Chapter 5 - Snow

Snow's fall

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I watch the snow fall and wonder why.

Why do they care.

Can't they see what I really am.

Can't they see that I don't deserve their love.

.....because I'm not who they think I am.

My soul is so black I no longer know myself.

All I know is this feeling of needing to destroy everything.

Because I must be destroyed.

I want this end to come.

But yet they won'tlet me reach it.

Those fools who care.

Can't they see the darkness of my soul.

All I wish is to finally end it.

My cursed existance.

Yet those fools cannot see.

Or don't want to see.

I'm so tired of living.

All I want is the pain in my head.....in my hearty

To finally go away.

I wait for that day with eagerness.

The day I will be free.

But I hopr those fools never see my true self.

I don't think I could bare it to see them walk away.

Even if I do deserve it.

The wind howls in the night.

I look up from my trance and sigh.

The pain in my head getting worse.

I watch the snow as it falls.

Behind me I hear Rune get up from his chair.

The sound of the door closing echos in my ears

He hadn't said said good night

He hadn't said anything.

Rolling up in a ball I cry silent tears.

Maybe he already knows my secret.

Maybe they aren't fools after all.