Chapter 4
I woke up and boy did I feel awful. My face was sticky from all the tears from last night. Never again, did I want to go through that again.
I pulled the covers away form my bed and got up and headed towards the bathroom.
I took the robe off that I didn't bother taking off last night and closed my eyes, and started wiping the sleepy dust out from my eyes. I made my way towards the shower still wiping my eyes.
I screamed as I tripped over something.
My mind froze as I saw my best friend, Rose, lying on the ground, gashes and cuts all over her body, a puddle of blood surrounding her.
One thing came to me.
I screamed.
***
"Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!" I kept repeating, shivering. The blanket Professor Dumbledore had given me was useless, but I appreciated it.
I was seated in Dumbledore's office, curled up in a blanket on the chair.
I couldn't think straight. It was as if my mind was telling me everything was going to be ok and what I saw was just a nightmare.
But I knew I was fooling myself.
Tears streamed down my face and I choked out, "If James's did, in fact rape me . . . that means another person that's close to me will die or one bad thing will happen . . . but if not . . . then two more people close to me will die or two bad things will happen . . . this is how we'll no if James did rape me professor! It all comes down to how many people I love . . . die. That or two or one terrible things will happen to me."
I gasped for breath as more tears came. I felt like it was so hard for me to breathe. Why was this happening? And if so . . . why James?
"Even if it was James, Miss Evans, who raped you . . . we have no proof he was the killer." Dumbledore said, rubbing his temples.
"But-"
"I no the guy told you that but we have no proof on the killing."
I nodded and put my head in my hands, and started sobbing.
My best friend! I didn't even realize how much she meant to me . . .
"Miss Evans, if you wish, you do not have to attend classes today."
I nodded and thanked Professor Dumbledore.
"How come," I said choosing my words carefully, "I couldn't put my finger on his voice?"
"My guess is as good as yours Miss Evans. I suppose he did a complex spell that'd make his voice disguised as another trying to pretend as if he is disguising his voice." (A/N: Did I just loose you there? Lol)
I nodded again and blew my nose on the blanket, forgetting it wasn't mine.
"I'll let you sleep in a guest room till you get over . . . Rose's death. I know it'd be a terrible reminder to walk in there everyday and remember that."
"Thank you Dumbledore." And to my surprise Dumbledore slowly stood up and walked over to me and gave me a hug.
And that was all I needed.
***
(Narrator's View) ***Last night***
James walked down the hallways in deep thought, confused.
This had all happened too quickly . . .
James entered the Gryffindor Common Room and glanced at the girl's dormitory. He had a second thought about the going up to see Lily, but changed his mind. She definitely wouldn't want to see him now.
James sighed and walked his way up to the boy's dormitories. Should he tell the other Marauders what happened? But then again Lily didn't want anyone else other than Dumbledore to know about what happened.
James sighed in frustration and pounded the wall with his fist.
Great, now he's expelled AND he lost Lily.
James opened the door and the other three Marauders were already there, waiting for him.
"And where have you been Mister?" Sirius said in a motherly tone, poking his chest with an accusing finger.
James didn't laugh.
"Out snogging Lily, eh?" Remus asked chuckling. When James didn't laugh at either jokes, they started worrying.
"What's wrong Prongs?" Peter said, looking concerned.
James had a quick internal and decided on the answer that'll eat him up inside. "N-n-nothing."
*** (Lily's POV) *** Back in present time
I rocked back and forth on the bed in my new room. I whispered a song, tears running down my face.
"Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinking of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
It's kind of hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smiling down
Watching us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Making hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living you're life, after death"
I cried some more and couldn't bring myself to finish the song.
I missed her so much and I never realized what I great friend she had been. If only I told her how much she meant to me while she was still living.
I cried myself to sleep, feeling icky, dirty, used, trashy, and most of all: sad.
***
I walked down to the Great Hall, head bow with my hood over my head, two days later. I haven't eaten a thing since I was raped. I tried not to think of that right now.
I walked into the Great Hall and as usual, no one turned to look at me enter and didn't even comment on me wearing my hood to my robe up.
I lifted my eyes, not even bothering to lift my head and looked at James, Sirius, Peter, and Remus. Sirius, Peter, and Remus were laughing themselves silly.
Oh gosh, what if all of them were in on this? I couldn't even think of all of them betraying me.
James, on the other hand, looked like he was in a different world. His eyes were all spaced out and everything. He even had his mouth open with the chicken half way up.
In any other situation I would've laughed but instead I glared. My emerald eyes locked with his blue eyes. I quickly looked away angrily because I was blushing.
I sat at the last seat at the table and filled my plate up and only ended up eating half of it.
All the owls flooded through the Great Hall and to my great surprise my owl, Winggardium, dropped a letter on my plate.
With a shaky hand, I opened the black letter.
Dear precious Lily,
I warned you. Did you believe me? Well now you should. It was such a pleasure seeing your friend Rose screamed out in pain with each slice I took at her. And to think . . . this is your entire fault Lily Evans.
~Me
I angrily crumpled the letter and glared at Potter. I slowly pushed my plate away from me and stood up. I walked over to Potter in a seductive way and Potter glanced at me and I saw him gulp.
This was probably one of the most daring things I have ever done.
And right now . . . I truly didn't feel like I was 'Lily Evans' anymore . . . after everything I went through and all.
I pushed James's plate out of the way and sat on the table putting a leg on either side of James, facing him.
Everyone in the Great Hall was looking by now but I didn't care. The other three Marauders raised their eyebrows.
I bent down to where my nose was barely touching James's nose and then turned my head to where my mouth was near his ear.
"You think it's all fun and games Potter? You're sick. What do you think you're playing at?" I was so tempted to slap him but I knew I would get in trouble by Dumbledore so instead I pushed him roughly and shoved the letter in his face. "I hope you're happy!" I choked out and ran out of the Great Hall.
I leaned against the Great Hall door and slide down, trying to stop myself from crying. I sicken myself. I need to toughen up.
I stood up and straighten up and headed to get my books.
I was obliviously to the fact that pair of brown eyes was glaring at my back on my way out of the Great Hall.
*** (Narrator's View) ***Right when Lily exited***
Everyone stared at James puzzled while James looked near to tears as he stared at the letter.
James stood up and ran out of the Great Hall, letter still in hand. There was one thing on his mind.
Find out who raped Lily and killed Rose.
*** (Lily's POV)
I walked into the Defense of Dark Arts classroom and sat myself into the back corner, keeping my hood on. I didn't want anyone to see my face that was still streaked with dried tears.
I opened my folder and gasped as I looked at my 5 pages of homework that took me two months to work on, which was due today.
Ruined . . . all ruined.
Each and every page was covered in red ink and on the last page a message was written on it.
'You told two people . . . now look what happens. By the way, hope you like the site of your friend's blood.'
I let out a cry and let go of the papers, trembling. That wasn't ink!
It was blood!
Rose's blood . . .
Two things had happened . . . if James didn't do it . . . then only three things would've happened.
James did it . . . he did everything . . .
I threw my homework away, tearing it up.
There goes 400 points . . . I couldn't just tell the teacher why my friend's blood was all over my homework. That'd mean I'd have to explain everything and that'd just be another bad thing happening to me.
The bell rang and students filled in. Oh right, we were having this class with the Hufflepuffs.
Chris entered and looked at me. I weekly waved but instead of him waving back, he just glared.
Hmm . . . weird.
"Hey Lily," a whiney voice, to my right, said.
I inwardly groaned and put on a false voice, "Hey Rob!"
He sat next to me and I felt like he was hovering over me.
"When was the last time we talked? Like last year?" He cracked up at his own joke thinking he was all funny and I felt like rolling my eyes but instead I laughed weakly.
That was all it took for him to think he was all funny. One little laugh.
As he hovered over me, practically leaning on me, I moved over a little, trying to put space between us.
"Hey Matt!" I said relieved to see Matt. Matt nodded and sat next to me and I turned my back to Rob and started a conversation with Matt, trying my best to act as if nothing had happened to me.
Was it ever hard.
I couldn't wait till this class ended.
***
A/N: REVIEW PLEASE AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE WHO DID REVIEW!!! You guys are spiffy! Muah!
I'm so evil putting Lily through all this! MUHAHAHAHAHA! Anyways, this is my first actually drama kind of fiction. But if you want fluffy ones, check out my other ones!
I AM NOT TELLING OR EVEN HINTING WHO THE RAPER IS! You'll just have to wait! Hehe.
Thanks: Midnight Raven (NOT TELLING! HEHEHEHE! SRY!), Steph, KV, Cruel Dragon Blood, jesusfreak7777777 (Lily isn't THAT stupid, lol), reader, Lindsey (NOT TELLING! HAHAHA!), DV, Lily Rose Evans, RedRaspberry!!!!
Disclaimer: I'll Be Missing you by Puff Daddy don't belong to me! It's weird I only like Rock and Heavy Metal but I have a weird thing for slow songs, with sweet meanings! Hehe!
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I woke up and boy did I feel awful. My face was sticky from all the tears from last night. Never again, did I want to go through that again.
I pulled the covers away form my bed and got up and headed towards the bathroom.
I took the robe off that I didn't bother taking off last night and closed my eyes, and started wiping the sleepy dust out from my eyes. I made my way towards the shower still wiping my eyes.
I screamed as I tripped over something.
My mind froze as I saw my best friend, Rose, lying on the ground, gashes and cuts all over her body, a puddle of blood surrounding her.
One thing came to me.
I screamed.
***
"Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!" I kept repeating, shivering. The blanket Professor Dumbledore had given me was useless, but I appreciated it.
I was seated in Dumbledore's office, curled up in a blanket on the chair.
I couldn't think straight. It was as if my mind was telling me everything was going to be ok and what I saw was just a nightmare.
But I knew I was fooling myself.
Tears streamed down my face and I choked out, "If James's did, in fact rape me . . . that means another person that's close to me will die or one bad thing will happen . . . but if not . . . then two more people close to me will die or two bad things will happen . . . this is how we'll no if James did rape me professor! It all comes down to how many people I love . . . die. That or two or one terrible things will happen to me."
I gasped for breath as more tears came. I felt like it was so hard for me to breathe. Why was this happening? And if so . . . why James?
"Even if it was James, Miss Evans, who raped you . . . we have no proof he was the killer." Dumbledore said, rubbing his temples.
"But-"
"I no the guy told you that but we have no proof on the killing."
I nodded and put my head in my hands, and started sobbing.
My best friend! I didn't even realize how much she meant to me . . .
"Miss Evans, if you wish, you do not have to attend classes today."
I nodded and thanked Professor Dumbledore.
"How come," I said choosing my words carefully, "I couldn't put my finger on his voice?"
"My guess is as good as yours Miss Evans. I suppose he did a complex spell that'd make his voice disguised as another trying to pretend as if he is disguising his voice." (A/N: Did I just loose you there? Lol)
I nodded again and blew my nose on the blanket, forgetting it wasn't mine.
"I'll let you sleep in a guest room till you get over . . . Rose's death. I know it'd be a terrible reminder to walk in there everyday and remember that."
"Thank you Dumbledore." And to my surprise Dumbledore slowly stood up and walked over to me and gave me a hug.
And that was all I needed.
***
(Narrator's View) ***Last night***
James walked down the hallways in deep thought, confused.
This had all happened too quickly . . .
James entered the Gryffindor Common Room and glanced at the girl's dormitory. He had a second thought about the going up to see Lily, but changed his mind. She definitely wouldn't want to see him now.
James sighed and walked his way up to the boy's dormitories. Should he tell the other Marauders what happened? But then again Lily didn't want anyone else other than Dumbledore to know about what happened.
James sighed in frustration and pounded the wall with his fist.
Great, now he's expelled AND he lost Lily.
James opened the door and the other three Marauders were already there, waiting for him.
"And where have you been Mister?" Sirius said in a motherly tone, poking his chest with an accusing finger.
James didn't laugh.
"Out snogging Lily, eh?" Remus asked chuckling. When James didn't laugh at either jokes, they started worrying.
"What's wrong Prongs?" Peter said, looking concerned.
James had a quick internal and decided on the answer that'll eat him up inside. "N-n-nothing."
*** (Lily's POV) *** Back in present time
I rocked back and forth on the bed in my new room. I whispered a song, tears running down my face.
"Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinking of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
It's kind of hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smiling down
Watching us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Making hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living you're life, after death"
I cried some more and couldn't bring myself to finish the song.
I missed her so much and I never realized what I great friend she had been. If only I told her how much she meant to me while she was still living.
I cried myself to sleep, feeling icky, dirty, used, trashy, and most of all: sad.
***
I walked down to the Great Hall, head bow with my hood over my head, two days later. I haven't eaten a thing since I was raped. I tried not to think of that right now.
I walked into the Great Hall and as usual, no one turned to look at me enter and didn't even comment on me wearing my hood to my robe up.
I lifted my eyes, not even bothering to lift my head and looked at James, Sirius, Peter, and Remus. Sirius, Peter, and Remus were laughing themselves silly.
Oh gosh, what if all of them were in on this? I couldn't even think of all of them betraying me.
James, on the other hand, looked like he was in a different world. His eyes were all spaced out and everything. He even had his mouth open with the chicken half way up.
In any other situation I would've laughed but instead I glared. My emerald eyes locked with his blue eyes. I quickly looked away angrily because I was blushing.
I sat at the last seat at the table and filled my plate up and only ended up eating half of it.
All the owls flooded through the Great Hall and to my great surprise my owl, Winggardium, dropped a letter on my plate.
With a shaky hand, I opened the black letter.
Dear precious Lily,
I warned you. Did you believe me? Well now you should. It was such a pleasure seeing your friend Rose screamed out in pain with each slice I took at her. And to think . . . this is your entire fault Lily Evans.
~Me
I angrily crumpled the letter and glared at Potter. I slowly pushed my plate away from me and stood up. I walked over to Potter in a seductive way and Potter glanced at me and I saw him gulp.
This was probably one of the most daring things I have ever done.
And right now . . . I truly didn't feel like I was 'Lily Evans' anymore . . . after everything I went through and all.
I pushed James's plate out of the way and sat on the table putting a leg on either side of James, facing him.
Everyone in the Great Hall was looking by now but I didn't care. The other three Marauders raised their eyebrows.
I bent down to where my nose was barely touching James's nose and then turned my head to where my mouth was near his ear.
"You think it's all fun and games Potter? You're sick. What do you think you're playing at?" I was so tempted to slap him but I knew I would get in trouble by Dumbledore so instead I pushed him roughly and shoved the letter in his face. "I hope you're happy!" I choked out and ran out of the Great Hall.
I leaned against the Great Hall door and slide down, trying to stop myself from crying. I sicken myself. I need to toughen up.
I stood up and straighten up and headed to get my books.
I was obliviously to the fact that pair of brown eyes was glaring at my back on my way out of the Great Hall.
*** (Narrator's View) ***Right when Lily exited***
Everyone stared at James puzzled while James looked near to tears as he stared at the letter.
James stood up and ran out of the Great Hall, letter still in hand. There was one thing on his mind.
Find out who raped Lily and killed Rose.
*** (Lily's POV)
I walked into the Defense of Dark Arts classroom and sat myself into the back corner, keeping my hood on. I didn't want anyone to see my face that was still streaked with dried tears.
I opened my folder and gasped as I looked at my 5 pages of homework that took me two months to work on, which was due today.
Ruined . . . all ruined.
Each and every page was covered in red ink and on the last page a message was written on it.
'You told two people . . . now look what happens. By the way, hope you like the site of your friend's blood.'
I let out a cry and let go of the papers, trembling. That wasn't ink!
It was blood!
Rose's blood . . .
Two things had happened . . . if James didn't do it . . . then only three things would've happened.
James did it . . . he did everything . . .
I threw my homework away, tearing it up.
There goes 400 points . . . I couldn't just tell the teacher why my friend's blood was all over my homework. That'd mean I'd have to explain everything and that'd just be another bad thing happening to me.
The bell rang and students filled in. Oh right, we were having this class with the Hufflepuffs.
Chris entered and looked at me. I weekly waved but instead of him waving back, he just glared.
Hmm . . . weird.
"Hey Lily," a whiney voice, to my right, said.
I inwardly groaned and put on a false voice, "Hey Rob!"
He sat next to me and I felt like he was hovering over me.
"When was the last time we talked? Like last year?" He cracked up at his own joke thinking he was all funny and I felt like rolling my eyes but instead I laughed weakly.
That was all it took for him to think he was all funny. One little laugh.
As he hovered over me, practically leaning on me, I moved over a little, trying to put space between us.
"Hey Matt!" I said relieved to see Matt. Matt nodded and sat next to me and I turned my back to Rob and started a conversation with Matt, trying my best to act as if nothing had happened to me.
Was it ever hard.
I couldn't wait till this class ended.
***
A/N: REVIEW PLEASE AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE WHO DID REVIEW!!! You guys are spiffy! Muah!
I'm so evil putting Lily through all this! MUHAHAHAHAHA! Anyways, this is my first actually drama kind of fiction. But if you want fluffy ones, check out my other ones!
I AM NOT TELLING OR EVEN HINTING WHO THE RAPER IS! You'll just have to wait! Hehe.
Thanks: Midnight Raven (NOT TELLING! HEHEHEHE! SRY!), Steph, KV, Cruel Dragon Blood, jesusfreak7777777 (Lily isn't THAT stupid, lol), reader, Lindsey (NOT TELLING! HAHAHA!), DV, Lily Rose Evans, RedRaspberry!!!!
Disclaimer: I'll Be Missing you by Puff Daddy don't belong to me! It's weird I only like Rock and Heavy Metal but I have a weird thing for slow songs, with sweet meanings! Hehe!
IS ANYONE OUT THERE WILLING TO GIVE ME THE CODE TO LIVEJOURNAL.COM??? PLEASE! I REALLY WANT MY OWN LIVE JOURNAL! JUST EMAIL ME!