Triangular: 25
Author's notes: A. Pikachu is still happy. She's still eating Pocky.
Anyway…
WOW! This has got to be the LONGEST fic I have ever written!!! Really! I've never written something this LONG! Wooooow….
I just felt really inspired (maybe because I just ate one pack of Pocky…^-^) and I wanted to write it. Especially because I heard a song that fits Subaru REALLY well in the ficcie! Heeheehee.
Anyway, I'll go now and write.
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'Now I'm sittin' here Thinkin' 'bout youAnd the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't want to let you know
That it's killin' me
I know you got another life
You got to concentrate baby
I can't think no more Since you went away
I don't really feel like talkin'
No one here to love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do a thing without you
It's been too long and
I'm lost without you.
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin' you
I'm wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same
And who's been with you
Is your heart still mine?
I want to cry sometimes
I miss you'
- 'Miss You' by Aaliyah
Pikachu's comment: Now that fit him really well, ne?
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His head hanging down, ebony hair covering his eyes, Shirou Kamui looked morosely at the black satin sheets covering his bruised body.
"What happened to you?" a seraphic voice entered his mind, making the empty-feeling angel looking at where the voice came from. Sumeragi Subaru still had his hands clasping Kamui's bandaged one, a worried look etched on his face.
"Nothing. I just…injured myself." Kamui tried to cover up, smiling an empty smile at the teacher. But Subaru was no fool.
"You couldn't have injured yourself like this. You're lying to me, Kamui." Subaru said sternly, still looking at his student.
"Nothing happened to me." Kamui muttered, silently shaking his hand off the Sumeragi's warm grasp. Emerald eyes widened as the angelic student tried to stand up, only making his wounds bleed harder.
"Stop it Kamui – you're getting yourself hurt." Subaru said, gripping Kamui's bandaged shoulder and gently forcing him to lie down. Kamui, being the stubborn teen he is, shook off Subaru's hand and stood up, heaving his body off the satin divan. He paid no attention to the red mass on his bandages that started to spread, because to him it was no pain compared to what he had gone through.
Subaru, meanwhile, stood up from his chair and faced Kamui.
"Something happened to you and you're not telling me." Subaru mentioned, blocking the teen's way. "I'm not stupid, Kamui."
The purple-eyed boy disregarded the words. He bowed before the Sumeragi, a creepy but empty smile pasted on his supple lips.
"Arigato gozaimasu, Sumeragi-sensei, for taking care of my wounds. But for your sake I will go now and trouble you no more." Kamui said, standing up to his full height. He grabbed his shirt, clean and pressed, and slipped it over himself, buttoning the shirt with one hand as he took his black tie from the table top. Slipping the black material around his collar, he fiddled with it for a while until it was neatly tied.
"You're not going anywhere until you tell me what's going on." Subaru commanded, still looking at him with a stern face.
"I'm afraid I have to."
"Kamui, what's going on with you?!"
"Nothing is going on with me, Sumeragi-sensei."
Kamui said no words, but he was stopped when he was halfway to the door.
"Kamui." Subaru began, his footsteps nearing the amethyst-eyed student. "You can tell me what happened."
He was already fed up with everything. Here he was, in a bedroom in the Sumeragi household, bandages wrapped around him. Subaru was just a few steps away.
But he WAS fed up with everything. He had enough of being played with. Of being toyed with. Of being a puppet controlled by a heartless master, a doll passed on to everyone. Out of his mind, Kamui turned around, tears stinging his wonderful purple eyes.
"I can't tell you what happened." He said, his eyes full of tears. "I can't tell you. Or maybe you can tell me. Maybe you have something to do with it."
Emerald eyes widened in surprise, not expecting the question that he just heard. "Something to do with what?"
"Oh yeah, right." Kamui said bitterly, looking sideways. "I forgot. You haven't been played with by numerous bastards."
"Kamui –
"You don't know how painful it is. Hah, of course you don't know – everybody loves you. You're not alone. You have your sister, Sakurazuka-san, those fans of yours at school –
"Sakurazuka-san?!" Subaru was definitely surprised. Did Kamui know what happened between him and Seishirou? "What do you know –
"What I know?" Kamui asked, his voice full of despair, hate and anger. "What I know? Well what do you know? Maybe you're a part of this scheme as well. You don't know how hard it is to know that the single person you loved didn't love you. That person forgot about you. You don't know how painful it is for me to see the single person that served as my hope to gradually forget my existence and love someone else, right before your eyes!"
Subaru was enraged. How dare Kamui say that to him? Kamui didn't know how much suffering he went through just because of him and Fuuma!
"I don't know?!" Subaru retorted, standing firmly behind Kamui. "You don't know how much suffering I went through just because of you! You don't know how hard it is to see you walk around campus, a smile on your face, with Monou! I've been telling myself that that isn't true, that you still love me, not Fuuma. I've been wishing to many times that I wish I was the one you were strolling around with, I was the one that put that smile on your face! And you definitely don't know how painful it is to see you kissing him!"
Kamui's eyes widened as well. Subaru saw them? "I know, Sumeragi-sensei! I know! And what did you think I felt when you forgot about me? When you abandoned me? When you left me alone waiting in that dark auditorium?! Did you think I was happy when I saw you strolling around with Sakurazuka-san?! Did you think I was jumping in joy when I realized that you made me believe I have a chance but you brought me down?! What did you think?"
Subaru was quiet. If you thought about it, maybe it WAS his fault. He looked at his student with a thoughtful expression on his sublime face.
"You don't know how much pain I went through! Have you been loved by someone you thought loved you for who you are? Well I haven't! For I have been betrayed the most person I thought I could trust!! I loved him, Sumeragi-sensei, but it was just a plan. It was just a hoax. I was toyed with like some doll without emotions. No one cares for me, Sumeragi-sensei! No one does. You don't, Fuuma doesn't. Only my family cares about me and no one else. They just think of me as some pretty boy to be passed around…
Tears started to dwell in his amethyst eyes. He had never shouted at anyone like this before. He never even thought that he would spill all these out to Subaru.
Uncomfortable silence passed between the two supposed-to-be Ten no Ryu, with Kamui clenching his fist and Subaru looking thoughtfully at the back of Kamui's head. One never knew that silence could be so deafening.
Streams of tears raged down Kamui's cheeks, dropping down on the carpeted floor as he held his hand clenched. Bursting like that in front of Sumeragi Subaru broke him down, making everything flooding back into his mind. When he first saw Subaru, when he saw Subaru with Seishirou, everything that happened to him in the past. Although he tried to stop his tears, it still spilled across his cheeks.
He had cried enough.
Subaru, deciding that it would be the best, stepped closer to his angel and wrapped his arms around Kamui's waist, placing his chin on Kamui's shoulder.
"Someone cares for you, Kamui." He whispered, his warm breath tickling Kamui's ear. Kamui's amethyst eyes widened, staring emptily at the hallway before him as he took in the words Subaru said. "I care about you."
A few tears rolled down his skin, his eyes closing themselves shut as he still clenched his fist.
"No…" Kamui muttered a few minutes later. "No…you don't…you're j-just saying that…" Kamui said, sniffling back a few sobs.
"I'm not saying this to make you feel better, Kamui." Subaru said softly, his voice ringing in Kamui's ears. "I'm saying this because it's true."
"No…" Kamui repeated, shaking himself out of Subaru's soothing embrace. "I won't let myself go through this anymore. No…no…I don't need this right now." Kamui muttered, wiping his tears away from his face.
"Subaru!!! Sei-chan's here to see you!!" Hokuto's voice alerted the two, snapping Kamui out of his reverie.
"Kamui, no don't go…" Subaru said, missing the warmth that once came from Kamui.
"I should." Kamui said, looking back at the Sumeragi with an empty smile, as if Subaru didn't say anything to him. "I wouldn't…I wouldn't want to disrupt your meeting with Sakurazuka-san." Kamui looked down at his feet. "Sayonara, Sumeragi-sensei."
Sayonara, Sumeragi-sensei.
Sayonara.
The word echoed in his mind. Sayonara. Goodbye. For him it meant that Kamui was leaving permanently.
"Kamui –
But the angel was already gone. He heard Seishirou's voice downstairs, addressing his aforementioned angel, Hokuto's protests and a door closing. Kamui had left.
Sitting heavily down on a chair, he heaved a sigh. He failed.
"Subaru-kun." Said a voice he knew too well, making the Sumeragi look up in inquiry. A black-clad Sakurazuka Seishirou stood before him, a smile pasted on his face. "Why so down?"
"Go away, Sakurazuka-san." Subaru murmured, waving a hand as he brought another one to his face. "I don't need this right now."
Seishirou kneeled before his Subaru-kun. "You need me right now, Subaru-kun." The vice-principal said, standing up once again and going around the chair, leaning on the backside, with his arms wrapped around Subaru's neck. Placing his chin near Subaru's ear, he whispered huskily the next set of words. "You need me."
"No I don't." Subaru retorted, shaking off Seishirou's arms.
Seishirou, amused and somewhat irritated, stood up to his full height and walked towards the center of the room. "What do you see in that boy, anyway?" Seishirou asked, sneering at the math teacher.
Subaru, surprised, looked up once again at the black-clad vice-principal. "What?"
"What do you see in that boy?" Seishirou repeated, taking off his sunglasses. "That boy has brought in nothing but trouble. You chose him over me. What do you see in that boy?"
The math teacher sent a glare towards Seishirou. "What I see? I see everything that I want in him – everything that I don't see in you. Kindness, sincerity, all the things you never showed me." Subaru replied, holding a strong stare in his emerald eyes.
"I love you, Subaru-kun." Seishirou said softly, smiling warmly at the supposed-to-be clan head of the Sumeragi clan.
But that only made Subaru stand up abruptly.
"You love me?" Subaru asked, raising his eyebrows. "You love me? Sakurazuka-san, all you wanted was to screw me. That's it. And that's what you got, right? Well you got your fill and that's it. Besides, what do you know about love?" Subaru continued to stare angrily at the supposed-to-be Sakurazukamori. "You're not the one who loved too much. You're not the one who loved too much and discovered that the one single person you loved didn't love you back."
Seishirou was silent.
"Sumimasen, Sakurazuka-san." Subaru said, gesturing towards the door. "I believe you know the way out."
Author's notes: Heeheehee…I know Subaru was kind of harsh to Seishirou, but what the heck. It's a Subaru/Kamui ficcie anyway! Now I do hope you guys understand what Kamui's going through (being betrayed by the two people he loved most) and I hope you guys understand why Kamui refused Subaru's confirmation of his…well, love. Anyway, please R&R!!!!!! Arigato!!! 5 chapters more, I guess, then this thing's over!! Please, R&R!!!