Am I the Devil?
Disclaimer: I do now own Final Fantasy characters, they all belong to Squaresoft (sadly).
People know me as the reject, the problem child, and the disaster. I've been called the worst names you'll ever hear, and I've undergone such severe dislike that I guess I'm lucky to have the friends I have. Raijin and Fujin have always stuck by me, even when I used to be in league with Matron, back when Ultimecia possessed her. They never gave up on me and they were willing to fight for me, even if it was a losing battle. I guess even monsters have their sidekicks.
Believe it or not, there was a time when I was happy. That was when I knew her, Rinoa. I was 17, she was 16, and we had an awesome time that summer. But then, she disappeared. She went back to more intense work with the Forest Owls, I guess. Anyway, I didn't see her until more than a year later in Timber. No, it wasn't Timber was it? It was afterwards, in Deling City, when Squall tried to kill Matron. He had beaten me as hard as it is to admit, and he, Rinoa, and that moronic traitor cowboy went up against Matron. They lost, and I awoke in time to see Matron kill Squall.
Actually, I wish she had killed him. It would've made my life easier. That was when I first saw Rinoa, after such a long time. But at that time, it was too late for me. I was already on the path to "evil", as some people say it. I tortured Squall, but he escaped the D-District Prison, him and everyone else, including Rinoa. When he took her away, I knew that I had to get her back.
After the missile attacks, I followed Matron as she went to Galbadia Garden and took over. Then we encountered Balamb Garden, transformed just as Galbadia Garden had been. Part of me was angry that Squall had lived, but another part was glad that Rinoa was alive and that I'd have the chance to be with her again. I ordered the Galbadian soldiers to attack Garden to wipe out the SeeDs, and only the SeeDs. I wanted to see her again, so I wanted, no needed, her alive.
I never expected her to join Squall and try to kill me. But she did, later in Galbadia Garden, and they defeated Matron too. In fact, they beat me twice! I was humiliated! But I knew that I had one last chance with her. If I could just lure her to me, since Ultimecia had told me to find Lunatic Pandora and Squall and his company of fools were bound to try to stop me, I knew that she could be mine! But never did I dream that Ultimecia would control me and force me to give Rinoa to Adel. I knew then that there was no chance.
That was before I saw Balamb Garden flying overhead that day, which was when I knew that she was alive, that she and Squall had survived their encounter with Ultimecia. I had another chance, a chance to take her back.
Am I evil for wanting love, compassion, and trust? Am I evil for doing anything it takes for the woman I love? Am I evil for doing what is best for those I care about? I think not.