I'm really sorry about not posting last week. Me and my partner made it to sectionals and we stayed overnight on Friday so we wouldn't have to get up at 3 am on Saturaday to get there on time... Any way I had planned to do it when I got back Saturday night, but we stayed over due to a snow storm, and then didn't make it back until Sunday afternoon... I would have done it then, but I was buisy with things for school, and the same continued all week. I'm realyl sorry about the delay! I hope you guys enjoy this chapter!
Usagi stared at Mamoru for a few seconds in shock. Once she regained her wits she slammed the door shut, ran the balcony, transformed, and jumped to the roof across the street and continued on her way.
Raye ran from the room to the door and opened it, while the other girls made their way to the balcony.
"Where is she?" Mamoru asked looking around the apartment.
"She ran away." Minako replied quietly looking at her feet, rather than at Mamoru.
"But why?"
"She wasn't ready to face you."
"Why? Doesn't she know how much I need her?"
"Damn you Mamoru! Its always about you! You pushed her away then, and you've made her leave now! You never cared about her! Damn it! We finally had her back! I mean she was here! It hasn't even been a week and you made her leave agian! I hate you! And if I don't see her soon, I will kill you for bringing pain to my princess." Everyone stared in shock as Minako uttered the last words with contempt and then ran from the apartment.
"Mamoru she didn--"
Mamoru quicky cut her off. "How long has she been back? Who knew? Why didn't anyone tell me?"
"She's been back around four or five days. We're not sure really. She just showed up at school." Makoto began.
"We knew, Andrew knew, and, we assume, her family knew." Raye continued.
"And we were going to tell you that day at the arcade, but as soon as Andrew mentioned it she threatened to leave us agian... and we couldn't risk it. I mean she isn't the same girl that left us, we weren't really sure what she would do, I mean-"
"Makoto stop.Its okay, besides, you're rambling." At Mamoru's comment Makoto blushed a little. "What do you mean she's not the same girl that left?"
"She's changed. She smarter, quieter, more graceful, faster, a lady in every sense of the word, she's more powerful, and... and... well I'm sure there's more about her thats changed, but we've only been around her for a few days so its hard to really tell what other ramafications she made apon her self."
"All the things I told her. Its all my fault... No, its those damn dreams I was having. I just wish I could have the old Usko back... I need her, and it kills me to hear how much Usako has changed... And not to be able to hold her in my arms, and not to have been able to watch her grow and become the gorgeous women I saw standing in the doorway. God, Usako why did you leave me all alone?"
Hearing Mamoru pitty him self Raye lost her temper, "Damn it, Mamoru! Minako was right! Its not all about you! Do you know how much it was killing Usagi every time you pushed her away? You have no fucking right to call her your little rabbit! And out of any person she knows, you have the least right to ask for the old Usagi back! Jesus chirst man! She did everything you say you asked her to. This is what she thinks you want!"
"But she came back so its obvious she needs me too! I know Usako, she isn't very self confident, she doesn't think she's good enough for me yet, even though we all know she's been to good all along... You just give her a few days and she'll be back in my arms, and--"
Raye gave a bitter laugh. "I've got a little secret for you. The reason Usa is avoiding you, is cause she's not to sure your good enough for her."
"But thats not possible Usako would never-"
"Damn it! Don't you understand she's not your Usako anymore. Like everyone else in the world, she's changed! Christ, she changed for you! Don't expect her to come crawling back, from what I can see she's stronger, and she doesn't need you, or us! She can make it on her own! I want the old Usagi back as much as the next person, but because of the pain you caused her and the mental anguish you put her through, we will never see that Usagi agian. Somtimes I wish you hadn't driven her away so we could have helped her through it... We could have been the ones to teach her all the things she knows now... but because of YOU we couldn't! So, stop feeling sorry for yourself for just one minute and think about how much you hurt her. Thats all I ask of you, because I can almost garuntee that the amount of pain you may think you caused her is more than a hundred, thousand, million times the actual amount of pain she actually felt." With the finish of her speech Raye walked out of the apartment and slammed the door.
"We better try and calm her down, you know how she gets when she's angry Mamoru. See you later." Ami quickly left the apratment.
"Raye's right. You know I've been through a lot of heart ache, and I can't even begin to imagine what Usagi went through. By the way, you knew she was here to! You talked with her!"
"No, I did not!"
"Remember Yumiko? You met your 'dream girl' that day, and she ran away from the horrible monster you showed her you could be." Makoto then, following the lead of her friends, stomped out of Usagi's apartment.
With the senshi's words echoing in his ears, Mamoru made his way across the hall to his own apartment. Once there, he layed on his bed and tried to imagine all the pain he had cause her. And the more her thought about it the less he could imagine how much pain she felt, because the pain he could imagine never seemed enough.
*Minako's Room*
"That didn't take you long. Didn't want to converse with Mamoru?"
"Usagi what are you doing here?"
"Ouch that hurts Minako! Don't you wanna see your old comrad and friend?"
"Don't get me wrong Usagi! I was worried you had left us agian! In fact I screamed at Mamoru beause of it!"
"I've seen you mad! I bet it wasn't pretty!"
"So anyway, why are you here?"
"A long time ago you told me what happened to you in England. So now, I think out of all the senshi you can understand my actions the most... Besides I need a place to crash for the night so I don't run into Mamoru! I think if I prob his mind a bit I can figure out his schedule and avoid him till I'm ready..."
"Sure you can stay here, but why don't you prob his mind now?"
"Well I was going to, but... "
"But?"
"Well, he's feeling extremely depressed, and its quite over whelming, which is making it difficult to read his thoughts. I just figure I'll wait til he's asleep."
"So, why do you need to crash here?"
"Well, I've been gone for a couple of years, and I need to catch up on the gossip."
"Sure, I can call the girls and we can make it into a sleep over, but, umm..."
"Yes?"
"Could you detransform. I mean, my mom might get a bit suspisous if she sees Sailor Moon sitting on my bed gossiping with me."
"Give me sixty seconds, if you want I can hide in the closet."
"No, thats alright. What you need sixty seconds for?"
"My wound wouldn't heal the other night because the skin couldn't pull it self togther properly. Now that Ami fixed me up, its close enough that its fixed that. Right now, I'm just trying to be careful that I get all internal damage fixed." Usagi detransformed, and Mina's door opened. "Hello Mrs.Aino, how are you this evening?"
"Why I thought I herd someone in here. Mina, you know you need to ask before friends come over."
"I'm sorry Mrs. Aino, its my fault I dropped by with out telling Minako."
"Thats alright, Usagi dear."
"I've been gone for a couple of years, Mrs. Aino, so would it be okay if Minako had the girls over so we could all catch up? I mean since I'm already here, it would make the most sense."
"Sure, Usagi, you know you girls can come over, just ask! Have fun tonight, Minako dear. If you girls need anything, just ask!" Mianko's mother shut the door, and the two girls listened as she headed down the hall way.
"That was close. How did you do that?"
"Do what?"
"My mother is a total rip. Normally it takes me ages to get her to let me have the girls over!"
"Thats parents for you. They don't wanna seem likes rips in front of friends, so they try and be nice. They should realize all parents are the same, and we're used to it..."(My dad actually told me somthing similar to that one night!) "Any way, lets call the girls and go get to making some food."
"Usagi, neither of us can cook, lets leave it to Mako-chan(I know I've been avoiding the ending thing thus far, but it didn't sound right witout it!)."
"I learned how on my little trip, apparently its a big part of being a princess. Besides, I think with all the eating I used to do I probably broke poor Mako... I just wanna return the favor."
"If you say so..." And with that the girls set to work.
AN-- No cliff hanger(not even a pathetic one!) on this chapter! I was gonna leave off with Mamoru being pathetic, but I decided it was to short... hope you enjoyed it!
Usagi stared at Mamoru for a few seconds in shock. Once she regained her wits she slammed the door shut, ran the balcony, transformed, and jumped to the roof across the street and continued on her way.
Raye ran from the room to the door and opened it, while the other girls made their way to the balcony.
"Where is she?" Mamoru asked looking around the apartment.
"She ran away." Minako replied quietly looking at her feet, rather than at Mamoru.
"But why?"
"She wasn't ready to face you."
"Why? Doesn't she know how much I need her?"
"Damn you Mamoru! Its always about you! You pushed her away then, and you've made her leave now! You never cared about her! Damn it! We finally had her back! I mean she was here! It hasn't even been a week and you made her leave agian! I hate you! And if I don't see her soon, I will kill you for bringing pain to my princess." Everyone stared in shock as Minako uttered the last words with contempt and then ran from the apartment.
"Mamoru she didn--"
Mamoru quicky cut her off. "How long has she been back? Who knew? Why didn't anyone tell me?"
"She's been back around four or five days. We're not sure really. She just showed up at school." Makoto began.
"We knew, Andrew knew, and, we assume, her family knew." Raye continued.
"And we were going to tell you that day at the arcade, but as soon as Andrew mentioned it she threatened to leave us agian... and we couldn't risk it. I mean she isn't the same girl that left us, we weren't really sure what she would do, I mean-"
"Makoto stop.Its okay, besides, you're rambling." At Mamoru's comment Makoto blushed a little. "What do you mean she's not the same girl that left?"
"She's changed. She smarter, quieter, more graceful, faster, a lady in every sense of the word, she's more powerful, and... and... well I'm sure there's more about her thats changed, but we've only been around her for a few days so its hard to really tell what other ramafications she made apon her self."
"All the things I told her. Its all my fault... No, its those damn dreams I was having. I just wish I could have the old Usko back... I need her, and it kills me to hear how much Usako has changed... And not to be able to hold her in my arms, and not to have been able to watch her grow and become the gorgeous women I saw standing in the doorway. God, Usako why did you leave me all alone?"
Hearing Mamoru pitty him self Raye lost her temper, "Damn it, Mamoru! Minako was right! Its not all about you! Do you know how much it was killing Usagi every time you pushed her away? You have no fucking right to call her your little rabbit! And out of any person she knows, you have the least right to ask for the old Usagi back! Jesus chirst man! She did everything you say you asked her to. This is what she thinks you want!"
"But she came back so its obvious she needs me too! I know Usako, she isn't very self confident, she doesn't think she's good enough for me yet, even though we all know she's been to good all along... You just give her a few days and she'll be back in my arms, and--"
Raye gave a bitter laugh. "I've got a little secret for you. The reason Usa is avoiding you, is cause she's not to sure your good enough for her."
"But thats not possible Usako would never-"
"Damn it! Don't you understand she's not your Usako anymore. Like everyone else in the world, she's changed! Christ, she changed for you! Don't expect her to come crawling back, from what I can see she's stronger, and she doesn't need you, or us! She can make it on her own! I want the old Usagi back as much as the next person, but because of the pain you caused her and the mental anguish you put her through, we will never see that Usagi agian. Somtimes I wish you hadn't driven her away so we could have helped her through it... We could have been the ones to teach her all the things she knows now... but because of YOU we couldn't! So, stop feeling sorry for yourself for just one minute and think about how much you hurt her. Thats all I ask of you, because I can almost garuntee that the amount of pain you may think you caused her is more than a hundred, thousand, million times the actual amount of pain she actually felt." With the finish of her speech Raye walked out of the apartment and slammed the door.
"We better try and calm her down, you know how she gets when she's angry Mamoru. See you later." Ami quickly left the apratment.
"Raye's right. You know I've been through a lot of heart ache, and I can't even begin to imagine what Usagi went through. By the way, you knew she was here to! You talked with her!"
"No, I did not!"
"Remember Yumiko? You met your 'dream girl' that day, and she ran away from the horrible monster you showed her you could be." Makoto then, following the lead of her friends, stomped out of Usagi's apartment.
With the senshi's words echoing in his ears, Mamoru made his way across the hall to his own apartment. Once there, he layed on his bed and tried to imagine all the pain he had cause her. And the more her thought about it the less he could imagine how much pain she felt, because the pain he could imagine never seemed enough.
*Minako's Room*
"That didn't take you long. Didn't want to converse with Mamoru?"
"Usagi what are you doing here?"
"Ouch that hurts Minako! Don't you wanna see your old comrad and friend?"
"Don't get me wrong Usagi! I was worried you had left us agian! In fact I screamed at Mamoru beause of it!"
"I've seen you mad! I bet it wasn't pretty!"
"So anyway, why are you here?"
"A long time ago you told me what happened to you in England. So now, I think out of all the senshi you can understand my actions the most... Besides I need a place to crash for the night so I don't run into Mamoru! I think if I prob his mind a bit I can figure out his schedule and avoid him till I'm ready..."
"Sure you can stay here, but why don't you prob his mind now?"
"Well I was going to, but... "
"But?"
"Well, he's feeling extremely depressed, and its quite over whelming, which is making it difficult to read his thoughts. I just figure I'll wait til he's asleep."
"So, why do you need to crash here?"
"Well, I've been gone for a couple of years, and I need to catch up on the gossip."
"Sure, I can call the girls and we can make it into a sleep over, but, umm..."
"Yes?"
"Could you detransform. I mean, my mom might get a bit suspisous if she sees Sailor Moon sitting on my bed gossiping with me."
"Give me sixty seconds, if you want I can hide in the closet."
"No, thats alright. What you need sixty seconds for?"
"My wound wouldn't heal the other night because the skin couldn't pull it self togther properly. Now that Ami fixed me up, its close enough that its fixed that. Right now, I'm just trying to be careful that I get all internal damage fixed." Usagi detransformed, and Mina's door opened. "Hello Mrs.Aino, how are you this evening?"
"Why I thought I herd someone in here. Mina, you know you need to ask before friends come over."
"I'm sorry Mrs. Aino, its my fault I dropped by with out telling Minako."
"Thats alright, Usagi dear."
"I've been gone for a couple of years, Mrs. Aino, so would it be okay if Minako had the girls over so we could all catch up? I mean since I'm already here, it would make the most sense."
"Sure, Usagi, you know you girls can come over, just ask! Have fun tonight, Minako dear. If you girls need anything, just ask!" Mianko's mother shut the door, and the two girls listened as she headed down the hall way.
"That was close. How did you do that?"
"Do what?"
"My mother is a total rip. Normally it takes me ages to get her to let me have the girls over!"
"Thats parents for you. They don't wanna seem likes rips in front of friends, so they try and be nice. They should realize all parents are the same, and we're used to it..."(My dad actually told me somthing similar to that one night!) "Any way, lets call the girls and go get to making some food."
"Usagi, neither of us can cook, lets leave it to Mako-chan(I know I've been avoiding the ending thing thus far, but it didn't sound right witout it!)."
"I learned how on my little trip, apparently its a big part of being a princess. Besides, I think with all the eating I used to do I probably broke poor Mako... I just wanna return the favor."
"If you say so..." And with that the girls set to work.
AN-- No cliff hanger(not even a pathetic one!) on this chapter! I was gonna leave off with Mamoru being pathetic, but I decided it was to short... hope you enjoyed it!