He just walked away. No good-bye, no kiss no nothing. I heard the front
door close and his car drive away. This was all too much for me. I ran down
the stairs and out the front door. I heard someone behind me running and
yelling after me. When I stopped, I was so upset I punched a tree. I
screamed in pain and fell to the ground holding my hand. I was crying
harder than ever before. I felt arms wrap around me. I heard Jef say, "oh
shit!" as he looked down at my hand. He picked me up and ran me to the
house. He called my dad and Matt and told him to meet me at the hospital.
He then took me to his car and drove as fast as he could to the hospital.
When we got there, they took me right in. They did x-rays and then gave me
painkillers. After 1/2 hour, my x-rays were done and it turns out I had a
broken hand. They put it in a cast and then allowed Dad, Jeff, and Matt
into the room. They rushed to my side and held me.
"Stacy, what happened with you and Spike to make you go and hurt your hand and tell us how you hurt your hand." Jeff said.
I told them the whole story. Breaking down during the whole long tale. They just held me and listened.
"I'm sorry baby, but remember he said it isn't for good. It's only for a little while." My dad said.
"It doesn't matter. Nothing matters anymore," I cried.
"Sis don't talk like that," Matt said.
"Babygurl, let's take you home so you can get some sleep. Maybe you'll feel better in the morning." Jeff said.
I nodded and he carried me to the car and we headed home. Dad went home and so did Matt. Jeff carried me inside and into his room where I would sleep that night. While lying there I started to cry. He just held me for a long time and then I said.
"I hate men Jeff. They are all the same. They all hurt me"
"Trust me Stacy, not all men are bad. I mean look at me. I am handsome, sexy, sweet, fun, funny, energetic, a great dancer and singer. Did I mention Sexy?" He laughed
"You're so full of yourself Jeff." I laughed as I dried my tears
"I know, but ain't I so cute?" He asked.
"A no you're not" I said as closed my eyes.
His arms got tighter around my waist and he kissed my forehead. Morning came and I woke up and realize I was in Jeff's bed and Jeff was still holding me. Then I realized it wasn't a dream it was a nightmare that was reality. I got up and took a shower. I walked down stairs and outside where I took out my cell phone and called Erin.
"Hello?"
"Hey Erin, its Stacy"
"Hey girl! Long time no talk."
"I know right"
"How have you been?"
"Crappy, how about u?"
"Same. It's gotten so bad, I am drinking and smoking again."
"Want a person to join you in the fun?"
"Yea, you wanna come over?"
"Yea, I'll be there in a few"
"Okay bye"
I wrote Jeff a note and went to her house. We smoked and drank while we caught up on everything. I realized I had been there for 3 hours and I knew I had to get home. Erin got in her car and drove me back home. When I got their, Matt was they're talking to Jeff outside. They saw Erin pull away and when she did she was swerving all over the road. They knew something was up. They walked up to me and smelt Smoke and alcohol.
"STACY HAVE YOU BEEN DRINKING AND SMOKING?" Matt asked.
"Only 3 beers" I said holding up 2 fingers.
"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING STACY?" Matt yelled.
"Spike is gone, B.J is dead, I'm a loser. What's there to be sober for or even to live for?" I said as I wobbled trying to stay up.
Jeff shook his head and picked me up.
"WOOO!" I giggled.
Jeff started to carry me to his room and while he did I started singing.
Yeah, my Durango
Number ninety-five
Kick boots
And ultra live
See heaven
Flash a horror show.
Then I was out like a light. Jeff just shook his head again. He covered me up and went downstairs. Him and Matt sat down and talked.
"She was doing so good Jeff." Matt said
"I know. What are we going to do?" Jeff asked.
"Don't let her out of our sight, keep her distracted, make something good happen, and this time instead of getting mad at her we just will show her more love." Matt said.
"Yea...This is going to work." Jeff nodded.
~~~~ 4 hours later~~~~
I was walking down stairs holding my head. I groaned. Matt and Jeff looked up at me.
"Got a headache Babygurl?" Jeff asked.
"Please Jeff don't talk so loud." I said
"I'll take that as a yes" Matt laughed
"Where's the aspirin in this house?" I asked
"In the left cabinet in the kitchen" Jeff said
I went to the kitchen and found the aspirin. I took 2 tablets and washed it down with water. I walked back in and laid on the couch.
"I'm never drinking again." I said
"Good, we hope you learned your lesson" Jeff said
I stuck out my tongue at him, but then held my head. They just laughed at me. Once the aspirin kicked in, I got up and went outside. I went and sat in the Imagination. For all my readers that doesn't know what the Imagination is (I hope I get this right) It's a place behind Jeff's where he is building a pond, he has his art work, and it's just beautiful. I just sat out their thinking about Spike, B.J, and just everything. Nothing was going right. My whole world was crashing right before my eyes.I sat there for hours. Jeff and Matt came and checked on me a couple times and asked if I was hungry. I just said no. It was about 11 at night and I was still out there. Matt had gone home and Jeff came out and sat next to me. He wrapped his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulders. I started crying.
"I miss him Jeff. I miss him so much." I cried
"I know babygurl. I know. It will get better though."He comforted.
"Jeff?"
"Yea sweetie"
"Can I sleep with you tonight?"
"Sure you can. Come on inside before you catch a cold."
I nodded as he got up. He then pulled me up and took me inside. I got my night clothes on and went into Jeff's room where he was writing in his journal. I scooted in next to him and hugged him close as I went to sleep. He looked down at me and wondered if I was going to be alright...........The next couple of days were rough being with out Spike. I knew it would be harder when I would see him at the arena. We got there and I was getting ready to walk out with Jeff and Matt. When waiting by the curtain, I saw him. I just turned so I didn't have to look at him. What I didn't know was that he saw me just as I was going out. He saw my broken hand and he thought he was seeing things. He walked to the monitor and saw me and the guys bouncing out. He then saw that my hand was in a cast and he was worried about me. He listened to the commentary as I sat and talked with Jr and King.
"It looks like Stacy Hardy is going to join us." King said
"Welcome Stacy" Jr said
"Thank you Jr and King. It's great to be here."
"We heard you weren't going to be here today" Jr said
"Yea I wasn't going to come, but Matt and Jeff dragged me here anyways" I laughed
"Well I am glad they did. We love having you around" King said.
"Thanks agian King, but we all know why you want me here"
"Oh and why is that?"
"Cuz I have puppies" I laughed
"That you do" He said looking down at them.
"King show some respect." Jr said
"It's ok Jr. I don't mind."
"Hey Stacy, what happened to your hand?" Jr asked
"I punched a tree." I laughed
"Why would you do that?" King asked.
"I was frustrated, angry, and upset about some stuff and I ran into the woods behind my brothers house and punched a tree." I explained.
"Man it sounds like you have been having a rough week." Jr said.
"Yea and it's about to get worse." I said as I stood up and took off my head phones. I looked up at the top of the ramp and was surprized and angered at who I saw.
"Stacy, what happened with you and Spike to make you go and hurt your hand and tell us how you hurt your hand." Jeff said.
I told them the whole story. Breaking down during the whole long tale. They just held me and listened.
"I'm sorry baby, but remember he said it isn't for good. It's only for a little while." My dad said.
"It doesn't matter. Nothing matters anymore," I cried.
"Sis don't talk like that," Matt said.
"Babygurl, let's take you home so you can get some sleep. Maybe you'll feel better in the morning." Jeff said.
I nodded and he carried me to the car and we headed home. Dad went home and so did Matt. Jeff carried me inside and into his room where I would sleep that night. While lying there I started to cry. He just held me for a long time and then I said.
"I hate men Jeff. They are all the same. They all hurt me"
"Trust me Stacy, not all men are bad. I mean look at me. I am handsome, sexy, sweet, fun, funny, energetic, a great dancer and singer. Did I mention Sexy?" He laughed
"You're so full of yourself Jeff." I laughed as I dried my tears
"I know, but ain't I so cute?" He asked.
"A no you're not" I said as closed my eyes.
His arms got tighter around my waist and he kissed my forehead. Morning came and I woke up and realize I was in Jeff's bed and Jeff was still holding me. Then I realized it wasn't a dream it was a nightmare that was reality. I got up and took a shower. I walked down stairs and outside where I took out my cell phone and called Erin.
"Hello?"
"Hey Erin, its Stacy"
"Hey girl! Long time no talk."
"I know right"
"How have you been?"
"Crappy, how about u?"
"Same. It's gotten so bad, I am drinking and smoking again."
"Want a person to join you in the fun?"
"Yea, you wanna come over?"
"Yea, I'll be there in a few"
"Okay bye"
I wrote Jeff a note and went to her house. We smoked and drank while we caught up on everything. I realized I had been there for 3 hours and I knew I had to get home. Erin got in her car and drove me back home. When I got their, Matt was they're talking to Jeff outside. They saw Erin pull away and when she did she was swerving all over the road. They knew something was up. They walked up to me and smelt Smoke and alcohol.
"STACY HAVE YOU BEEN DRINKING AND SMOKING?" Matt asked.
"Only 3 beers" I said holding up 2 fingers.
"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING STACY?" Matt yelled.
"Spike is gone, B.J is dead, I'm a loser. What's there to be sober for or even to live for?" I said as I wobbled trying to stay up.
Jeff shook his head and picked me up.
"WOOO!" I giggled.
Jeff started to carry me to his room and while he did I started singing.
Yeah, my Durango
Number ninety-five
Kick boots
And ultra live
See heaven
Flash a horror show.
Then I was out like a light. Jeff just shook his head again. He covered me up and went downstairs. Him and Matt sat down and talked.
"She was doing so good Jeff." Matt said
"I know. What are we going to do?" Jeff asked.
"Don't let her out of our sight, keep her distracted, make something good happen, and this time instead of getting mad at her we just will show her more love." Matt said.
"Yea...This is going to work." Jeff nodded.
~~~~ 4 hours later~~~~
I was walking down stairs holding my head. I groaned. Matt and Jeff looked up at me.
"Got a headache Babygurl?" Jeff asked.
"Please Jeff don't talk so loud." I said
"I'll take that as a yes" Matt laughed
"Where's the aspirin in this house?" I asked
"In the left cabinet in the kitchen" Jeff said
I went to the kitchen and found the aspirin. I took 2 tablets and washed it down with water. I walked back in and laid on the couch.
"I'm never drinking again." I said
"Good, we hope you learned your lesson" Jeff said
I stuck out my tongue at him, but then held my head. They just laughed at me. Once the aspirin kicked in, I got up and went outside. I went and sat in the Imagination. For all my readers that doesn't know what the Imagination is (I hope I get this right) It's a place behind Jeff's where he is building a pond, he has his art work, and it's just beautiful. I just sat out their thinking about Spike, B.J, and just everything. Nothing was going right. My whole world was crashing right before my eyes.I sat there for hours. Jeff and Matt came and checked on me a couple times and asked if I was hungry. I just said no. It was about 11 at night and I was still out there. Matt had gone home and Jeff came out and sat next to me. He wrapped his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulders. I started crying.
"I miss him Jeff. I miss him so much." I cried
"I know babygurl. I know. It will get better though."He comforted.
"Jeff?"
"Yea sweetie"
"Can I sleep with you tonight?"
"Sure you can. Come on inside before you catch a cold."
I nodded as he got up. He then pulled me up and took me inside. I got my night clothes on and went into Jeff's room where he was writing in his journal. I scooted in next to him and hugged him close as I went to sleep. He looked down at me and wondered if I was going to be alright...........The next couple of days were rough being with out Spike. I knew it would be harder when I would see him at the arena. We got there and I was getting ready to walk out with Jeff and Matt. When waiting by the curtain, I saw him. I just turned so I didn't have to look at him. What I didn't know was that he saw me just as I was going out. He saw my broken hand and he thought he was seeing things. He walked to the monitor and saw me and the guys bouncing out. He then saw that my hand was in a cast and he was worried about me. He listened to the commentary as I sat and talked with Jr and King.
"It looks like Stacy Hardy is going to join us." King said
"Welcome Stacy" Jr said
"Thank you Jr and King. It's great to be here."
"We heard you weren't going to be here today" Jr said
"Yea I wasn't going to come, but Matt and Jeff dragged me here anyways" I laughed
"Well I am glad they did. We love having you around" King said.
"Thanks agian King, but we all know why you want me here"
"Oh and why is that?"
"Cuz I have puppies" I laughed
"That you do" He said looking down at them.
"King show some respect." Jr said
"It's ok Jr. I don't mind."
"Hey Stacy, what happened to your hand?" Jr asked
"I punched a tree." I laughed
"Why would you do that?" King asked.
"I was frustrated, angry, and upset about some stuff and I ran into the woods behind my brothers house and punched a tree." I explained.
"Man it sounds like you have been having a rough week." Jr said.
"Yea and it's about to get worse." I said as I stood up and took off my head phones. I looked up at the top of the ramp and was surprized and angered at who I saw.