Author's Note: In the words of Spike, "That's right. I'm back, and I'm a bleedin' animal! Yeah!" Heh. Well, not quite, but you get the picture. My INTENSE apologies for the…oh god, what's it been? Two months? I assure everyone, I'm not dead. Just very, very, VERY busy.
That being said…hope everyone remembers the story.
Disclaimer: The characters herein with the exception of Clark
McCallister are the property of Thomas Harris. They are being used without
permission for entertainment purposes and not for the sake of profit. No
copyright infringement is intended.
Chapter Eight
There was an amused pause that seemed to stretch for hours. Starling knew her
breaths couldn't be as loud as they sounded, but at the moment, she was sure
they reflected far ways down the highway. A warning for approaching cars. Her
unadjusted eyes pried at the darkness. Though there was no sound, she did not
doubt his tangible presence flooding the household. Shivers sprouted across her
skin and her extra sensory radar was shooting off the charts. And still there
was nothing. Nothing but mocking silence.
It was the sort of silence that screamed.
"Doctor?" she whispered when impatience got the better of her.
A beat longer of considerate repose. Starling's inward tinglies jittered once
more, as though screaming to run now and hope her ears were playing tricks on
her.
That wouldn't do. As always, he sensed her debate. Read her thoughts, and
finally found the decency to answer her. "Perhaps you were expecting someone else?
Kathy Bates, perchance?"
Starling drew in another quaking breath, almost certain if she could see his
eyes, she would see laughter behind them. Humor was never wasted with the
doctor, and the present situation certainly offered its share. Predictably, her
mind and will betrayed her, rendering her speechless. Stripped and barren. What
was there possibly to say in such a situation? The weight of realization was
crashing with momentous affect. Little by little.
There would be no leave tonight.
At last she found her voice, several attempts of reciprocated humor rising to
mind before inevitable rejection. Dr. Lecter didn't appreciate segues. There
was no way she could say something sensical in that regard. Her overworked,
fatigued mind simply wouldn't allow it.
"Honestly, with the way my day's been going," she answered finally, "I probably
should have seen this one hours in advance."
"Ah. Of course. Your prison transfer." The tone in his voice insinuated a
connection of old pals—friends who spoke constantly with a run through of the
day's events. She did not realize he had stepped forward until the cold front
in front of her vanished, replaced suddenly with the radiating warmth of
another body. Exhaustion again threatened to claim her. The consequences of the
'oh now what?' approach to life. "Tell me, did the mind-numbing Mr. McCallister
give you much trouble?"
Yeah, he would think McCallister was boring. He wasn't the one who had to
listen to his yapping all the way from Washington. The comment did little more
than irritate her, her other senses drawn in by the sheath of fictitious habit.
Still, she forced her mind to remain sharp. There was no suggestion that the
peril of her situation had decreased or enhanced. Dr. Lecter wouldn't give any
indications before he struck, if that was indeed his intention.
Best to answer him now. Being trapped in a cabin with a cannibal was bad
enough. Being trapped with a testy cannibal commenced the issuance of your own
death warrant.
"No trouble." Her voice was barely quaking, but she knew he would hear any
indecision. "I'll admit he was a little annoying..." She hazarded a step
forward, letting her thought trail. It was best to keep him talking until she
found a light. Or her knife. Starling bit her lip. That thought was ridiculous.
Even if she could get to the blade, she wouldn't be able to use it. The doctor
could see her through the darkness and had the maddening ability to anticipate
her every move.
"You may stop there," he said a second later, confirming her silent query. She
froze at the arctic command in his voice. When she thought her heart would
explode in her chest, she heard a relaxed chuckle. "I wouldn't want you to run
into the coat rack."
The infuriating tease in his voice made her shrivel with familiarity. Her
thoughts traveled again to the discarded blade, and her inner will collapsed
with forthright understanding of her limited options. If she didn't try now,
she wouldn't get another chance. Licking her lips, her wrist twitch, and she
waited.
Then ran.
He was quick as a cat, directly in front of her before she had the chance to
blink. Her arms were suddenly wrenched in a powerful grasp, and she struggled
without thought. The tease in his voice only heightened her agitated fear, and
she felt his rumbling chuckle against her stomach.
"Ah, ah, ah, ah," Dr. Lecter berated softly. "I much prefer you here where I
can see you."
"Easy for you to say," she spat, speaking before she thought.
Another chortle. Good. The longer she kept him humored, the longer she kept
herself alive. "My apologies, Officer Starling. My house, my rules."
Her skin tingled where he grasped her, images of a thousand forgotten
nightmares (or were they dreams?) springing to mind without much persuasion.
When her struggles subsided, he released her and stepped away, and again she
was assaulted by a cold front of air.
"I must have the worst luck in history," she mumbled as she stepped
back. The motion rose that she should attempt again, and was defeated without
an argument. Fighting was useless, especially in this state. And at any rate,
he would expect another attempt, not concession. Her mind was racing at full
speed, mapping out survival options. Keep the madman amused and guessing. Don't
want him bored with you.
"Oh come now, Clarice, you'll hurt my feelings. Are things really so grim? You
are terribly far from home. I'd call this turn of luck rather convenient.
Better someone you know than a complete stranger." The tease in his voice was
hard to miss. She hesitated to think that he sounded different, but there was
no denying it. Speaking to a man behind bars diverged greatly when compared to
speaking to him after a release, or an escape, in this instance. She had
training enough to notice.
"It depends on how you look at things, Doctor," Starling replied, backing up a
step, then retracting. It was unwise to display any signs of intimidation. Dr.
Lecter knew he could be frightening and required no outward assurance. Such
knowledge already gave him an unfair advantage. With her, he was accustomed to
gall and confidence, even if she appeared flustered and uncertain. It was how
best he liked her. She was alive today for being herself, because the world
was more interesting with her in it. There could be no signs of fear.
Something told her there wasn't a need.
"Oh?"
"In comparison, I think I'd prefer a group of strangers to the likes of Paul
Krendler." Honest to God's truth. If she had found Krendler in here, she would
have hauled ass to the truck and frozen to death.
A chuckle of appreciation perturbed the air. Perverse and frightening, even
more so than the feeling of normality that seared along with it. As though she
were chatting with an old friend she had fallen out with after college.
Starling shook her head fiercely, mind mapping ineffectual alternatives around
him. She needed to get to that knife.
Yet she didn't move. Through the darkness, she had a vague conception of where
he stood. He was discouragingly well concealed in the shadows. It seemed she
could see everything else within convenient proximity save the cannibal in the
middle of the room. She knew he was near—terribly near. And she didn't move.
A darkly amusing thought rose unwittingly to mind. I'm about to become a
member of the Donner Party.
When he again broke the silence, Starling released the breath she had been
holding and convinced herself to relax. There wasn't much else she could do,
she realized with dreary logic. Another attempt at the discarded kitchen knife
might be punished with the confiscation of an invaluable bodily organ, even if
she knew that would likely be Lecter's last resort. A man of such ideals would
think twice before lashing out toward a woman who made the world more
interesting. Especially with the variety of whimsical conclusions this
circumstance presented.
"I suppose, then, that we find ourselves at odds once more. What do you
propose, Clarice? I, myself, never fancied stumbling across such a promising
situation."
Starling bit her lip in contemplation. She still couldn't see him, and that was
beginning to ebb her patience. Every time he spoke or allowed her to hear the
few perceptible breaths he indulged, he seemed to be in a different location.
At once very close, and again at the other side of the room.
It was only when she sighed in exasperation and dropped the protective pretense
that she finally etched his outline from the darkness. He was standing not
terribly far from her, allowing her room enough for comfort. What little light
emanated into the room seemed to be drawn to the pupils of his eyes. She
wondered how on earth it had taken her so long to see him.
"I'm stuck here," she decided anticlimactically.
"It would appear so."
"I'm stuck in a cabin in the middle of a snowstorm with you."
"Your perception and recitation of the obvious is most astute, my dear." The
tease in his tone made her fluster. She had heard that voice in too many
contexts and it was beginning to make her head spin. "I take it this doesn't
happen to you regularly?"
"Every day," Starling snickered, throwing her hands up in irritation. In the
heat of things, she finally lost whatever grasp of control she had on her
warring conscious and let it erupt. I knew it. I knew today had gone by far
too smoothly to be a picture of my life. I mean, what were the odds that the
transfer with so much riding on it would go over without a hitch? She
grumbled and banished unhelpful thoughts away and allowed herself to ask the
dreaded question. "So…what now?"
"I really cannot say, Clarice. Much of that is up to you. Under whatever
circumstances, you have been willed my guest, and I will do everything to
accommodate you until the weather dies." In semblance of truce, he showed open
palms, red tint in his eyes glinting keenly at her. "You have my word—no harm
will come to you while you are under this roof."
Starling knew he was speaking the truth. There was no need to question the
sincerity or validation behind the doctor's given word. The same way she knew
Crawford was going to have a hay-day when she didn't call him tomorrow
afternoon. The same way she knew Mapp would start out the day by hitting her
alarm clock until she slept in, because there was no Starling there to wake
her. The same way she knew Dr. Lecter's idea of accommodations likely included
fine wine and chamber music. She just knew.
That didn't clear anything up, though. There was still the very palpable issue
that he was a convicted felon, infamous for his crimes. The sort of fellow that
struck fear in the hearts of the pure while they tried desperately to conceive
the darkness of his character didn't tickle their fancy in that horribly
curious way. So they were going to make nice for however long they were stuck
together. Then what? What happened once the snow cleared away? There was no way
she could leave him here—let him continue in full disregard of the law she
worked so hard to preserve. Similarly, doubts on her part would be detected
immediately, and she would not question his ability to take her life if it
meant evading a return to incarceration. Didn't bloody well matter how much he liked
her…
There was no point in beating around the bush. "Then what?" Starling asked
bluntly. "You know I can't just walk out of here once all is said and done,
Doctor. I have a job to do."
"Actually, right now, you are on vacation," he reminded her. A quiver raced
through her as he stepped forward. One step. Nothing more. "We will cross that
bridge when we come to it, Clarice. I am more interested in getting settled for
the evening."
"Settled?"
"For starters…" Then he was gone, pacing backward and drawing the knife finally
off the floor, holding it up demonstratively, and she never saw it again. Where
he kept it tucked, she didn't think to ask. "Secondly, I intend to rectify the
growling in your stomach." Growling? She was answered with a sharp hunger pain.
"And finally, sleeping arrangements. Not that I don't trust you, my dear, but—"
"I'm on the couch." Starling held her breath in grim realization that she had
just interrupted Hannibal the Cannibal. Likely not the best tactical move.
Still, there was no way she was putting him between herself and the front door.
Again, when she expected anger, she received humor instead. Another sigh of
relief coursed through her.
"Whatever you wish," Dr. Lecter replied nonchalantly.
A sudden flicker and the room brightened with abrupt luminosity. She blinked
her surprise before her eyes came into focus and she saw him standing beside
the lamp. The first good look in several years. He was nothing of the man she
had seen in Memphis. Out of prison garb: dressed instead in evening clothes,
casual but classy. The doctor did not react to her scrutiny. She received the
dry impression that he had seen her in the light a few times to his advantage
more over the past three years.
The look they shared crackled with intensity, and Starling felt herself freeze
in a beat of suggestion. In the eyes of someone she had never truly expected to
see again, she shivered—once again her dreams returning to haunt her. However,
the moment did not last long. Dr. Lecter withdrew, grinning tightly to himself.
"Please," he offered, "make yourself at home."
Then he retreated into the kitchen, presumably to cook. Starling released a
breath and attempted to focus. He was gone was gone, and so was the knife,
however briefly, along with every chance she had ever had for a slab of blessed
normality. She stood in the middle of the living area dumbly, distraught with
uneasiness.
Once more, the reality of her situation repeated, still not fully sinking in.
The road to comprehension was long and wrought with denial.
I am snowed-in with Hannibal Lecter, and he's making me supper.
"No," she grumbled to herself. "My life isn't crazy."
Denial was bliss.
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