Matt and Jeff took showers and then went into my room. I was lying on my
bed, my face in the pillow, I was crying. Matt and Jeff looked at each
other and then walked over to me. Matt sat on the left side of the bed and
Jeff sat on the right. They were rubbing my back.
"What's wrong Stacy?" Jeff asked.
The truth is, I didn't wanna be mad no more. I didn't want to yell and scream. I didn't wanna smoke, drink, do drugs or have sex.. Well the sex part I rather enjoyed so lets just say I didn't wanna smoke, drink, do drugs. All I could do now is cry.
"You're going to send me away cuz you don't love me no more" I cried
"Oh babygirl, We love you more than anything." Jeff said
" We are just sending you to a place where you can get some help" Matt said
"But I won't see anyone for a while" I cried.
"It will only be for a little while though and when you come back, we'll have a party" Jeff said
"And while you are gone Jeff and I talked it over. We are going to make you a room in my house and his so you can sleep over all the time." Matt said.
"Really?" I asked
"Yes really" Matt said.
"I'm sorry Jeff for calling you a bastard. I was just mad." I apologized.
"It's ok babygirl. I know you didn't mean it." Jeff said.
"It's time Stacy" Matt said
I nodded and sat up. Jeff wiped off my tears and kissed my forehead. Matt kissed my cheek. Matt grabbed my bag as Jeff carried me to the car. We started driving. I looked out the window thinking about life. When we got there I got out. I looked at the building as Matt and Jeff came by me.
"Come on babygirl. Let's get this over with." Jeff said.
"Wait." I said.
I reached in my pocket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. I looked at it and then gave them to Jeff.
" Here. I guess I won't be needing this" I said with tears flowing down my cheeks.
"That's my babygirl" Jeff said.
" We are so proud of you" Matt said.
Matt grabbed my suitcase and we all walked hand in hand into the building. When we entered, we were met by two ladies.
"Hello, I'm Sara Hansen. This is Karen Washington. You must be the Hardy's" Sara said.
"Yea we are the Hardy's, I'm Matt, this is Jeff, and this is Stacy" Matt said.
We all shook her hand.
"Well let's have you sign these papers and we can get started." Sara said.
She had Matt and Jeff sign the papers and Matt and Jeff gave them back.
"Okay now that we have that settled and put behind us. Karen will take Stacy and start to get her settled in." Sara said.
I started to back up. I backed up into Matt and Jeff. They bent down to talk to me. I was crying.
" Its ok babygirl. Please don't cry. It will be all over soon. I promise" Jeff said.
"I don't want you to go" I cried
"We don't wanna go either, but Stacy you need help in order to be happier. So you need to stay here." Matt said.
"Please let me go home with you. I promise I'll be good. Just please let me go home." I cried.
I didn't want to stay there. I wanted to stay with my brothers. They were my rock. They were my family.
"Oh babygirl, it's all going to be ok. When you get better, we'll come back and everything will be better we promise." Jeff said.
I hugged them. Jeff and Matt were holding in their tears. They were trying to be strong for me. When we pulled apart, Karen and Sara grabbed my hands and took me away. I looked back to Matt and Jeff. Jeff and Matt were hugging and crying. I was taken to a room. There was one other person in there. She was about 16 and she had blonde hair, blue eyes, and about 5'5. Sara and Karen said I would be living here. When they left, I sat down on the bed and cried. I felt some one sit next to me and rub my back. I looked up and it was my new roommate.
"Hey it's ok. This place isn't that bad." She said
"Its just I pleaded with my brothers to take me home, but they didn't. They just let me go. They didn't care that I didn't wanna go here" I cried.
"Well you know what? You don't need them. Now that you and I are roommates, we are going to become the best of friends." She said.
"That sounds great. I'm Stacy by the way" I said
"I'm Erin. How old are you anyway?" Erin asked.
"I'm 15, what about you?" I asked
"I'm 16." Erin said.
"How long have you been in here?" I asked her
"2 months" Erin said.
"2 months? How can you stand being away from your family so long" I asked/
"Its hard some days. Some days I am glad to be away from them since they are the ones who put me in here. So why did they bring you here" Erin said.
"I have been drinking, doing drugs, smoking, back talking, having sex. What about you?" I asked.
"Same thing. Man we are a lot alike" Erin said
I chuckled. The next couple of days were hard for me. I had to go cold turkey, no smoking and it was hell. I was snapping at everyone and I would scream and throw things. I wouldn't eat and I couldn't sleep. My eyes were red. Erin understood where I was coming from. She helped me through it. Each day I had to see the "Therapist". We got to make phone calls once a week to people. I called B.J. I told him I missed him and that I was working hard on getting out. I stayed in my room most of the time. Erin and I gotten close. While there, I met a 10-year-old named Heidi. She was in there for smoking. Can you believe it? A 10-year-old girl smoking. You only see this stuff on the Maury Show. Heidi and I got quite attached to each other. So we were all the 3 musketeers. Wherever one was, there was the other. I went down hill a little bit after I called BJ and he said he was sick of waiting for me and he said he was dating another girl. My heart had been torn up. That day when I heard that, I tried to commit suicide by hanging myself with my sheet covers. I was placed in solitary confinement for a couple of days until I felt better. It had been 1 month since I had been placed here. I was slowly getting better, but I wasn't 100% yet. I was about 85%. The "Therapist" said I was probably going to get out in another month. At first I was angry because I had missed my friends and family, but then I felt ok about it because I had Erin and Heidi. After another month, they said I was ready to go home. I packed up my bag and sat there on my bed waiting for the nurse to come in and say my brothers were here to pick me up. I had said goodbye to Erin and Heidi and I gave them my phone number and address. KNOCK! KNOCK! The nurse's head popped in.
"Your brothers are here" The nurse said.
"Okay." I answered.
I took a deep breath and stood up. I followed the nurse down the hall and into the main part of the building. There I saw Matt and Jeff.
"MATT! JEFF!" I Squealed.
I dropped my bag and ran into their open arms. We all hugged and cried.
"We missed you so much" Matt said.
"It's good to have you back in our arms baby girl" Jeff said.
" I love you guys" I cried.
"We love you too Stacy." Jeff and Matt said.
We broke apart and dried our tears.
"You ready to go home baby girl?" Jeff asked
"I am more than ready" I said.
Matt grabbed my bag and we were heading out the door until.
"STACY!!!" Heidi cried.
I turned around and seen Heidi crying and running toward me. I kneeled down and hugged her as she ran into my arms.
"Shh.it's ok sweetie. It's ok" I said
" Don't leave me Stacy. Please don't leave me" Heidi cried.
"Heidi look at me." I said.
She lifted up her head and looked at me. I wiped her tears away.
"You have my number and you have my address. You can come visit me anytime. Okay? First you need to get out of here and in order to do that you need to stop smoking. You are only 10. Smoking isn't good for you. You understand that right?" I asked
She nodded. I smiled and hugged her.
"STACY WAIT!" Erin said.
"What's wrong Stacy?" Jeff asked.
The truth is, I didn't wanna be mad no more. I didn't want to yell and scream. I didn't wanna smoke, drink, do drugs or have sex.. Well the sex part I rather enjoyed so lets just say I didn't wanna smoke, drink, do drugs. All I could do now is cry.
"You're going to send me away cuz you don't love me no more" I cried
"Oh babygirl, We love you more than anything." Jeff said
" We are just sending you to a place where you can get some help" Matt said
"But I won't see anyone for a while" I cried.
"It will only be for a little while though and when you come back, we'll have a party" Jeff said
"And while you are gone Jeff and I talked it over. We are going to make you a room in my house and his so you can sleep over all the time." Matt said.
"Really?" I asked
"Yes really" Matt said.
"I'm sorry Jeff for calling you a bastard. I was just mad." I apologized.
"It's ok babygirl. I know you didn't mean it." Jeff said.
"It's time Stacy" Matt said
I nodded and sat up. Jeff wiped off my tears and kissed my forehead. Matt kissed my cheek. Matt grabbed my bag as Jeff carried me to the car. We started driving. I looked out the window thinking about life. When we got there I got out. I looked at the building as Matt and Jeff came by me.
"Come on babygirl. Let's get this over with." Jeff said.
"Wait." I said.
I reached in my pocket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. I looked at it and then gave them to Jeff.
" Here. I guess I won't be needing this" I said with tears flowing down my cheeks.
"That's my babygirl" Jeff said.
" We are so proud of you" Matt said.
Matt grabbed my suitcase and we all walked hand in hand into the building. When we entered, we were met by two ladies.
"Hello, I'm Sara Hansen. This is Karen Washington. You must be the Hardy's" Sara said.
"Yea we are the Hardy's, I'm Matt, this is Jeff, and this is Stacy" Matt said.
We all shook her hand.
"Well let's have you sign these papers and we can get started." Sara said.
She had Matt and Jeff sign the papers and Matt and Jeff gave them back.
"Okay now that we have that settled and put behind us. Karen will take Stacy and start to get her settled in." Sara said.
I started to back up. I backed up into Matt and Jeff. They bent down to talk to me. I was crying.
" Its ok babygirl. Please don't cry. It will be all over soon. I promise" Jeff said.
"I don't want you to go" I cried
"We don't wanna go either, but Stacy you need help in order to be happier. So you need to stay here." Matt said.
"Please let me go home with you. I promise I'll be good. Just please let me go home." I cried.
I didn't want to stay there. I wanted to stay with my brothers. They were my rock. They were my family.
"Oh babygirl, it's all going to be ok. When you get better, we'll come back and everything will be better we promise." Jeff said.
I hugged them. Jeff and Matt were holding in their tears. They were trying to be strong for me. When we pulled apart, Karen and Sara grabbed my hands and took me away. I looked back to Matt and Jeff. Jeff and Matt were hugging and crying. I was taken to a room. There was one other person in there. She was about 16 and she had blonde hair, blue eyes, and about 5'5. Sara and Karen said I would be living here. When they left, I sat down on the bed and cried. I felt some one sit next to me and rub my back. I looked up and it was my new roommate.
"Hey it's ok. This place isn't that bad." She said
"Its just I pleaded with my brothers to take me home, but they didn't. They just let me go. They didn't care that I didn't wanna go here" I cried.
"Well you know what? You don't need them. Now that you and I are roommates, we are going to become the best of friends." She said.
"That sounds great. I'm Stacy by the way" I said
"I'm Erin. How old are you anyway?" Erin asked.
"I'm 15, what about you?" I asked
"I'm 16." Erin said.
"How long have you been in here?" I asked her
"2 months" Erin said.
"2 months? How can you stand being away from your family so long" I asked/
"Its hard some days. Some days I am glad to be away from them since they are the ones who put me in here. So why did they bring you here" Erin said.
"I have been drinking, doing drugs, smoking, back talking, having sex. What about you?" I asked.
"Same thing. Man we are a lot alike" Erin said
I chuckled. The next couple of days were hard for me. I had to go cold turkey, no smoking and it was hell. I was snapping at everyone and I would scream and throw things. I wouldn't eat and I couldn't sleep. My eyes were red. Erin understood where I was coming from. She helped me through it. Each day I had to see the "Therapist". We got to make phone calls once a week to people. I called B.J. I told him I missed him and that I was working hard on getting out. I stayed in my room most of the time. Erin and I gotten close. While there, I met a 10-year-old named Heidi. She was in there for smoking. Can you believe it? A 10-year-old girl smoking. You only see this stuff on the Maury Show. Heidi and I got quite attached to each other. So we were all the 3 musketeers. Wherever one was, there was the other. I went down hill a little bit after I called BJ and he said he was sick of waiting for me and he said he was dating another girl. My heart had been torn up. That day when I heard that, I tried to commit suicide by hanging myself with my sheet covers. I was placed in solitary confinement for a couple of days until I felt better. It had been 1 month since I had been placed here. I was slowly getting better, but I wasn't 100% yet. I was about 85%. The "Therapist" said I was probably going to get out in another month. At first I was angry because I had missed my friends and family, but then I felt ok about it because I had Erin and Heidi. After another month, they said I was ready to go home. I packed up my bag and sat there on my bed waiting for the nurse to come in and say my brothers were here to pick me up. I had said goodbye to Erin and Heidi and I gave them my phone number and address. KNOCK! KNOCK! The nurse's head popped in.
"Your brothers are here" The nurse said.
"Okay." I answered.
I took a deep breath and stood up. I followed the nurse down the hall and into the main part of the building. There I saw Matt and Jeff.
"MATT! JEFF!" I Squealed.
I dropped my bag and ran into their open arms. We all hugged and cried.
"We missed you so much" Matt said.
"It's good to have you back in our arms baby girl" Jeff said.
" I love you guys" I cried.
"We love you too Stacy." Jeff and Matt said.
We broke apart and dried our tears.
"You ready to go home baby girl?" Jeff asked
"I am more than ready" I said.
Matt grabbed my bag and we were heading out the door until.
"STACY!!!" Heidi cried.
I turned around and seen Heidi crying and running toward me. I kneeled down and hugged her as she ran into my arms.
"Shh.it's ok sweetie. It's ok" I said
" Don't leave me Stacy. Please don't leave me" Heidi cried.
"Heidi look at me." I said.
She lifted up her head and looked at me. I wiped her tears away.
"You have my number and you have my address. You can come visit me anytime. Okay? First you need to get out of here and in order to do that you need to stop smoking. You are only 10. Smoking isn't good for you. You understand that right?" I asked
She nodded. I smiled and hugged her.
"STACY WAIT!" Erin said.