Hi folks!
Ya see I'm getting tired of writing this... the story isn't important anymore but I need this and the next to chapters to express what I wanted to say with this story!
Greetings to: Shiori, Azumi (so hard to read English fanfiction?),Oba-san, Holly,BlackNeko and everyone who read and reviewed this story!
Dedicated to Nuggi for some reason I still don't know myself - figure it out yourself!
Hang on for the epilogue, Yukio ***************************************************************** Part II/II- Love is a Competition
Michiru let out a deep sigh, somehow in relief, but also in amazement.
"You're right, I'd always assumed there was more going on between you and Elza.
She had been talking about you so many times that I talked myself into believing that she would run to you as soon as I had broken up with her.
But, to hook up on your story, I broke up with Elza although I still loved her more than anything in the world. It was just that I had come to a point in my life when I couldn't trust in anyone. I even couldn't trust myself.
Myself, was that Michiru, or was it Sailor Neptune? What did I fight for? All I could do was go on to find it out which meant I could not afford to involve anyone else in my business.
Some weeks passed and I still couldn't forget my feelings for Elza.
It would have been too obvious by far when I had followed her everywhere, but I could manage to watch her competitions at the weekends.
Of course she noticed that and talked to me afterwards. So, step by step we became friends again. Not close and never as close as we had been before, and I was able to convince her that I didn't love her any more. If I could have convinced myself... but that happened all automatically when I started watching the girl that surpassed Elza everytime.
I was sure I'd fallen in love with you, always so cold and resolute these day that you almost could be scared of it. But it was exactly this what I loved about you. And I wanted to know what was behind this surface. What more can I say about this period?
Soon, I came to your races because of you and no more because of Elza, though she thought I did.
But there was no time for love. I ignored my feelings. I was still Sailor Neptune and had to find the other senshi and the three talismans.
I started hating Neptune more than ever before when I had the dream this one night. I saw the slender shape of another girl in a senshi fuku. All around her, destruction, blood, dead bodies, just as in the dreams I've had had before I had become a senshi.
When the girl turned and I recognized your face, I started crying.
Crying because of happiness that I could be with you from now on, crying because of fear to lose you within the battle.
I didn't want you to become a senshi.
But I wanted to be close to you which meant I had to stop being a senshi or you had to become one, too.
I tried to delay it as long as possible, but finally I had to give in to the youma. They had become indecredibly strong and I couldn't defeat them alone anymore.
I hesitated when I asked Elza to introduce me to you.
At last, I stood at the track behind Elza and tried to hide my insecurity. Should I really make you a senshi, make you give up your life just as I had done some months before?
I decided to get you to know better. They day you'd become a senshi would surely come in time. I couldn't force it but I couldn't stop it though.
You know the consequence of this decision, Haruka."
"I know it only too well", the blonde smiled and hugged her lover tightly. "Somehow Elza was the best friend I've ever had."
"You didn't know her this long, did you?" Michiru exclaimed.
"I didn't,but without her, I'd never had the faith to go on and, more important, I'd never met you." _________________________________________________________________ Yukio 2003/05/24 1:12 wow, it's become late... Oh no, romance again ^ ^;; Write me whatcha think about this at skygoddess@gmx.net !
Ya see I'm getting tired of writing this... the story isn't important anymore but I need this and the next to chapters to express what I wanted to say with this story!
Greetings to: Shiori, Azumi (so hard to read English fanfiction?),Oba-san, Holly,BlackNeko and everyone who read and reviewed this story!
Dedicated to Nuggi for some reason I still don't know myself - figure it out yourself!
Hang on for the epilogue, Yukio ***************************************************************** Part II/II- Love is a Competition
Michiru let out a deep sigh, somehow in relief, but also in amazement.
"You're right, I'd always assumed there was more going on between you and Elza.
She had been talking about you so many times that I talked myself into believing that she would run to you as soon as I had broken up with her.
But, to hook up on your story, I broke up with Elza although I still loved her more than anything in the world. It was just that I had come to a point in my life when I couldn't trust in anyone. I even couldn't trust myself.
Myself, was that Michiru, or was it Sailor Neptune? What did I fight for? All I could do was go on to find it out which meant I could not afford to involve anyone else in my business.
Some weeks passed and I still couldn't forget my feelings for Elza.
It would have been too obvious by far when I had followed her everywhere, but I could manage to watch her competitions at the weekends.
Of course she noticed that and talked to me afterwards. So, step by step we became friends again. Not close and never as close as we had been before, and I was able to convince her that I didn't love her any more. If I could have convinced myself... but that happened all automatically when I started watching the girl that surpassed Elza everytime.
I was sure I'd fallen in love with you, always so cold and resolute these day that you almost could be scared of it. But it was exactly this what I loved about you. And I wanted to know what was behind this surface. What more can I say about this period?
Soon, I came to your races because of you and no more because of Elza, though she thought I did.
But there was no time for love. I ignored my feelings. I was still Sailor Neptune and had to find the other senshi and the three talismans.
I started hating Neptune more than ever before when I had the dream this one night. I saw the slender shape of another girl in a senshi fuku. All around her, destruction, blood, dead bodies, just as in the dreams I've had had before I had become a senshi.
When the girl turned and I recognized your face, I started crying.
Crying because of happiness that I could be with you from now on, crying because of fear to lose you within the battle.
I didn't want you to become a senshi.
But I wanted to be close to you which meant I had to stop being a senshi or you had to become one, too.
I tried to delay it as long as possible, but finally I had to give in to the youma. They had become indecredibly strong and I couldn't defeat them alone anymore.
I hesitated when I asked Elza to introduce me to you.
At last, I stood at the track behind Elza and tried to hide my insecurity. Should I really make you a senshi, make you give up your life just as I had done some months before?
I decided to get you to know better. They day you'd become a senshi would surely come in time. I couldn't force it but I couldn't stop it though.
You know the consequence of this decision, Haruka."
"I know it only too well", the blonde smiled and hugged her lover tightly. "Somehow Elza was the best friend I've ever had."
"You didn't know her this long, did you?" Michiru exclaimed.
"I didn't,but without her, I'd never had the faith to go on and, more important, I'd never met you." _________________________________________________________________ Yukio 2003/05/24 1:12 wow, it's become late... Oh no, romance again ^ ^;; Write me whatcha think about this at skygoddess@gmx.net !