*i'm so sorry that i tore your heart apart last night (and I'm sorry)*













Stupid, stupid, STUPID GORDO! How can you live with yourself after hurting Miranda, your best friend, they way you did yesterday...

She didn't even say ANYTHING to me after I told her I didn't feel the same. She just ran off, with tears in her eyes. And the worst part about it- I didn't run after her to see if she was ok. What's probably even worse- what I told her was a lie.













*and i'm sorry if i scarred you again today (i didn't mean to take your dreams)*













Maybe I should call her. No. She won't even pick up the phone.

I've been trying to get a hold of her since I woke up... which was 4 hours ago. Why won't she pick up her phone?... Because you hurt her you idiot! She's your best friend and you hurt her. She's your best friend and you LIED to her.

Why did I lie to her anyways? I rarely ever do. Maybe I should call her. Yah- I will. And this time, if she doesn't answer- I'll leave a message.













*i didn't mean to take your dreams and make them seem so trite*













Ring. Ring. Ring.

"Miranda's NEW phone line... you know what do you!" I heard Miranda's sing-song voice say

Beep.

"Miranda, look- I'm really sorry. I honestly didn't want to hurt you the way I did. I just really wanna know if you're ok. Please, PLEASE call me back. There is something really important I wanted to tell you and saying it over an answering machine wouldn't be right. Please call back. You already know who this is."

Well, hopefully she'll call me back, THEN I could tell her how I really feel. Why did I lie anyways?

Because I've never been big on feelings. And these feelings I have for Miranda... well- they're pretty strong. And when she told me she felt the same, being me- I lied to her.













*(i sincerely) i sincerely (oh), completely (yeah) apologize for doin' what i did*













Two hours later and still no call from Miranda.

Ding Dong.

Great. With my luck, its probably some salesman selling some stuff that doesn't even work, then I'll get all call from Miranda and I won't be able to answer it because of his continuous talking.

"Hi."

"Miranda?" I asked in disbelief (I guess my luck isn't so bad afterall)

"Can I come in?"

"Yah, sure." I ushered her into my family room

"I got your message."

"Yah- about that." I paused

"Well? What did you wanna tell me?" She asked with no emotion on her face

"First off, I'm really sorry for what happened yesterday" I paused again "And- well-" Come on Gordo... spit it out!

















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