DREAMS FADE 5
Author's Notes: You never know how this story is going to go. Right? Anyway I'm a huge fan of cliffhangers, and startling plot twist. I mean first there were Helga and Harold together, now there's a possibility of Helga and Arnold. But fear not loyal readers; there still a bunch of more twists and turns just around the corner. I mean who knows whom Helga's going to end with. I mean if you really want the answer, then stick around. There's much more to come. As for the ones that hated this story, then I'm sorry that you feel that way. However, I'm no conformist, and I refuse to conform to other people's expectations. I write stories that I personally want to read, and like to create fiction that isn't your typical fan fiction. So if you hate it, oh well. As for the ones that loved it, well I aim to please. However haters of this story, I will urge you to stick around. You never know, you might eventually like it in the end. Or not. This is a song fic too, well sort of. The song belongs to Stained, and it's called "Outside". Enjoy. The song will be in all caps.
Disclaimer: Nickelodeon is so lucky that they own every single character on Hey Arnold. They should be glad to hear me say that I'm just borrowing these characters for a little bit. They should be thankful that I claim no ownership, but I will say this one thing before I go. I'm going to twist, manipulate, and warped their characters and their little bitty minds to tiny bits of shrapnel. Therefore I still get the last laugh. Hahahahahahahaha.
Harold's POV
I sat on the plane, refusing to shed any tears for the woman that I was in love with. I refused to feel like I had done anything wrong, even though I knew that in all honesty I did. Despite the fact that I openly lied to her, my emotions for her were no lie. I did love her, perhaps even more than I loved myself. To realize that she might still carry a torch for Arnold tore up my insides more than I would have ever realized.
The thing that really eats me up was the fact that she didn't acknowledge my true feelings for her. So what if Arnold wrote love letters to her years ago? Where was Arnold when Helga needed her the most? Where was Arnold when she needed a real man by her side? Who was the man that finally stepped up to the plate, and truly declared their love for her? It damn sure wasn't Arnold. It's true that I used Arnold's words, but my feelings were in conjunction to what Arnold was trying to say. However, it was me that had the balls to stand in her face and admit it.
I didn't reveal my feelings for her in some cheesy love letter. I walked to her front door bearing presents for her birthday, and I stood there waiting for either acceptance or rejection from her. I was so glad that she accepted me at that time. However, where was her acceptance of me now? I wasn't a perfect man, and I did acknowledge the fact that I had lied to her. Could it be that I had hurt her, almost as much as she had hurt me? Then to make matters worse, I had kissed that woman earlier. Why had Helga been there? Was she trying to admit that she was still in love with me, regardless of any lies that I may have told?
Harold sat in his seat, and reached for his C.D. player. He didn't want to think about Helga anymore. He just wanted to forget that he had ever declared his love to her. He wanted to forget about the nagging pain in his heart. He wanted to let go of the memories in his head, but they kept coming back with a vengeance. So he lifted his earphones to his ears, and pressed the eleventh track on the C.D. The song was called "Outside", and that was one of his favorite songs. So he listened to the song in hopes of forgetting about Helga. He had hoped, but he was about to find out that hoping wasn't going to make him forget his pain. However, he pressed the play button. It was a futile attempt, but he had to try to forget her.
AND YOU BRING ME TO MY KNEES AGAIN ALL THE TIMES WHEN I COULD BEG YOU PLEASE IN VAIN ALL THE TIMES THAT I FELT INSECURE FOR YOU AND I LEAVE MY BURDENS AT THE DOOR
He had wanted to turn around and go back home, but what would that prove. She had already made up her mind, and if she didn't before then she had certainly done so by now. She would never take him back now, not after all that he had done. He had screwed up one of the best things in his life, the only thing that was good. He hated himself for that, but most of all he hated Helga.
Why couldn't she have been just a little understanding? Why did she have to blow everything out of proportion? Why was she crying over something that has never happened? It's true that I never gave Helga the letter from Arnold, but why would I? I had the same feelings for Helga, the same feelings that Arnold had. However, we all know that Helga would have never given me a chance, if Arnold were still in the picture as well.
I have always known about Helga's feelings towards Arnold, so I lied and cheated to get what I wanted. I had been wrong to do the things that I've done, but so was Helga. She should've been more forgiving. She shouldn't have cried for something that no longer existed. Arnold was gone, and Helga would blame me forever for his leaving. Arnold had wanted Helga to go with him, but because of me she didn't. She was angry because she didn't get to make that decision, and rightfully so. However don't expect me to understand why she would be so upset, unless she still had feelings for Arnold. That was the real reason why I had left. I couldn't bare the thought that the only woman I loved still had a space reserved in her heart for him. She was supposed to love me, but in all respects she didn't. Not really. I was just the man to help her get over someone else. That's all I meant to Helga, and I hated her for that. I hated her with a passion at that moment.
BUT I'M ON THE OUTSIDE I'M LOOKING IN I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE YOUR TRUE COLORS CAUSE INSIDE YOU'RE UGLY YOU'RE UGLY LIKE ME I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE TO THE REAL YOU
Helga hated driving. Normally she would let Harold drive the car, but she had to see him again. She couldn't let him leave thinking that she had still wanted Arnold. She had wanted nothing but him in her life, and the thought of losing him was almost unbearable. For the past few years, she had wanted a life with Harold. For better or worse. What kind of relationship hasn't had their share of lies and deceit? So what if he did lie, she still wanted him in her life.
Why did he run off? Wasn't their love strong enough to survive through this crisis? She used to think that it was, but now she wasn't so sure anymore. He kissed another woman, and disregarded her prescience. It seemed like he was declaring that he no longer needed or wanted her. She could actually feel her heart breaking at that precise moment. He should have came running back into her arms, but he chose to walk away. So she went home, with her heart in her hands, and that knowledge confirmed that Harold didn't really love her like he claim he did. What happened to his promise to love her forever? What happened to all the promises and oaths that he had made? Oh that's right. They were all lies, or were they. Helga knew that she might never find the answers to those questions, and that knowledge almost was too much for her to take. She wanted to get her mind off of Harold, so she turned on the radio. She switched from station to station, trying to find something to listen to. When that proved futile, she pushed in her Stained tape that was sticking out of the tape deck. She pressed her favorite song and listened, not knowing that this was the exact same song that Harold was listening to as well.
ALL THE TIMES THAT I FELT LIKE THIS WON'T END IT'S FOR YOU AND I TASTE WHAT I COULD NEVER HAVE IT WAS FROM YOU ALL THE TIMES THAT I'VE CRIED, MY INTENTIONS, WERE FULL OF PRIDE BUT I WASTE MORE TIME THAN ANYONE
She hated that Harold acted like nothing had even happened. He treated her like trash, and that really bothered her. It almost seemed like he had been playing with her emotions all this time. It seemed to her that he wanted to see how far he could string her along like a puppet. She hated him for that. She hated that he didn't care that he had hurt her this much. She hated the fact that he was the one that walked away, without a good reason why. So what if he told a lie? At least I made the effort to forgive and forget. What did he do? He kissed another, and looked her straight in the eye and declared that the relationship was over. She hated him for that.
BUT I'M ON THE OUTSIDE I'M LOOKING IN I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE YOUR TRUE COLORS CAUSE INSIDE YOU'RE UGLY YOU'RE UGLY LIKE ME I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE TO THE REAL YOU
Helga drove home, and the tears began to fall. Maybe she had made one of the biggest mistakes of her life. Maybe she should have fought harder to keep him. She had lost the love of her life, and now it was too late.
Harold flew home, and the tears seemed like they would never stop. Maybe he was wrong to kiss that woman, when he should've been holding Helga in his arms. Maybe he should have fought harder to keep her. It would seem like he had lost the love of his life, and it was his entire fault.
ALL THE TIMES THAT I'VE CRIED ALL THIS WASTED IT'S ALL INSIDE AND I FEEL ALL THIS PAIN STUFFED IT DOWN IT'S BACK AGAIN AND I LIE HERE IN BED ALL ALONE, I CAN'T MEND BUT I FEEL TOMORROW WILL BE O.K.
Tears fell, and memories returned. Two hearts were slowly breaking, and there was no room for forgiveness in either one. Time was all the other had, and soon they would find out that their time alone would be spent thinking about one another. Helga hated herself for thinking of Harold, and Harold hated himself for thinking of Helga. They hated themselves for loving the other, but now it was time to let go of that love once and for all
BUT I'M ON THE OUTSIDE I'M LOOKING IN I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE YOUR TRUE COLORS CAUSE INSIDE YOU'RE UGLY YOU'RE UGLY LIKE ME I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE TO THE REAL YOU
Helga pressed the tape deck, and took out the Stained tape. Once she was at a red light, she began pulling the tape out of its shell. She rolled down the window, and threw the tape out the window. It was time to forget. It was time to move on with her life, and forget about Harold, regardless of the fact that she was head over heels in love with him. It was Harold alone that she loved, but it was obvious that he didn't love her back.
Harold turned off his C.D. and removed the Stained CD. He placed the CD on the floor, and crushed it beneath his foot. He leaned down to pick up the tiny pieces, and then threw them in the trashcan. It was time to move on. He had a new life waiting for him in Dallas. It's just too bad that he wasn't going to be spending it with Helga. He wanted to just forget about Helga. It was just a little too hard, but he was determined to forget. He was going to forget that he was madly in love with her, and had been since they were kids. It's just a shame that Arnold would always occupy that space in her heart, the place where he belonged.
That's it. Man I was feeling so sad after I finished writing this story. Will these two confused lovers ever get anything right? Is it really over? What's going to happen when Helga runs into Arnold? Join us next time on When the Dream fades.
Author's Notes: You never know how this story is going to go. Right? Anyway I'm a huge fan of cliffhangers, and startling plot twist. I mean first there were Helga and Harold together, now there's a possibility of Helga and Arnold. But fear not loyal readers; there still a bunch of more twists and turns just around the corner. I mean who knows whom Helga's going to end with. I mean if you really want the answer, then stick around. There's much more to come. As for the ones that hated this story, then I'm sorry that you feel that way. However, I'm no conformist, and I refuse to conform to other people's expectations. I write stories that I personally want to read, and like to create fiction that isn't your typical fan fiction. So if you hate it, oh well. As for the ones that loved it, well I aim to please. However haters of this story, I will urge you to stick around. You never know, you might eventually like it in the end. Or not. This is a song fic too, well sort of. The song belongs to Stained, and it's called "Outside". Enjoy. The song will be in all caps.
Disclaimer: Nickelodeon is so lucky that they own every single character on Hey Arnold. They should be glad to hear me say that I'm just borrowing these characters for a little bit. They should be thankful that I claim no ownership, but I will say this one thing before I go. I'm going to twist, manipulate, and warped their characters and their little bitty minds to tiny bits of shrapnel. Therefore I still get the last laugh. Hahahahahahahaha.
Harold's POV
I sat on the plane, refusing to shed any tears for the woman that I was in love with. I refused to feel like I had done anything wrong, even though I knew that in all honesty I did. Despite the fact that I openly lied to her, my emotions for her were no lie. I did love her, perhaps even more than I loved myself. To realize that she might still carry a torch for Arnold tore up my insides more than I would have ever realized.
The thing that really eats me up was the fact that she didn't acknowledge my true feelings for her. So what if Arnold wrote love letters to her years ago? Where was Arnold when Helga needed her the most? Where was Arnold when she needed a real man by her side? Who was the man that finally stepped up to the plate, and truly declared their love for her? It damn sure wasn't Arnold. It's true that I used Arnold's words, but my feelings were in conjunction to what Arnold was trying to say. However, it was me that had the balls to stand in her face and admit it.
I didn't reveal my feelings for her in some cheesy love letter. I walked to her front door bearing presents for her birthday, and I stood there waiting for either acceptance or rejection from her. I was so glad that she accepted me at that time. However, where was her acceptance of me now? I wasn't a perfect man, and I did acknowledge the fact that I had lied to her. Could it be that I had hurt her, almost as much as she had hurt me? Then to make matters worse, I had kissed that woman earlier. Why had Helga been there? Was she trying to admit that she was still in love with me, regardless of any lies that I may have told?
Harold sat in his seat, and reached for his C.D. player. He didn't want to think about Helga anymore. He just wanted to forget that he had ever declared his love to her. He wanted to forget about the nagging pain in his heart. He wanted to let go of the memories in his head, but they kept coming back with a vengeance. So he lifted his earphones to his ears, and pressed the eleventh track on the C.D. The song was called "Outside", and that was one of his favorite songs. So he listened to the song in hopes of forgetting about Helga. He had hoped, but he was about to find out that hoping wasn't going to make him forget his pain. However, he pressed the play button. It was a futile attempt, but he had to try to forget her.
AND YOU BRING ME TO MY KNEES AGAIN ALL THE TIMES WHEN I COULD BEG YOU PLEASE IN VAIN ALL THE TIMES THAT I FELT INSECURE FOR YOU AND I LEAVE MY BURDENS AT THE DOOR
He had wanted to turn around and go back home, but what would that prove. She had already made up her mind, and if she didn't before then she had certainly done so by now. She would never take him back now, not after all that he had done. He had screwed up one of the best things in his life, the only thing that was good. He hated himself for that, but most of all he hated Helga.
Why couldn't she have been just a little understanding? Why did she have to blow everything out of proportion? Why was she crying over something that has never happened? It's true that I never gave Helga the letter from Arnold, but why would I? I had the same feelings for Helga, the same feelings that Arnold had. However, we all know that Helga would have never given me a chance, if Arnold were still in the picture as well.
I have always known about Helga's feelings towards Arnold, so I lied and cheated to get what I wanted. I had been wrong to do the things that I've done, but so was Helga. She should've been more forgiving. She shouldn't have cried for something that no longer existed. Arnold was gone, and Helga would blame me forever for his leaving. Arnold had wanted Helga to go with him, but because of me she didn't. She was angry because she didn't get to make that decision, and rightfully so. However don't expect me to understand why she would be so upset, unless she still had feelings for Arnold. That was the real reason why I had left. I couldn't bare the thought that the only woman I loved still had a space reserved in her heart for him. She was supposed to love me, but in all respects she didn't. Not really. I was just the man to help her get over someone else. That's all I meant to Helga, and I hated her for that. I hated her with a passion at that moment.
BUT I'M ON THE OUTSIDE I'M LOOKING IN I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE YOUR TRUE COLORS CAUSE INSIDE YOU'RE UGLY YOU'RE UGLY LIKE ME I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE TO THE REAL YOU
Helga hated driving. Normally she would let Harold drive the car, but she had to see him again. She couldn't let him leave thinking that she had still wanted Arnold. She had wanted nothing but him in her life, and the thought of losing him was almost unbearable. For the past few years, she had wanted a life with Harold. For better or worse. What kind of relationship hasn't had their share of lies and deceit? So what if he did lie, she still wanted him in her life.
Why did he run off? Wasn't their love strong enough to survive through this crisis? She used to think that it was, but now she wasn't so sure anymore. He kissed another woman, and disregarded her prescience. It seemed like he was declaring that he no longer needed or wanted her. She could actually feel her heart breaking at that precise moment. He should have came running back into her arms, but he chose to walk away. So she went home, with her heart in her hands, and that knowledge confirmed that Harold didn't really love her like he claim he did. What happened to his promise to love her forever? What happened to all the promises and oaths that he had made? Oh that's right. They were all lies, or were they. Helga knew that she might never find the answers to those questions, and that knowledge almost was too much for her to take. She wanted to get her mind off of Harold, so she turned on the radio. She switched from station to station, trying to find something to listen to. When that proved futile, she pushed in her Stained tape that was sticking out of the tape deck. She pressed her favorite song and listened, not knowing that this was the exact same song that Harold was listening to as well.
ALL THE TIMES THAT I FELT LIKE THIS WON'T END IT'S FOR YOU AND I TASTE WHAT I COULD NEVER HAVE IT WAS FROM YOU ALL THE TIMES THAT I'VE CRIED, MY INTENTIONS, WERE FULL OF PRIDE BUT I WASTE MORE TIME THAN ANYONE
She hated that Harold acted like nothing had even happened. He treated her like trash, and that really bothered her. It almost seemed like he had been playing with her emotions all this time. It seemed to her that he wanted to see how far he could string her along like a puppet. She hated him for that. She hated that he didn't care that he had hurt her this much. She hated the fact that he was the one that walked away, without a good reason why. So what if he told a lie? At least I made the effort to forgive and forget. What did he do? He kissed another, and looked her straight in the eye and declared that the relationship was over. She hated him for that.
BUT I'M ON THE OUTSIDE I'M LOOKING IN I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE YOUR TRUE COLORS CAUSE INSIDE YOU'RE UGLY YOU'RE UGLY LIKE ME I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE TO THE REAL YOU
Helga drove home, and the tears began to fall. Maybe she had made one of the biggest mistakes of her life. Maybe she should have fought harder to keep him. She had lost the love of her life, and now it was too late.
Harold flew home, and the tears seemed like they would never stop. Maybe he was wrong to kiss that woman, when he should've been holding Helga in his arms. Maybe he should have fought harder to keep her. It would seem like he had lost the love of his life, and it was his entire fault.
ALL THE TIMES THAT I'VE CRIED ALL THIS WASTED IT'S ALL INSIDE AND I FEEL ALL THIS PAIN STUFFED IT DOWN IT'S BACK AGAIN AND I LIE HERE IN BED ALL ALONE, I CAN'T MEND BUT I FEEL TOMORROW WILL BE O.K.
Tears fell, and memories returned. Two hearts were slowly breaking, and there was no room for forgiveness in either one. Time was all the other had, and soon they would find out that their time alone would be spent thinking about one another. Helga hated herself for thinking of Harold, and Harold hated himself for thinking of Helga. They hated themselves for loving the other, but now it was time to let go of that love once and for all
BUT I'M ON THE OUTSIDE I'M LOOKING IN I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE YOUR TRUE COLORS CAUSE INSIDE YOU'RE UGLY YOU'RE UGLY LIKE ME I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU SEE TO THE REAL YOU
Helga pressed the tape deck, and took out the Stained tape. Once she was at a red light, she began pulling the tape out of its shell. She rolled down the window, and threw the tape out the window. It was time to forget. It was time to move on with her life, and forget about Harold, regardless of the fact that she was head over heels in love with him. It was Harold alone that she loved, but it was obvious that he didn't love her back.
Harold turned off his C.D. and removed the Stained CD. He placed the CD on the floor, and crushed it beneath his foot. He leaned down to pick up the tiny pieces, and then threw them in the trashcan. It was time to move on. He had a new life waiting for him in Dallas. It's just too bad that he wasn't going to be spending it with Helga. He wanted to just forget about Helga. It was just a little too hard, but he was determined to forget. He was going to forget that he was madly in love with her, and had been since they were kids. It's just a shame that Arnold would always occupy that space in her heart, the place where he belonged.
That's it. Man I was feeling so sad after I finished writing this story. Will these two confused lovers ever get anything right? Is it really over? What's going to happen when Helga runs into Arnold? Join us next time on When the Dream fades.