Until Death Do Us Part
Harry Potter theme and related characters are property of J.K. Rowling. Plot idea is accredited to the original author, J.K.Rowling. Plot angle and revisions idea of Melissa Pomeroy. Character Verissa Station (name borrowed with permission from an aquaintence) property of Meisako Pyoko-Chan (Melissa Pomeroy), copyright 2002. Any and all reviews appriaciated.
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chapter TEN: Stubborn is as Stuborn Does
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Welcome to my version of 'life before Harry'. This is the story of James, Lily, and the gang in their seventh year of Hogwarts to the begining of the Harry Potter series as we know it... Please read my rendition of Harry's fifth year, Harry Potter and the Fallen Angel at Hogwarts (complete), and his sixth year, Harry Potter and the Children's Crusades (work in progress).
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"That's what you and James are on about?" Analisa narrowed her eyes and leaned towards Lily, she whispered instensely, "That must be the single dumbest thing I have ever heard in my life."
Lily glowered, "Gee. Thanks for your support."
"I sincerely hope that is sarcasm, Lily, because I really think you are being very very very very ignorant."
"Okay! I get it! I'm being stupid-"
"Very."
"-but so is James!"
"Lily," said Evelyn softly, speaking for the first time since they had all climbed onto Lily's bed, "Maybe you should just talk to James. You know, sit down alone and just talk about. Get out of your system."
"But he's so stubborn, Evee!" Lily whined.
"So are you, Lily," said Analisa firmly, "I still think the whole thing is stupid, I mean, I don't even understand! He had a secret- You nearly poisoned him and his pals- And now you set his room to attack them all?"
"You forgot about that Slytherin boy," added Evelyn.
"Yeah! What about Snape! What's with that?"
Lily had gone quite red. Sitting on her bed, facing the interogation of her room mates, she had passed the feeling of being vulnerable a long time ago. Now she was just being taken advantage of. "Well, I... I don't know!" She covered her face with her hands and fell back onto her pillow.
"Lily, I don't understand anything either... Why were you upset with James for having a secret? Everyone's allowed secrets, you know. I'm sure you have secrets of some sort, don't you?" said Evelyn calmly. Lily peeked through her fingers and looked at Evelyn. She did look as though she didn't understand. Then again, she didn't understand much of anything anyway.
"It wasn't that James wasn't letting me in on whatever it was that he was hiding, it was that I was hurting him, and I didn't know what I'd done ot hurt him! I was obviously offending James and Sirius and Remus and Peter, but they never told me that I shouldn't say certain things, or do certain things... I just didn't know! I didn't know!
"Then they all became upset with me and I never suspected that I was the reason they were upset!" She groaned into her hands and then said, "I guess it all just started from there, really."
It was quiet for a moment.
"And you aren't apologizing because...?"
"You said so yourself, Analisa, I am stubborn."
"Oh! Do get over it! Apologize!" Analisa was looking quite frusterated.
"I can't... I just can't! Not now, anyway. I'm not ready. I'm still a bit angry, I guess."
Analisa was about to speak, but Evelyn cut her off, "Why don't you sleep on it, Lily? Since you've got it all talked out now, maybe you'll come to a decision in the morning, eh?"
Lily nodded and crawled under her comforter. She knew she wouldn't be over it by the morning, but she wasn't going to say that. They'd just keep her up longer and try to change her mind. But she was greatful all the same. It was good to get away from their intense, burning eyes. There were still too many things to think through. Firstly, James. He was acting funny before the whole antidote incident. It started on the train ride...
She groaned, pulling the blanket over her head. And what she she going to do with Severus? James clearly detested the guy, but Severus was seeming to grow fond of her...
She heard someone finally click the lights off and she suddenly felt warm. It was strange, but with the comforter blocking the moonlight, it was as if she were being sheilded from the rest of the world. Lily came to the sudden conclusion that she liked the dark.
Lily woke the next morning with her mind set. She was going to apologize to James, but not today, not yet. She wasn't entirely positive she could pick the right words to make him understand and forgive.
Apparently she was never very good at chosing her words well.
She silently decided that she would pretend James and the others didn't exist until she could bring herself to apologize. But that might make things worse. Lily was never in favor with the Silent Treatment. Lily sighed heavily and heaved herself out of bed.
The air was crisp and extremely cold in the dorm. She shivered and groped for her bed robe under her bed. Dirty socks, misplaced quills, forgotten candy wrappers... she forwned. Where was that robe? She propper her elbows on the mattress and searched around the room, locating it on the window ledge. How it had gotten there was a mystery to her.
Lily quickly retreived it and tugged it on. Instant warmth. As she pulled the robe over her arm, she blinked. It was terribly bright outside. She cracked open the window pane slightly and was met with a sharp burst of fresh, freezing cold air.
Snow.
It had snowed during the night.
A smiled quickly spread across her face. She loved snow. She loved to frolic in it, to play in it, to throw it at James in the form of large balls. Lily sighed and closed the window. She would be doing none of that anytime soon. She still had the rest of the week before she had any free time in her schedule. Even then, she'd have to sneak out after hours just to be able to touch it.
Lily showered and headed down to breakfast, passing two blond girls ran past, something shoved conspicuosly up their robes.
"Morning, Lily!"
"MacKenzie! Madeline! What are you two up-" their door slammed closed and she heard it lock behind them "-to..." She shook her head and continued down to the Great Hall. Lily passed Analisa and Evelyn in the Common Room, but purposely avoided making any eye contact. She wandered the corridor, lost in thought, until she reached the Great Hall. Even then, she randomly picked a seat at the Gryffindor table and sat.
Lily had nearly finished eating the remainder of her bacon when the Marauders trooped in. She looked up and followed them with her eyes as they took seats as far away from her as they could manage. Peter met her gaze and she quickly looked away.
As she did, she immediatley locked eyes with Severus Snape across the room. It was a moment before either of them even blinked. She watched him guesture towards the door with his head. Lily nodded and gathered up her rucksack from the floor. They both stood and walked out of the room together.
Lily was certain she heard the boys comment as she got up. She was sure that whatever they had said had been rude, but it did sound an awful lot like "Don't worry, James, it'll be alright, you'll see."
"Hello Severus."
"Good morning, Lily."
Lily smiled brightly at him, but all he could manage was a small nod in return.
"Thanks for walking me to class, I-"
"Think nothing of it. Our destination is the same. Why wouldn't we walk together?" he said crisply and rather fast, as if her were telling himself, rather than Lily. They were both silent as the ascended the stone staircase to MagiGenetics. He held the door for her, to which she thanked him.
And yet, she was extremely releived when Severus took his normal seat in the front of the room, rather than sitting in the empty one beside her. For some reason, she felt guilty about befriending Severus. Was it because she had only started to talk to him because she was angry with James? She sighed and took out her quill. She was such an awful person.
"Lily! Hold up!" Lily spun around to see Verissa running toward her in the corridor, just after her last class that day.
"What is it?" Lily thought she read distress on the Ravenclaw's face, "Is everything alright?"
"No!" Verissa stomped her foot and scowled unmercilessly, "Why are you being so mean to James and Remus and them? You know, just as well as I do, that they didn't mean any harm, and they know we didn't mean any harm, either!"
"Vera, it's more than that. It's just- I... I'll apologize, I will, but I'm not ready yet," she smiled weakly, "You know how stubborn I can get."
Verissa smiled back and nodded. "Alright, when you're ready." Her smiled faded noticabely as a dark figure stepped out of the shadows.
Severus.
"Evans," he said evenly, "Are you ready for this evening?" he eyed Verissa with some disinterest, "Surely you hadn't forgotten our plans for tonight?"
Lily shook her head, "No, I didn't forget. I'll meet you in the library at a quarter-til-seven, that was the plan, wasn't it?" She turned back to Verissa when he nodded, but Verissa didn't look as though she had any thought of continuing their little chat.
Her young face had twisted itself into a spasm of horror and she backed away several paces before positvely fleeing for the sake of sanity, or maybe she was in a hurry to tell James what she had just witnessed.
"Hrmph!" said Lily, crossing her arms over her chest.
"Some friend you've got their, Evans," said Severus. Ah... the language of sarcasm.
"Yeah, some friend."
Harry Potter theme and related characters are property of J.K. Rowling. Plot idea is accredited to the original author, J.K.Rowling. Plot angle and revisions idea of Melissa Pomeroy. Character Verissa Station (name borrowed with permission from an aquaintence) property of Meisako Pyoko-Chan (Melissa Pomeroy), copyright 2002. Any and all reviews appriaciated.
chapter TEN: Stubborn is as Stuborn Does
Welcome to my version of 'life before Harry'. This is the story of James, Lily, and the gang in their seventh year of Hogwarts to the begining of the Harry Potter series as we know it... Please read my rendition of Harry's fifth year, Harry Potter and the Fallen Angel at Hogwarts (complete), and his sixth year, Harry Potter and the Children's Crusades (work in progress).
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"That's what you and James are on about?" Analisa narrowed her eyes and leaned towards Lily, she whispered instensely, "That must be the single dumbest thing I have ever heard in my life."
Lily glowered, "Gee. Thanks for your support."
"I sincerely hope that is sarcasm, Lily, because I really think you are being very very very very ignorant."
"Okay! I get it! I'm being stupid-"
"Very."
"-but so is James!"
"Lily," said Evelyn softly, speaking for the first time since they had all climbed onto Lily's bed, "Maybe you should just talk to James. You know, sit down alone and just talk about. Get out of your system."
"But he's so stubborn, Evee!" Lily whined.
"So are you, Lily," said Analisa firmly, "I still think the whole thing is stupid, I mean, I don't even understand! He had a secret- You nearly poisoned him and his pals- And now you set his room to attack them all?"
"You forgot about that Slytherin boy," added Evelyn.
"Yeah! What about Snape! What's with that?"
Lily had gone quite red. Sitting on her bed, facing the interogation of her room mates, she had passed the feeling of being vulnerable a long time ago. Now she was just being taken advantage of. "Well, I... I don't know!" She covered her face with her hands and fell back onto her pillow.
"Lily, I don't understand anything either... Why were you upset with James for having a secret? Everyone's allowed secrets, you know. I'm sure you have secrets of some sort, don't you?" said Evelyn calmly. Lily peeked through her fingers and looked at Evelyn. She did look as though she didn't understand. Then again, she didn't understand much of anything anyway.
"It wasn't that James wasn't letting me in on whatever it was that he was hiding, it was that I was hurting him, and I didn't know what I'd done ot hurt him! I was obviously offending James and Sirius and Remus and Peter, but they never told me that I shouldn't say certain things, or do certain things... I just didn't know! I didn't know!
"Then they all became upset with me and I never suspected that I was the reason they were upset!" She groaned into her hands and then said, "I guess it all just started from there, really."
It was quiet for a moment.
"And you aren't apologizing because...?"
"You said so yourself, Analisa, I am stubborn."
"Oh! Do get over it! Apologize!" Analisa was looking quite frusterated.
"I can't... I just can't! Not now, anyway. I'm not ready. I'm still a bit angry, I guess."
Analisa was about to speak, but Evelyn cut her off, "Why don't you sleep on it, Lily? Since you've got it all talked out now, maybe you'll come to a decision in the morning, eh?"
Lily nodded and crawled under her comforter. She knew she wouldn't be over it by the morning, but she wasn't going to say that. They'd just keep her up longer and try to change her mind. But she was greatful all the same. It was good to get away from their intense, burning eyes. There were still too many things to think through. Firstly, James. He was acting funny before the whole antidote incident. It started on the train ride...
She groaned, pulling the blanket over her head. And what she she going to do with Severus? James clearly detested the guy, but Severus was seeming to grow fond of her...
She heard someone finally click the lights off and she suddenly felt warm. It was strange, but with the comforter blocking the moonlight, it was as if she were being sheilded from the rest of the world. Lily came to the sudden conclusion that she liked the dark.
Lily woke the next morning with her mind set. She was going to apologize to James, but not today, not yet. She wasn't entirely positive she could pick the right words to make him understand and forgive.
Apparently she was never very good at chosing her words well.
She silently decided that she would pretend James and the others didn't exist until she could bring herself to apologize. But that might make things worse. Lily was never in favor with the Silent Treatment. Lily sighed heavily and heaved herself out of bed.
The air was crisp and extremely cold in the dorm. She shivered and groped for her bed robe under her bed. Dirty socks, misplaced quills, forgotten candy wrappers... she forwned. Where was that robe? She propper her elbows on the mattress and searched around the room, locating it on the window ledge. How it had gotten there was a mystery to her.
Lily quickly retreived it and tugged it on. Instant warmth. As she pulled the robe over her arm, she blinked. It was terribly bright outside. She cracked open the window pane slightly and was met with a sharp burst of fresh, freezing cold air.
Snow.
It had snowed during the night.
A smiled quickly spread across her face. She loved snow. She loved to frolic in it, to play in it, to throw it at James in the form of large balls. Lily sighed and closed the window. She would be doing none of that anytime soon. She still had the rest of the week before she had any free time in her schedule. Even then, she'd have to sneak out after hours just to be able to touch it.
Lily showered and headed down to breakfast, passing two blond girls ran past, something shoved conspicuosly up their robes.
"Morning, Lily!"
"MacKenzie! Madeline! What are you two up-" their door slammed closed and she heard it lock behind them "-to..." She shook her head and continued down to the Great Hall. Lily passed Analisa and Evelyn in the Common Room, but purposely avoided making any eye contact. She wandered the corridor, lost in thought, until she reached the Great Hall. Even then, she randomly picked a seat at the Gryffindor table and sat.
Lily had nearly finished eating the remainder of her bacon when the Marauders trooped in. She looked up and followed them with her eyes as they took seats as far away from her as they could manage. Peter met her gaze and she quickly looked away.
As she did, she immediatley locked eyes with Severus Snape across the room. It was a moment before either of them even blinked. She watched him guesture towards the door with his head. Lily nodded and gathered up her rucksack from the floor. They both stood and walked out of the room together.
Lily was certain she heard the boys comment as she got up. She was sure that whatever they had said had been rude, but it did sound an awful lot like "Don't worry, James, it'll be alright, you'll see."
"Hello Severus."
"Good morning, Lily."
Lily smiled brightly at him, but all he could manage was a small nod in return.
"Thanks for walking me to class, I-"
"Think nothing of it. Our destination is the same. Why wouldn't we walk together?" he said crisply and rather fast, as if her were telling himself, rather than Lily. They were both silent as the ascended the stone staircase to MagiGenetics. He held the door for her, to which she thanked him.
And yet, she was extremely releived when Severus took his normal seat in the front of the room, rather than sitting in the empty one beside her. For some reason, she felt guilty about befriending Severus. Was it because she had only started to talk to him because she was angry with James? She sighed and took out her quill. She was such an awful person.
"Lily! Hold up!" Lily spun around to see Verissa running toward her in the corridor, just after her last class that day.
"What is it?" Lily thought she read distress on the Ravenclaw's face, "Is everything alright?"
"No!" Verissa stomped her foot and scowled unmercilessly, "Why are you being so mean to James and Remus and them? You know, just as well as I do, that they didn't mean any harm, and they know we didn't mean any harm, either!"
"Vera, it's more than that. It's just- I... I'll apologize, I will, but I'm not ready yet," she smiled weakly, "You know how stubborn I can get."
Verissa smiled back and nodded. "Alright, when you're ready." Her smiled faded noticabely as a dark figure stepped out of the shadows.
Severus.
"Evans," he said evenly, "Are you ready for this evening?" he eyed Verissa with some disinterest, "Surely you hadn't forgotten our plans for tonight?"
Lily shook her head, "No, I didn't forget. I'll meet you in the library at a quarter-til-seven, that was the plan, wasn't it?" She turned back to Verissa when he nodded, but Verissa didn't look as though she had any thought of continuing their little chat.
Her young face had twisted itself into a spasm of horror and she backed away several paces before positvely fleeing for the sake of sanity, or maybe she was in a hurry to tell James what she had just witnessed.
"Hrmph!" said Lily, crossing her arms over her chest.
"Some friend you've got their, Evans," said Severus. Ah... the language of sarcasm.
"Yeah, some friend."