When Tears Fall…
When Hermione finally arrived home she just sat in the car for a while. She didn't want to go into that house. She knew exactly what would happen, it was always the same.
It was eight o' clock, they would have dinner, watch some television, and go to bed. They wouldn't say a word to her the whole time and then around eleven, that night, Brock would pay her a visit in her room.
She wished she could disappear. She wished everything were happy and nice and perfect like everyone thought it was. But it wasn't and she would just have to put up with it.
"Get out of the car already!" Brock yelled. He had already taken her things to her room and had come back so he could go to a party.
"Don't yell at me!" she yelled back and quickly got out of the car.
"I'll be back soon and we'll have a very, very long meeting about your behavior," he said with a nasty smile pasted on his face.
He drove off and Hermione headed inside. She had no friends in the muggle world mostly because she never had, had time for them. Even in grade school she was very focused on homework. She never knew that she needed a friend until she came to Hogwarts.
~*~
Just as she expected the evening was full of eating dinner, watching television and going to bed. Her parents kept to themselves. They never touched her once the whole evening, and she didn't think they even looked at her at all.
She was ling in her bed and looking around her room. It was very plain and very organized. There was a bed in the far left corner of the room and a bookshelf in the far right. Against the opposite wall was a desk for her to do her homework on. A closet graced the right corner of the right wall. This would be the view of the room that you got when walking in the door. The walls were a washed out blue color and the carpet was a cream.
The clock by her bed said that it was ten forty five. Her brother would be there in fifteen minutes. He would be drunk and do what he wanted and leave. She was so used to it by now that she knew exactly every movement, word, anything he would say or do the whole time. How could she not? Even while she was at Hogwarts she had a hard time sleeping around this time of night because it was always so fresh in her mind.
She wanted him to go to pay for everything he had done to her, but there was that little part of her that said if anyone knew that her brother had been raping her for the past five years they would hate her. She could just hear them talking about what a slut she was and everything else. She just couldn't do it. Her reputation would be ruined.
The door slowly opened and in walked Brock. Right when he walked in the room instantly smelled of alcohol. He walked beside her and she could feel his breath on her neck.
"Are y…you slll…sll..sleeping?" He slurred. She didn't say a word or make any kind of movement. She hoped that he would just go away if he thought she was sleeping, but she knew she was kidding herself.
"I know you're awake!" he said and started laughing like something was highly amusing about her pretending to sleep.
He put his hands on her and clumsily pawed at her body, but she couldn't feel a thing. She let her body go numb and wouldn't think anything about what was going on now. She found very soon though that she couldn't keep her mind off of it.
He covered her with sloppy kisses and she could smell alcohol everywhere. It was making her sick to her stomach. He finally got tired with all that and moved strait on to his own personal pleasure. Finally he got his release and left the room.
Hermione couldn't move. Her body ached as if he had taken a baseball bat and beat her half to death with it. She couldn't think of anything else to do so she lie there and cried. It was absolutely silent so that she wouldn't disturb her parent's sleep. She cried herself to sleep.
~*~
Severus had had way too much to drink. He was stumbling around the kitchen in his privet rooms looking for another bottle of whiskey. He finally gave up and somehow made his way to his bed. He flopped down on the bed and let his mind wander. He smiled when his thoughts fell on the beautiful young woman that was his potions assistant. He couldn't stop thinking about how attractive she really was to him.
He knew it was wrong to even think about a student like that, but she was so beautiful. On the inside and the out. She had this way about her and a strange confidence. And she smelled so good. He'd never noticed all of those little things before.
Not until she became his assistant. When she talked he actually listened. She might not know that, but he liked hearing her talk. Lately he had started noticing things like when she was grading papers she would bite her bottom lip slightly like she was really concentrating. Was he really starting to like her?
~*~
Finally she was going home. That is to Hogwarts. Her brother had only come to bed once the entire trip, but she had been sick ever since just thinking about it. She couldn't let it go on anymore. She fully intended to tell the Headmaster of what had been going on when she arrived at the castle.
Her parents hadn't said a word to her the whole time she was there. And they had Brock drive her to the train station. She was in the front seat this time but she practically hugged the door.
"Hermione loosen up. Look, are you sick or something. I noticed you've been off the past couple of days," he said actually sounding concerned.
"Why would you care?" she answered coldly. They parked in front of the station so that he could just let her out and leave. He looked at her with such hate in his eyes it almost scared her.
"I should slap you right now, but we are in a public place and you better be glad of that." he grabbed her arm and pulled her face towards his. He kissed her roughly and bit her bottom lip slightly. She tried to push him away, but he was too strong for her. He let her go and she practically ran out of the car. She got her bags and he drove off. Harry and Ron came running out the door.
"Hermione! Are you okay?" Harry asked. She didn't even realize until now that she was crying. Then she felt a rumble in her stomach and her mouth filled with saliva. She ran to the bathroom dropping her things in front of Harry and Ron. She emptied her stomach and began sobbing. This time you could hear her cry.
"Herms! Please come out!" She heard Ron from outside the door.
"H…hold o…n" she cried. Hermione looked into the mirror above the sink and saw that her lip was bleeding. She splashed cold water over her face and healed the small bite on her lip. She left the bathroom calm and acting as if nothing had happened.
"Are you okay?" Harry asked again.
"Fine."
They boarded the train in silence. They didn't even say a word through the train ride home.
~*~
The only reason Severus had lived through this Christmas break without having to get his stomach pumped was because Dumbledore kept a constant watch over him. Albus had come to visit him Christmas Eve and found him drunker than a sailor and cleared his cabinets of all the whiskey they held.
He had a boring Christmas in other words. His mother had sent him a bunch of books and Albus sent him some socks. But other than that it was a long holiday of reading his mothers trashy romance novels that she had finished reading.
He didn't know why, but that is what she always sent him for Christmas. Romance novels, and he usually threw them away, but seeing he had nothing better to do he read them. He found that he did not enjoy a one of them.
They were all the same. Amazingly handsome, mysterious, sensitive, man meets to die for woman. They make passionate earth shattering love and one of them either dies or runs away. They were so sickeningly far from reality that he couldn't stand it.
What was real was what was going on inside him. He could feel things changing even though Hermione wasn't there he couldn't get his mind off her. How could he let this happen to himself? How could he possibly have feelings for her?
She would be arriving at school soon and he had to get a grip on this strange newfound emotion.
~*~
Hermione had fallen asleep on the way to Hogwarts and Harry didn't want to wake her. He gently cradled her in his arms and went strait to the hospital wing with Ron at their side.
"What's wrong boys?" asked Madam Pomfrey.
"We don't really know. She threw up at the train station and I think you might want to check her out," said Harry. Ron and him had been extremely worried ever since she left with her brother. Something just was not right about that boy.
"Well, if she's throwing up in the morning I'm going to keep her in here for a while. Would you boys mind running down to tell Severus she won't be in tonight? Oh and I need a scanning potion to see what's wrong with her." she asked sweetly.
"Sure" they answered in unison. They didn't really want to see him so soon but they would do anything for Hermione.
~*~
The boys arrived in front of Snape's door five minutes later and knocked twice. They heard a grunt from inside and took that as an indication for them to enter.
"What do you two want?" Snape asked them with a glare.
"Madam Pomfrey sent us to tell you that Hermione will not be here to work tonight and she needs a scanning potion." Ron quickly blurted.
"What's wrong with her?" Snape asked, almost too quickly.
"We don't know, she just threw up in the station," said Harry calmly.
"Is it something serious?" Snape asked.
"We have no idea professor. We need the scanning potion to find out. Snape got out of his chair and opened one of his cabinets he pulled out a tall thin tube full of black liquid. He handed the tube to Harry.
"Here it is. Tell Madam Pomfrey to update me on her condition. Just so I know when to send her work." Snape growled and the two boys practically ran from the room.
~*~
A/N: Wow it took me a lot longer than I thought it would to get this done. I kept getting distracted.
Jimena- If you don't understand something you can ask me about it in a review. Thanks for reviewing and I hope something in this chapter clears some of the confusion up.
Belleluna- A new chapter finally! Thanks so much for reviewing! And you reviewed twice! I really appreciated you ideas and did take them into consideration, but you'll have to keep reading to find out what happens!
Joani- Thanks for your review and compliments!
DragonFireAngelVWP- I try my best to write an enjoyable story. If it's my first or my last and it really felt good to know that I accomplished that to some point. Thank you very much.
Silver- I am very pleased you like it! I hope I can keep everyone in character. Hope you enjoy the chapter two!
CC- Thanks very much! Don't worry it might take me a while to update, but I will finish. Just stick with me!
Majandra- Thank you for your enthusiasm!
Ponine- Do you mean newish in personality or in her looks? I tried to keep her same personality, but I never really have pictured her as being a supermodel. I always pictured her as pretty, but more of a normal woman's size and looks. Thank you for reviewing!
DragonGirl- I'm glad you like my plot so far. Thanks for reviewing!
BLV- This story is going to have a few twists and turns so I hope you keep liking how it goes! Thank you for reviewing!
Rommie- You sounded unsure in your review of what you thought. If you have any constructive criticism I'd like to hear it! Thank you for reviewing.
Janmmic- It's not soon, but it's here! Hope you like it.
Maddie- Thank you! I try to keep it real and interesting.
KittyKat52788- My first reviwer! Thank you and I hope you keep reading and liking the rest.
A/N/2: Well I hope I get the next chapter out sooner! Please stick with me. It might take me a while, but I'll get a chapter out! I will finish this. Thank you to everyone who reviewed! You all inspire me to keep writing. And thanks to those who read and don't review. I hope you like the story to.
When Hermione finally arrived home she just sat in the car for a while. She didn't want to go into that house. She knew exactly what would happen, it was always the same.
It was eight o' clock, they would have dinner, watch some television, and go to bed. They wouldn't say a word to her the whole time and then around eleven, that night, Brock would pay her a visit in her room.
She wished she could disappear. She wished everything were happy and nice and perfect like everyone thought it was. But it wasn't and she would just have to put up with it.
"Get out of the car already!" Brock yelled. He had already taken her things to her room and had come back so he could go to a party.
"Don't yell at me!" she yelled back and quickly got out of the car.
"I'll be back soon and we'll have a very, very long meeting about your behavior," he said with a nasty smile pasted on his face.
He drove off and Hermione headed inside. She had no friends in the muggle world mostly because she never had, had time for them. Even in grade school she was very focused on homework. She never knew that she needed a friend until she came to Hogwarts.
~*~
Just as she expected the evening was full of eating dinner, watching television and going to bed. Her parents kept to themselves. They never touched her once the whole evening, and she didn't think they even looked at her at all.
She was ling in her bed and looking around her room. It was very plain and very organized. There was a bed in the far left corner of the room and a bookshelf in the far right. Against the opposite wall was a desk for her to do her homework on. A closet graced the right corner of the right wall. This would be the view of the room that you got when walking in the door. The walls were a washed out blue color and the carpet was a cream.
The clock by her bed said that it was ten forty five. Her brother would be there in fifteen minutes. He would be drunk and do what he wanted and leave. She was so used to it by now that she knew exactly every movement, word, anything he would say or do the whole time. How could she not? Even while she was at Hogwarts she had a hard time sleeping around this time of night because it was always so fresh in her mind.
She wanted him to go to pay for everything he had done to her, but there was that little part of her that said if anyone knew that her brother had been raping her for the past five years they would hate her. She could just hear them talking about what a slut she was and everything else. She just couldn't do it. Her reputation would be ruined.
The door slowly opened and in walked Brock. Right when he walked in the room instantly smelled of alcohol. He walked beside her and she could feel his breath on her neck.
"Are y…you slll…sll..sleeping?" He slurred. She didn't say a word or make any kind of movement. She hoped that he would just go away if he thought she was sleeping, but she knew she was kidding herself.
"I know you're awake!" he said and started laughing like something was highly amusing about her pretending to sleep.
He put his hands on her and clumsily pawed at her body, but she couldn't feel a thing. She let her body go numb and wouldn't think anything about what was going on now. She found very soon though that she couldn't keep her mind off of it.
He covered her with sloppy kisses and she could smell alcohol everywhere. It was making her sick to her stomach. He finally got tired with all that and moved strait on to his own personal pleasure. Finally he got his release and left the room.
Hermione couldn't move. Her body ached as if he had taken a baseball bat and beat her half to death with it. She couldn't think of anything else to do so she lie there and cried. It was absolutely silent so that she wouldn't disturb her parent's sleep. She cried herself to sleep.
~*~
Severus had had way too much to drink. He was stumbling around the kitchen in his privet rooms looking for another bottle of whiskey. He finally gave up and somehow made his way to his bed. He flopped down on the bed and let his mind wander. He smiled when his thoughts fell on the beautiful young woman that was his potions assistant. He couldn't stop thinking about how attractive she really was to him.
He knew it was wrong to even think about a student like that, but she was so beautiful. On the inside and the out. She had this way about her and a strange confidence. And she smelled so good. He'd never noticed all of those little things before.
Not until she became his assistant. When she talked he actually listened. She might not know that, but he liked hearing her talk. Lately he had started noticing things like when she was grading papers she would bite her bottom lip slightly like she was really concentrating. Was he really starting to like her?
~*~
Finally she was going home. That is to Hogwarts. Her brother had only come to bed once the entire trip, but she had been sick ever since just thinking about it. She couldn't let it go on anymore. She fully intended to tell the Headmaster of what had been going on when she arrived at the castle.
Her parents hadn't said a word to her the whole time she was there. And they had Brock drive her to the train station. She was in the front seat this time but she practically hugged the door.
"Hermione loosen up. Look, are you sick or something. I noticed you've been off the past couple of days," he said actually sounding concerned.
"Why would you care?" she answered coldly. They parked in front of the station so that he could just let her out and leave. He looked at her with such hate in his eyes it almost scared her.
"I should slap you right now, but we are in a public place and you better be glad of that." he grabbed her arm and pulled her face towards his. He kissed her roughly and bit her bottom lip slightly. She tried to push him away, but he was too strong for her. He let her go and she practically ran out of the car. She got her bags and he drove off. Harry and Ron came running out the door.
"Hermione! Are you okay?" Harry asked. She didn't even realize until now that she was crying. Then she felt a rumble in her stomach and her mouth filled with saliva. She ran to the bathroom dropping her things in front of Harry and Ron. She emptied her stomach and began sobbing. This time you could hear her cry.
"Herms! Please come out!" She heard Ron from outside the door.
"H…hold o…n" she cried. Hermione looked into the mirror above the sink and saw that her lip was bleeding. She splashed cold water over her face and healed the small bite on her lip. She left the bathroom calm and acting as if nothing had happened.
"Are you okay?" Harry asked again.
"Fine."
They boarded the train in silence. They didn't even say a word through the train ride home.
~*~
The only reason Severus had lived through this Christmas break without having to get his stomach pumped was because Dumbledore kept a constant watch over him. Albus had come to visit him Christmas Eve and found him drunker than a sailor and cleared his cabinets of all the whiskey they held.
He had a boring Christmas in other words. His mother had sent him a bunch of books and Albus sent him some socks. But other than that it was a long holiday of reading his mothers trashy romance novels that she had finished reading.
He didn't know why, but that is what she always sent him for Christmas. Romance novels, and he usually threw them away, but seeing he had nothing better to do he read them. He found that he did not enjoy a one of them.
They were all the same. Amazingly handsome, mysterious, sensitive, man meets to die for woman. They make passionate earth shattering love and one of them either dies or runs away. They were so sickeningly far from reality that he couldn't stand it.
What was real was what was going on inside him. He could feel things changing even though Hermione wasn't there he couldn't get his mind off her. How could he let this happen to himself? How could he possibly have feelings for her?
She would be arriving at school soon and he had to get a grip on this strange newfound emotion.
~*~
Hermione had fallen asleep on the way to Hogwarts and Harry didn't want to wake her. He gently cradled her in his arms and went strait to the hospital wing with Ron at their side.
"What's wrong boys?" asked Madam Pomfrey.
"We don't really know. She threw up at the train station and I think you might want to check her out," said Harry. Ron and him had been extremely worried ever since she left with her brother. Something just was not right about that boy.
"Well, if she's throwing up in the morning I'm going to keep her in here for a while. Would you boys mind running down to tell Severus she won't be in tonight? Oh and I need a scanning potion to see what's wrong with her." she asked sweetly.
"Sure" they answered in unison. They didn't really want to see him so soon but they would do anything for Hermione.
~*~
The boys arrived in front of Snape's door five minutes later and knocked twice. They heard a grunt from inside and took that as an indication for them to enter.
"What do you two want?" Snape asked them with a glare.
"Madam Pomfrey sent us to tell you that Hermione will not be here to work tonight and she needs a scanning potion." Ron quickly blurted.
"What's wrong with her?" Snape asked, almost too quickly.
"We don't know, she just threw up in the station," said Harry calmly.
"Is it something serious?" Snape asked.
"We have no idea professor. We need the scanning potion to find out. Snape got out of his chair and opened one of his cabinets he pulled out a tall thin tube full of black liquid. He handed the tube to Harry.
"Here it is. Tell Madam Pomfrey to update me on her condition. Just so I know when to send her work." Snape growled and the two boys practically ran from the room.
~*~
A/N: Wow it took me a lot longer than I thought it would to get this done. I kept getting distracted.
Jimena- If you don't understand something you can ask me about it in a review. Thanks for reviewing and I hope something in this chapter clears some of the confusion up.
Belleluna- A new chapter finally! Thanks so much for reviewing! And you reviewed twice! I really appreciated you ideas and did take them into consideration, but you'll have to keep reading to find out what happens!
Joani- Thanks for your review and compliments!
DragonFireAngelVWP- I try my best to write an enjoyable story. If it's my first or my last and it really felt good to know that I accomplished that to some point. Thank you very much.
Silver- I am very pleased you like it! I hope I can keep everyone in character. Hope you enjoy the chapter two!
CC- Thanks very much! Don't worry it might take me a while to update, but I will finish. Just stick with me!
Majandra- Thank you for your enthusiasm!
Ponine- Do you mean newish in personality or in her looks? I tried to keep her same personality, but I never really have pictured her as being a supermodel. I always pictured her as pretty, but more of a normal woman's size and looks. Thank you for reviewing!
DragonGirl- I'm glad you like my plot so far. Thanks for reviewing!
BLV- This story is going to have a few twists and turns so I hope you keep liking how it goes! Thank you for reviewing!
Rommie- You sounded unsure in your review of what you thought. If you have any constructive criticism I'd like to hear it! Thank you for reviewing.
Janmmic- It's not soon, but it's here! Hope you like it.
Maddie- Thank you! I try to keep it real and interesting.
KittyKat52788- My first reviwer! Thank you and I hope you keep reading and liking the rest.
A/N/2: Well I hope I get the next chapter out sooner! Please stick with me. It might take me a while, but I'll get a chapter out! I will finish this. Thank you to everyone who reviewed! You all inspire me to keep writing. And thanks to those who read and don't review. I hope you like the story to.