A/N - This chapter is going to be a little different, Im going to tell it through Lorelai and Rory's points of view (but mostly Lorelai), tell me if you like it and I might do it again sometime. But please tell me also if you don't because I don't want to ruin the reading experience for you - thanks! P.S. - Rory isn't in a coma, just in a deep unconscious state, but they say unconscious people might be able to hear you. That's what I'm playing off of.
Why Me? - 17
Rory.
I wanted to talk to her, to straighten things out, to tell her she means everything to me and how sorry I am that I treated her so badly while I was trying to figure things out, but I cant now. Because now, I'm laying here, in a hospital, with a tube down my throat and I cant say a damn thing. But I can hear. I can hear everything she's telling me. I can also hear the doctors saying they aren't sure when I'm going to wake up. I want to cry and I want to scream and I want to hug her but I cant. This is my fault anyway, I shouldn't have brought up the whole sex issue to begin with. I should have respected her space and waited for her to approach me about it. I guess there isn't anything I can do about it now. This is horrible, I just wish I could say something, anything, to make her understand that I'm going to be Ok. She's crying again, I hate it when she cries. But I'm glad she's ok. The doctors said that she was lucky, she was barely hurt because she was on the drivers side but since the car hit the passengers side, my side, it was 'inevitable that I would be severely hurt.'……
Lorelai.
I just wonder why It couldn't have been me. I would do anything right now to change places with her, anything in the world. Maybe if we had left when we were supposed to, and not early like we did? Leaving Monday morning seemed like a bad idea, and Sunday night just seemed better. How could this have happened? All she wanted to do was talk to me and I bitched and moaned and complained instead of just being grateful. I haven't left her side in the 14 hours we've been here, but I really want to call Luke. I don't know why, I mean, I could call my Mom or Sookie but… I really want Luke right now. And Jess, he's going to flip. The poor kid, he still thinks I hate him probably. First I need to stop crying, she's going to wake up, I'm positive, so crying isn't going to help out anyone. Ok… I really need to make some calls now.
"Rory baby," I say, "I'm going to go and call Grandma and Luke and Jess and all those people, ok? I love you baby, I'll be right back…I love you." I kiss her on her cheek and get up, letting go of her hand, but I cant move my feet. I don't want to walk away from her, what if she wakes up? What if she says something, and I'm not here to hear it? God this is hard. Dammit I'm crying again. I grab her hand and sit back down, I cant go anywhere. But I want to. I cant stand sitting here, seeing her with tubes down her throat and needles in her arms. I need to call all of them though, they must be worried by now. I slowly let go of her hand and quickly get up and walk away…..
Rory.
Finally, she's going to call people. I want Jess so badly. I mean, I love my Mom and I'm so happy she is here but I want to hear his voice. I don't want him to cry, I'm tired of all the tears. Its only been 14 hours, I could wake up at anytime. I'm going to wake up, I have to. I'm alone for the first time now, it's a little scary. What if I don't wake up? What if this is it for me? I never got a chance to say goodbye to anyone, to Mom, to Jess, to my grandparents… I haven't talked to Dad in ages. I always saw his name on the Caller ID but I never picked up I just, ignored it. Now I might never have to chance to pick up. Or say goodbye, or anything……
Lorelai.
Ok, I should call Mom first because she's going to freak if I don't.
"Excuse me, ma'am?" I say to the nurse, she looks at me with a 'what the hell do you want' face but I guess she sees I've been crying, or something because she changes it to a sympathy face.
"Yes? Can I help you with something?"
"Yea, I um, need a phone or a pay phone or something. Is there any around here?" Wow, I sound horrible.
"Of course, follow me."
We walk down the hallway and I wonder what Im going to say everyone. 'Well, we were talking about how she's having sex with her boyfriend of 3 days and then a car hit us,' just didn't sound to appropriate. I guess I can leave the whole sex part out. I wonder what happened to the other car though, probably nothing. That's the way it always is, the person causing the accident never gets hurt. Ok, that's not true but if he was drunk or something then that's usually what happens. I wish I could remember something from the accident. Anything would help, but, all I remember is waking up and finding out once I was Ok rushing to Rory's room. Rory, my poor baby……
"Ma'am, here's a phone. Take your time." I smile at her and pick up the phone. Here it goes.
"Mom? … Yea its me. … I need to tell you something. …. No, Rory and I were in an accident. …. Mom calm down, I'm fine. …. She's not. …. She hasn't woken up since the accident."
She's crying. I hate hearing her cry, but I knew she was going to. If I knew then why does it bother me so much?
"I'm still here Mom. …. Were at Rye Hospital, you can come down if you want. …. Ok I guess I'll see you in a little while then. …. I love you to. …. Bye."
This was harder than I thought it would be. Luke's turn. I pick up the phone and dial but I have no idea what to say. God why isn't he answering his phone? I guess Ill try his cell… he never answers that damn thing. I replay things I can say over and over again but once he picks up, my mind goes blank.
"Hello?"
"Luke…"
"Lorelai! Where have you been I called your cell phone a million times, Rory's to!"
"Luke I have something to tell you."
"Wait, Lorelai, I have to tell you something its really, really important."
"Luke you don't understand, Rory was…"
"Jess was in an accident."
"What!?" There was no way, this couldn't be happening. Jess couldn't have been in an accident, this has all got to be a dream.
"He was on his way to visit you guys, then he said he was changing his CD's in his CD player and wasn't paying attention, he hit the side of some SUV or something. That's all he can remember, he says. But he's awake and he's gonna be Ok - you need to tell Rory. That's all he's been asking about is Rory and if she knows and when she's getting home. He's got a concussion and broke his wrist but that's about it, he should be fine but they are gonna keep him overnight for observation. "
"Luke, Rory and I were in an accident to."
"What!? Jesus Christ are you guys ok? What happened?? When??"
"I'm fine but, Rory… she hasn't woken up since the accident. I don't know when or if she's going to wake up. It was about, maybe 14 hours ago? Some guy ran a stop light and hit our Jeep on Rory's side…" I stop talking, and start crying. I cant think. My mind is going a million miles an hour and nothing seems to be making any sense. Why is all this happening?
"Lorelai…" He barely said my name, "Jess got in an accident almost 14 hours ago…"
Oh my God. It was Jess. Jess hit us.
A/N - Another short one, hopefully a good plot twist I hope you all like it. Please tell me what you think.
Why Me? - 17
Rory.
I wanted to talk to her, to straighten things out, to tell her she means everything to me and how sorry I am that I treated her so badly while I was trying to figure things out, but I cant now. Because now, I'm laying here, in a hospital, with a tube down my throat and I cant say a damn thing. But I can hear. I can hear everything she's telling me. I can also hear the doctors saying they aren't sure when I'm going to wake up. I want to cry and I want to scream and I want to hug her but I cant. This is my fault anyway, I shouldn't have brought up the whole sex issue to begin with. I should have respected her space and waited for her to approach me about it. I guess there isn't anything I can do about it now. This is horrible, I just wish I could say something, anything, to make her understand that I'm going to be Ok. She's crying again, I hate it when she cries. But I'm glad she's ok. The doctors said that she was lucky, she was barely hurt because she was on the drivers side but since the car hit the passengers side, my side, it was 'inevitable that I would be severely hurt.'……
Lorelai.
I just wonder why It couldn't have been me. I would do anything right now to change places with her, anything in the world. Maybe if we had left when we were supposed to, and not early like we did? Leaving Monday morning seemed like a bad idea, and Sunday night just seemed better. How could this have happened? All she wanted to do was talk to me and I bitched and moaned and complained instead of just being grateful. I haven't left her side in the 14 hours we've been here, but I really want to call Luke. I don't know why, I mean, I could call my Mom or Sookie but… I really want Luke right now. And Jess, he's going to flip. The poor kid, he still thinks I hate him probably. First I need to stop crying, she's going to wake up, I'm positive, so crying isn't going to help out anyone. Ok… I really need to make some calls now.
"Rory baby," I say, "I'm going to go and call Grandma and Luke and Jess and all those people, ok? I love you baby, I'll be right back…I love you." I kiss her on her cheek and get up, letting go of her hand, but I cant move my feet. I don't want to walk away from her, what if she wakes up? What if she says something, and I'm not here to hear it? God this is hard. Dammit I'm crying again. I grab her hand and sit back down, I cant go anywhere. But I want to. I cant stand sitting here, seeing her with tubes down her throat and needles in her arms. I need to call all of them though, they must be worried by now. I slowly let go of her hand and quickly get up and walk away…..
Rory.
Finally, she's going to call people. I want Jess so badly. I mean, I love my Mom and I'm so happy she is here but I want to hear his voice. I don't want him to cry, I'm tired of all the tears. Its only been 14 hours, I could wake up at anytime. I'm going to wake up, I have to. I'm alone for the first time now, it's a little scary. What if I don't wake up? What if this is it for me? I never got a chance to say goodbye to anyone, to Mom, to Jess, to my grandparents… I haven't talked to Dad in ages. I always saw his name on the Caller ID but I never picked up I just, ignored it. Now I might never have to chance to pick up. Or say goodbye, or anything……
Lorelai.
Ok, I should call Mom first because she's going to freak if I don't.
"Excuse me, ma'am?" I say to the nurse, she looks at me with a 'what the hell do you want' face but I guess she sees I've been crying, or something because she changes it to a sympathy face.
"Yes? Can I help you with something?"
"Yea, I um, need a phone or a pay phone or something. Is there any around here?" Wow, I sound horrible.
"Of course, follow me."
We walk down the hallway and I wonder what Im going to say everyone. 'Well, we were talking about how she's having sex with her boyfriend of 3 days and then a car hit us,' just didn't sound to appropriate. I guess I can leave the whole sex part out. I wonder what happened to the other car though, probably nothing. That's the way it always is, the person causing the accident never gets hurt. Ok, that's not true but if he was drunk or something then that's usually what happens. I wish I could remember something from the accident. Anything would help, but, all I remember is waking up and finding out once I was Ok rushing to Rory's room. Rory, my poor baby……
"Ma'am, here's a phone. Take your time." I smile at her and pick up the phone. Here it goes.
"Mom? … Yea its me. … I need to tell you something. …. No, Rory and I were in an accident. …. Mom calm down, I'm fine. …. She's not. …. She hasn't woken up since the accident."
She's crying. I hate hearing her cry, but I knew she was going to. If I knew then why does it bother me so much?
"I'm still here Mom. …. Were at Rye Hospital, you can come down if you want. …. Ok I guess I'll see you in a little while then. …. I love you to. …. Bye."
This was harder than I thought it would be. Luke's turn. I pick up the phone and dial but I have no idea what to say. God why isn't he answering his phone? I guess Ill try his cell… he never answers that damn thing. I replay things I can say over and over again but once he picks up, my mind goes blank.
"Hello?"
"Luke…"
"Lorelai! Where have you been I called your cell phone a million times, Rory's to!"
"Luke I have something to tell you."
"Wait, Lorelai, I have to tell you something its really, really important."
"Luke you don't understand, Rory was…"
"Jess was in an accident."
"What!?" There was no way, this couldn't be happening. Jess couldn't have been in an accident, this has all got to be a dream.
"He was on his way to visit you guys, then he said he was changing his CD's in his CD player and wasn't paying attention, he hit the side of some SUV or something. That's all he can remember, he says. But he's awake and he's gonna be Ok - you need to tell Rory. That's all he's been asking about is Rory and if she knows and when she's getting home. He's got a concussion and broke his wrist but that's about it, he should be fine but they are gonna keep him overnight for observation. "
"Luke, Rory and I were in an accident to."
"What!? Jesus Christ are you guys ok? What happened?? When??"
"I'm fine but, Rory… she hasn't woken up since the accident. I don't know when or if she's going to wake up. It was about, maybe 14 hours ago? Some guy ran a stop light and hit our Jeep on Rory's side…" I stop talking, and start crying. I cant think. My mind is going a million miles an hour and nothing seems to be making any sense. Why is all this happening?
"Lorelai…" He barely said my name, "Jess got in an accident almost 14 hours ago…"
Oh my God. It was Jess. Jess hit us.
A/N - Another short one, hopefully a good plot twist I hope you all like it. Please tell me what you think.