreed.
"I am." Cordy gave Angel an annoyed look.
"I don't want to say what you have to do, but you should accept his advice and go to a doctor."
Cordy looked at Willow and then at Angel. They both had a very concerned look on their faces. "O-kay. You are very persuasive, both of you," she said after a beat. "I'll go, I promise."
"Fine." Willow looked at the clock. "Oh. I have to go. A meeting"
"Wicca?"
"Yep."
"Good."
"Okay, see you. Call if Buffy needs me.."
"I will," Angel replied.
Willow nodded and left the hotel.

*****

At the doctor's
"Ms. Chase, right? I'm Dr. Evans," A woman entered the room where Cordy was waiting after a few tests she had gone through. "Okay, let's see ah yes. " Dr Evans said after she consulted the test results. "You're pregnant," the doctor said after a few seconds.
"I'm WHAT?"
"Pregnant. You seem surprised," Dr. Evans said smiling.
"Surprised is a good word for that."
Dr. Evans nodded. "Do you know who the father is?"
"No. That's why I am surprised. I haven't had any date the last few months and now I'm pregnant"
"Are you sure you didn't have any kind of date?"
"Ooh yeah, I'm quite sure"
What a stupid question
"Okay, that's all. Everything else's fine with you," the doctor said finally and stood up again. "I hope I'll see you again in a few weeks, Ms. Chase See you."
Cordy stood up, too, and the two women shook hands.

*****

The Guy on the phone?
"I'm fine. And you?" Angel heard Cordy ask.
The vampire went downstairs and noticed she was on the phone.
"I just needed talk to you about something."
Angel came closer. The tone in which she'd said "something" got his attention.
"Hell no! I can't tell him!"
'Him'? ME? Tell 'him' what?
"Because because I just can't, okay? You know Angel, he'd just get mad that I lied to him"
She lied to me? About WHAT?
Cordy was silent for a few seconds before she continued. "Can I talk to you about that in person? It's not something I wanna discuss on the phone"
Who the hell is she talking to??
"No, I'll come over to your place."
WHAT????
"What about tonight? After work?"
What? She's gonna have a *date*?
"Okay. I so love you, you know that?"
She just told that guy she loves him? *Great.* I knew she'd gonna fall for someone else sooner or later.
He retreated back to his room so he didn't hear her say,
"Okay, see you later. Bye Lorne."

*****

Dream
"I want you - to undress me."
Angel could not believe what she'd just said.
Did she really mean?
His heart jumped. "You what?"
"It's just another costume. I want you to see who I really am. You're the only one who can."
Now Angel was totally confused. He was sure she was joking - but it sounded soooo good. It was what he had wanted since. Since she was more than just a beautiful and good friend to him. She was the woman of his life - now.
And few moments and lines later they were kissing.

*****

To be continued. :)