I rode it back to the hotel, where I went into Matt's and Jeff's room,
gathered my stuff, and went inside Spike's. My cell phone rang, I looked at
who was calling me and it was Spike. I answered it.
"Hello?"
"Sweetie, are you ok? Where are you?"
"I guess I am ok. I am in your hotel room. Is it ok that I am in it?"
"Sure sweets. Hey I am leaving right now. I will be there soon ok?"
"Okay (pauses) I love you Spike"
"I love you too Stacy. More than you will ever know."
With that we hung up. I walked to my bag and pulled out my CD player and notebook. I walked to the balcony and sat down. I put in my Selena CD and wrote a poem about what I was going through, what I was feeling.
Can I really be helped
Pain in my heart, pain in my soul
The pain has taken it's toll
I have been violated by man
So I ran and ran
I ran away from everyone
I tell you I hurt a ton
What's going to happen to me?
Will people look at me and see
A pitiful girl or a screwed up child
Will I stay silent or will I be wild?
All I know is, I am hurting
Can I really be helped.
I laid down my notebook and closed my eyes. After a minute, I was asleep. When Spike came to the hotel, he saw me and walked over to me. He picked up my notebook and read it. A tear came to his eyes and he wiped it away. He set my notebook down and took off my head phone and put them down too. He picked me up and carried me to bed. After I was tucked in, he changed into boxers and crawled in. Instantly I wrapped my arm around him, holding him close. He held me too. Morning came and I was the first to wake up. I looked over at the man laying next to me. I felt so loved and safe in his arms. I leaned over and kissed his lips softly. He pulled me into a deeper kiss. I moaned as our toungues danced in eachothers mouths.
"What a way to wake up"
"Isn't it though"
"Will you sing me a song. You have a beautiful voice"
"Ok..I guess one won't hurt"
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you
Know I'm there (Am I there, Am I)
If you looked in my eyes, would you see what's inside
Would you even care
I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you Yes I do
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said
I love you I love you too
Now I'm dreamin' with you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly
"That was beautiful Stacy, Just beautiful"
"Thanks"
I kissed him one more time, picked out some clothes, and took a shower. When I got out, Spike hopped in. When he came out, we packed our bags and went to the airport to fly to our next city. On the flight, I laid my head on Spike's shoulder and fell asleep while he laid his head on my head to sleep. While I was asleep, Matt and Jeff looked over at us from across the isle. After they heard me tell them the truth, they felt guilty for yelling at me. Jeff had a long talk with Laura about what she said and that she deserved it. Jeff said that if she pulled anything like that again that she was gone because blood is thicker than water. Spike was the first to wake up. He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead. I woke up and looked at him. We smiled and kissed. I sat up and looked out the window, his hand on mine. We arrived at the next city and we went to the hotel. Spike and I shared a room like usual and Jeff and Matt shared a room too. We were pooped from the flight and we didn't know why since we had naps. We were laying on bed, making out, when someone knocked on the door.
"Maybe if we don't answer the door, that person will go away" I said
Spike laughed as he got up and answered the door. It was Jeff and Matt. Spike let them come in. I saw them and anger grew inside of me. I jumpped off the bed.
"What the Hell do you want" I asked
"We need to talk" Matt said
"There's nothing to talk about"
"Yes There is Stacy" Jeff said.
"I'll leave you all alone to talk. I will see you later sweety." Spike said as he kissed me goodbye.
After he left that's when it all started...
"Well say what you wanna say then get out" I said coldly.
"Babygurl...don't be like this" Jeff said.
"Don't be like what? Like you! Cold, mean, and Heartless"
Jeff sat down next to me and lifted me into his lap. He then held me tight as I struggled to get away. When I reliezed I couldn't. I broke down and started crying. Matt knelt down by us and stroked my hair, trying to calm me down.
"Don't cry baby gurl. You know I can't bare to see you cry" Jeff said
"I can't help it. You make me so mad"
"Stacy we relieze we made a big mistake by yelling at you." MAtt said
" I didn't relieze that Laura said all those things to you. I went and yelled at her for telling you that and I told her that if she does anything like that again, its over" Jeff said as he held on to me.
"Jeff, I don't want to be the one to ruin ya'll relationship"
"She is the one that is. You're not"
I looked into Jeff's eyes and I could tell he was hurting. His eyes are green when happy, but brownish when he is sad. They were Brownish. I hugged him and kissed his cheek.
"What about me?" Matt said.
We all laughed as I jumpped to hug Matt. He fell over and I hugged him tight and kissed his face all over.
"Better?"
"Much better" Matt laughed.
"So you forgive us?" Jeff asked
"I don't know if I do or not" I said trying to keep a straight face.
"Oh really?" Jeff asked.
I looked at Jeff and his eyes were green. He climbed onto the floor and started tickling me. Matt Joined in.
"I FORGIVE YOU! I FORGIVE YOU!"
They stopped. Spike came in and started laughing as he looked at us on the floor.
"Maybe I should come back later" Spike said.
"NO COME BACK! HELP ME!" I laughed.
Spike came over and helped me out.
"Okay no more pickin on my girl." Spike said as he kissed my cheek.
"We got to go sis" Matt said.
"We have too meet Vince for lunch, so talk to you later" Jeff said.
With a kiss and hug from both. They left. I looked at Spike and gently pushed me on the bed. He got on top of me and kissed me.
"Now where were we?" He said.
We started time make out. Since I am now only 16, we weren't allowed by law to have sex yet. Which sucks becuase I love him so damn much. Oh to hell with the law. I started to take off his shirt.
"Stacy, what are you doing?"
"What do you think?"
"You're only 16. The law says.."
"Screw the law. I love you and the law says nothing about this love that we have"
"Stacy I think..."
"Don't think...just love"
With that he kissed me and we took off eachothers clothes and made love. While making love he made me feeel whole again. I thought I could never feel this way again, but I do. Thanks to Spike. We laid there and held eachother.
"Spike?"
"Yeah baby?"
"Thank you"
"For what sweetie?"
"For everyting. For loving me. For making love to me. For being there when I needed some one. You have no clue how much I love you. Pound for pound"
He chuckled at that
"I love you too girl more than you will ever know"
"Spike you made me whole again and for that I will forever be greatful"
This touched Spikes heart. He held me tighter adn closer and kissed my forehead as we fell asleep. We were woken up by a pounding at the door.
"Who would be knocking at our door at 1 in the morning" I asked
Spike got his boxers on and went to the door. He was surprized at what he saw.
A/N: (Inside joke between me and my best friend) TORTURE!!!!!!
"Hello?"
"Sweetie, are you ok? Where are you?"
"I guess I am ok. I am in your hotel room. Is it ok that I am in it?"
"Sure sweets. Hey I am leaving right now. I will be there soon ok?"
"Okay (pauses) I love you Spike"
"I love you too Stacy. More than you will ever know."
With that we hung up. I walked to my bag and pulled out my CD player and notebook. I walked to the balcony and sat down. I put in my Selena CD and wrote a poem about what I was going through, what I was feeling.
Can I really be helped
Pain in my heart, pain in my soul
The pain has taken it's toll
I have been violated by man
So I ran and ran
I ran away from everyone
I tell you I hurt a ton
What's going to happen to me?
Will people look at me and see
A pitiful girl or a screwed up child
Will I stay silent or will I be wild?
All I know is, I am hurting
Can I really be helped.
I laid down my notebook and closed my eyes. After a minute, I was asleep. When Spike came to the hotel, he saw me and walked over to me. He picked up my notebook and read it. A tear came to his eyes and he wiped it away. He set my notebook down and took off my head phone and put them down too. He picked me up and carried me to bed. After I was tucked in, he changed into boxers and crawled in. Instantly I wrapped my arm around him, holding him close. He held me too. Morning came and I was the first to wake up. I looked over at the man laying next to me. I felt so loved and safe in his arms. I leaned over and kissed his lips softly. He pulled me into a deeper kiss. I moaned as our toungues danced in eachothers mouths.
"What a way to wake up"
"Isn't it though"
"Will you sing me a song. You have a beautiful voice"
"Ok..I guess one won't hurt"
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow, I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you
Know I'm there (Am I there, Am I)
If you looked in my eyes, would you see what's inside
Would you even care
I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you Yes I do
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said
I love you I love you too
Now I'm dreamin' with you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly
"That was beautiful Stacy, Just beautiful"
"Thanks"
I kissed him one more time, picked out some clothes, and took a shower. When I got out, Spike hopped in. When he came out, we packed our bags and went to the airport to fly to our next city. On the flight, I laid my head on Spike's shoulder and fell asleep while he laid his head on my head to sleep. While I was asleep, Matt and Jeff looked over at us from across the isle. After they heard me tell them the truth, they felt guilty for yelling at me. Jeff had a long talk with Laura about what she said and that she deserved it. Jeff said that if she pulled anything like that again that she was gone because blood is thicker than water. Spike was the first to wake up. He stroked my hair and kissed my forehead. I woke up and looked at him. We smiled and kissed. I sat up and looked out the window, his hand on mine. We arrived at the next city and we went to the hotel. Spike and I shared a room like usual and Jeff and Matt shared a room too. We were pooped from the flight and we didn't know why since we had naps. We were laying on bed, making out, when someone knocked on the door.
"Maybe if we don't answer the door, that person will go away" I said
Spike laughed as he got up and answered the door. It was Jeff and Matt. Spike let them come in. I saw them and anger grew inside of me. I jumpped off the bed.
"What the Hell do you want" I asked
"We need to talk" Matt said
"There's nothing to talk about"
"Yes There is Stacy" Jeff said.
"I'll leave you all alone to talk. I will see you later sweety." Spike said as he kissed me goodbye.
After he left that's when it all started...
"Well say what you wanna say then get out" I said coldly.
"Babygurl...don't be like this" Jeff said.
"Don't be like what? Like you! Cold, mean, and Heartless"
Jeff sat down next to me and lifted me into his lap. He then held me tight as I struggled to get away. When I reliezed I couldn't. I broke down and started crying. Matt knelt down by us and stroked my hair, trying to calm me down.
"Don't cry baby gurl. You know I can't bare to see you cry" Jeff said
"I can't help it. You make me so mad"
"Stacy we relieze we made a big mistake by yelling at you." MAtt said
" I didn't relieze that Laura said all those things to you. I went and yelled at her for telling you that and I told her that if she does anything like that again, its over" Jeff said as he held on to me.
"Jeff, I don't want to be the one to ruin ya'll relationship"
"She is the one that is. You're not"
I looked into Jeff's eyes and I could tell he was hurting. His eyes are green when happy, but brownish when he is sad. They were Brownish. I hugged him and kissed his cheek.
"What about me?" Matt said.
We all laughed as I jumpped to hug Matt. He fell over and I hugged him tight and kissed his face all over.
"Better?"
"Much better" Matt laughed.
"So you forgive us?" Jeff asked
"I don't know if I do or not" I said trying to keep a straight face.
"Oh really?" Jeff asked.
I looked at Jeff and his eyes were green. He climbed onto the floor and started tickling me. Matt Joined in.
"I FORGIVE YOU! I FORGIVE YOU!"
They stopped. Spike came in and started laughing as he looked at us on the floor.
"Maybe I should come back later" Spike said.
"NO COME BACK! HELP ME!" I laughed.
Spike came over and helped me out.
"Okay no more pickin on my girl." Spike said as he kissed my cheek.
"We got to go sis" Matt said.
"We have too meet Vince for lunch, so talk to you later" Jeff said.
With a kiss and hug from both. They left. I looked at Spike and gently pushed me on the bed. He got on top of me and kissed me.
"Now where were we?" He said.
We started time make out. Since I am now only 16, we weren't allowed by law to have sex yet. Which sucks becuase I love him so damn much. Oh to hell with the law. I started to take off his shirt.
"Stacy, what are you doing?"
"What do you think?"
"You're only 16. The law says.."
"Screw the law. I love you and the law says nothing about this love that we have"
"Stacy I think..."
"Don't think...just love"
With that he kissed me and we took off eachothers clothes and made love. While making love he made me feeel whole again. I thought I could never feel this way again, but I do. Thanks to Spike. We laid there and held eachother.
"Spike?"
"Yeah baby?"
"Thank you"
"For what sweetie?"
"For everyting. For loving me. For making love to me. For being there when I needed some one. You have no clue how much I love you. Pound for pound"
He chuckled at that
"I love you too girl more than you will ever know"
"Spike you made me whole again and for that I will forever be greatful"
This touched Spikes heart. He held me tighter adn closer and kissed my forehead as we fell asleep. We were woken up by a pounding at the door.
"Who would be knocking at our door at 1 in the morning" I asked
Spike got his boxers on and went to the door. He was surprized at what he saw.
A/N: (Inside joke between me and my best friend) TORTURE!!!!!!