Chapter 2
I glanced at James yet once again.
These are the little things I noticed about James:
He laughed at the stupidest things
He liked to tap his fingers to a beat he was thinking of when daydreaming
He cracks his knuckles
He never complained about the class being boring although I knew he was thinking it was
He also had a thing with poking Sirius's neck (who I later found out was the name of the person sitting next to Rose) just to get on Sirius's nerves
Hey, what can I say! I was bored for crying out loud! Okay, maybe I wasn't THAT bored, but that's beside the point.
I glanced over at James again and this time James glanced over at me at the same time.
I quickly turned away, feeling extremely stupid. I felt myself smiling because that's what happens when I blush. I smile REALLY hard. I felt like my whole face was on fire.
Great, now I look like a complete retard.
I looked down, when I saw a piece of paper slide in front me, folded up. I opened it up slowly, looking over at James who was innocently looked at the board.
I smirked and started reading it.
Lily,
Hey . . . um, well I was wondering if you wanted to go to Hogsmead with me?
James
My heart dropped as I grabbed my quill.
James,
I'm sorry, but I think I'm going with someone else. Sorry.
Lily
I handed James the letter and saw his face drop.
I mentally slapped myself.
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
How did I know that Chris was going to ask me anyways?
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
Hogsmead came, and guess what? Chris never asked me. I was SO sure he was and just . . . UGH!
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
I could've, I sighed, had a chance with James Potter.
Did I tell you that I have bad luck with guys? Well, now you know, I have bad luck with guys.
But when I was in Charms class, James and I didn't say one word to each other after the note and I felt so bad.
That's it; I thought angrily, I've had enough with this.
Everyone was at Hogsmead, perfect.
I walked blindly towards the kitchen, sometimes tripping. But I didn't care.
Nobody cares.
I brushed the tears away and tickled the pear to the portrait. It laughed and opened up. I headed towards the silverware and grabbed a knife and brought it up to my arm.
Nobody cares.
I slide the point of the knife from my elbow down to my palm and let out a cry. Did it hurt? Yes.
What the heck am I doing?
I threw the knife across the room and it banged into a wall. The house elves were huddled in a corner, eyes wide.
"I'm sorry," I whispered, my own eyes wide.
I sunk to the floor and cried my eyes out.
Cutting myself? I actually thought that would get rid of the pain? Ha, I crack myself up. It only brought more pain. Here I was, in Gryffindor. I was supposed to be brave and not some coward who leads herself into cutting herself!
I cried some more.
I was never going to get a boyfriend.
I was never going to get my first kiss.
I was never going to get married.
I was never going to have children.
I felt myself being lifted up into some strong arms.
"Lily, what are you doing here?"
I gasped and saw a blurry James. I tried covering my arm but it was too late.
He saw.
James gasped and grabbed my arm gently.
"What were you thinking?"
"I don't know! I hate my life! I hate it!" I cried into James's chest.
"My sister always made a point in saying how ugly I was and that I was a freak. It's true!" I kept going on, "Before I got my letter . . . I mean sure we got in a few fights, but when I got my letter . . . She HATED me James, hated! Then I get into Hogwarts and I think I'm going to make tons of friends, get boyfriends . . . like every other girl dreams of! But NO, I haven't had ONE boyfriend yet, and I feel like I have no true friends."
James rocked me back and forth and sat down, bringing me with him.
"Lily," James sighed and looked down at me, "You are not a freak and you aren't ugly one bit. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. You don't need to be blonde or have blue eyes . . . you're unique and that's special. And you do have friends, people who love you Lily. They do. And in Charms class, I saw the worried look on Rose's face. She cares, Lily. I care!"
James took his wand out and said a spell, pointing it at my arm. The blood disappeared but the scar stayed.
It was going to haunt me.
"Why aren't you at Hogsmead?"
I told you I was stupid.
"Just because . . ." James trailed off and looked at the wall, "You shouldn't have done that Lily."
"I know! It's just . . ." I started to cry again and I was about to punch the chair leg, if James didn't catch my hand.
"Shh."
Curse James . . . why did he have to be so nice?
James sat there, holding me, the whole day.
Elves were passing us now and then to fix dinner but he sat there with me in his arms, never even letting go. Not even saying a word, just playing with my long hair.
"James, I think I'm ready. Let's head up towards the Great Hall and get something to eat."
James nodded and stood up, helping me up.
He stared in my eyes and started leaning in.
Closer, closer, and closer.
He then turned his head to the side and gave me a huge hug. I finally found myself breathing, not even knowing I had been holding my breath in the first place. James was so close and yet . . . he didn't.
I hugged James back, his cologne filling my nose. Mmm, it smelled so good. Neither of us let go for awhile until I pulled away.
"Let's go," I said and James led the way out the portrait.
The whole time I kept looking at my arm which kept its scar.
We finally reached the Great Hall and James held the door open for me.
"Thank you," I mumbled, hunching.
James walked in beside me.
"Lily, would you like to go sit with me and my friends?"
I glanced where his friends were, then at mine. Rose was of course talking to a bunch of guys.
"Ok, I guess." I lowered my head and walked with James over to his friends.
"Hey!" Sirius said cheerfully stuffing his face with food.
"Everyone, this is Lily. Lily this is Peter, Remus, and Sirius." James said pointing to each one he was referring too.
"Hi." I whispered.
I really wasn't good when it came to meeting people for the first time.
James sat next to Remus and I quietly sat next to James, starring at my food blankly.
"Lily, eat," James nudged me in the side.
I slowly picked up my fork and grabbed a piece of steak with it and then put it my mouth. James watched my intently and I swallowed it forcefully. James smiled at me and yet again I forcefully smiled back.
Stupid food.
I played with my food not really eating that much and I decided to listen on Sirius, Remus, James, and Peter's conversation.
Ok, forget that idea. All they were talking about were pranks. That was until Sirius asked me a question.
"So Lily, why do you look so upset?"
I shrug.
Sirius didn't give up and continued to make conversation, "Can you please pass me the corn?"
I handed the corn to him and tried to hide my smile as he looked frustrated.
"What's your favorite subject?"
"Charms," I said dryly.
I couldn't hold it in any longer and burst into laughter when Sirius looked up at the ceiling as if praying.
James's smile reached ear to ear as he saw me laughing.
That's the day me and James's became friends.
I looked at my scar again.
And to think, this is ONLY the beginning.
***
A/N: Like it? Please review! PLEASE?
Thanks:
KV
erin- Nooo, sorry for the confusion. I meant the guy that James laughed at aka Sirius sat next to Rose.
me
DV
Stefanorkle
Dief Kattekop- Converse are a type of shoe
mystikalolo
Piggylette- Lily's in Gryffindor, sorry if I made it unclear.
Thank you everyone and please keep reviewing!
I glanced at James yet once again.
These are the little things I noticed about James:
He laughed at the stupidest things
He liked to tap his fingers to a beat he was thinking of when daydreaming
He cracks his knuckles
He never complained about the class being boring although I knew he was thinking it was
He also had a thing with poking Sirius's neck (who I later found out was the name of the person sitting next to Rose) just to get on Sirius's nerves
Hey, what can I say! I was bored for crying out loud! Okay, maybe I wasn't THAT bored, but that's beside the point.
I glanced over at James again and this time James glanced over at me at the same time.
I quickly turned away, feeling extremely stupid. I felt myself smiling because that's what happens when I blush. I smile REALLY hard. I felt like my whole face was on fire.
Great, now I look like a complete retard.
I looked down, when I saw a piece of paper slide in front me, folded up. I opened it up slowly, looking over at James who was innocently looked at the board.
I smirked and started reading it.
Lily,
Hey . . . um, well I was wondering if you wanted to go to Hogsmead with me?
James
My heart dropped as I grabbed my quill.
James,
I'm sorry, but I think I'm going with someone else. Sorry.
Lily
I handed James the letter and saw his face drop.
I mentally slapped myself.
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
How did I know that Chris was going to ask me anyways?
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
Hogsmead came, and guess what? Chris never asked me. I was SO sure he was and just . . . UGH!
Stupid, stupid, stupid!
I could've, I sighed, had a chance with James Potter.
Did I tell you that I have bad luck with guys? Well, now you know, I have bad luck with guys.
But when I was in Charms class, James and I didn't say one word to each other after the note and I felt so bad.
That's it; I thought angrily, I've had enough with this.
Everyone was at Hogsmead, perfect.
I walked blindly towards the kitchen, sometimes tripping. But I didn't care.
Nobody cares.
I brushed the tears away and tickled the pear to the portrait. It laughed and opened up. I headed towards the silverware and grabbed a knife and brought it up to my arm.
Nobody cares.
I slide the point of the knife from my elbow down to my palm and let out a cry. Did it hurt? Yes.
What the heck am I doing?
I threw the knife across the room and it banged into a wall. The house elves were huddled in a corner, eyes wide.
"I'm sorry," I whispered, my own eyes wide.
I sunk to the floor and cried my eyes out.
Cutting myself? I actually thought that would get rid of the pain? Ha, I crack myself up. It only brought more pain. Here I was, in Gryffindor. I was supposed to be brave and not some coward who leads herself into cutting herself!
I cried some more.
I was never going to get a boyfriend.
I was never going to get my first kiss.
I was never going to get married.
I was never going to have children.
I felt myself being lifted up into some strong arms.
"Lily, what are you doing here?"
I gasped and saw a blurry James. I tried covering my arm but it was too late.
He saw.
James gasped and grabbed my arm gently.
"What were you thinking?"
"I don't know! I hate my life! I hate it!" I cried into James's chest.
"My sister always made a point in saying how ugly I was and that I was a freak. It's true!" I kept going on, "Before I got my letter . . . I mean sure we got in a few fights, but when I got my letter . . . She HATED me James, hated! Then I get into Hogwarts and I think I'm going to make tons of friends, get boyfriends . . . like every other girl dreams of! But NO, I haven't had ONE boyfriend yet, and I feel like I have no true friends."
James rocked me back and forth and sat down, bringing me with him.
"Lily," James sighed and looked down at me, "You are not a freak and you aren't ugly one bit. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. You don't need to be blonde or have blue eyes . . . you're unique and that's special. And you do have friends, people who love you Lily. They do. And in Charms class, I saw the worried look on Rose's face. She cares, Lily. I care!"
James took his wand out and said a spell, pointing it at my arm. The blood disappeared but the scar stayed.
It was going to haunt me.
"Why aren't you at Hogsmead?"
I told you I was stupid.
"Just because . . ." James trailed off and looked at the wall, "You shouldn't have done that Lily."
"I know! It's just . . ." I started to cry again and I was about to punch the chair leg, if James didn't catch my hand.
"Shh."
Curse James . . . why did he have to be so nice?
James sat there, holding me, the whole day.
Elves were passing us now and then to fix dinner but he sat there with me in his arms, never even letting go. Not even saying a word, just playing with my long hair.
"James, I think I'm ready. Let's head up towards the Great Hall and get something to eat."
James nodded and stood up, helping me up.
He stared in my eyes and started leaning in.
Closer, closer, and closer.
He then turned his head to the side and gave me a huge hug. I finally found myself breathing, not even knowing I had been holding my breath in the first place. James was so close and yet . . . he didn't.
I hugged James back, his cologne filling my nose. Mmm, it smelled so good. Neither of us let go for awhile until I pulled away.
"Let's go," I said and James led the way out the portrait.
The whole time I kept looking at my arm which kept its scar.
We finally reached the Great Hall and James held the door open for me.
"Thank you," I mumbled, hunching.
James walked in beside me.
"Lily, would you like to go sit with me and my friends?"
I glanced where his friends were, then at mine. Rose was of course talking to a bunch of guys.
"Ok, I guess." I lowered my head and walked with James over to his friends.
"Hey!" Sirius said cheerfully stuffing his face with food.
"Everyone, this is Lily. Lily this is Peter, Remus, and Sirius." James said pointing to each one he was referring too.
"Hi." I whispered.
I really wasn't good when it came to meeting people for the first time.
James sat next to Remus and I quietly sat next to James, starring at my food blankly.
"Lily, eat," James nudged me in the side.
I slowly picked up my fork and grabbed a piece of steak with it and then put it my mouth. James watched my intently and I swallowed it forcefully. James smiled at me and yet again I forcefully smiled back.
Stupid food.
I played with my food not really eating that much and I decided to listen on Sirius, Remus, James, and Peter's conversation.
Ok, forget that idea. All they were talking about were pranks. That was until Sirius asked me a question.
"So Lily, why do you look so upset?"
I shrug.
Sirius didn't give up and continued to make conversation, "Can you please pass me the corn?"
I handed the corn to him and tried to hide my smile as he looked frustrated.
"What's your favorite subject?"
"Charms," I said dryly.
I couldn't hold it in any longer and burst into laughter when Sirius looked up at the ceiling as if praying.
James's smile reached ear to ear as he saw me laughing.
That's the day me and James's became friends.
I looked at my scar again.
And to think, this is ONLY the beginning.
***
A/N: Like it? Please review! PLEASE?
Thanks:
KV
erin- Nooo, sorry for the confusion. I meant the guy that James laughed at aka Sirius sat next to Rose.
me
DV
Stefanorkle
Dief Kattekop- Converse are a type of shoe
mystikalolo
Piggylette- Lily's in Gryffindor, sorry if I made it unclear.
Thank you everyone and please keep reviewing!