Protecting the Enemy
-Chapter 11-
By: Rachel*
Rated: PG-13/R
Gender: Romance/Drama
E-mail: PeachGirlKiley@aol.com
Web Address: www.Spike-Faye-Shrine.cjb.net
+ Here's chapter 11! Sorry if Spike and Faye have been going OOC. They have a slightly more emotional relationship then they did in the TV series. However warning, this is where the story is starting to reach an R rating. You find out some of Michael's deep dark secrets… ::cough:: Also some language use… It's been awhile since I used some of these words… I guess I felt it killed the fanfic, but for some reason I feel it expresses the way Nathan was feeling at that moment… ::sighs:: -_-' Heh… The last fanfic was a Sailor Moon one, the first one too! +
+ NOTE* : For those who think Spike wouldn't cry listen to the preview for episode 5 – Ballad of Fallen Angels, Spike says he wakes up as if he were peeling an onion. Or in other words he wakes up crying! ::Hugs crying Spike to death:: +
+ Not owning a thing, just the story idea & Liam! +
"What?" Spike chocked. His eyebrows arched upwards. His heart beat quickened as images of Julia, and Faye screamed through his mind. He bent forward pressing his head down with his arms his head hanging over the edge of the bed.
Faye closed her eyes biting down on her lower lip. She couldn't push this to much further. "You said I love you." She repeated his words again.
Spike's head began to ache. Why was Faye in his mind? "It was just a dream." He growled sitting up. His eyes were as cold as ice staring straight through Faye. She looked down at Ein who whimpered in compliant. Faye stood and headed towards the door.
"I'm sorry; I shouldn't push you on that subject." Faye sighed and began to turn the door handle.
"I was dreaming about Julia… The night I told her I loved her…" Spike gripped hold of the sheets on the hospital bed tightly, and gritted down on his teeth, closing his eyes as tightly as he could. Faye stopped and turned to face him.
"Spike, you don't have to tell me about—"
"I want to!" Spike shouted in anger Vicious's face ran into his mind. Faye was taken back and backed herself into the hospital wall. "Just after I told her, we left. It wasn't long before Vicious had his dogs after us…" Spike's heart ached so much, yet it felt like the world was being lifted from his shoulders. Faye's body slid down the wall and she collided herself into a ball bringing her knees to her chest as she peered over at him. "I told her to get down. She saw someone who was going to shoot me; she got up when I told her not to and was shot." Spike's body began to shake.
"Spike." Faye whispered. He looked over at her tears were in his eyes. Faye's world was put on halt. Him, Spike Spiegel was crying? She had only known him for less then a week, but never had seemed the type to break down and cry. Faye stood and stumbled over to him locking her arms tightly around him hugging him. "I'm sorry. I should have never asked you to do this." Spike didn't move. He only listened. He didn't let the tears fall. If he did, he would fall; like a glass falling off its shelf, never to be fixed, only to be thrown away with the rest of the broken glasses.
"Don't you get it though?" Spike sighed pulling her away. "You're my redemption, my chance to fix the past. I keep you safe; I clear my mind of my dreams, my nightmares. They'll keep haunting me if I give up now." Spike smiled as Faye stood up. "I said I would protect you, all be protecting myself too."
Faye nodded. "Do you want anything to eat, or drink?" Faye needed to change the subject. She couldn't keep talking to Spike like this it wasn't like her. He was tearing away at her heart with every word that left his mouth. Spike nodded standing. His legs were still shaking and he flopped back down on his bed. Frowning he tried again managing to keep his balance. Faye smirked. "Smooth Cowboy." She mocked.
"I could turn you in any second I wanted." He growled his eyes narrowing. Faye laughed. He was back to his normal self, Faye could tell. She stuck out a hand.
"Do you need a shoulder to lean on?" Faye joked again. Ein bumped into Faye's leg and walked back over to the door scratching it in protest. Spike grimaced.
"I'll be just fine." Spike sighed once he reached the door. In the hall guardrails lined the walls Spike sighed in relief and held onto them as they walked towards the cafeteria. Neither one of them spoke a word the silence was defining. Ein scampered down the hall looking everywhere for Jet.
"Look who it is!" Liam smiled brightly coming over with a soda and half eaten sandwich in hand. Spike sighed, smirking and pushing himself away from the wall to head into the medium sized room. "So how's your back?" Liam walked up behind Spike poking him.
Spike's eye twitched and he managed to nearly trip Liam. "It's still tender…" He growled.
"Well, my arm is perfectly fine!" Liam skipped around humming to a song.
Faye frowned. "So this is what he's like on his days off?" Spike laughed a little at Faye's comment before taking a seat.
"What'd I do?" He stopped twirling and jumped over a chair to kneel down next to Faye and Spike.
Spike shook his head. "Nothing kid…" He mumbled. "So, is the food any good?"
Jet popped out from behind a door. "It's great!" Ein yelped happily and ran over to Jet sliding on the tile floor when he tried to stop.
Spike nodded. "That's good…" He trailed off and looked at Faye, who stared back at him with the same distanced look in his eyes. "We need to discuss our next move Faye. It won't take long for them to track us down. If Michael is one of the guys in the head office, we've got a good ten hours still though, at the most."
Liam's body tensed. "Yeah, it's him and Nathan." Liam mumbled his mouth full of food. Faye's nose wrinkled together and Liam just smiled in shame. "Come on Ein, I'll race ya!" He smirked. The dog heard Liam's call and ran quickly over to him as they went out in the hall. "Ready, and go!" Liam darted down the hall, Ein right on his heals.
Spike rolled his eyes looking away. "All gone to waist…" He grumbled.
Faye started laughed uncontrollably as Jet came over with a sandwich in his hand. "Is that kid okay in the head?" Jet shook his head in shock a wide smile crossing his face.
"I really can't say, but at least he's keeping the mutt happy." Spike frowned. He was acting different, but the last time he had seen Liam was when he was ten years old.
Faye nodded. "Maybe he's just trying to make up for a lost childhood, you know, like they forced him into training and everything."
Spike nodded, his eyes grew darker. "They still train kids?" Spike's fists clenched together.
Faye grimaced. "They brought in a bunch of them not to long before I ran away." Faye sighed. "They took them from their families, didn't they?"
Jet looked down at Spike and decided it was best to just walk away. Spike looked up at Faye. "They don't just take them away; they murder your family, and then try and convince you that they were involved in some horrible incident, and tell you that, that they were the good guys." Spike bent forward gripping hold of his hair. "I used to do that…" Spike whispered. Faye's eyes widened. "I killed little kids families… I didn't deserve someone's love. Julia…" Spike sat up letting his head roll back so he could stare at the ceiling. "She was punished for loving me, right?"
Faye's eyes narrowed in concern. "No… Spike, you didn't know what you were doing—"
"That's just it, damn it! I knew what I was doing!" Spike shouted as loud as he could. Faye shuttered. Spike pierced his lips together and looked down again. "You should go."
Faye didn't understand. "What?"
"I said, go!" Spike was still hunched forward as he glanced up at her. His eyes were cold, and hurt.
Faye stood and looked down at him before turning and walking towards the door. Spike sighed holding his face in his hands. "No!" Faye shouted as she reached for the door. She turned around and ran towards Spike. He looked up, his two-toned eyes widened in shock. She flew her arms out, and gripped Spike by the shoulders, running him into a near by wall. "No…" Faye sighed, her chest in haled deeply. Spike was still a little out of it, and looked at her blankly. "I don't want to go…"
Spike gritted his teeth as he looked up at her. His face was as straight as could be. Anger and frustration clearly marked in hi s eyes. "If you get killed, Faye…"
"I won't." Faye sighed, standing. She looked around before taking a seat next to Spike. "And for the slim chance that I did, if you so much as think about blaming yourself, I'll have my ghost haunting you for the rest of your life!" Faye growled glaring at him.
A small smile appeared on Spike's lips. "Ghosts can't stop me from killing myself over it though." His face was dead serious. The words stabbed into her chest, just as if he had just trusted a knife into her heart. He stood and started to walk away. Like he didn't even realize he had said that aloud.
Faye sat there. Her green eyes wide, she could hear her heart beating. "How…" Faye paused. "How can you say that?!" Faye screamed at the top of her lungs. Spike froze.
Faye watched from behind him. Spike looked straight ahead cocking his head to one side his eyes widened. "You want to know why Faye?!" Spike shouted he walked over to her pinning Faye to the wall with his arms on either side of him. "First off, I've been a killer since the age of thirteen Faye, I betrayed my best friend when I slept with his girlfriend who fell in love with me. Then I get her killed. I've ever since then had recurring dreams of every single day of my damned life, the worst part is… Now you're a part of it!" Spike was shouting his face less then an inch away. "You're in my dreams Faye, but you're replacing Julia… When Julia is shot, I see you, not her. When I tell Julia I love her…" His eyes widened when he knew what he was going to say. Faye's was in shock.
"You see me?" Faye hissed in a low tone. Spike frowned and nodded. "So what, you're afraid you're going to end up getting me killed, and of falling in love with me?!"
Liam and Jet were outside the room their faces to the window peering in. "Can you hear anything?" Jet whispered. Liam hit Jet away with his hand ignoring him.
"They're yelling and stuff. Faye looks surprised—"
"I'm not blind; I'm deft…" Jet grumbled. He picked up Ein when he heard his whimpers. They both continued to watch and listen…
Spike didn't respond at first. He looked at her; his head was starting to hurt him. "I…" He paused. "I don't know Faye. That's what is bothering me the most." Spike sighed and walked away from her towards the kitchen.
Faye's eyes widened. "You're just walking away?"
"Why can't you just go?!" Spike shouted.
"I don't have anywhere to go Spike!" Faye cried back. Tears were starting to burn into her eyes. It hurt was a painful burning that was increasing by the second.
Spike stopped again as he was about to pick up a chocolate covered strawberry. He looked back at Faye. She was hurt by his words it was eminent. Spike turned completely around to face her with his eyes closed he nodded. Faye started out slowly walking; gradually speeding into a run she pushed a chair out of the way letting it fall as she ran into Spike hugging him as tightly as she could. Spike sighed wrapping his arms back around her. "Sorry." He said flatly. Faye nodded into his body once again letting two single tears soak into the white t-shirt that Doc had put on Spike after fixing up his back.
Spike and Faye turned to the sound of Liam's cry as he slipped and fell. Spike smiled pulling away. "Let's eat." Faye muttered her cheeks flushed. The lights were dim enough that Spike didn't notice. "Spike…" Faye paused again. He looked at her. "Promise me you won't hurt yourself, for me?"
He smirked and managed a light nod. "Not a problem."
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Nathan stormed out of the room the three women trailing behind. "Clean up!" He shouted to the man down the hall. He nodded running into Nathan's lounging room. 'Why hasn't that damn kid gotten a hold of me?' Nathan's face scribbled together in rage. "It's been ten fucking hours!" He slammed his hand into the wall.
"Nathan, you need to calm down. We gave him fifteen hours." Michael walked out of the main office cracking his neck. One of the girls smiled and began to rub his shoulders. Michael sighed in content. "We'll be fine. You'll get Faye; Liam gets his revenge for his sister's death. We're all happy." Michael sighed relaxing as the girl massaged the knots from his shoulders and back. Nathan cursed under his breath and jogged down the hallway. "Take a dip in the pool, it'll all be okay!" He smirked as the other two girls walked over to him. "So ladies… Are you busy tonight?" They all giggled and he smiled. "Why don't we go into my office?" They all smiled and nodded their heads agreeably. 'We'll all be happy when Faye's dead…' He smirked as they headed towards the elevators.
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In other words I think chapters 12-? Will maintain an R rating… Mainly for description of some things…::cough:: That and Michael isn't a nice person… Nathan is probably the sanest of them all… Read + Review! Chapter 12 had about a page to go, and then it will be posted too! Keep a look out! READ+REVIEW!!!