How We Came To Be……
Author: Allison
Disclaimer: I don't own ER or any of its characters, any character's you do not recognize belong to me! Unless the character you do not recognize is actually an ER character (but its pretty easy to tell)
Summary: Going through the events of John and Abby (and family)'s lives.
A/N: PLEASE read and review!! Thanks! This chapter is set exactly a year later, this chapter is different from all the rest, its all in John and Abby's point of views. It's kinda like a story of what happened that day, and the previous year, how they cope and stuff.
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Remembering
The ER
Carter's POV
One year ago today, I can't believe its been that long already. I still think about her everyday. Not a day goes by that I don't wonder what she would have looked like, what she would have been like, what our life would have been. I've learned to accept that things will never be that way, sure we will have more kids, but she'll still be my baby. I'll never forget that day.
Abby's POV
One year ago today, I was running late for work. Just a little, it wouldn't have mattered. I still felt the need to hurry, I often wonder if I hadn't of hurried so much, maybe I would have seen the car coming, maybe I could have gotten out of the way in time. I didn't though. I also wonder if maybe I had left a little earlier, or even a little later, would I have my baby today? I can still remember what happened when I woke up in the hospital that day.
Carter's POV
I walked into the room that day, I didn't know how to tell Abby. How do you tell someone that their child has died? I know I've done it plenty of times before, but I've never experienced telling my own wife, that we would never get to see our own baby.
Abby's POV
I woke up to find John sitting beside me. I could tell right away that I wasn't pregnant but there was still a chance Megan might have survived, wasn't there? I thought that until I looked up at Carter's face. I knew something was wrong, I starting sobbing, wishing that this day never happened.
Carter's POV
I knew once Abby started crying that she knew, she didn't want to believe it but she knew. She looked at me and I simply nodded. Who would have thought that nodding your head could confirm someone's greatest fear?
Abby's POV
When John nodded at me I knew it was over. How could it be over? I didn't think I could live without her. How could I do it? How could we do it? Megan had become our lives, all we ever talked about, all we ever thought about. We never even got to see her.
Carter's POV
The next few days were the most I've ever imagined, Abby and I were so distraught we didn't we didn't eat, we didn't sleep, we didn't do the one thing that would probably be the greatest comfort to us. We didn't talk to each other at all, we were together all the time, but it was almost like we weren't even there. We sat and cried to ourselves. People came to visit, but we didn't want to see them, we didn't want to see anybody except Megan, and we knew that wouldn't happen.
Abby's POV
I didn't think I could live through those first few days. I didn't want to do anything. I should have expected this, I told myself. Everything in my life goes wrong, why would this have been any different? As bad as I thought those first days were, the day we had her funeral was worse.
Carter's POV
Megan's funeral was a terrible day, no parent should ever have to bury their own child, let alone a baby. It was a dark, dreary, rainy day. It sorta fit the mood, but in a lesser form. Almost everybody from the ER was there. They were all trying to comfort us, but how could they? There were no words anyone could say that would comfort us. Abby and I hung around Megan's grave for the longest time afterwards. We still hadn't tried to talk to each other, but that day did it. After standing and staring at her grave for so long we started bawling in each others arms.
Abby's POV
After John and I left the graveyard I finally thought that maybe we could get through this, together. I knew it wouldn't be easy, and trust me it wasn't, but we went home that night and talked, we talked about what she would have been like, if she would have looked more like me or John, we cried a lot more that night too, but that night we knew we could get through this, if we did it together.
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A/N: Okay! I'm thinking that this whole sad storyline has to be done pretty soon! I hate writing it! So I promise some happier chapters ahead, don't worry they won't forget about Megan. Um, the next chapter I will probably post with this one, it will also be set exactly a year later but It will be them actually talking and interacting with each other, and other people. The original chapter three will be put in, pretty soon. It will be in a little different form, but pretty much the same! As always please review! If you want you can e-mail me JingleBellsRock@hotmail.com Thanks!
~Alli