Why Me? - 21
"Tell Me You Felt That"
Disclaimer: I don't own, or make money from, this fan-fic and Gilmore Girls belongs to Amy. (Yes, we are on a first name basis :-p)
***Previously, in Why Me?: Rory has a boyfriend who abuses her. She breaks up with him, but the long lasting affects on Rory are to much for Lorelai to handle. Meanwhile, Rory and Jess become much closer, seeing as though he is the only one who she feels she can talk to. Lorelai decides to take Rory on a road trip to try and 'get things back the way they were.' Rory doesn't have a say in the matter, but invites Jess over late that night to say goodbye. They end up having sex (not as corny/bad as it sounds) and the next day Lorelai and Rory leave. Rory tells Lorelai, who freaks. The subject is avoided the whole time they are away until the ride home, when Rory begs her Mom to talk to her about it. Finally, when Lorelai agrees, there's an accident. The twist being that Jess is the one who hit them, since he came to visit the night before they left, and they left a night early. Lorelai and Jess are Ok, but Rory is in an unconscious state, and is intubated (having a machine breathing for her). Jess is taken to the same hospital, as Lorelai and Rory. Later, Rory wakes up and has the tube removed from her throat, but the first words out of her mouth are "Where Am I?" This is after Lorelai is told that Rory might suffer from possible long or short term memory loss. Lorelai tells her where she is, and Rory recognizes her almost immediately. As well as Luke, but she cannot seem to recognize Jess. Before they have a chance to talk about it, Emily and Christopher barge in and steal Rory's attention away from Jess. He leaves hurt.***
I thought it was about time for one of those recaps. On to the story!
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Jess was lying comfortably on the bridge in the bright sunshine of a Saturday afternoon. His hands were behind his head, and one leg was crossed over the other. His eyes were closed, and his breathing only slightly noticeable when his chest slowly moved up and down. He had been there a lot lately, since the accident. It was the only place he could go where he wasn't getting all the awkward stares from Stars Hollow's residents, wondering what he must feel like now that Rory couldn't remember him, and wondering how he could live with himself knowing that he caused it all. It was still hard for him, and he wasn't sure there would ever be a time where it wouldn't be hard for him. Jess heard footsteps and slightly opened one eye, turning his head to see who was coming over.
"Hey," she said, but it was an awful hey. It was the kind of hey she used to greet strangers. He quickly got up and faced Rory.
"Uh, hey," he said awkwardly, putting his hands in his pockets and somewhat avoiding eye contact.
"You come to this bridge a lot?" She innocently asked. He looked at her as though she just asked possibly the most stupid question in the world, and then he remembered, she didn't know him.
"Yea… so do you." He stated matter-of-factly.
"Oh, I didn't think anyone else would be here…" she started.
"Its fine, I was just about to go anyway." Jess interrupted, he started to walk away and Rory just watched him until he got to the beginning of the bridge.
"Wait," she yelled towards him, "will you stay with me?" Jess paused in his tracks and tried to digest what he just heard. His first instinct was to turn around immediately and go back. But then again, being with her hurt to much. She couldn't remember him, and he loved her. It was hard to be near her without wanting to hold her, kiss her, touch her face. Jess turned around and faced Rory, who had a pleading look on her face. He began to slowly walk back and took his hands out of his pockets.
"Thanks." She whispered. They both sat down and their feet dangled over the edge, Rory kicking hers back and fourth while Jess's stayed motionless.
"So…" she started, "we were dating?"
"Yea." Jess quickly replied.
"Oh…"
There was a pause and they didn't say anything to each other in what seemed like forever. He looked at her face, and then remembered what the doctor had said. About, how, bringing up things of the past might help her to remember anything she forgot.
"So, how much as your Mom told you about everything?" He asked, wondering if Lorelai had filled in Rory about the relationship between her and Jess.
"Nothing really, I mean, if it was about you she'd always tell me to ask you about it. And I guess besides that there wasn't anything really to know about… right?" She looked at him and this time he couldn't avoid her gaze. 'Wasn't anything really to know about?' he thought, 'what about me, about Brad, about everything!' He held his tongue and decided it would be best not to bring up Brad, Lorelai could tackle that one. He did, however, want to tell her everything he possibly could about there relationship.
"Uh, right…" he stuttered, "nothing else really."
Rory nodded her head and looked at the water again. "Jess, I…" Rory started but was never able to finish. Jess grabbed her face and pulled her into a deep, passionate kiss. At first, her instincts told her to pull away and wonder what the hell this stranger was doing kissing her. But she couldn't, not that it was physically impossible but, she didn't want to, something held her there. He slowly pulled away, her face still in his hands.
"Tell me you felt that." He whispered.
She took in a deep breath, and sighed, not being able to believe what just happened. "I did." She whispered back.
"That's why we were together," He dropped his hands to his sides and faced the water again, "there's always been something between us that I couldn't explain. When I first got here, nobody gave me half a chance but you. Not Luke, not even your Mom. But you did, and I had a crush on you ever since day one. We only started going out last week, but it was great Rory. You were great, I was happy, I mean we had everything going for us. Then I screwed it up." Jess's voice began to trail off and Rory quickly stepped in.
"No you didn't Jess. You didn't screw it up, what happened wasn't your fault. You didn't know you were going to hit us, you didn't know this was going to happen." She took hold of his hand and entwined her fingers with his.
"We can start over Jess, I want to try to get things as back to normal as possible. Maybe after a little while I'll start remembering?"
Jess nodded and squeezed her hand.
"You wanna go for a walk or something? Maybe If I show you around it'll help you to remember?"
Rory smiled and they both got up.
"Yea," she said, "Id like that."
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A/N - I'm soooooo sorry about the delay and the REALLY short chapter! I haven't had much time lately with it being towards the end of school and exams and all. But I really will try harder, and please send in those reviews because they keep me nice and motivated. Thanks!
"Tell Me You Felt That"
Disclaimer: I don't own, or make money from, this fan-fic and Gilmore Girls belongs to Amy. (Yes, we are on a first name basis :-p)
***Previously, in Why Me?: Rory has a boyfriend who abuses her. She breaks up with him, but the long lasting affects on Rory are to much for Lorelai to handle. Meanwhile, Rory and Jess become much closer, seeing as though he is the only one who she feels she can talk to. Lorelai decides to take Rory on a road trip to try and 'get things back the way they were.' Rory doesn't have a say in the matter, but invites Jess over late that night to say goodbye. They end up having sex (not as corny/bad as it sounds) and the next day Lorelai and Rory leave. Rory tells Lorelai, who freaks. The subject is avoided the whole time they are away until the ride home, when Rory begs her Mom to talk to her about it. Finally, when Lorelai agrees, there's an accident. The twist being that Jess is the one who hit them, since he came to visit the night before they left, and they left a night early. Lorelai and Jess are Ok, but Rory is in an unconscious state, and is intubated (having a machine breathing for her). Jess is taken to the same hospital, as Lorelai and Rory. Later, Rory wakes up and has the tube removed from her throat, but the first words out of her mouth are "Where Am I?" This is after Lorelai is told that Rory might suffer from possible long or short term memory loss. Lorelai tells her where she is, and Rory recognizes her almost immediately. As well as Luke, but she cannot seem to recognize Jess. Before they have a chance to talk about it, Emily and Christopher barge in and steal Rory's attention away from Jess. He leaves hurt.***
I thought it was about time for one of those recaps. On to the story!
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Jess was lying comfortably on the bridge in the bright sunshine of a Saturday afternoon. His hands were behind his head, and one leg was crossed over the other. His eyes were closed, and his breathing only slightly noticeable when his chest slowly moved up and down. He had been there a lot lately, since the accident. It was the only place he could go where he wasn't getting all the awkward stares from Stars Hollow's residents, wondering what he must feel like now that Rory couldn't remember him, and wondering how he could live with himself knowing that he caused it all. It was still hard for him, and he wasn't sure there would ever be a time where it wouldn't be hard for him. Jess heard footsteps and slightly opened one eye, turning his head to see who was coming over.
"Hey," she said, but it was an awful hey. It was the kind of hey she used to greet strangers. He quickly got up and faced Rory.
"Uh, hey," he said awkwardly, putting his hands in his pockets and somewhat avoiding eye contact.
"You come to this bridge a lot?" She innocently asked. He looked at her as though she just asked possibly the most stupid question in the world, and then he remembered, she didn't know him.
"Yea… so do you." He stated matter-of-factly.
"Oh, I didn't think anyone else would be here…" she started.
"Its fine, I was just about to go anyway." Jess interrupted, he started to walk away and Rory just watched him until he got to the beginning of the bridge.
"Wait," she yelled towards him, "will you stay with me?" Jess paused in his tracks and tried to digest what he just heard. His first instinct was to turn around immediately and go back. But then again, being with her hurt to much. She couldn't remember him, and he loved her. It was hard to be near her without wanting to hold her, kiss her, touch her face. Jess turned around and faced Rory, who had a pleading look on her face. He began to slowly walk back and took his hands out of his pockets.
"Thanks." She whispered. They both sat down and their feet dangled over the edge, Rory kicking hers back and fourth while Jess's stayed motionless.
"So…" she started, "we were dating?"
"Yea." Jess quickly replied.
"Oh…"
There was a pause and they didn't say anything to each other in what seemed like forever. He looked at her face, and then remembered what the doctor had said. About, how, bringing up things of the past might help her to remember anything she forgot.
"So, how much as your Mom told you about everything?" He asked, wondering if Lorelai had filled in Rory about the relationship between her and Jess.
"Nothing really, I mean, if it was about you she'd always tell me to ask you about it. And I guess besides that there wasn't anything really to know about… right?" She looked at him and this time he couldn't avoid her gaze. 'Wasn't anything really to know about?' he thought, 'what about me, about Brad, about everything!' He held his tongue and decided it would be best not to bring up Brad, Lorelai could tackle that one. He did, however, want to tell her everything he possibly could about there relationship.
"Uh, right…" he stuttered, "nothing else really."
Rory nodded her head and looked at the water again. "Jess, I…" Rory started but was never able to finish. Jess grabbed her face and pulled her into a deep, passionate kiss. At first, her instincts told her to pull away and wonder what the hell this stranger was doing kissing her. But she couldn't, not that it was physically impossible but, she didn't want to, something held her there. He slowly pulled away, her face still in his hands.
"Tell me you felt that." He whispered.
She took in a deep breath, and sighed, not being able to believe what just happened. "I did." She whispered back.
"That's why we were together," He dropped his hands to his sides and faced the water again, "there's always been something between us that I couldn't explain. When I first got here, nobody gave me half a chance but you. Not Luke, not even your Mom. But you did, and I had a crush on you ever since day one. We only started going out last week, but it was great Rory. You were great, I was happy, I mean we had everything going for us. Then I screwed it up." Jess's voice began to trail off and Rory quickly stepped in.
"No you didn't Jess. You didn't screw it up, what happened wasn't your fault. You didn't know you were going to hit us, you didn't know this was going to happen." She took hold of his hand and entwined her fingers with his.
"We can start over Jess, I want to try to get things as back to normal as possible. Maybe after a little while I'll start remembering?"
Jess nodded and squeezed her hand.
"You wanna go for a walk or something? Maybe If I show you around it'll help you to remember?"
Rory smiled and they both got up.
"Yea," she said, "Id like that."
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A/N - I'm soooooo sorry about the delay and the REALLY short chapter! I haven't had much time lately with it being towards the end of school and exams and all. But I really will try harder, and please send in those reviews because they keep me nice and motivated. Thanks!