Soul Confessions
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By nine thirty that night Inu still had not shown up. Kagome kept his disc player under
her pillow. She listened to the plaintive strains of the haunting guitar music. She felt a
lump in her throat. She wanted to cry from the sheer beauty of it. Earlier that evening
her mother asked her,"Where did that come from?" Kagome told her a friend. "Well
that was nice of Sango." Her mother assumed and Kagome didn't correct. "If you want
one we could buy you one of your own, all you have to do is ask. Tomorrow I will go to
the audio store and....." "Mom it's okay, I like borrowing things sometimes. It makes me
feel like someone expects me to live longer." Kagome told her thinking besides it would
mean I couldn't hold on to Inu Yasha. "But if you like it so much why don't you want one
of your own?" Her mother was always persistant. Her mother noticed the look on her
face and didn't mention it again that night. Kagome began to think Inu would never show
up to get his disc player. She was beginning to give up all hope. He probably had a bagful
and went room to room giving them out to lonely girls in hospital beds.
"Sorry I am late, Kagome." Inu ducked inside her room after ten. "I had to clean an
operation room." "I wasn't worried," Kagome fibbed. "Plus I had your disc player. I
figured you would come back for it." He went to her bedside. "The player is nothing to
me, it is you I want to see." Her feelings of rejection did an about face. "Thank you for
letting me borrow it. I love the music." He reached into his pocket and withdrew several
discs. "Here are the others."
"But it's your player, and I should give it back. My parents will buy me my own."
Inu grinned. "Then you will have no reason to let me visit."
Kagome returned his smile, touched that they shared the same thought. "You don't need
a reason." He placed the discs in her hand. "I can't stay. I have to get back, but I could
not begin again without seeing you."
"Will you promise to come back tonight?"
His eyes clouded. "I don't know... Your doctor wants you to rest."
"I rest all day."
"It would be very late, and the nurse on duty-"
"I don't care. The nurse takes vitals at twelve and three. You can visit between her
rounds. Please. I am lonely here."His expression softened. "I can deny you nothing,
Kagome. Spending time with youis my greatest wish. I never thought you'd consider
spending time with someone like me."
"What's wrong with you?"
He shrugged." I am only an orderly."
"So? Is that what you'll always be?"
"I'd like to go to medical school one day. I'd like to become a doctor."
"Who takes care of girls with paper hearts?"
"Who takes care of girls with beautiful hearts?"
He said such wonderful things to her, unlike boys in her classes. She'd had crushes on
several of them. They all seemed to be very much into their own lives- friends, cars,
sports. If any of them had had a crush on her, it was a well kept secret. "I should be
out of this tent soon. I'll be mobile soon. Maybe we can go down to the game room
together."
"I have another job. I leave this one, go home, sleep, get up and work at the grocery
store in my hood until its time to come here." Her heart sank. "I-I didn't mean to get
carried away. Of course you have a life, and if you work till midnight this is the last
place you want to be in the daytime."
He leaned in closer eyes filled with emotion. "I will cut my hours back at the store if it
means I can spend more time with you."
"You'd do that for me?"
"I'd do most anything for you."
"But why? You hardly know me."
"I have seen you come since I began my job here. There was something about you that
touched my heart. I know that doesn't make sense to you, but it does to me. People do
not choose how they feel about someone. You just one day see that special person, and
your heart reacts. Your sould jumps up and you think.'I've waited my whole life to meet
this person.' It has been that way for me, Kagome. From the time I first saw you, I
cared for you."
She was shocked speechless.
Inu took a step backward. "I have said too much haven't I? Forgive me, I didn't mean to
push myself on you."
"Noone has ever said anything like that to me before." Noone ever said things like that to
her especially since her heart had gone bad. Few guys seemed even to want to be around
an invalid. "I like hearing it." she added shyly.
His smile lit up his face. "I have wanted to tell you everytime you came into the hospital
how I felt, but I did not know you, and until last night I had little hope of meeting you. I
expect nothing from you, Kagome. You may never feel for me as I do for you, and thats
alright."
"There is not much I can give back. Inu if you'll visit me, you know, give me your time,
well, I'd like that alot." Their gazes locked and held. Kagome felt her insides turn to
jelly. "I'll come tomorrow afternoon early, before my shift begins."He said. "Is that
okay?"
"Totally okay." The air felt charged. She held out her hand and he brushed his fingers
across her palm, sending shivers up her spine.
"Until tomorrow." Inu said.
"Are you positive you don't want your disc player back?"she asked.
"It's not needed. Now I have music in my heart." He slipped out of her room.
Inu Yasha kept his promise. He came in an hour early the next day and every day that
week to stay with Kagome. She discovered that he was good medicine. By the end of the
week she was out of the tent and able to move around her room on her own.
"I am amazed at your progress."Dr. Kaede said. "Is my heart better?" Kagome wanted
to know. "Your heart will never be better, Kagome. You know that. But the pneumonia has
cleared quickly, which puts less strain on your heart, and thats a good thing." The doc
wrote notes on her chart, finishing she gave Kagome a quizzical look. "I've just told you
you're better, and you're not bombarding me with please to go back to school and home.
Don't tell me you're starting to like it here."
"It's not bad this time. I don't mind waiting a bit longer." Kagome didn't meet the docs
gaze as she answered, afraid she'd be asked more questions.
"That is good child because I want to keep you for a few more days. Run some tests."
"If you say so."
Dr. Kaede smiled. "That's what I like- a good cooperative patient. Now be a good girl and
get back into bed for me."
Kagome glanced anxiously at the clock. Dr. Kaede had stayed well into Inu's visiting time,
and Kagome was eager for her to leave. Suddenly the doc's beeper went off and she
hurried out of the room. Inu stepped into the room, shutting the door.
"I thought she would never leave."Kagome said as Inu pulled up a chair beside her.
"She's your doctor. What did she say?"
"More tests. But that means I 'll be around longer. What do you think?"
He grinned. "I have been dreading the time when you will leave. I will miss you."
"You don't have to. You can visit me at home."
His smile faded. He leaned forward and took her hand, and pressed her palm against his
broad chest. She felt his heartbeat strong and steady through the fabric of his clothing.
"That won't be possible, Kagome."
"But why? I thought you liked me."
He didn't get to answer. Just then, her mother came in, saying "Surprise I got off work
early and____" She stopped short when she saw Inu. "What's going on here?" she
asked, her eyes narrowing suspiciously. "Who are you? And why are you in Kagome's
room holding her hand?"
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Notes: Oh yeah! Feels good to get that done with. Today I have written my heart out
for you ladies!!! I hope you enjoy this. If anyone wants to know the book I got the idea
for this story it came from How Do I Love Thee (three stories) By Lurlene McDaniel.
This story derives from Laura's Heart. I just added the Inuyasha peeps and a few of
my own words. Sorda. Well ENJOY!!! ~_~ SEN
____________________________________
(Driving down the freeway, slips in Meteora by Linkin Park, puts it on track 9)
Sen~Man this is a good song~ (Hears movement in the back seat)
Inuyasha^Hey how the........ Man I look like a wuss. Couldn't you make me look tough?^
(Almost crashes, calms down a bit)
Sen~Uh where did you come from?~
Inuyasha^ well my mother and father...geez are you stupid?^
Sen~Thats not what I meant, how did you get in my car?~
Inuyasha^Beats me pal. All I know is I was running through a forrest and boom^
Sen~Oh, hmm thats strange. Better buckle up. Well any place you want to go?~
Inuyasha(sniffs the air) ^Ughhh! The smell!!!^
Sen~Yeah thats Tacoma for you~
Inuyasha^No its this^(holds up a moldy foil swan)^What the heck is it?^
Sen~ GAH!!!!!!! Toss it out the window dude~
(Inuyasha throws it out the window)
Inuyasha^ Are you all like this?^
Sen~No! Man I wonder how long thats been in there.~
(Inuyasha unsheathes Tetsusaiga)
Sen~ Hey what are you doing, put it away man!!~
Inuyasha^ That filthy beast is comming back at us, watch out.^
(Sen swerves to miss knocking Inuyasha out the window a little)
(The swan hits Inuyasha in the face spewing its contents all over him)
Sen~Hey would you mind staying out the window, that really is gross. I don't want it all
over!~
Inuyasha^Feh! Stupid Jerk, shoulda let me kill it, instead you let it get me now I'll
probably get sick from its poison.^
Sen~Quit whining you should have had your seat belt on like I told you!~
Inuyasha(swirly eyes) I don't feel so good..........
______________
By nine thirty that night Inu still had not shown up. Kagome kept his disc player under
her pillow. She listened to the plaintive strains of the haunting guitar music. She felt a
lump in her throat. She wanted to cry from the sheer beauty of it. Earlier that evening
her mother asked her,"Where did that come from?" Kagome told her a friend. "Well
that was nice of Sango." Her mother assumed and Kagome didn't correct. "If you want
one we could buy you one of your own, all you have to do is ask. Tomorrow I will go to
the audio store and....." "Mom it's okay, I like borrowing things sometimes. It makes me
feel like someone expects me to live longer." Kagome told her thinking besides it would
mean I couldn't hold on to Inu Yasha. "But if you like it so much why don't you want one
of your own?" Her mother was always persistant. Her mother noticed the look on her
face and didn't mention it again that night. Kagome began to think Inu would never show
up to get his disc player. She was beginning to give up all hope. He probably had a bagful
and went room to room giving them out to lonely girls in hospital beds.
"Sorry I am late, Kagome." Inu ducked inside her room after ten. "I had to clean an
operation room." "I wasn't worried," Kagome fibbed. "Plus I had your disc player. I
figured you would come back for it." He went to her bedside. "The player is nothing to
me, it is you I want to see." Her feelings of rejection did an about face. "Thank you for
letting me borrow it. I love the music." He reached into his pocket and withdrew several
discs. "Here are the others."
"But it's your player, and I should give it back. My parents will buy me my own."
Inu grinned. "Then you will have no reason to let me visit."
Kagome returned his smile, touched that they shared the same thought. "You don't need
a reason." He placed the discs in her hand. "I can't stay. I have to get back, but I could
not begin again without seeing you."
"Will you promise to come back tonight?"
His eyes clouded. "I don't know... Your doctor wants you to rest."
"I rest all day."
"It would be very late, and the nurse on duty-"
"I don't care. The nurse takes vitals at twelve and three. You can visit between her
rounds. Please. I am lonely here."His expression softened. "I can deny you nothing,
Kagome. Spending time with youis my greatest wish. I never thought you'd consider
spending time with someone like me."
"What's wrong with you?"
He shrugged." I am only an orderly."
"So? Is that what you'll always be?"
"I'd like to go to medical school one day. I'd like to become a doctor."
"Who takes care of girls with paper hearts?"
"Who takes care of girls with beautiful hearts?"
He said such wonderful things to her, unlike boys in her classes. She'd had crushes on
several of them. They all seemed to be very much into their own lives- friends, cars,
sports. If any of them had had a crush on her, it was a well kept secret. "I should be
out of this tent soon. I'll be mobile soon. Maybe we can go down to the game room
together."
"I have another job. I leave this one, go home, sleep, get up and work at the grocery
store in my hood until its time to come here." Her heart sank. "I-I didn't mean to get
carried away. Of course you have a life, and if you work till midnight this is the last
place you want to be in the daytime."
He leaned in closer eyes filled with emotion. "I will cut my hours back at the store if it
means I can spend more time with you."
"You'd do that for me?"
"I'd do most anything for you."
"But why? You hardly know me."
"I have seen you come since I began my job here. There was something about you that
touched my heart. I know that doesn't make sense to you, but it does to me. People do
not choose how they feel about someone. You just one day see that special person, and
your heart reacts. Your sould jumps up and you think.'I've waited my whole life to meet
this person.' It has been that way for me, Kagome. From the time I first saw you, I
cared for you."
She was shocked speechless.
Inu took a step backward. "I have said too much haven't I? Forgive me, I didn't mean to
push myself on you."
"Noone has ever said anything like that to me before." Noone ever said things like that to
her especially since her heart had gone bad. Few guys seemed even to want to be around
an invalid. "I like hearing it." she added shyly.
His smile lit up his face. "I have wanted to tell you everytime you came into the hospital
how I felt, but I did not know you, and until last night I had little hope of meeting you. I
expect nothing from you, Kagome. You may never feel for me as I do for you, and thats
alright."
"There is not much I can give back. Inu if you'll visit me, you know, give me your time,
well, I'd like that alot." Their gazes locked and held. Kagome felt her insides turn to
jelly. "I'll come tomorrow afternoon early, before my shift begins."He said. "Is that
okay?"
"Totally okay." The air felt charged. She held out her hand and he brushed his fingers
across her palm, sending shivers up her spine.
"Until tomorrow." Inu said.
"Are you positive you don't want your disc player back?"she asked.
"It's not needed. Now I have music in my heart." He slipped out of her room.
Inu Yasha kept his promise. He came in an hour early the next day and every day that
week to stay with Kagome. She discovered that he was good medicine. By the end of the
week she was out of the tent and able to move around her room on her own.
"I am amazed at your progress."Dr. Kaede said. "Is my heart better?" Kagome wanted
to know. "Your heart will never be better, Kagome. You know that. But the pneumonia has
cleared quickly, which puts less strain on your heart, and thats a good thing." The doc
wrote notes on her chart, finishing she gave Kagome a quizzical look. "I've just told you
you're better, and you're not bombarding me with please to go back to school and home.
Don't tell me you're starting to like it here."
"It's not bad this time. I don't mind waiting a bit longer." Kagome didn't meet the docs
gaze as she answered, afraid she'd be asked more questions.
"That is good child because I want to keep you for a few more days. Run some tests."
"If you say so."
Dr. Kaede smiled. "That's what I like- a good cooperative patient. Now be a good girl and
get back into bed for me."
Kagome glanced anxiously at the clock. Dr. Kaede had stayed well into Inu's visiting time,
and Kagome was eager for her to leave. Suddenly the doc's beeper went off and she
hurried out of the room. Inu stepped into the room, shutting the door.
"I thought she would never leave."Kagome said as Inu pulled up a chair beside her.
"She's your doctor. What did she say?"
"More tests. But that means I 'll be around longer. What do you think?"
He grinned. "I have been dreading the time when you will leave. I will miss you."
"You don't have to. You can visit me at home."
His smile faded. He leaned forward and took her hand, and pressed her palm against his
broad chest. She felt his heartbeat strong and steady through the fabric of his clothing.
"That won't be possible, Kagome."
"But why? I thought you liked me."
He didn't get to answer. Just then, her mother came in, saying "Surprise I got off work
early and____" She stopped short when she saw Inu. "What's going on here?" she
asked, her eyes narrowing suspiciously. "Who are you? And why are you in Kagome's
room holding her hand?"
___________________________________
Notes: Oh yeah! Feels good to get that done with. Today I have written my heart out
for you ladies!!! I hope you enjoy this. If anyone wants to know the book I got the idea
for this story it came from How Do I Love Thee (three stories) By Lurlene McDaniel.
This story derives from Laura's Heart. I just added the Inuyasha peeps and a few of
my own words. Sorda. Well ENJOY!!! ~_~ SEN
____________________________________
(Driving down the freeway, slips in Meteora by Linkin Park, puts it on track 9)
Sen~Man this is a good song~ (Hears movement in the back seat)
Inuyasha^Hey how the........ Man I look like a wuss. Couldn't you make me look tough?^
(Almost crashes, calms down a bit)
Sen~Uh where did you come from?~
Inuyasha^ well my mother and father...geez are you stupid?^
Sen~Thats not what I meant, how did you get in my car?~
Inuyasha^Beats me pal. All I know is I was running through a forrest and boom^
Sen~Oh, hmm thats strange. Better buckle up. Well any place you want to go?~
Inuyasha(sniffs the air) ^Ughhh! The smell!!!^
Sen~Yeah thats Tacoma for you~
Inuyasha^No its this^(holds up a moldy foil swan)^What the heck is it?^
Sen~ GAH!!!!!!! Toss it out the window dude~
(Inuyasha throws it out the window)
Inuyasha^ Are you all like this?^
Sen~No! Man I wonder how long thats been in there.~
(Inuyasha unsheathes Tetsusaiga)
Sen~ Hey what are you doing, put it away man!!~
Inuyasha^ That filthy beast is comming back at us, watch out.^
(Sen swerves to miss knocking Inuyasha out the window a little)
(The swan hits Inuyasha in the face spewing its contents all over him)
Sen~Hey would you mind staying out the window, that really is gross. I don't want it all
over!~
Inuyasha^Feh! Stupid Jerk, shoulda let me kill it, instead you let it get me now I'll
probably get sick from its poison.^
Sen~Quit whining you should have had your seat belt on like I told you!~
Inuyasha(swirly eyes) I don't feel so good..........