Triangular: 12

Author's notes: Even though I haven't posted chap 11, I'm already doing this since I'm absolutely BORED. I haven't read your reviews yet, and it seems I'm going away tomorrow, April 4, 2003 Friday.

Here's the twelfth interval of T3, or Triangular.

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He didn't look up.

All he was doing was running away from something, not even knowing where the hell his feet were taking him. He didn't even bother to look around to see where he is – for his heart and mind were blinded by the tears that were spilling down his glimmering, lavender eyes. For the feeling of rejection and loss of hope had driven him to do something as ridiculous like this, nevertheless, he kept on going and going until his heart had decided that he should stop.

He had thrown the front door open, rushing inside while slamming it shut. His sister's wide, chocolate eyes peered at him with much concern, love and worry as he ran upstairs and into the consolation of his bedroom.

"Nii-chan?" Shirou Yuzuriha murmured to herself, gazing after her elder brother. No reply came – only another door being slammed shut was the noise that was heard.

Trusting her sisterly instincts, even if she was younger, Yuzuriha ran after her brother with such dexterity that the tea tray she was holding was still intact when she arrived in front of his bedroom door.

*

Once he entered his forsaken bedroom, he slammed the door shut without even a care and threw his bag away from him. Without even taking off his black school coat, he plopped himself on his bed and shed his precious tears away. He was alone now – the feeling of loneliness and contentment seeped through him like his own blood. But the feeling of sadness and regret ran past through it. His heart felt no better – it was as if it really DID break into a million, fragile pieces – it was a puzzle that can never be put together.

He thought he was safe now – inside the solitude of his bedroom, but he was not wrong but not completely right, either.

"Nii-chan?" Yuzuriha said on the other side of the door, making the tinkling of the metal tray and china audible.

Shirou Kamui didn't respond.

"Nii-chan?" His younger sister asked once more, begging for her brother's timely answer. But still, there was none. "Would you like some tea? How about some Pocky?"

Kamui still didn't answer.

"Nii-chan, is anything wrong?" She queried, now her voice full of worry and concern. And Kamui, knowing Yuzuriha, could break down any minute and cry in front of his bedroom door.

To prevent that from happening, the older sibling decided to reply to his sister's questions.

"Nothing's wrong, Yuzu-chan." Kamui tried to answer without his voice cracking, hoping that his little white lie would throw Yuzuriha off the track. "I was just a little sick…my eyes hurt from all those stage lights…they're a little bloodshot. Don't worry."

"Honto ni?" Yuzuriha's worried voice turned into a cracking one. "A-are you sure you don't need anything?"

"Aa." The doorbell rang before Kamui could continue. "Get that for me, will you?"

Yuzuriha suddenly perked up, stopped her sniffling, completely thrown off track. "Sure!"

*

He tapped his feet, almost as if impatiently, as he waited for the door to be opened. Only the lamps on either side of the maple door, the streetlights and the illumination from the windows served as light as he stood outside the household, the cold autumn breeze wafting past him, blowing his white trench coat away.

"Konbanwa!" came a cheerful voice from the inner structure of the house once the maple door was opened. Sumeragi Subaru looked down at Shirou Yuzuriha, inspecting the younger girl with his emerald eyes. He returned the greeting a while later.

"How may I help you?" Yuzuriha asked, wiping away a few stray tears from her chocolate eyes.

"Is your brother around?" Subaru asked politely, keeping his emerald eyes locked on Kamui's younger sister.

"Kamui-nii-chan?" Yuzuriha brightened up at the mention of her brother. "Hai! I'll go get him right now! You are…?" she left off, looking up at the teacher with huge, innocent brown eyes. Subaru smiled before replying.

"Subaru. Sumeragi Subaru."

"Hai!"

As Yuzuriha led him to the living room, he looked around his student's home. It was wonderfully furnished and decorated, looking incredibly cozy and welcoming.

"I'll go get him, so, Sumeragi-san, please make yourself at home." Yuzuriha bowed out of respect, leaving once a wolf-like puppy ran to its owner. She left and rushed upstairs, and as Subaru waited for Kamui to get down, he could hear muffled voices and little knocks on a wooden door.

"Onii-chan, someone's here to see you!"

"Who, exactly? If it's Kotori tell her that I'm not feeling well. If it's Sorata tell him that I'll talk to him tomorrow and if it's Fuuma tell him to shove off."

"Someone named Sumeragi Subaru – your teacher, I think."

Subaru heard a door open.

"Tell him I'm not feeling well."

"But – onii-chan? Your eyes are REALLY bloodshot –

"Just tell him, alright?"

Yuzuriha did as she was told, Inuki-chan following her every step. As she arrived at the living room, she cuddled Inuki in her arms and faced the math teacher.

"I'm so sorry, but Kamui-nii-chan's not feeling very well. I hope you understand." Yuzuriha tried to reason with Subaru, but as a gentleman Subaru accepted Kamui's excuse.

"It's all right. Tell him I'll see him tomorrow." Subaru mentioned, walking towards the door as Yuzuriha followed him.

"I'll tell him, Sumeragi-san!" Yuzuriha confirmed, bowing as Subaru walked to his car. She waved as she closed the door, rushing upstairs to tell her brother the message.

* kamui's POV *

I didn't bother to turn my bedroom light off. I left the window open, welcoming the cold, autumn air to brush past against my skin. My eyes were still completely bloodshot – for all night long I've been shedding tears of utmost rejection until I finally succeeded in crying my pitiful self to sleep.

How could I have been so stupid? To dream so high about him caring for me – not just a student, but to care for me because my existence meant something to him…I have never realized how stupid this was until I felt my heart shatter. It was utterly moronic to wish that somehow he'd see me in a whole new light…for him to appreciate every single bit of who and what I am, for him to develop strong emotion just because I'm there.

It was completely and utterly stupid.

If you would really think about it, no one would fall for some stupid moronic idiot like me. I'm nothing compared to who he really loves, who he really cares for, who he really admires for all he is. I have to face it – no chance in hell or heaven that he would ever love someone like me. He's more handsome than me; more intelligent; more perfect for Sumeragi-san. I was just nothing more than a speck of dirt to him.

And I'm sure…that…all the things he had done for me are just actions of kindness…that's all.

But still…how stupid can I be…

…to fall in love with my teacher?

the next day

Kasumi Karen knocked on her foster son's door. He was supposed to wake up right this very minute, or else he'd be running late, forget where his classroom was and run all the way across CLAMP Gakuen.

"Kamui! Kamui!" Karen knocked continuously on the mahogany door. "Kamui, time for school!"

The rose-haired office lady fixed up her tie as she thanked Yuzuriha for the piece of French toast she just handed her foster mother. She moaned and laughed before continuing to wake up the amethyst-eyed boy.

"Kamui, let's go! Yuzuriha's all ready!" Karen tried to persuade the teen to wake up and get dressed for school.

"I'm not feeling well." Shirou Kamui replied on the other side of the door, turning around to face the bedroom windows.

"KAMUI-NII-CHAAAAAN!!!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!!" Yuzuriha's voice suddenly screamed, hopping beside her foster mother while cradling Inuki in her arms. "If you don't get ready for school I'll let Inuki topple you over EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Kamui, feeling that this torture of convincing him to get ready would take a VERY long time, considered that it would be best to get up and make them shut up. But deep in his heart and mind, he'd rather stay at home and do nothing more but to let his heartbreak sink in…

Why do I have to fall in love with you…Sumeragi Subaru?

Author's notes: Chap all finished! Won't update until 130! Please R&R! Thanks!