Chapter 8
Heero strode through the orphanage without really thinking about anything. Stopping at the room where Yojii and he used to sleep he looked in and smiled. On the bed reading was a quite stern looking boy with blonde hair. Next to him a boy with red hair cut short to his ears was bouncing up yelling
"Let's go play Derek!!! Please?!?!" He begged.
"No, go find someone else Koji." The blonde haired boy said annoyed. Heero stiffened and sighed. Yojii
was just as annoying, still though, when that guy had taken Yojii away, Heero had been heartbroken. That was the reason he didn't get close to anyone. He was afraid of losing them again . . . . . .
'It's not fair' Heero thought leaning against the wall looking at the ceiling in despair.
'First mom, then dad, then Yojii.' He felt tears welling up and he brushed them away. Standing he got a bit of a surprise. He saw the two boys walking past him. The red youth was happy and smiling as he walked beside the frowning blonde. Derek looked unhappy but Heero could see the amusement. He smiled and was about to leave when he turned right into a familiar face.
"Yojii." Heero whispered. The brown haired boy looked at him with sad eyes.
"Alex, there's something you have to know . . . ." He trailed off and looked away.
"What?! That you're a god?! I already know." The pilot muttered bitterly. Yojii looked at him in surprise and hurt. Heero had never spoken to his friend like that.
"Alex . . . ."
"It's Heero, dammit!!" He yelled fury blazing in his eyes. "Why didn't you tell me that you were a god?!?!" He screamed. Yojii, no, Soa jumped back.
"I . . . . .didn't know. . . . . . ." He trailed off tears building up at the rims of his lashes.
"You fucking liar!" The Japanese boy screamed walked up and grabbed Soa's arm harshly. "WHY?!" Soa looked at him and whispered softly, almost afraid to talk.
"I . . . . didn't . . . . . .know." The tears now spilled down his cheeks.
"Liar." Heero hissed. He knew that Soa was probably telling the truth. But in his rage he never considered that possibility. "FUCKING liar!!!!!" He threw at Soa's face. The youth flinched but didn't run, or struggle.
'He'd always been like that.' Heero thought angrily. 'Excepting, not willing to stand up for himself. Not until I trained him to.'
" . . . . . I'm . . . . sorry . . . . . . Al- Heero." Soa whispered looking at the floor. Heero froze, hearing his fake name spoken by Soa just seemed . . . . . .odd.
"I'm sorry, you're right. I knew about a week before I was taken. I didn't tell you because, I thought you'd see me differently then. Even hate me." His voice was small and weak. Heero strained to hear.
"I liked you because you reminded me of Duo, my brother who was taken away. I shouldn't have hated Duo, but I did. He broke the promise that he would never leave me. He did, and when I met you. I thought that you'd leave me too, I didn't want to scared you away." He brought his head up and looked Heero in the eyes, his face still damp.
"I didn't want you to leave me. . . . . . ."
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I didn't want you to leave me.
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"I didn't want you to leave me." Heero recalled at that moment, when he had sat with Duo in the kitchen.
"What?" Duo replied shocked.
"I didn't want you to leave me, I've already lost my parents, and my friend. I promised that I would never get close enough to someone to get hurt again." Heero took a breath in and held his head in his hands. Leaning on the table he whispered
"That's why I lied about the mission. It was too dangerous, if there had been a slip everyone within 50 feet would have died. I couldn't risk the only friend I have left alive." Heero looked up and Duo eyes begging him to forgive.
"Idiot!" Duo screamed. "You could've died! You're so selfish Heero!" Heero stiffened in surprise.
"You don't want to feel the pain of being hurt, but what about me?! You think I don't care about you?! You moron!" Duo had yelled and at that moment stomped out of the kitchen, Heero had just looked at his leaving form, sighed and leaned back onto the table. He felt like shit at that moment.
'Just like Soa's feeling now.' Heero thought coming back to the present. He looked at the youth who still cried silently and was looking at the floor. He let go of Soa's arm numbly. Soa looked at him in terror.
'Probably thinks I'm going to hit him' Heero thought looking at Soa with eyes the size of dinner plates. Suddenly, the fact that Yojii was a god. The fact that he had known and lied didn't matter anymore.
"I'm a monster . . . . ." He said his lips numb.
"Heero?" Yojii asked eyes concerned.
'Look at that, I treat him like shit and he still is worried about me.' Heero thought backing away.
"What . . . . . have I . . . . .done?" He kept backing away.
"You're not a monster, I got what I deserved." Yojii protested.
"No . . . . . . . . no. . . . . . .NO!!!" He suddenly yelled and ran out the door.
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"Please, can't we leave him alone?" Yojii said eyes gentle and pleading.
"No." A harsh voice called out. Yojii looked down. Then looked up a sinister smirk plastered on his face.
"It's all over for Shinigami!" He said in triumph and transformed into a bird, taking flight through the empty hall. He flew over Heero and cast a sleep spell on the youth. Heero collapsed and Soa touched down onto the ground becoming a human shape.
"The final battle will soon begin" Soa said smirking. He spread the wings of a demon and flew off carrying Heero with him.
Disclaimer: Not mine. SO LAY OFF!!!!!
Starlet: Now that's a lil weird ain't it? No, Soa (Yojii) is NOT going insane. So don't worry. Oh well, next chappie up soon. I'm working on it right now! See how hard I work to please you? Lol. Later!
Starlet.
Heero strode through the orphanage without really thinking about anything. Stopping at the room where Yojii and he used to sleep he looked in and smiled. On the bed reading was a quite stern looking boy with blonde hair. Next to him a boy with red hair cut short to his ears was bouncing up yelling
"Let's go play Derek!!! Please?!?!" He begged.
"No, go find someone else Koji." The blonde haired boy said annoyed. Heero stiffened and sighed. Yojii
was just as annoying, still though, when that guy had taken Yojii away, Heero had been heartbroken. That was the reason he didn't get close to anyone. He was afraid of losing them again . . . . . .
'It's not fair' Heero thought leaning against the wall looking at the ceiling in despair.
'First mom, then dad, then Yojii.' He felt tears welling up and he brushed them away. Standing he got a bit of a surprise. He saw the two boys walking past him. The red youth was happy and smiling as he walked beside the frowning blonde. Derek looked unhappy but Heero could see the amusement. He smiled and was about to leave when he turned right into a familiar face.
"Yojii." Heero whispered. The brown haired boy looked at him with sad eyes.
"Alex, there's something you have to know . . . ." He trailed off and looked away.
"What?! That you're a god?! I already know." The pilot muttered bitterly. Yojii looked at him in surprise and hurt. Heero had never spoken to his friend like that.
"Alex . . . ."
"It's Heero, dammit!!" He yelled fury blazing in his eyes. "Why didn't you tell me that you were a god?!?!" He screamed. Yojii, no, Soa jumped back.
"I . . . . .didn't know. . . . . . ." He trailed off tears building up at the rims of his lashes.
"You fucking liar!" The Japanese boy screamed walked up and grabbed Soa's arm harshly. "WHY?!" Soa looked at him and whispered softly, almost afraid to talk.
"I . . . . didn't . . . . . .know." The tears now spilled down his cheeks.
"Liar." Heero hissed. He knew that Soa was probably telling the truth. But in his rage he never considered that possibility. "FUCKING liar!!!!!" He threw at Soa's face. The youth flinched but didn't run, or struggle.
'He'd always been like that.' Heero thought angrily. 'Excepting, not willing to stand up for himself. Not until I trained him to.'
" . . . . . I'm . . . . sorry . . . . . . Al- Heero." Soa whispered looking at the floor. Heero froze, hearing his fake name spoken by Soa just seemed . . . . . .odd.
"I'm sorry, you're right. I knew about a week before I was taken. I didn't tell you because, I thought you'd see me differently then. Even hate me." His voice was small and weak. Heero strained to hear.
"I liked you because you reminded me of Duo, my brother who was taken away. I shouldn't have hated Duo, but I did. He broke the promise that he would never leave me. He did, and when I met you. I thought that you'd leave me too, I didn't want to scared you away." He brought his head up and looked Heero in the eyes, his face still damp.
"I didn't want you to leave me. . . . . . ."
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I didn't want you to leave me.
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"I didn't want you to leave me." Heero recalled at that moment, when he had sat with Duo in the kitchen.
"What?" Duo replied shocked.
"I didn't want you to leave me, I've already lost my parents, and my friend. I promised that I would never get close enough to someone to get hurt again." Heero took a breath in and held his head in his hands. Leaning on the table he whispered
"That's why I lied about the mission. It was too dangerous, if there had been a slip everyone within 50 feet would have died. I couldn't risk the only friend I have left alive." Heero looked up and Duo eyes begging him to forgive.
"Idiot!" Duo screamed. "You could've died! You're so selfish Heero!" Heero stiffened in surprise.
"You don't want to feel the pain of being hurt, but what about me?! You think I don't care about you?! You moron!" Duo had yelled and at that moment stomped out of the kitchen, Heero had just looked at his leaving form, sighed and leaned back onto the table. He felt like shit at that moment.
'Just like Soa's feeling now.' Heero thought coming back to the present. He looked at the youth who still cried silently and was looking at the floor. He let go of Soa's arm numbly. Soa looked at him in terror.
'Probably thinks I'm going to hit him' Heero thought looking at Soa with eyes the size of dinner plates. Suddenly, the fact that Yojii was a god. The fact that he had known and lied didn't matter anymore.
"I'm a monster . . . . ." He said his lips numb.
"Heero?" Yojii asked eyes concerned.
'Look at that, I treat him like shit and he still is worried about me.' Heero thought backing away.
"What . . . . . have I . . . . .done?" He kept backing away.
"You're not a monster, I got what I deserved." Yojii protested.
"No . . . . . . . . no. . . . . . .NO!!!" He suddenly yelled and ran out the door.
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"Please, can't we leave him alone?" Yojii said eyes gentle and pleading.
"No." A harsh voice called out. Yojii looked down. Then looked up a sinister smirk plastered on his face.
"It's all over for Shinigami!" He said in triumph and transformed into a bird, taking flight through the empty hall. He flew over Heero and cast a sleep spell on the youth. Heero collapsed and Soa touched down onto the ground becoming a human shape.
"The final battle will soon begin" Soa said smirking. He spread the wings of a demon and flew off carrying Heero with him.
Disclaimer: Not mine. SO LAY OFF!!!!!
Starlet: Now that's a lil weird ain't it? No, Soa (Yojii) is NOT going insane. So don't worry. Oh well, next chappie up soon. I'm working on it right now! See how hard I work to please you? Lol. Later!
Starlet.