A/N: Well since I got a lot of nice reviews I wondered how I could continue
this. Then I thought what if I added Syaoran's feelings?
I would like to thank every one who gave me their support.
Tomoyo-chan: Thank you sooooo much for your words of encouragement!! Not only did you put nice reviews on both of my CCS stories, but you also put me on your favorites list! You are so nice!!
Jeremy: Thank you soooo much for calling my story awesome!!!
anime-demon-girl: Thanks for calling my fic sweet! I spent a lot of time on it trying to get it like that!
White Reflections: You are one of the few people who actually love one of my fics!! Thank you sooo much!
Anyway on with the fic!! ____________________________________________________
Pressure. That's always been on me.
My mother's expectations have always occupied my mind. I have often wondered if I was making good progress on something, if I had done enough to make her proud, and if she would accept me.
I know she just wants the best for me, but I can't help but wonder if she was trying to make me just like father.
Because of the heavy responsibilities I had, it led to being jealous of Melin.
Melin in my opinion has an incredible opportunity, but just won't take it. Since she was born without magic, she can be her own person and decide her own destiny, unlike me whose destiny was decided by a tradition.
I have always admired Melin for her incredible determination to prove herself. I am amazed at the things she's able to do even without magical powers.
That night when she had mastered a complex martial arts move, I was shocked to put it lightly. She had gone something incredible without the aid of magic! It was then that she had earned my respect which is why I called her Melin-chan.
When her bird flew away, I felt sorry for Melin. I have never told anyone this, but her smile always brightened my day! When I went to get her bird I thought I did it out of love for Melin I now understand that I did it out of respect for Melin.
When I was with Melin I felt something that was completely different than what I had felt before. That's why when we were engaged I truly thought I loved Melin.
Then that moment came. The Clow Book had been opened. It's what I had been training for my whole life. I was to leave with Wei and go to Tomoeda, Japan. Melin begged me not to go, I told her I had my duties to attend to but, I promised her that I would be back as soon as possible.
When I unpacked all of my things in my new apartment, I realized something. I was on my own: no sisters, no mother, and no family. For the first time in my life I could be me, not dad, me, Syaoran Li. That's why I barley ever contacted my family because they were just a reminder of what my life was like back in Hong Kong. Plus I had also met Sakura Kinomoto.
When I first met Sakura Kinomoto at first I thought that she was just part of the legend that was to help me capture the cards and nothing more, but Sakura was much more than that. She was the one who taught me how to be me. She was the one who taught me what love really felt like. It was because of Sakura that I realized the reason why I felt differently with Melin is because she was my first friend.
When Melin came to live with me of course I was happy to see her again, it's just that she was a reminder of life in Hong Kong. To be honest I had completely forgotten about our engagement.
A few months passed and I think Melin noticed it to; I was in love with Sakura. Telling Melin I didn't love her was one of the hardest things I had to do in my whole life. I know I must've broken her heart that day, but I couldn't marry her,it would be like living a lie. Besides, she doesn't deserve someone pretending to love her; she deserves so much more than that.
I just hope she can forgive me one day and realize that I'll always be there for her..but as a friend not a lover.
A/N: Well what do you think? Is it as good as the first one? Better? Reviews will be greatly appreciated.
Tomoyo-chan: Thank you sooooo much for your words of encouragement!! Not only did you put nice reviews on both of my CCS stories, but you also put me on your favorites list! You are so nice!!
Jeremy: Thank you soooo much for calling my story awesome!!!
anime-demon-girl: Thanks for calling my fic sweet! I spent a lot of time on it trying to get it like that!
White Reflections: You are one of the few people who actually love one of my fics!! Thank you sooo much!
Anyway on with the fic!! ____________________________________________________
Pressure. That's always been on me.
My mother's expectations have always occupied my mind. I have often wondered if I was making good progress on something, if I had done enough to make her proud, and if she would accept me.
I know she just wants the best for me, but I can't help but wonder if she was trying to make me just like father.
Because of the heavy responsibilities I had, it led to being jealous of Melin.
Melin in my opinion has an incredible opportunity, but just won't take it. Since she was born without magic, she can be her own person and decide her own destiny, unlike me whose destiny was decided by a tradition.
I have always admired Melin for her incredible determination to prove herself. I am amazed at the things she's able to do even without magical powers.
That night when she had mastered a complex martial arts move, I was shocked to put it lightly. She had gone something incredible without the aid of magic! It was then that she had earned my respect which is why I called her Melin-chan.
When her bird flew away, I felt sorry for Melin. I have never told anyone this, but her smile always brightened my day! When I went to get her bird I thought I did it out of love for Melin I now understand that I did it out of respect for Melin.
When I was with Melin I felt something that was completely different than what I had felt before. That's why when we were engaged I truly thought I loved Melin.
Then that moment came. The Clow Book had been opened. It's what I had been training for my whole life. I was to leave with Wei and go to Tomoeda, Japan. Melin begged me not to go, I told her I had my duties to attend to but, I promised her that I would be back as soon as possible.
When I unpacked all of my things in my new apartment, I realized something. I was on my own: no sisters, no mother, and no family. For the first time in my life I could be me, not dad, me, Syaoran Li. That's why I barley ever contacted my family because they were just a reminder of what my life was like back in Hong Kong. Plus I had also met Sakura Kinomoto.
When I first met Sakura Kinomoto at first I thought that she was just part of the legend that was to help me capture the cards and nothing more, but Sakura was much more than that. She was the one who taught me how to be me. She was the one who taught me what love really felt like. It was because of Sakura that I realized the reason why I felt differently with Melin is because she was my first friend.
When Melin came to live with me of course I was happy to see her again, it's just that she was a reminder of life in Hong Kong. To be honest I had completely forgotten about our engagement.
A few months passed and I think Melin noticed it to; I was in love with Sakura. Telling Melin I didn't love her was one of the hardest things I had to do in my whole life. I know I must've broken her heart that day, but I couldn't marry her,it would be like living a lie. Besides, she doesn't deserve someone pretending to love her; she deserves so much more than that.
I just hope she can forgive me one day and realize that I'll always be there for her..but as a friend not a lover.
A/N: Well what do you think? Is it as good as the first one? Better? Reviews will be greatly appreciated.