United as One
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I shoveled sponful after spoonful of food into my mouth. It was a wonder I wasn't fat. In fact, I was the skinniest person I knew. And if I though about it I would realize that everyone on my father's side is. You know what's really weird? All my descendants were on the father's side. I looked at Si. I was mad at him at the moment. He was being nice to that asshole Lupin. At that very moment he waved at him and called to him. Lupin rolled his eyes, denied and sat alone on another bench. He should be grateful that Sirius was trying to be his friend.
If this was anyone but me I'd say that i was jealous. Of what? I wonder. That idiot is nothing to be jealous over! He has no friends, he's always getting into trouble and-hell, even the teachers didn't like him!
But Sirius likes him.
And I'm Sirius's best friend! I didn't know what I was angry at. There was some kind of insane jealousy that was seeming to take over me. I didn't like it. I was not the jealous kind of person. When I looked at Sirius he looked sorely disappointed that he had turned down his offer. I hated that. He turned to me then, like I was only second best.
"What's wrong, James?" he asked, a look of pure confusion on his face.
"Why are you hanging out with that guy? He's a jerk!"
"Jeez James, don't you think I can choose my friends? And what is it about him that you don't like?"
"I just... don't trust him." I said unable to come up with a better answer.
"And he doesn't trust me. Wonderful relationship, eh? I know he's better than that but it's taking time." My best friend shook his head. "He is so weird."
"And you aren't?"
"er... Yah."
"Liar."
"You have a very wrong opinion of yourself."
"Maybe that's wrong but... I'm extremely handsome and my brilliance is to the extreme!"
"You wish." Sirius looked confused.
"Me? Confused? No no, I think you're thinking about you."
"I know who is." I grinned and looked towards Lily Evan's direction." she looked up at me and winked. She had winked! My eyes widened.
"Did you see that Si, she winked at me!" I was really excited and I forgot about Remus Lupin for the moment. Sirius grinned widely.
"Sweet!" He gave me a little shove. "Go on, talk to her! Ask her out!"
"I don't know Si..."
"Oh come on, Potter, don't be a wimp!"
"I'm not!"
"Then go get her, mate!" I looked at him strangely and he gave me another little shove in her direction. I gathered up my courage and braced myself for the big no. I walked toward her. They were all looking at me and giggling. Suddenlt I got extreme butterflies in my stomach like never before. I bit my lip. This was going to be hard.
"Hi." how original, I scolded myself.
"Hi James." she said.
"So, uh, do you mind if I sit here?"
"Nope." she said happily, you know, in that happy-go-lucky-girly kind of way.
"Nope, I can't sit here or nope I can?"
"You can." then she laughed. God, her laugh is beautiful. It's like the morning corous of birds to wake the world to the sun. Nervously I sat down.
"So, um, Lily? Willyougooutwithme?" the words tumbled out of my mouth and I felt a blush rise to my face.
"Sure James." She grinned. I got up, I felt dizzy.
"Wow." I whispered. "Bye... See you at the lake?"
"What about the Astronomy Tower?" she asked. My eyes grew wide.
"Yeah, sure." I replied getting back my old smoothness now that she had said yes.
"Eight, then?"
"Eight." I confirmed.
For the rest of the evening I felt as though I was floating on clouds. Head in the air. I didn't care about anything, not Remus, not grades, not work... nothing. I practically skipped to the Gryffindor Tower, I mean, how like me is that? I'll answer that for you, not like me at all.
I then ran up to the dorm. Suddenly I stopped. I had heard something. Music. Someone was strumming on the guitar. I snuck up to the door and pressed my ear to the door. I heard someone sing. Sing! It was a male's voice. In fact it sounded like... Remus! Naw, it couldn't be. Just to be sure I opened the door. My suspicions were correct. It was true. He was sitting there, his hair falling over his face deeply concentrating on the music playing a guitar. Playing a guitar! My eyes widened. I shook my head, eyes still wide. He opened the door. I jumped.
"How much did you hear?"
"You playing the guitar." I snapped. He looked at me pleadingly.
"Don't tell anyone okay?" I frowned."Please?"
"Why not?" he shrugged.
"Just don't."
"Fine." I grumbled. And then I left, but the music I had heard kept playing and replaying over in my head.
I went away,
I'm not who I used to be
Not then, not now,
Together no more,
I lie in death,
Waiting for tomorrow to come,
I wait,
I watch,
I hold my fears,
They hold me for forever more
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So? What do you think? Isn't it weird? Sirius is the kind and accepting one and James... Is not. I guess it's cause I like Sirius better than James. Don't know why, but I do. Oh well. This is my fic, plz reveiw it!
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I shoveled sponful after spoonful of food into my mouth. It was a wonder I wasn't fat. In fact, I was the skinniest person I knew. And if I though about it I would realize that everyone on my father's side is. You know what's really weird? All my descendants were on the father's side. I looked at Si. I was mad at him at the moment. He was being nice to that asshole Lupin. At that very moment he waved at him and called to him. Lupin rolled his eyes, denied and sat alone on another bench. He should be grateful that Sirius was trying to be his friend.
If this was anyone but me I'd say that i was jealous. Of what? I wonder. That idiot is nothing to be jealous over! He has no friends, he's always getting into trouble and-hell, even the teachers didn't like him!
But Sirius likes him.
And I'm Sirius's best friend! I didn't know what I was angry at. There was some kind of insane jealousy that was seeming to take over me. I didn't like it. I was not the jealous kind of person. When I looked at Sirius he looked sorely disappointed that he had turned down his offer. I hated that. He turned to me then, like I was only second best.
"What's wrong, James?" he asked, a look of pure confusion on his face.
"Why are you hanging out with that guy? He's a jerk!"
"Jeez James, don't you think I can choose my friends? And what is it about him that you don't like?"
"I just... don't trust him." I said unable to come up with a better answer.
"And he doesn't trust me. Wonderful relationship, eh? I know he's better than that but it's taking time." My best friend shook his head. "He is so weird."
"And you aren't?"
"er... Yah."
"Liar."
"You have a very wrong opinion of yourself."
"Maybe that's wrong but... I'm extremely handsome and my brilliance is to the extreme!"
"You wish." Sirius looked confused.
"Me? Confused? No no, I think you're thinking about you."
"I know who is." I grinned and looked towards Lily Evan's direction." she looked up at me and winked. She had winked! My eyes widened.
"Did you see that Si, she winked at me!" I was really excited and I forgot about Remus Lupin for the moment. Sirius grinned widely.
"Sweet!" He gave me a little shove. "Go on, talk to her! Ask her out!"
"I don't know Si..."
"Oh come on, Potter, don't be a wimp!"
"I'm not!"
"Then go get her, mate!" I looked at him strangely and he gave me another little shove in her direction. I gathered up my courage and braced myself for the big no. I walked toward her. They were all looking at me and giggling. Suddenlt I got extreme butterflies in my stomach like never before. I bit my lip. This was going to be hard.
"Hi." how original, I scolded myself.
"Hi James." she said.
"So, uh, do you mind if I sit here?"
"Nope." she said happily, you know, in that happy-go-lucky-girly kind of way.
"Nope, I can't sit here or nope I can?"
"You can." then she laughed. God, her laugh is beautiful. It's like the morning corous of birds to wake the world to the sun. Nervously I sat down.
"So, um, Lily? Willyougooutwithme?" the words tumbled out of my mouth and I felt a blush rise to my face.
"Sure James." She grinned. I got up, I felt dizzy.
"Wow." I whispered. "Bye... See you at the lake?"
"What about the Astronomy Tower?" she asked. My eyes grew wide.
"Yeah, sure." I replied getting back my old smoothness now that she had said yes.
"Eight, then?"
"Eight." I confirmed.
For the rest of the evening I felt as though I was floating on clouds. Head in the air. I didn't care about anything, not Remus, not grades, not work... nothing. I practically skipped to the Gryffindor Tower, I mean, how like me is that? I'll answer that for you, not like me at all.
I then ran up to the dorm. Suddenly I stopped. I had heard something. Music. Someone was strumming on the guitar. I snuck up to the door and pressed my ear to the door. I heard someone sing. Sing! It was a male's voice. In fact it sounded like... Remus! Naw, it couldn't be. Just to be sure I opened the door. My suspicions were correct. It was true. He was sitting there, his hair falling over his face deeply concentrating on the music playing a guitar. Playing a guitar! My eyes widened. I shook my head, eyes still wide. He opened the door. I jumped.
"How much did you hear?"
"You playing the guitar." I snapped. He looked at me pleadingly.
"Don't tell anyone okay?" I frowned."Please?"
"Why not?" he shrugged.
"Just don't."
"Fine." I grumbled. And then I left, but the music I had heard kept playing and replaying over in my head.
I went away,
I'm not who I used to be
Not then, not now,
Together no more,
I lie in death,
Waiting for tomorrow to come,
I wait,
I watch,
I hold my fears,
They hold me for forever more
~*~
So? What do you think? Isn't it weird? Sirius is the kind and accepting one and James... Is not. I guess it's cause I like Sirius better than James. Don't know why, but I do. Oh well. This is my fic, plz reveiw it!