Farewell in Heaven
Sorry for the long update… I just couldn't find the right words to say in this chapter… hehehe you could say I was in a writer's block! Enjoy reading…
Chapter Four: Unease (Rei's POV)
While darkness covered the sky, pain slowly roofed my heart…
It has been two weeks since we knew about Usagi's disease… two weeks since I saw her talked with Mamuro. Each word I heard her say was stained with grief… I remember her eyes flutter closed to stop a downfall of tears… her lips quivered as she try to remain cool on the telephone.
Day by day I would wake up finding myself wrapped in the warm embrace of Seiya but the sight of Usagi sleeping, sick, on her bed would make me nauseous and cold. My best friend was dying… It was just intolerable…
We were so happy then…
Usagi's condition was getting worst everyday. She can't stay standing for a long time; in fact the doctor recommended her to use a cane already. Drugs to slow down the spread of the disease were given to her to take in. She'd constantly stare at nothingness and sob.
Reality came unto me as I felt an unexpected body sit beside me. Being familiar with the body, I unthinkingly leaned against it and sighed.
"Are you ok?" Seiya asked as he placed a soft kiss on my cheek.
I mimicked his act and stood from the couch I was sitting on to prepare dinner.
I had to cook everything extra soft for Usagi to eat.
"Usagi, wake up, dinner is ready." I gently tapped her side to wake her up.
She slowly opened her eyes and yawned.
"Did anybody call?" she inquired.
"Umm, yeah… Dr. Mizuno called up to ask how you are doing. I'm afraid no one else called." I said, helping her stand up.
"I see…" She frowned and steadied herself with her cane.
I settled Usagi on a chair next me so I could feed her easily. Lifting utensils tires her easily….
After dinner, I helped her wash up and get dressed. That was our usual routine, and then finally, I would tuck her up in bed and wait for her to fall asleep.
"Goodnight…" I whispered.
She nodded and closed her eyes.
"Coffee?" Seiya offered.
I smiled and declined.
Seiya got my hand and led me to the narrow veranda of Usagi's apartment.
"I hope the soft wind and the simple view would make relief you." He sipped his coffee and placed his arms around my shoulder.
I sighed as I breathed in the cold night air.
"I can't take this anymore! Mou! How long does Usagi have to wait until Mamuro comes back! I'm so angry!!! What can I do! I can't leave Usagi here and go to America to find Mamuro… I can't leave you behind too… Oh God, help me through this…"
The moon shone bright and made my tears sparkle like the stars… I leaned my head against Seiya's shoulder and continued to shudder with pain and anger…
Seiya continued drinking his coffee without saying a word. His eyes shone in the dim light… then I saw a smile form in his lips…
"So many people walk around with a meaningless life…" He began.
"They seem half asleep even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they are chasing the wrong things… But you are not some people… You devote yourself in taking care of Usagi, loving her, giving her anything you can give…trying to make her happy…You've done more than enough… what more are you looking for… you already have purpose and meaning… I love you Rei, and nothing would ever change that… To see you being hurt like this would be torture for me… but I really don't care… As long as you commit your self in your purpose, I'd continue oblige my self in mine too… and that is to live by loving you…"
His words struck right through me… In front of me was the man who'd be willing to sacrifice anything for my sake… sacrifice anything for me to be happy… he'd give up even his own life just for me… and that made my love even stronger…
His tender love mended a part of a big rupture in my heart ever since I knew of Usagi's sickness…
I faced him with a smile and tear-filled eyes.
"Thank you… I swear I'd continue what I've started…I'll take care of Usagi with your help… I love you…"
He kissed me affectionately and I did too…
I sighed again as we parted from our kiss.
"Seiya…"
"Yes?" He responded as he clasped his hand with mine.
"Would you let me do one more thing for Usagi? I promise this will be last time… please?" I pleaded.
"Sure." He simply said.
I went back inside the apartment, to Usagi's desk and looked for her address book.
I found it and searched for Mamuro's name.
I went to the phone and dialed his number.
His machine answered, I'm sorry but I'm not in right now. Please leave a message and I promise I'd try to get back to you as soon as possible.
BEEP
I breathed and started to talk.
"Mamuro, it's me Rei. I guess you're busy… Where are you? Usagi needs you… She's really sick… The doctor said that she has Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis… Since you're studying medicine, maybe you've heard of it… I can't do everything by my self around here. Please take a minute and think about this…Ne Mamuro… Ja!"
I breathed again as I placed the handset down and walked back to where Seiya was.
"You called Mamuro huh…"
"Yup… I just hope he'd truly sit and think about what I said…"
With his arms wrapped around my waist, I prayed a silent prayer that soon enough everything would turn out fine and hoped that what I'm praying for is not impossible…
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well that's end of chapter four… I hope you liked it!
Preview for the next chapter: mamuro chooses between his studies and his dreams or Usagi