Title: The Truth Is Not Enough
Author: Dana_Maru
Summary: Okay, so now they're engaged, let's hear Scully's thoughts now (well my impression of Scully's thoughts, but that doesn't matter!)
Disclaimer: Chris Carter is GOD, if it wasn't for him we wouldn't have the pleasure of recreating his wonderful characters - but please don't sue me for borrowing them as I can't afford to pay the bills *boohoo*. So I beg of you, please just read and enjoy! ;-)
Authors Notes: I would like to say a big thank you to my mate Helen, who introduced me to fan fiction. And also thank all of you nice people who are taking the time to read this.
Chapter Four
I can't believe he had the nerve to do that to me! Why, why, why can't I be a little more patient for once in my lifetime? I really did believe that he didn't want to marry me, and I couldn't handle the pain of thinking he was rejecting me. For the last nine years, I held back from telling him how I feel, for fear that he didn't feel the same and I was so happy when he told me he did. But when he let me think he was rejecting me, I so badly wanted to hurt him back. Thankfully he didn't give me the chance, otherwise I wouldn't be wearing this beautiful ring. I am sitting here next to the love of my life, mesmerized by the light reflecting off of the diamonds and projecting onto the wall. Finally, I can say, my life is perfect. Well almost, if only I could, somehow get my son - our son - back, then my life would be entirely complete.
The news Monica had for me was the best news I could possibly hope for right now. I asked her to arrange a small wedding ceremony for us, outside of America, so for now it is goodbye to my home. Goodbye to all I have known from birth up until the present moment of my life. The sun is setting and I have only a few hours to delve into my thoughts before I have to wake Mulder and make a start on the long journey ahead of us.
There have been so many times in my life, in the time of working with the FBI. Ever since I began working on the X Files, joining Mulder's quest to find the truth, we have known almost nothing but hope and fear. Hope that whichever one of us has temporarily at the time disappeared will be returned to us safely, or those who have been injured will live. And fear for those close to us, longing for a time when our own lives and the lives of our loved ones will not be in danger for our cause.
The day of Mulder's father's funeral was the worst day of my life, having to deal with the thought of losing Mulder forever and dealing with the thought that I may also die. My dreams gave me the strength to believe that Mulder was safe and would soon return to me. Although nothing could have prepared me for what happened to my sister. The guilt will never leave me because I know that the bullet that killed her was meant for me. She died for our quest to reveal the truth whatever that was, but her death was supposed to be mine. The military abducted me because of our damn quest because we were getting too close to 'the truth'. If Cancer Man and his little assholes really wanted to prevent us from finding the truth, why the hell did he reveal it to us himself?! Or maybe it's another lie to cover up the real truth. Somehow, I believe him, though, even after so many times telling Mulder not to trust him. Working so long with the Bureau has given me a sort of 'sixth sense', when you interrogate a suspect, you learn to tell the difference between the truth and the lie and what that Cancer Man told us appears to be true. I find myself willingly believing his story, when he has done so much damage in my life. He is the one who constantly tried to get rid of us, no matter what he had to do. My abduction, closing the files all the time, and the deaths of our family members, these are all his attempts to silence us. What the Syndicate doesn't know is that they will never stop us. They can do whatever they think they should to prevent us from revealing their existence or that of the extraterrestrials whom they have been working with for all these years, but there is know way I will remain silent. Unless Mulder chooses not to reveal our knowledge. I am prepared to do anything for this man, I have already sacrificed my life for him so there isn't much more I have to loose.