Why Me? - 13
Lorelai and Rory looked at each other, almost completely in shock after what just happened.
"Didn't see that one coming…" Lorelai said, breaking the silence.
"Yea…" Rory sighed, seeming pre-occupied with other thoughts. Lorelai made her way to the drivers seat and Rory got back into the passengers side, buckling her selt belt as Lorelai started the car.
"So, are you gonna be Ok kiddo? That couldn't have been the best thing in the world for you to watch right now…"
"I'm fine." Rory quickly replied.
There was a pause. It was obvious Rory didn't want to talk about it, but it was just as obvious that Lorelai was dying to know what was going on inside Rory's head, what she was thinking, what made her love Brad when she had someone like Dean, and what made her go back to Brad after he first had hit her.
"Ror, I don't mean to push but… what did you see in him that made you keep going back after the first time he… you know?"
"After the first time he hit me? You can say it Mom, I don't mind."
"Ok, after the first time he… hit you, what made you go back?"
"Mom did you ever love Dad?"
"Of course I did honey, I still do." Lorelai said, unsure of why Rory had asked her that question.
"Well, I loved Brad. I'd do anything for him and he would do anything for me. After the first time I just figured 'hey, it happens' and tried to downplay the seriousness of the situation. I figured since he loved me, he'd figure out his mistake and it would never happen again. When it did - that's when I knew it probably wasn't going to stop."
Rory paused and took in a deep breath. She hadn't had a conversation like this with her Mom in such a long time, it felt so good to be talking with her again. Hell, it felt good to be talking about it at all. She held it in for so long. Sure, everyone knew what happened and how and why but she never really got to express exactly how she felt and why she felt that way. But she was doing it now, and it felt good. She took another breath, relaxed a little, and continued.
"I've heard stories, I'm not a helpless victim like everyone thinks I am. I know that its not something that goes away, and that its not something that can be very easily fixed. But I didn't want to stay with him and end up a battered housewife. I knew that's the road id be headed down if I had stayed with him, like I said, I'm not completely the victim here. Its partially my fault that he hit me again anyway…"
"Rory don't even say that! Its never your fault, it never was and it never will be."
"Well I don't mean I deserved it, but I knew in my head it was going to happen again. I just blocked it out and was to afraid to see it. I should have broken up with him after the first time but I didn't. And then we went so long without any problems that I figured hey, maybe it was an accident. But then when it happened again I knew it was over. I knew the relationship had nothing left."
Lorelai looked at her daughter while she was explaining why she stayed with Brad. She couldn't help but notice how much her little girl had grown up to become a woman. She also couldn't help but notice how what had happened to her had jaded her, it made her afraid of certain people. Lorelai remembered how when she and Rory used to argue, how Rory would actually argue back. How, Rory would raise her voice as well and stand up for her point of view and debate it. But when Lorelai had yelled at her earlier, Rory sheepishly backed down and retreated to her room. Lorelai continued listening until Rory was finished.
"I'm glad you left him. And I'm sorry for not noticing it earlier…" Lorelai said in an apologetic voice.
"You couldn't have Mom, trust me I did everything in my power to hide it."
"So… this is good. I'm glad were, you know, talking again." Lorelai said, smiling at her daughter.
Rory looked at how happy her Mom was, simply because she was opening up to her. "I am to Mom. I really am."
Lorelai realized they had been sitting there in the driveway the whole time they were talking and quickly threw the car into reverse, backing out of the driveway and onto the road.
"Alright kiddo! Road trip time!" Lorelai said throwing the car back into drive and almost peeling out.
"Yay!!" Rory exclaimed, then thought a minute, "Hey where are we going anyways?"
"Oh honey its great, I rented out this little cabin up by Rye's Creek and its so beautiful. Your going to love it!"
"Alright crazy woman, whatever you say." Rory teased.
"Hey! That's no way to talk to your mother."
Rory and Lorelai continued there banter, and Rory decided in her head that she hadn't laughed that much in a long time. Finally, things were getting back to normal. Her and her Mom and best friends again, Brad got one hell of an ass kicking, and her and Jess were together.
'Oh no,' Rory thought, 'Jess! I got to tell Mom about Jess…'
A/N - End of story… for now J Ok, someone (ILoveJess to be specific…) had said that they read a story similar to this early on and asked if it was mine. Yes - it was. It was called It Can Happen To Anyone and after having a few people proofread read it, I found out that making Jess the abuser was not only extremely out of character, but not a big crowd pleaser as well. Anywho - this might be the last chapter for a little while because I have A LOT of school work to do. Please R&R!!! Thank!
Lorelai and Rory looked at each other, almost completely in shock after what just happened.
"Didn't see that one coming…" Lorelai said, breaking the silence.
"Yea…" Rory sighed, seeming pre-occupied with other thoughts. Lorelai made her way to the drivers seat and Rory got back into the passengers side, buckling her selt belt as Lorelai started the car.
"So, are you gonna be Ok kiddo? That couldn't have been the best thing in the world for you to watch right now…"
"I'm fine." Rory quickly replied.
There was a pause. It was obvious Rory didn't want to talk about it, but it was just as obvious that Lorelai was dying to know what was going on inside Rory's head, what she was thinking, what made her love Brad when she had someone like Dean, and what made her go back to Brad after he first had hit her.
"Ror, I don't mean to push but… what did you see in him that made you keep going back after the first time he… you know?"
"After the first time he hit me? You can say it Mom, I don't mind."
"Ok, after the first time he… hit you, what made you go back?"
"Mom did you ever love Dad?"
"Of course I did honey, I still do." Lorelai said, unsure of why Rory had asked her that question.
"Well, I loved Brad. I'd do anything for him and he would do anything for me. After the first time I just figured 'hey, it happens' and tried to downplay the seriousness of the situation. I figured since he loved me, he'd figure out his mistake and it would never happen again. When it did - that's when I knew it probably wasn't going to stop."
Rory paused and took in a deep breath. She hadn't had a conversation like this with her Mom in such a long time, it felt so good to be talking with her again. Hell, it felt good to be talking about it at all. She held it in for so long. Sure, everyone knew what happened and how and why but she never really got to express exactly how she felt and why she felt that way. But she was doing it now, and it felt good. She took another breath, relaxed a little, and continued.
"I've heard stories, I'm not a helpless victim like everyone thinks I am. I know that its not something that goes away, and that its not something that can be very easily fixed. But I didn't want to stay with him and end up a battered housewife. I knew that's the road id be headed down if I had stayed with him, like I said, I'm not completely the victim here. Its partially my fault that he hit me again anyway…"
"Rory don't even say that! Its never your fault, it never was and it never will be."
"Well I don't mean I deserved it, but I knew in my head it was going to happen again. I just blocked it out and was to afraid to see it. I should have broken up with him after the first time but I didn't. And then we went so long without any problems that I figured hey, maybe it was an accident. But then when it happened again I knew it was over. I knew the relationship had nothing left."
Lorelai looked at her daughter while she was explaining why she stayed with Brad. She couldn't help but notice how much her little girl had grown up to become a woman. She also couldn't help but notice how what had happened to her had jaded her, it made her afraid of certain people. Lorelai remembered how when she and Rory used to argue, how Rory would actually argue back. How, Rory would raise her voice as well and stand up for her point of view and debate it. But when Lorelai had yelled at her earlier, Rory sheepishly backed down and retreated to her room. Lorelai continued listening until Rory was finished.
"I'm glad you left him. And I'm sorry for not noticing it earlier…" Lorelai said in an apologetic voice.
"You couldn't have Mom, trust me I did everything in my power to hide it."
"So… this is good. I'm glad were, you know, talking again." Lorelai said, smiling at her daughter.
Rory looked at how happy her Mom was, simply because she was opening up to her. "I am to Mom. I really am."
Lorelai realized they had been sitting there in the driveway the whole time they were talking and quickly threw the car into reverse, backing out of the driveway and onto the road.
"Alright kiddo! Road trip time!" Lorelai said throwing the car back into drive and almost peeling out.
"Yay!!" Rory exclaimed, then thought a minute, "Hey where are we going anyways?"
"Oh honey its great, I rented out this little cabin up by Rye's Creek and its so beautiful. Your going to love it!"
"Alright crazy woman, whatever you say." Rory teased.
"Hey! That's no way to talk to your mother."
Rory and Lorelai continued there banter, and Rory decided in her head that she hadn't laughed that much in a long time. Finally, things were getting back to normal. Her and her Mom and best friends again, Brad got one hell of an ass kicking, and her and Jess were together.
'Oh no,' Rory thought, 'Jess! I got to tell Mom about Jess…'
A/N - End of story… for now J Ok, someone (ILoveJess to be specific…) had said that they read a story similar to this early on and asked if it was mine. Yes - it was. It was called It Can Happen To Anyone and after having a few people proofread read it, I found out that making Jess the abuser was not only extremely out of character, but not a big crowd pleaser as well. Anywho - this might be the last chapter for a little while because I have A LOT of school work to do. Please R&R!!! Thank!