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Light green water below me, maybe about a 30 foot drop, from what I was assuming. Above the light neon water, my legs were freely dangling over the railing. The city behind me was still scurrying around and doing its daily routines such as buying goods, trading, and other sorts of entertainment before the day was over. With my back towards the world, I sat there just on the railing wandering about the group. Ever since I washed up on the shore, I have changed. Maybe Lulu was right, I sighed, I have changed. Well, I am just hoping that I haven't change a whole lot. I couldn't help it though. Something was bothering me…making me this false person that the world was witnessing. Now, after thinking about what Lulu had said, I was becoming sad. This depressed person wasn't me at all. There was something in my way…but what was it? A moment after thinking, I realized that it was Auron who had created this miserable Al Bhed.

My head propped up form my knees and I thought about how Auron could make me this way. I mean he was just my comrade, what could he do to change my attitude? Biting my lip, I thought about when I met him on the shore that day after Tidus had rescued me. Auron stayed while the other left and he listened to me. He stayed by my side. Auron always watched out for me. He also saved me before that fiend tore me into pieces at the Djose highroad.

My mouth soon started to giggle as I thought about when he had saved me from the bed incident. Soon after, as I was staring down into green liquid, I thought about the morning in Mi'Ihen when Auron and I sat in front of the sea and just…talked. That was really the first and only time we really talked that deep before. I mean, of course we had exchanged a couple words while walking to the next couple towns, but there was something about that morning that was somewhat, different.

Then, as if someone had hit me over the head, my eyes widen and I lifted my skull to the conclusion I had brought myself to: I was beginning to feel something for Auron.

How could it be though? He was so much older than me!

He was also defiantly not my type either!

I brought my finger to my lip and began nibbling on it while I thought about Auron. God, there was no way in hell that I was starting to feel anything for him. Then again, there was the fact that he was practically the only one to talk to me, the only one to stop and ask me how I was doing. Auron was also the only one in the group who talked to me, well, stood beside me, when I was alone. I guess, after thinking about it, Auron was the closest person in the group to me so far.

Don't get me wrong, there was also my cousin. But something just, wasn't there between us. Lately, she has been talking to Tidus a lot…probably because she is starting to like him. Even Tidus said something to me about liking her. Oh well. She was happy, and he was happy, and I guess, that's all that should matter to someone who was sacrificing their life to save the people of Spira.

Lulu and Wakka, well, as much as I trusted them as my friends, they really just weren't the type of people who would listen to a teenage girl like me. 'Cept for Lulu though. She always protected me whenever it was a cold day. Maybe it's because she knew I had no other type of protection. Lulu was also the one who read me like a book. I guess it's because she was older than me and she had experienced everything I was going through before. She was also willing to teach me some of her magic, which made me happier, I guess, because now I was starting to learn something other than Steal. I looked up to Lulu as an older sister. I really want to be like her when I grow up. Lulu, she was perfect in every way, and I really admired her.

I sighed and then just thought how really Auron was the only one that cared. Maybe that's why I continued with this journey….because of him. And my cousin, of course! I looked down and into the water, trying to find answers within the small fishes below. As hard as I tried for the next five minutes, I just couldn't get Auron out of my head. Why, out of all the people in the world, would he do this to me? What about the rest of the group? Why did it have to be me?

A heavy weight was slammed on my shoulder and I jumped in surprise. Quickly turning my head to see who it was, or what it was, I was relieved to find out that it was Wakka.

"Hey girli," he greeted, "what'cha up to?"  I turned to him and hopped of the railing. With a raised fist I gently slapped him across the arm. "Hey," he whined, "what wuz that for?"

"You scared me!" I laughed. "Geez, really, what ever happened to 'hi'?"

Wakka smirked and then reached out for me as I was playing with my two back braids. He picked me up and then threw me over his shoulders.

"Hey!" I screamed, "what are ya doin?!" My legs wiggled in his tight grasp and I punched his back with my little fists.

Wakka walked over back towards the manor and once we arrived back at the group, he placed me on the ground. I stopped laughing and then lifted my head to find myself seated on front of Auron. I grunted silently and then began getting up to walk away form him. To my little knowledge, Wakka was behind me the entire time and as I stood up, I walked right into him.

"Wakka, what are you doing?" I asked him as I rubbed my side to ease the pain.

"Say yer sorry." He crossed his arms.

My jaw dropped and I stood to my feet. "Me," I asked, "why?"

"Cause, you disrespected Auron." He said to me.

I peered behind him and was expecting to see the whole gang hawking me down, but surprisingly, found it only to be Wakka and I. I sighed in defeat and then looked back up to him. "Why, huh?" I asked again. I wasn't giving up without a fair fight.

"'Cause he ask'd me to, ya?" he glanced to the red warrior. Auron wasn't really amused and he just "Hn" as a reply.

My jaw dropped as I finally put two and two together. He really did care for me. It wasn't a lie or anything; he wasn't playing around; he really did care about me and our relationship between us. I turned to him slowly, trying to believe that he did care for me.

I opened my mouth to begin my apologies once I found Wakka walk away from us. The moment I opened my mouth Auron turned his head away and I was distracted.

"We'll discuss this later." He said to me quietly as he found the group huddled around Yuna. He didn't say anything else to me and started walked over to the rest of the group.

He left me speechless and ever so confused. Why was he doing this?! What was the point of even bringing me over here?! I stomped my foot and crossed my arms in frustration as I watched the back of the red monk walk away from me. Grunting and kicking some dust, I marched over to where they were.

Yuna was sitting on a small bench in front of the manor while Lulu was to her right, Kimahri to her left, Tidus in front of her, Wakka beside Lulu, and Auron and I approaching from behind Kimahri. Squeezing between the stubborn guardian and the blue Ronso, I made my way to my troubled cousin. Her face was blown into oblivion and her smile was no where to be found on her face. Her eyes, wondering around in lost thoughts and deep concentration.

"Yuna, the high Summoner's daughter. Seymour, the leader of the Guado." Lulu spoke, holding one of her arms. Her face was towards the ground, nodding in concentration as she spoke. "Married in the name of Yeavon, and overcoming the barriers of race." She looked up to find everyone listening to her. "It would give Spira something cheery to talk about, for a change."

Yuna looked back down to the ground, wearing a cheap smile on her face that not even a merchant would buy. Wakka looked down to her and then to the rest of the guardians. "Sounds like a passin' daydream, just like Auron says."

I rolled my eyes as Wakka gave Auron some credit. Good one, make his ego and his head bigger Wakka.

Tidus finally let in some good news. "Come one guys," he said cheerfully. "lets just get on with the pilgrimage." He didn't wanna hear about Yuna getting married just as much as I did. "I mean, marriage?"

A small smirk fell on my lips and I placed my hands on my hips as I starred up to Tidus. "Hmmmm…" I said suspiciously, "jealous?" I knew he was of course, but I was just pullin' his Chocobo's.

Tidus was a bit taken back and tried to cover his true feelings by denying it. "Hello, we have to defeat Sin, remember?" he said to me. "Romance can wait."

I rolled my eyes and shook my head, hearing more lies out of the Blitzer's mouth.

Wakka sighed and shook his head in disgust. "Sure did pick a fine time to lay dis one on us."

Yuna remained seated the whole time, figuring out what to do with her life. While everyone stood around her, talking about the different options and the different outcomes the marriage would bring, no one ever paid attention to what she was feeling. I watched her, sitting there, her hands crossed over another on top of her lap as she sat there listening to everyone choose her own life. I bit my lip and then shook my head, not believing how everyone was ignoring her like that.

Yuna looked to me and then nodded as if she had made up her mind. She cleared her throat and stood to her feet. Everyone stopped their conversations and waited for their Summoner to speak out to them.

"I am going to the Farplane." She said to us ever so silently. "I am going there to see my father and to think on this."

Everyone glanced different looks to each other and nodded in agreement. Yuna looked towards Lulu as to find some type of guidance.

The black mage nodded her head gracefully and placed a hand on her Summoner's shoulder. "Go on, we'll be right behind you."

"Yeah, Lulu's right" I perked, "we'll be right behind you!"

Yuna seemed to have regained her courage once she found that everyone was finally behind her on this very crucial decision she was facing. With a small nod of the head, the group began to make their way to the upper level of Guadosalam and towards an entryway of the Farplane's.  Walking several minutes down a passageway, they make their way to what appears to be the Farplane's.

Tidus and I walked together, side by side as we made our way to the steps that lead to the Farplane's entrance. The group and Tidus made their way to the rippling portal, but something in the passage way before the steps seemed to have stopped me from traveling before them. Pyerflies, flying gracefully around the long corridor circled around me, floating in a formation that seemed to be a curious dance. I turned my head to the floating balls, wandering what they could be doing floating this close to me. Then I thought about the time when was sitting out front of the temple in Djose. This was the second time that a Pyerfly had come this close to me.

Could it be someone that I know?

Was it my mother?

I shuddered at the thought about my mother flying around me and when I shook myself out of the daydream I had put myself into by my silly thoughts, I noticed that I had been deserted from the group. Voices were heard up ahead and I distinctly made out Tidus'.

"Aren't you coming?" the boy asked to someone, his voice getting louder and more distinct as I approached him.

"I do not belong there." A voice answered him. I stopped in my tracks and knew that Tidus was talking to Auron. I made my way behind a small wall before entering the steps to the Farplane's and placed my back behind the wall.

What could they be talking about?

Tidus then made a short laugh to what Auron had replied. "You're just scared." He teased.

"Searching the past to find the future," he began, but a sigh had caught his next words. "That is all that is there, I need it not."

My eyes narrowed around the wall as I began to wonder what Auron was saying. I stepped forward to hear their conversation better, but my foot kicked a small rock and it made its way down the hall and into the room where Tidus and Auron were talking.

Ah, cred*!

Auron was about to finish when he heard the sound of a small rock roll it's way into the room. His eye scanned the room, searching for the guardian's that should be in the same area as he. He nodded his head once and looked back up to the young Blitzer. "You better be going."

'Well, I guess there is no need for me to continue hiding anymore, so I might as well make my self present to them', I thought. I walked away from the wall and made my way into the room where I found Auron sitting on the thick ledge to my right and Tidus standing in front of him. Tidus looked over towards me and waved. I waved back to him and figured I would make my knowledge useful to him, seeing how he told me that he was scared to enter the Farplane's; thinking it was only a place with dead people and ghosts. And after hearing what Auron had said to him, I guess it didn't make his judgment any better.

"You're not really going to see the dead, more like your memories of them." I said to him in a jolly tone. I looked up towards Auron who had his back faced from the Farplane's. I licked my lips and continued with what I knew about the spiritual place to help ease Tidus' jumping nerves. "People think of their relatives, and the Pyerflies react to them. They take on the form of the dead person. It's an illusion, nothing else."

Tidus nodded his head and grew confident about the whole thing. With his hand on his chin, he thought about how it wouldn't be so bad.

I gulped and then took a quick shot to Auron who was still so silent about the whole thing. He seemed to be, alone. As much as I wanted to say to Tidus, 'Hey, are ya ready?' and head on into the portal, I couldn't help but feel this emotion deep within me to stay with him.

Now, I was torn. It was between seeing my mother and tell her about how I have been, or stay here with the grouchiest person on Spira.

Man, the things I do.

I sighed and faced my head to the ground. With a big gulp, I looked back to Tidus who had his back faced to me. I splashed a smile on my face and walked over to the opposite ledge from Auron and sat down. "Have fun!" I chirped.

Tidus was a bit taken back, "What you're not going either?"

I closed my eyes, trying to find a suitable answer to give him. Mom, forgive me.

"I…keep my memories inside." I turned to face him. Tidus watched me as a confused look washed over his face. I sighed and smiled again, trying to cover my true feelings, "Memories are nice, but…that's all they are."  I turned my head from his once I saw him nod and walk up the steps to the Farplane's. God, what did I put myself into?

~*~ Awww, poo, I have to go to work. I shall write more when I come home though. Sorry if there are any errors. Thanks for the reviews everyone, you guys are the greatest!!!! Mwah!!! Hehehe ~*~